Gebofal, Day 27

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of PAZ. Call to King Baligon.

I relax and concentrate on the lotus-rose. The angels note that this is an incremental step as I approach the event horizon of the portal to the world of Adam Qadmon, which appears to me as a black hole.

Continuing to concentrate on the lotus-rose, the angels show it becoming circular, like an ouroboros, spinning around. “This is how the the flower emerged from your heart, is it not?” the angels ask. I agree, in the sense that the stem of flower emerged from the blossom of the preceding flower, repeatedly. The angels say that there will be this circulation within the lotus-rose itself. There will be suffering leading to transcendence, which will lead to suffering and then further transcendence.

Yet the suffering itself, they’re saying, is something that can be relatively avoided in the mundane realm just by continuously giving yourself “oomph” to follow rules and behave appropriately such that suffering can be transcended (such as seen in the symbolism of the white cube). I note difficulty concentrating, but the angels remind me to simply focus on this lotus-rose of my heart, and the distraction will go away.

I see this lotus-rose now being like unto a torus, simplifying now into a jewel about the lotus-rose (note the parallel to the famous Buddhist mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum). The angels say that once you get this, that it’s all sort of “one thing…you’ve been making this distinction between the thorny stem and the blossom. But it is One Thing: it is a Beautiful, sometimes Wonderful, sometimes Heart-Aching sort of thing, and the Heart Aching indicates the Heart, and that It is Alive.” So the Heart Aching as such is–and here I recall the death of my late mother-in-law–the Heart Aching is…and I’m trying to come to terms with something really big here.

“The Heart Aching,” the angels are saying, “is the Condition of the Heart. Though the armor about it is Empty, this pain is normal, this pain is okay. And the condition of Reality leading up to the heart being like This, is okay. And all of this can be concentrated into this Divine Bloom of the flower itself, the Okayness of It All, the Divinity of It All, and the Transcendent Nature that allows it to happen such as This. All of it is okay, all of it can be concentrated.”

So even though it seems as if “the Jewel is in the Heart of the Lotus,” truly, the jewel itself is the lotus, is what the angels are saying, and it’s part of Understanding the depth of Adam Qadmon, which is a journey you shall take and fulfill and complete. That is the Beauty of the Journey. So that’s it: the angels note that I’m a little bit closer in my orbit to the portal; this Realm is a little big closer. All of this is the sphere [spherical consciousness], the angels are just keeping me a little bit off, keeping me at bay. They really want everything to attune, so this is something that I need to reflect on. I thank the angels, and they have nothing further.

Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure. I called on King Baligon twice.

I concentrate on the lotus-rose as an Ouroboros, as well as a jewel, as described in the previous Aethyr. I steady myself.

I see two square pyramids, connected by a tube, and all of them appear to be be made out of dough; the tube is already tied into a knot. “Consider the force which ties this knot. This is the force of Ain, and the duality, you’ve seen this already, when you scried your own rainbow body using the call of the Aethyrs.” This knot, they say, can be considered like unto sphericity (of LIL), or the double-sphere arising out of the torus.

“Yet, there’s something nice and squishy about this, isn’t there? So that only if you were rather skilled could you even see that this was caused by a single force which created the illusion of duality, then united it, and then unfolded it throughout separate sephiroth.” So I’m wondering about the nature of these two pyramid-like, or tetrahedron-like (and here they tell me that they are tetrahedra). Here we have, once again, an ogdoad (two tetrahedra times four faces per tetrahedron), becoming an ennead (via the connecting tube), which perhaps could be considered a decad (due to the new shape created by the knot). So you have this reflection of the ten sephiroth, even in the world of Adam Qadmon.

I’m curious as to what this means. If everything is squishy, there’s an infinity with this. I try hard to understand this deeply. I let my heart work on this problem. The angels say, “Note that what you’re seeing as an ouroboros: this is the same kind of thing. It’s a symbol of continuity, much like a Möbius strip, or a Klein bottle (which may be a better explanation). It’s this twisting about itself. The reason you’re seeing it as seemingly separate forces is because you’ve already seen it as such (when I scried my rainbow body previously, I saw two jewels which mirrored each other), but also,” and here they bid me pause for a moment, “Think about this. This is three dimensions about three dimensions, coming upon itself. This is like unto the present state/earth on the left, the goal state/heaven on the right, and the transformation in the middle, so time is locked in as well. But it’s all one thing.

“It’s all one thing, and it’s a multiplicity of things.” And I feel like I’m very close to grokking this and they chuckle, “not just yet, but this is very important. This is a very potent symbol for you, because you’re very excited by this, and you want to know what it is, and that’s okay. That’s good.”

I take a look at the symbol, and I see it extending down, and now it seems like a bunch of pencils tied together with a rubber band in the middle, the other end of which is dangling from the ceiling. This point at which the rubber band meets the ceiling is the portal into the world of Adam Qadmon. “If you just take this heart of compassion and aim it directly at this symbol, you’ll see that this is the same thing. On the one hand if you twist it together, it’s the jewel, on the other hand if you were to take it apart, you could see one end being like unto the thorny end of the lotus-rose, and the other end like unto the bloom thereof. It’s all the same thing: all is one, all is one, all is one.”

The angels leave me with all of this to contemplate. I ask whether there’s anything else, and the angels bid me pause and to consider this dough-symbol floating in water–not dissolving, just floating.

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m feeling fairly high right now. The angels tell me to relax and to speed up the entire process going from the previous symbolism to the lotus-rose to the jewel. I feel the gem now in its fullness; at first it seems to have an amber or reddish-orange tinge, but now I see green flashing in it, and the angels suggest that I add indigo and blues, and I see now: the jewel is a rainbow jewel. The angels remind me that the lights can come from the realm of Adam Qadmon in their fullness, but that they can be seen in Chokmah, and indeed, this is the final Aethyr of this sephirah. At its most developed they shine through to me now, they say. One need not have completely entered the realm of Adam Qadmon to see them this way, but having an opening into it is important in order to shine in your fullness (suggestive of a complete opening into Chokmah and a necessary step to develop the rainbow body).

Now I’m feeling a lot of energy coming off of the leaf, and it’s trying to tell me something, so I listen. I feel my crown chakra being pulled upward, an uncharacteristically strong energetic feeling for this Aethyr. It’s like this is the initiation, the re-initiation into Kether (the angels remind me that a prior sigil of mine with the intent of “I reinitiate into Kether” was, in fact, still active). The angels say, “Be prepared, be ready, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! This be the final vision of Chokmah unto you. Know this: that the different elements and the different spacings [of (space-time) points], that one may find as one abideth in the realm of Adam Qadmon: these can always shift and change! It is important to be fully immersed in the Understanding in order to be fully immersed in the Wisdom.

“Behold, this vision (from noon, of the dough shape), which you have seen in its tetrahedral format: this steeping of it in the water can be considered like unto the fullness of Ain and Ain Soph. For within the Ain is the Ain Soph, and that fullness containeth within it the Infinite Light, which you see before you, twisted into this shape, twisted into this Present-Future state, which is always, always, always bound both by time, but, indeed, by the supernals as a whole. And so, know this, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: the richness of this symbol will continue to unfold itself to you. For now, it seemeth like dough: tomorrow it shall not seem quite so. It shall take on a greater significance and a new symbolic meaning. Rest now easy, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! No more can be said unto you directly, but all of these things shall be open unto you in the very few weeks left remaining.

“Much love upon thee: go now in peace. Serve the Lord.”

With this, the vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 26: The LIT Aethyr!

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIT and the associated governors and Zodiacal Kings. Call to King Bynepor.

I just pour forth this compassion of the lotus-rose, to all of the angels and everything about me, and in so doing I become this rotation, this torus, again. I’m approaching spherical consciousness, very close to it, almost there, even though I’m on the fifth Aethyr and four more remain. There’s a little bit of a shimmer on the surface of the sphere, a tiny ripple, going about this torus/sphere. As I do so, the angels acknowledge that if I increase my concentration perfectly, I could probably hit perfectly spherical consciousness from here.

The angels are showing me a tree, and the angels note that a torus could be superimposed around the trunk, under the branches, and above the roots, but also a sphere could be circumscribed about the tree as a whole. If you change the parameters of the torus to make a double-sphere, then the dimensions of a tree can roughly be matched. The angels have me consider the twisting motion of a torus (like if you twisted a rubber hose whose ends were connect, so that the inside turned out and the outside turned in), the constant rotation which relates to the varieties of fortune.

I relate this to Adam Qadmon again, unintentionally. The angels say that this is okay. “Your mind can’t help but do that.” That can be considered like unto this force, they say, of Adam Qadmon, which can be considered like unto the force of the black-hole portal (I repeat, I’m aware of the difference between a black hole and a wormhole–this is the realm of metaphor). This is the force of Ain, which has its own dynamic when it becomes realized.

Things may change up, especially below the Abyss, where it might seem more chaotic. Here, above the abyss, it’s just this gentle rotation. They relate this vision back to the aethyr of ICH, and say this is when a certain character from that computer code gets sucked in to the supernals ahead of what might seem to be its schedule. That’s all part of this multidimensional rotation of spherical consciousness due to the multiplex force of Ain. The outer portion of the entire torus can be considered the realm of ICH itself. Likewise, one could extrapolate to some degree the inside of the abyss, which is to say Fortune seeming to shine on an individual, which for some may cause things to seem to “go well”: the Abyss, or Fortune, works good for themselves.

Getting back to the Aethyr of LIT, I consider how this relates to the tree I just saw. The angels note how that inner ring, where things are “going well”–and here King Bynepor comes to the fore to speak–“This regeneration, this generation of the tree, is like Fortune, or the Lot of Fortune, or the Wheel of Fortune, or the Torus of Fortune, hitting that tree and bringing about the growth, and you see outgrowth of that fortune in the general shape of the torus,” twisting upward in one sense [i.e., upper trunk and branches] but downward in another sense [lower trunk and roots].

I try to maintain concentration, and use this lotus-rose from my heart to do so. “Ah,” the angels say, “let’s take a look at this lotus-rose. So here we have this combination of pain within suffering [the thorns], that black sphere, and we have the portion beyond the abyss, the nice layers of the whitish petals, which are the post-abyssal consciousness (supernals).

“Separate two things,” they say. “The rotation of the sphere is caused by this force of the world of Adam Qadmon, which is ‘World without End,’ which has multiple dynamics when they hit this reality.” But what the angels are saying now is, “Look to…” (here I note my difficulty concentrating), “look to…

“The dynamic of Adam Qadmon is that space, right?” I try to remagnetize my heart, and that helps. The angels show that if you remagnetize to this space, you can consider that to be the general forward linear path toward the portal into this realm of Adam Qadmon. I vibrate the angels’ names, and they say to hold for a moment, and to relax.

“This forward path of the infinite line of Adam Qadmon–this forward path, this constant path, this walking of this path, this traversing of the path: this is one who has become magnetized to the line approaching Adam Qadmon. When one is in spherical consciousness, one remains about–revolving about the world of Adam Qadmon, in that consciousness, but it is not the line which enters it. One is caught up in the revolution of this spherical consciousness about Adam Qadmon, but in order to enter it, in order to realize the Enochian phrase which I’d previously translated, “CASASAM MAOFFAS QAA DE MIAM DE TON DAMPLOZ OLPIRT” (the abiding measureless garment [“created form”] of the continuance of all variety of light (i.e., the rainbow body))–in order to realize this, one has to be magnetized to the infinity. The angels clarify: there’s the bounded infinity of a spherical consciousness, and then there’s the unbounded infinity, which is the rainbow body, the boundless unfolding of that. A set of fixed stars can be considered an infinite direction that one goes, but in order to have compassion for all of those fixed stars, and thereby enter into a more infinite arrangement, one needs to take the path of the infinite line, and not merely the orbit of the (bounded) infinite sphere which orbits about the portal to the world of Adam Qadmon. You can have this infinite compassion, and continue upon it, but you won’t know the revolution about this infinite consciousness.

Complicated! But not overly so. The angels have set me straight, and I express my gratitude to them. Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure; I make two calls to King Bynepor and two to the Aethyr, just because I sense my attention wandering.

I concentrate my heart upon this lotus-rose and I try to remain magnetized to the path toward the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels are showing me the same sphere, with the smallest of ripples upon it, and I can see tiny rainbows about the surface (again, this seems like vast distances across Aethyrs are being bridged now; usually such forthright visions of the sphere do not occur until later in the process).

The angels relate the rainbow and ripples to the energy of being near the orbit of the portal to the realm of Adam Qadmon. This is a metaphorical Roche effect. In principle, the angels say, this rainbow lighting is Chokmah energy to a degree, but that tiny ripple is due to the (metaphorical) gravity of the realm of Adam Qadmon. It’s that the sphere is approaching this metaphorical Roche limit, and I feel my heart being pulled towards that portal, because I have been working to remain magnetized to this path.

I ask the angels what else, in their generosity or mercy they or the Almighty may have. They suggest nudging myself a little bit closer towards this portal, so that I can feel and be truly magnetized to this path towards the realm of Adam Qadmon. The angels say to take the next few days to approach and, on Monday, to actually enter the event horizon of this portal.

The following 18 days, I’m told, will be an attuning to the elements in such a way that one doesn’t become imbalanced as one reaches this realm of Adam Qadmon. Note here, again, the importance of balanced elements appears again, as at key phases in the magical journey: Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, Crossing the Abyss, and now full realization of the realm of Adam Qadmon.

I see myself being slowly pulled closer to this portal. The angels say to think about the absolute minimum distance and to hold there. After 18 days, I will be in that event horizon, and on the 19th day I’ll be crossing into this realm, fully balanced and aware of the powers at play, including states that can arise astrologically and elementally (which is to say, changing the relative distance of geometric points vis a vis Chokmah, using the elements–this is a deep metaphor about the heart). I’m also told that to some degree this can be done with time (Saturn).

I express my gratitude. The angels say that there’s nothing for this particular scrying, and thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure. Pain, depression, anxiety, about halfway between the prior scrying session and this one. Took anxiolytic.

The angels point out that I have kept the lotus-rose as a focus to magnetize me to the path to the portal into the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels advise that I stay on this path. “Don’t revert back, don’t deviate in any direction.”

The angels ask me to reflect on the rotation of the near-spherical consciousness which orbits this portal. They say that as long as I retain this spherical consciousness, that the rotation that I’m going won’t matter so much. Although today was a bit trying, they note, it’s an important reminder to continue to stay focused on this path, and on the world of Adam Qadmon. If I’m truly to make this transition, then I really shouldn’t be sidelined by events such as today’s. There will be other days that will be even more difficult, they comment. I take this to heart, and “in heart,” as it were. The angels say that the only way to get around the reality of daily difficulties is to work on the heart, and come from the heart, and to be pulled forward as by the heart.

At this point I realize that I haven’t called the zodiacal kings or the governors; the angels say that this is okay. I see some energy from the rotation of this sphere, coming as a result of proximity to this portal of Adam Qadmon. It’s a whirlwind (looking not unlike the effect of sling rings of Doctor Strange comics). Others are being drawn into this energy. It’s like I can’t help myself, I reply: I continue that motion. “That’s okay,” reply the angels. “That’s the circumference: you are tending to the circumference. Just ensure that your heart is aligned, dead center, to the portal, exactly to the path.”

I decide to vibrate the kings’ and governors’ names now. The angels say that this act was good, and that it heightened their power a bit, and to just always do so to just ensure that every part of the ritual includes calling from this path to the world of Adam Qadmon. Obviously, this is paramount to them now.

Now the angels explain that there’s only so much that they can show me without my getting pulled on this path in even more (i.e., to a later Aethyr before its time). They tell me to have my heart at ease: this is the right path. They bid me continue to stay focused: anything to do with the elements that they have to show me, if given early, will pull me into the event horizon of the portal into the realm of Adam Qadmon. Each part of this process needs to be taken slowly and deliberately. Even though these scrying sessions seem short, there’s a lot of karma being burned off, a lot of realignment, a lot of karma being played out. That allows me to continue directly forward, they advise. The angels tell me not to worry: my karma is being safeguarded right now, and to just not accrue new karma. These steps are causing it to be “burned off” or “played out,” so that I can go dead center into the portal without being imbalanced.

I express my gratitude to the angels, and ask if there’s anything else. “You can always take on the spherical consciousness” gained from my previous scrying sessions, they note, without actually invoking these higher Aethyrs, so if I wish to be more balanced, I may do that. “Just don’t try to leap ahead anymore” during the visions of the actual Aethyr scryings. They will actively block that.

With that, they close the vision, and I give my heartfelt thanks to the angels.

Gebofal, Day 25: Halfway there!

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of MAZ, call to King BNASPOL (twice). It is somewhat more difficult for me to concentrate in the morning, which is to be expected (sunrise today was 15 minutes after I woke up).

I try to greet everything with lovingkindness, the symbolism of which is compressed into this lotus-rose symbol. I’m definitely feeling the energy. I see the symbol of a circle and its center; I’m seeing it rotate in 3D space and blink into a 3D eyeball (a not uncommon symbol in these higher Aethyrs). I’m told to travel into the eyeball, which I do; I’m at the very center of the eyeball, the focus of the light (this is reminiscent of a previous vision of these higher Aethyrs). Once again, I looking around and I’m seeing the infinite light of Adam Qadmon. I’m told, “Yes, indeed, this is it.”

The light is coming straight through my heart. I look all about me and I’m seeing these varieties of possibilities floating upon the retina of the eye, and also the shadows of possibilities which will never be. I see myself merge with the vitreous humor of the eye. I’m becoming like unto it, and quiet. This is like unto Ayin / Ain. I look about me–nay, I swirl all about me within this eye. I hear, “I Am That I Am! I Am That I Am! I Am That I Am, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth!”

I feel myself distributed throughout the entire cosmos, now in the form of a man, of Adam Qadmon. It is beautiful, it is wonderful. “‘Wonderful’ be the word, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” “Be there anything else that one could become?” “Indeed, one could become any one thing,” saith the Lord, “but it is best to become all things, one and multiple.”

I am so grateful for this. I feel God taking my body and swaying it to the left and right, and now I’m swirling about the y/z plane, rotating and rotating, and I’m seeing these droplets come off of me–thousands, millions, even billions of droplets. These are all of the planets of life which exist out in the cosmos. My heart just pours out to all of them. And the lotus-rose appears in a few of these places, and God seems to wish to end the vision. And I cry out before he does so, “O God, what wonders you have wrought!”

“Indeed, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. Behold, PRONOA operates within you, and, yea, within those to come.”

With that, thus ends the vision. Wow.

Noon: Yesterday I had some unexpected scheduling come up, so I was over half an hour late getting this call started. Otherwise, a similar procedure. Also: we’re now at the halfway point: the middle ritual of the middle day!

The angels note that there’s some pressure that my body is under; they’re trying their best to relax me, and I try to also help by consciously relaxing. The angels are twisting my subtle body gently, and at this point I’m tempted to call to MAZ a second time to improve the transmission.

The angels bid me hold. I see two fingers on a hand walking upon a surface. It’s like it’s either the fingers of God or of Adam Qadmon; the angels say that the distinction doesn’t matter right now. I vibrate the angels’ names, but the vision does not change, so this is indeed what I’m supposed to be seeing.

Nonetheless, I make the call to MAZ again. I see fingers walking along a surface, and this surface, I can now see, is a sphere. It’s unclear whether this “walking” motion turns the globe, or whether the fingers are made to walk along the already-spinning globe. I’m told that these fingers are consciousness that must alight upon the Earth, upon the world. The angels note that the fingertips, although sensitive, are not as intelligent as the rest of Adam Qadmon.

I try to lead with the compassion of the lotus-rose again. I’m seeing the bloom of the lotus-rose spreading out of the fingertips upon the surface of the planet. It leaves this grand compassion with each contact of the finger upon the planet. I concentrate in order see better; I note the energy I’m feeling off of Leaf 25a (which, starting from the back of the book and moving forward, is the first half-leaf with all of the letters (2401) and which has them all in regular vertical alignment), which I’ve been feeling much of the day. I also note the energy coming off of the seal of King BNASPOL.

I maintain high concentration. I see the fan unfold again. The angels repeat, “Look at the fan, look at the fan.” I see the fan unfold, and the angels liken each of the folds to an arm of a stellation. The angels note that they are representing a 3D concept in 2D. They point out that the degree to which some things are folded and some are not (which is to say, the evenness of the folding across the folding fan) is a function of the balance of the elements within a being. That’s why it’s so very hard, because even if one oneself is balanced, they interact with some people who have an imbalance in their energetic make-up. One has to work very hard to manage the balance within themselves but also with everything that’s interacting with them in the moment.

I ask how these ideas fit together. The angels show me that what’s required for “flowering” to take place among [the peoples of] humanity is a very real sense that everybody is managing everybody else’s karma, and this is not easy. There needs to be this attempt to balance the elements, which in and of itself is fine, but also recognize that certain things are going to take a while to unfold about the sphere of Binah (i.e., certain aspects must be understood in order to be received there). So people should continue to move in their efforts to do so, but certain unfoldings of arrangements of points in Chokmah can’t be forced within an individual’s time frame. One can’t force space-time to adhere to one’s will. If something is going be Understood, and to unfold in all of its varieties, then that is a process that requires a certain amount of time. There’s just no getting around it. At the same time, that doesn’t mean that beautiful moments at the suboptimal level cannot happen (e.g., some individuals having Wisdom and Understanding, but such being beyond others).

I ask the angels if there’s anything else, and they say, “No.” I comment on the difficulty of this Aethyr, and the angels say, “The timing was off, and though you did persist with it, it’s tough. What are you going to do?” they chuckle, referencing my householder status.

I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I see a cylinder about me again. It bends back into a torus. The dimensions change such that it turns into a double-sphere. This sphere, they’re saying, could stellate, further, as I’ve seen in previous visions, but for now they are keeping it simple with the torus just turning into a sphere. I express my gratitude. The angels show that if this were a highly stellated image, there would be thousands of points upon it.

They show what it would look like for this nearly spherical stellation to orbiting very closely to a black hole. There are little lights of energy about the tips of these arms of the stellation, points of fire or possibly the arms breaking away. The angels advise that this will not happen in this case. Instead, it will create a dynamic such that the stellation near-sphere will become more spherical as it goes along. Nonetheless, there’s this energy to this close orbit. What I’m experiencing right now, the angels explain, is this energy, this dynamic: a little bit of pain, a little bit of unease, this concern that I may be reverting. This is normal: I’m taking the right route that, if I find myself imbalanced, requesting forgiveness and moving along with the symbolism of this lotus-rose.

The angels are saying now, “If you are looking closely, you are feeling more multiple, but really, you are becoming more one” (the parallel to increasing number of arms of a stellation looking more and more like a sphere should be obvious to the reader). “You feel like you’re becoming more multiple, with all of these aspects of your personality coming to the fore, now, but really what is happening is there’s becoming a great balance across all of these different aspects of your personality, and you’re being forced to confront all of them more or less at once. The suggestion here is to just continue, allow, but give yourself a lot of grace, and continue forward as this massively multiplex stellation becomes, eventually, a sphere.”

That’s it. There’s not much here that they wanted to go over. They understand the circumstances, and that this is difficult, they’re just showing me, once again, me closing in on the realm of Adam Qadmon. “Only five Aethyrs after this,” they’re telling me, “and then after this, it will just be a matter of learning how to balance or, if necessary, be imbalanced across the elements, in order to achieve ultimate balance. You yourself will become more variable and adaptable, like unto the Tao.”

I’m very grateful to the angels for this. I ask if they or the Most High, in their great mercy and generosity, have anything further. They say no: “Be kind, be gentle unto yourself, even if it means not necessarily typing this up tonight” [spoiler: I did not].

I thank the angels for their time and generosity. Thus ends the vision.

Gebofal, Day 7

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of NIA. I call BNAPSEN via the prayer as listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy, but not using the Enochian calls.

The angels show me seven points, and of course today, being the last day of the first week, their meaning is described: the points are placed along the outermost ring of a spiral. The remaining 42 days work their way through to the center of the spiral. On Day 49, the last portion of that spiral can be connected via three points of a line segment (for you can further subdivide the spiral to account for the same call three times on each of the days of the ritual, which is to say 147 points in all). This line segment connecting the final stretch of the spiral can be thought to start at the reading of Leaf 1b, ending at the reading of Leaf 1a, and the finally, on the evening of the final day, reading of the leaf in its entirety, at which point the center is made manifest. Note: this reduces the role of error which one would surely have by attempting to find the center by starting at the outside of such a spiral.

King BNAPSEN mentions that blogging about this is how a particular method of gebofal can be handed down, thus fulfilling his Binah/Saturn role. A cooperative effort to publish copies of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh with this method is suggested to me.

I point the wand at Leaf 43b; King BNAPSEN and Governors Orcanir, Chialps, and Soageel are unfolding the structure of what is going on as I scry during the gebofal ritual, which is helpful and appeals to my luminary-trined Saturn. I’m given more information and meaning now that I’ve hit Day 7, the end of the first seven days. I ask explicitly about the symbol; now that I’ve been reconciled with all of the planets, the symbol can now come forth. They show a spiral beginning at the outside of the four-pointed star, and to have the point at which the square (which is suggested by the diamond) would be circled (i.e., a circle overlapping the square have the same area), have that be at the 3.5 mark of a seven-“circle” spiral; to help visualize it, I’ve shown it below:

The same symbol from yesterday, this time with a spiral of seven revolutions; the point of revolution 3.5 is shown in red, indicating the circumference of a circle which would have the same area as the square suggested by the four points of the diamond. Decorative lotus leaves could be added along spiral.

I see rays coming down about me, and they relate to the rainbow body. They say that my mind and heart is relating better to the subtle body and therefore the rainbow body can be emerge and be more realized over time.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I comment on noticing the Leaf 43a is the first of these early leaves with its own corner and row that doesn’t have every other letter missing. I’ve filled in a few of these based on my intuition (but don’t claim them to be the be-all, end-all). I call on the angelic king BNAPSEN & governors Orcanir, Chialps, and Soageel, and they mention that there’s a parallel to ZAX and the Abyss, as well as to Ain (of the world of Adam Qadmon), which is the reverse of the spelling of this Aethyr. This, they mention, is the preview of Leaf 1 on day 49. There’s more depth to these Aethyrs than one would otherwise give credit for, so what I’m doing now is following the septenary spiral inward to its logical conclusion.

The angels instruct me to place the face of the PELE ring on the front of Leaf 43, which the book is opened to. To do so, I put the PELE ring on a finger on my left hand so that it can continue to touch the book. However, I naturally place the back of the hand upon the leaf rather than turning the ring around so that my palm remains on it. They joke about the trope of sci-fi shows to somehow “reverse the polarities” to get the reverse effect of a problem they’re trying to solve via the normal polarization. Still, there’s something to be said about this (and typing this up, I’m thinking the message that things can’t be “unchanged,” but rather changed again in an attempt to honor the previous arrangement). They are “reversing the polarities” (i.e., King BNAPSEN is reversing some of what King BYNEPOR Thursday–note that astrologically, Saturn is the great malefic while Jupiter is the great Benefic; Saturn is only half of Jupiter’s mass and so can’t undo all of it). The angels tell me to get used to this push-pull, and that this will happen several times, and why these two planets are spaced a day apart on the days of the week. I’m told that this is the nature of what happens when one is placed at the center, and why the meaning of visions can seem to reverse or change meaning. A little vibration or wave can be completely disorienting, and things can suddenly seem upside down or reversed with only a little movement.

I can see a 3D funnel-like spiral come up from the palm of my hand. They begin by showing me a 2D version of the spiral (such as that above). Then they have me look at the funnel as instead a spherical version, which reminds me of a a tennis ball which a dog has chewed, causing it to come undone at the seams, which can be looped around itself. If the inner part of the seam were smaller, then it can be looped around itself in a spiral-like manner. Then the angels tell me to contemplate this in 4D space; they hint that the geometry I will see may be too much to interpret directly.

King BNAPSEN mention that the allergy drugs I’m on have helped to make the restructuring of my subtle body easier. I see a lot of waves; this is like when an ultrasound loosens up knots in a physical body. “Behold his wonders.”

The vision ends.

Inter-scrying commentary: So, believe it or not, I’ve not read the entirety of Dee’s Monas Hieroglyphica until just now, though I’ve seen the commentary offered by Dr. Justin Sledge and Jason Louv. I also already knew that symbol by heart. A few points of contrast between his symbol and mine:

First, the spiral: his spiral naturally closes, mine remains open.

Second, is the symbol of the Tao is central, while the cross is separated from the symbol of the elements (as indicated by the divided diamond). The cross carries with it the meaning of the unfolded cube, which is the unfolding of the heart.

Third, the elements are placed along the outside rather than central to the symbol. This is important to need to balance oneself among the four elements.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

Once again, I’m shown the seven dots. The angels show me a more basic binary version of his Theorem:

The angels are saying that this is a more basic and binary form of the Monas Hieroglyphica: 2⁰, 2¹, and 2², in which can be seen the force and power of Ain, as well as the natural progression leading to a 2 and a 3 (2⁰ + 2¹ = 1 + 2 = 3). They show me this binary and ask me rhetorically to merge this concept with getting to a total of seven (by adding all the dots); the angels note that one gets from 7 to 15 to 31 to 63, each of which is its own form of sacredness (7 being the number of the classical astrological planets, fifteen being the sum of any Saturn square, 31 being the name of El in Gematria, and 63 being 7*9, with 9 having its special importance to Enochian as I’ve gone over in previous posts). 127 is prime and (credit to Wikipedia; float them some money, will you?) is the smallest prime that can be written as the sum of multiple consecutive odd-numbered primes: 127 is the smallest prime that can be written as the sum of the first two or more odd primes: 127 = 3 + 5 + 7 + 11 + 13 + 17 + 19 + 23 + 29, and is the sum of the sums of the divisors of the first 12 positive integers (78 is the sum of those numbers, so 11 (for the 1’s for the first 12 numbers, except 1 itself, which is already included for the number 1) then add 2, 2, 3, 2, 4, 3, 2, 5, 2, 3, 4, 6). The angels kind of want me to stop here. The angels want me to stop here as we’ve reached 2⁷ – 1.

Taking this splitting to its normal extension, they say consider when 7 & 15 meet up opposite each other: 4 four match each other, the other four of the final row of 8 do not. If 7 and 31 meet, 4 would match each other, 12 would not. If 7 and 63 met, then 4 would meet and 28 would not. They say it has something to do with what is left over, and something about exponents. However, I’m not following a lot of the logic. I call on King BNAPSEN and Governors Orcanir, Chialps, and Soageel again. They have me pause to center and say they’re going to show me. 128 + 7 sums to 135, which is 9*15; I’m still confused because they’re switching what gets added up. They say “hold on,” and they comment that this is 2⁷ + 7. Then they have me add 7 + 2⁸ = 263, which is Resh, the solar letter, plus 63, which is the number already have from 2⁶ – 1. They mention 519 but then they stop. They say to add one less than the power of 2 to a different power of 2 which is larger. They say that 519 will be telling to me. They call this my homework.

The angels have me wait. King BNAPSEN shows me the letter V which can be oriented as a 7 in Arabic numerals but in Roman numerals is 5, so together this is 12. He shows me the sun being exalted astrologically being a symbol of an exalted heart. The angels tell me to set my wand on the Holy Table and to put both hands together in prayer on both sides of the leaf, which creates an interesting energy.

I do a quick prayer asking for mercy. The angels show me a lotus flower, and show me a moon within it (note that this combination is also symbolic of the Buddhist bodhisattva deity Tara). The angels ask me to change the foot on which the BNAPSEN seal is located, so I do, crossing my legs to do so, such that my posture is reminiscent of the posture of certain martyrs and, I note, to The Hanged Man in the Tarot. I concentrate on these two images together, The Hanged Man and the lotus flower with the moon inside of it. He’s now inverted, so upright and his hair floats upward. The angels tell me to accustom myself to inversion.

The Hanged Man rising up up out of the lotus reminds me of the mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum, the lotus-jewel. The Hanged Man being number XII of the major arcana adds significance, and of course this is actually the 13th trump (since the numbering of the major arcana starts with 0, The Fool). This gives significance to the Watchtowers, which are 12×13 in dimension, thus coming to 156 letters per watchtower. I’m looking into the heart of this inverted hanged man, and the angels tell me that if I take his foot to instead be standing upon the moon as it goes through simple harmonic motion. This motion could also be seen as him going through a circular motion, front-to-back and up-and-down, creating a circle around his heart about the y- and z-axes.

They make additional analogies; if the hanged man bows before something greater than himself, that’s a certain kind of eclipse, but stretching back in ecstasy is a different kind of eclipse. There’s something about aligning with the Saturn cycle.

Now I’m atop a cross which is in outer space, and which is flying like a spaceship. At times it seems like a TOPY cross, but there seem to be fractal extensions of 2/3 size which emerge from the cross, forming a pattern. I see myself lying on the cross, with my heart at the center, causing it to fan out in a fractal pattern. I’m told that networks such as these need to meet other people so that they can grow again and not peter out at the natural upper limit of the fractal pattern. It’s like I’m traveling through space, and the cross becomes many of the same size, forming a simple bridge down to a planet. I touch the planet which is like unto Mars, but touching it causes a bit of blue to appear, terraforming it. I don’t know what this is, but on reflection, it’s a symbol of following the perpendicular in order to meet the center, or heart (note the six-rayed star in the LRP is made up of red and blue triangles); at the time, one side of the leaf I’m holding was saying “this is obvious,” the other side of the leaf was saying, “it’s not obvious at all.

They’re showing me the sun and the moon crossing each other, which of course follows this symbolism. I note that there’s an upcoming lunar eclipse, which I mistakenly think is in June (it’s in May), but they’re really trying to point me towards it. I don’t know what this is, but it’s important to them, and I’m grateful for the message.

Several times now it’s felt like the vision will stop, but it resumes. Now I see a diamond shape, a rhombus, which has a size of a diagonal that is three times the size of the other. There’s an additional correction to the symbol, which now has three-dimensionality; the main one is shown atop and rotating above a self-similar square pyramid:

Now I recall a symbol on the astral appearing like this appearing after I scried the Aethyr of ZIP about a year and a half ago. It was made of gold and I was able to use it to help me decipher tables I received about this time. It was three-dimensional and octahedral; the angels show me another one today, this time even thinner:

“You have a square (from the original symbol), but held at this angle [in three dimensions], it has to look like a rhombus.” Ultimately they say that the fusion of the old symbol with this new one is a means to perfect it. There’s a flexibility with the height of the octahedron, which I’d already had from the ZIP symbol. The angels emphasize the self-similarity.

The symbol floating above the mountain is similar to it floating above itself in the pyramid form, and there’s significance about it but I’m not to know about it. “Think of it like Re atop mounting, but because it’s merely reflecting Re, it’s like unto the moon.” The symbol is reflecting light onto the ground below, and I’m thinking of Egypt. It’s lighting up the ground below, and they’re saying that it could reflect any place on Earth. “The light will hit a central point,” and the energy will be like a thermal solar tower. I’m unclear, but the angels say that this is okay: this is laying the structure for what will happen at the end of this ritual.

There’s something about a dog, but the vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 5

Sunrise: Similar procedure: Ave-quoted Prayer of Enoch, Heptarchical call to King BYNEPOR, vibration of title of Leaf 45b. Call to Aethyr of DES.

I sit and I feel swirling about my subtle body. The angels remind me of the 12 signs of the zodiac, and, with my having done 12 callings (three each to four lowest Aethyrs), I completed the first rotation. The angels say that they would like to do an invocation. They are noting a tension headache and I begin channeling King BYNEPOR.

“King BYNEPOR, King over all things Jupiterian: behold how you have seen me in your first house and how I return today, a Thursday. An auspicious time as I apply to your midheaven by sextile. Let us therefore begin.

Energy work in my subtle body centers commences: “Opening up the crown chakra, allowing for an expanding and unfolding of so much that has been hidden therein. The top of the head, all the way down the top [half] of the skull, and now deep within the brain itself: subtle! subtle! subtle! Lo, is the letter B within the word ‘subtle,’ and hath started all of our names: so, too shalt thou find this [process] to be subtle.

“All of the work that was done yesterday is hereby expanded unto the Glory of Him Who is the Highest, and the Lord of all Things. [I am] working this through, seeing through this expansion to all of its subtleties and all of the subtleties within your subtle body; expanding and amplifying and glorifying and taking to the higher octave all of the unfolding of the rainbow body within you.”

I have a tingling feeling at the tips of my middle and ring fingers, and it’s explained to me to adjust my hand so that it is dead center of Leaf 45b, thereby balancing the energy therein.

The internal emotional dance associated with fear: “Behold the color yellow…associated with fear [in the U.S.]. The expansion [of the heart into compassion], associated with and in response to fear, and often expanding the fear itself, and yet moving [in compassion] as if nothing were to be feared, though every single action is defined by the fear [via negativa]: such is normal! Such joy to be taken in such movement, for the dukkha is what indeed allows for a greater magnification [of] understanding of this dukkha, and this fear allows for a greater amount of compassion within the heart: so much greater the trust, despite the fear, as a result of such compassion, in order to overcome the matters of evil!

“A great rising up, a great expansion within you: it overwhelms your general inclination–allow it to, for the rainbow body is indeed a the birth of a new body, and can indeed be understood as such, as a new birth. Glory unto Him who is the Highest!”

A rapid vision of geometry is before me; I’m told to accept the garland of tessellation about me, and to keep it about me as a bridge of compassion for others. “One cannot unchange, one merely changes again in an attempt to emulate what was.”

King BYNEPOR closes: “Thy heart hath leaped out of its chest, but let us provide the springs in the shoes to allow it to leap even more, and higher, and fly out of the joys of thy compassion! … Bound as thou art to earth, thereby shalt thou display even greater joy and enfolding within the earth: lo, the torus of Tauruses.” BYNEPOR speaks of the earth termas being of Here is the mark of compassion, everlasting compassion, and the sign of the Most High. Therefore be thou now glad, a heart ever-leaping, and yea, flying, as the Most High hath allowed it to be: bound on earth, flying in heaven, and, yea, both of these in one being.”

The vision ends.

Noon: Same procedure except 45a instead of 45b. Call/Key to DES.

The angels make note of today’s allergies. King BYNEPOR makes note of issues with, and continues to make changes to, the subtle body. He asks me to remain still. He’s trying to draw an outline of all of the points of my body, creating a wireframe at the central lines/curves of representing my bones. He’s saying that this is how the subtle body is understanding itself to be. This is the subtle body working through the materia of existence.

He points to the heart, which is at the center of this wireframe, trying to understand its own existence, regardless of the actual form it may take. The angels ask me to contemplate the general feeling from this morning’s scrying. I’m feeling the general energy, and they tell me to note the energy as if a bunch of points were trying to understand itself, and the force of Ain which naturally arises as the absence of the connections brings about an attempt to connect these points together in a meaningful way.

The angels say that some days of this ritual won’t have as much. The energy is milder and “evening out.” They’re saying that even as there’s a fullness or completion to a “wireframe” of a subtle body coming into existence. There’s also a completion until the next rotation of the body coming together: the wireframe of the subtle body comes into union with the energy thereof into a movable system (i.e., an embodied soul). The angels remind me of this geometric folding and reconfiguration of the form in material form, in the form of reproduction, development, rising above material circumstance.

I try to concentrate past my emotional state. The angels are showing me in my dharana, which is quartered diagonally, and I get the sense that this is to be integrated into my personal symbol. The angels note my fatigue and have accommodated my state by foreshortening it. It’s not a hiccup as far as the ritual itself goes. The angels give me a mild admonishment for not taking as good enough care of my body & bipolar disorder, but also acknowledge that some of my current state was unavoidable. Sometimes, they say, it’s better for an Aethyr to be scried and for a calmer, more even version of it. They end the vision relatively early; I take much of the afternoon off and take a nap.

Sunset: Same procedure, reading both titles of Leaf 45; I’m instructed to sit, which is now a standing (heh) instruction. They have me lean back in the high-back chair.

The angels ask me to contemplate the wireframe and the energy coming off of the leaf, which is palpable. King BYNEPOR is roiling up the energy again; the call to him, he says, reflects “new people and new government,” and that the rainbow will be the new government of the unfolding of my soul.

I get flashes of children, playing at a playground on a sunny day. I’m overwhelmed by the vividness of the color, and the youthful energy of it. It’s as if I’m now a child, or seeing the world through a child’s eyes, as a parent does. The newness of springtime strikes me: the rainbow body will be like this renewal of life that a new parent has. I’m uplifted.

My focus is drawn to a shadow in the road; it is a black sphere in the road, and it is the dark side of Jupiter: taking life from the old to allow regeneration. What will be taken away, or I will need to eschew, is my reputation. I won’t be able to maintain a hermetic practice: it will need to open up and be more known. A new reputation will take its place.

I’m concentrating on a fear vibe from this shadow, which is like a portal into the Abyss; it doesn’t like being looked at! I look at it and concentrate on it anyway, much as one does in ZAX. It’s trying to conjure fear in my heart and distract me. At their roots, they are not to be feared, but just realized as being foolish and a general bummer. It’s within the white square, which is my dharana focus, which becomes a white cube. So we now have an inversion of the black cube of the Black Iron Prison and the silvery-white sphere I saw in LIL.

Knowing the core of suffering, and the root of fear, and doing so clearly, I will have a better sense of how to order my life and restructure things about me–in keeping with my orderly core, which is tough to see at first glance. The idea is to use spherical consciousness on the shadow itself. This is the “cubing of the sphere.” Thinking about this in terms of the symbolism of it being in the road, and the idea is to travel a road to get here and to travel a road to leave it in terms of timelines.

I see the cube unfold into a cross made of six squares, which create a pattern across the globe. Then it is unwrapped from the globe like gauze, and it’s as if a new earth appears underneath. I see my friend appear symbolically as the eye in the triangle within a circle, minus the conspiratorial angle. It’s reminiscent of a Jupiter transit.

The vision ends with a nice bouncy energy.

Gebofal, Day 4

Sunrise: Prayer of Enoch as told by the angel Ave. Activation of the Holy Table of Practice. Vibration of the title of Leaf 46b of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth). Heptarchical call to King BNASPOL as in Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy (foot upon the seal of BNASPOL). Call to/Key of the Aethyr ZAA (right hand on leaf 46b).

I had to sit down this morning; I went for a run as part of bipolar management, and my legs were tired. The angels have me pause with a 7 count inhalation, holding of the breath for a count of 7, and a 7-count exhalation.

The angles show me four dots in a square configuration. These dots criss-cross to form an X, and then a circle forms around it. This is the symbol for the astrological Part (or Lot) of Fortune. The angels explain that this symbol can relate to the idea of possibilities, and of possibilities within possibilities. They show this symbol flipping like a coin. King BNASPOL makes the general point about the role of chance in possibilities, but also the role of exchanges which happen with communication, and the concept of turn-taking in conversation, but also the role of turn-taking in commercial exchanges. All of this relates to the point that structures in which changes and exchanges are possible, and to the concept of larger structure in which humans find themselves and in which they exchange with each other. This structure is to some extent bounded by the general level of imagination and justification; this is a preview of tomorrow (with King BYNEPOR). Focus on the structures in which possibilities arise, he tells me, and how when we think of things as being chance events, those events don’t take place in a vacuum. He reminds me of the character Two-Face in DC Comics, whose guarantee to allow the fate of a coin flip in determining a victim’s outcome (which surely came as cold comfort!) was predicated on the many criminal choices leading up to that coin flip. In other words, fortune takes place amidst the multitudinous individual choices leading up to that moment; it’s a moment of fate within in the collective box of decisions that that the world has made for itself.

King BNASPOL reminds me that the idea of chance flowing within structure is a Mercurial idea. What gets exchanged, and how, and why, has so much to do with the intellectual structure that individuals find themselves born into. This idea of chance can be extended into the sphere of life and death, in which case an expected or demanded exchange either is or isn’t made.

Now I’m shown the coin rolling and consider the concept. Coins have binary outcomes (except in certain classic episodes of Batman: The Animated Series); a circle is reduced to a square. One can look at a 0/1 as a binary, but a taijitu, yin-and-yang view is fair–the concept of zero has an identity, and thus contains within it a uniqueness and a unity, whereas the number one is sort of indistinguishable from any other instance of 1, and thus there’s a sameness and thereby a nothingness to the number one. Regardless, the coin itself is like binding of a circle to come to a 0 or 1 rather than continue rolling: a metaphorical making a circle to behave like a square, rather than a square to behave like a circle (squares, it should be noted, can be made to behave like circles and there are even conceptual videos of square tires on a surface made of semicircles). Regardless, the key here is that the square must rotate according to various conditions (note that an imbalance of the elements can be likened to the imbalance of the angles of the rhombus) to begin to obtain a circular balance across the polarities of the mind–this would be equivalent to an energy circulation/cycle to restore balance in an individual, such as the Middle Pillar or a Tai Chi practice. Bound by matter though we may be, we can obtain a more well-rounded consciousness.

I’m reminded of the fixed stars, and I see a cube representing mundane consciousness. I see cube rotating at the top diagonal, causing three parallel circles to be inscribed about the sphere. The lesson here is that with good enough awareness, one can become aware of the other “circles” and begin to infer a more balanced polarity, but it’s harder to see because they may not appear distinct to the practitioner, and the three circles don’t touch. So the idea is to try to become well-rounded in multiple dimensions, and to try interact and get the perspective of other people (one of the lessons from the discourses of the Buddha is the importance of friendship). At any rate, “rotating” or circulating in multiple dimensions allows for the sphere to become apparent to the practitioner. Finally, there’s the importance of maintaining faith or focus, even when things appear, from a certain view, to be doing badly.

The vision ends.

Noon: The angels show me three dots this time in equilateral configuration (note that combined with the four dots from this morning, this equals seven in all). The angels drop the base down and divide the triangle, joining the pieces at the hypotenuse to create a 1-to-3^(1/2) rectangle. They then show this looping into a Mobius strip and then a torus.

This twists down at the outermost surface and therefore upward at the innermost. They remind me of the concept of circulation (rotation of the cube) within a sphere from the previous scrying session. This time, they tell me, this rotation is like unto the Divine’s circulation in the universe. What appears to us to be, in our limited perspective, the rotation of fate, is to God a normal circulation within the universe. As we, individual beings gain spherical consciousness, we nonetheless must become aware of higher levels of universal rotation or circulation. This is how the Divine honors all of its possibilities, by rotating certain sets of possibilities in and out of focus. The thing being rotated is probably better described as spiral-like in nature, and what is rotated in and out of focus is more like qualia which rotate in & out.

I reflect for a moment on the heat death of the universe, and how energy cannot be created or destroyed, and other physics principles…fatigue strikes me. The angels tell me they are having mercy on me and cutting the vision somewhat short. I ask them to please let me know if they wish to say anything else, I don’t wish to be a poor guest and not take whatever wisdom or insights they have to show me. They tell me to continue to contemplate this rotation and the rotation of the fixed stars. Some fixed stars/True Will get emphasis and focus in the grand scheme, while others do not (this is like angular periods of zodiacal releasing of the lot of spirit from the lot of fortune, when the lot of one’s efforts or spirit comes into focus or emphasis within the divine rotation).

I ask how this would relate to a person integrating with the Divine? They say that each fixed star is divine, the fading in and out of focus is divine, and accepting this fate of reality, one becomes more aware of the divine nature and focus: a very Taoist approach. It is merely an act of bearing witness, much like God in Genesis seeing the creation and acknowledging it as good.

The vision ends.

Sunset: Same procedure. I flip Leaf 46 back and forth. All of the energy I lacked this morning and noon hour has rushed into me, so I make an effort to keep an even pace, but also accept any pace they may have in story for me.

The angels point out my mood shift (hypomania) within me, which I acknowledge. They mention that I’m feeling “the host” or multitude. Earlier this week I reviewed the etymology of “host” , and it goes back to a word simultaneously meaning “guest,” “enemy,” and “stranger,” all of which indicates the fundamental misunderstanding of the other not being in one form or another oneself and vice versa. God is “the Lord of Hosts.” In this world there’s so much, a host, if you will, that we are unaware of, therefore the work is very much a process of unveiling of layers, and is quite important: we learn who we our and “measure our heart” in so doing. Once again I sense the abyssal, ZAX-like influence (and now I see that ZAX is the ability of the multitude of what is to be known to overwhelm someone), but I concentrate past it in order to bring forth the “higher octave” of ZAA (i.e., of the ZIP through LIL portion of it).

After concentrating on the object of dharana originally given to me, the white square, the angels or I say that Amzes Naghezes Hardeh contains this object in each of the cells of the grid, the leaves themselves, and the host of squares to be made from such a grid. The angels point out the dots shown to me earlier, forming a square and a triangle, respectively. They point out that a tetrahedron, made of points in 3D space, contains a fourness and a threeness at once, and fulfills in its way the septenary aspect of Enochian. Taking this to the 7th dimension in the form of a 6-simplex made of 7 points, they tell me to unfold even this into its more complicated form.

The angels said to reflect to a time I scried the Aethyr of LIL when I was told to calculate the ratio of the hypervolume of a hypersphere circumscribed about a 5-cell compared to that of an inscribed one (the ratio is 256:1). The angels ask me to contemplate this number, which is 2^8 = 2^(2^3). The angels ask me to relate this to the easiest thing of 256; eventually I settle on a “bit of a bit of a byte of bytes.”

We’ve reached a decision point: the angels ask me to let them drive (i.e., that I should channel them, because what is to happen next I’m unable to do without assistance) in order to complete the fullness of the initiation. I consent and sit. Note: at one point during the transmission to Edward Kelley, he channeled angels speaking Enochian and was relatively unconscious, for he would come to and not recall; I am capable of being buried relatively deeply but still have some memory of what happened: in this case I moved from lightest-possible-trance to next-lightest-possible trance, just enough to allow the angelic king BNASPOL speak through me. There’s a mix of my speaking style with the angel’s.

“We are now unfolding within you the several dimensions. There will be an entire network of energy centers within you that are now able to process the information at a very deep soul level….As this continues to unfold within you, you will find … the concepts of ‘soul’ and ‘spirit’ very much aligned.

“We are opening within you this network of multiplex higher dimensionality. There’s not a need for you to attempt to describe this for posterity.” Here BNASPOL initiates a hypnotic induction for me to allow for a “deeper, yet more celestial, influence to meet you in fullness and trust.”

“The heart within you, in its fullness and trust, must understand in its own way, and the words and the visions eventually meet this point, this upper limit–your mind needeth not engage fully. This is a matter of trusting, trusting, trusting! This is what one can consider the Feeling function [of MBTI].

“The functions of the subtle body after, lo! these nearly 42 years after your birth. Behold the union of this ritual, centered about your solar return.

“This is a deep process within you: your heart has known much pain, much wounding, yet you have thankfully been spared the worst of these, such as to may have to caused overarmoring and scarring. The blood, as it were: the life force within you, the chi, the energy, has flowed to the areas of most concern, and now this energy can now move into the collective forces within you. The forces within you, which you have previously left locked, are now opened. This includes a great deal of pain, a great deal of of suffering, a great deal of of fears: all of the emotional contents you would have known to be overwhelming. Behold! The host is now opened unto you. Fear not, never be afraid. The fear within you is merely a matter of recognizing the concentrated form of what one could call ‘evil,’ but really, just, in general, a matter of ‘sin’ [error/mistake].

This [evil] is no longer to be feared within you. This is no longer to be stripping your soul of its soulfulness. Instead, whatever fears or incongruency: it is something merely to be accepted. Continue, therefore, on your journey. These subtle body centers will magnify the visions that you see. It is as if you are watching 2001: A Space Odyssey, and one finds the beautiful trip (when Dave sees the beautiful lights for several minutes), and one senses boredom [in the mind] rather than seeing the beautiful unfolding of the soul as represented by a very long sequence of lights. Merely bear witness, and bearing witness is often enough, and preparing the heart and soul for this is enough.”

The angels speak to my level of acceptance and level of compassion, not in an attempt to flatter but to speak to my heart directly. I take a moment to repeat the sevenfold breath.

“Trust: maintain the highest level of trust. For all that you are witnessing, and all that you will express into the world is of the most profound beauty.”

Here I notice some rays [from the World of Adam Qadmon] entering. This is the beginning of the transformation of the subtle body into the rainbow body. “Such love have you know, this love of PRONOA: keep it front of mind.”

I notice a 3×6 grid, IAD by PRONOA, and the missing letters of the grid (so that it matches the 3x7 grids on Leaf 49) are Y-O-U (or, in Enochian, ILS).

The vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 2

Sunrise: Procedure (the general procedure can be ascertained by this): Facing East: the Prayer of Enoch as quoted by the Angel Ave to Edward Kelley. Recitation of call to King BLUMAZA (Monday) via Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy, but not using Call 1 since I’m limiting myself to one call to be used on a given day. Call 48, the key to the Aethyr of RII.

The angels instruct me to vibrate the title of Leaf 48b, to which I’ve turned. They also instruct me to place my hand flat and dead center upon this page. There’s a definite feeling of the energy to this; a hefty unlocking to the subtle body energy. The angels have me recite the Enochian Heart mantra I composed (I add a “IX OI NOALN MOZOD K’ILSI, IAD”–“Let this become Divine Joy unto Thee, God” to the end of the regular mantra). The energy is quite pleasurable.

King Blumaza is trying to steady my body. The angels collectively point out that I’ve requested assistance in the realization of the rainbow body. They pull my awareness back from behind my subtle body so that I can see it, and it seems to be shimmering as an outline and as a light body. It essentially appears as clear light in the Buddhist tradition, and they inform me that it is healthy. Realization of the rainbow body, they tell me, is an unlocking of the heart to awareness of the subtle body, specifically the heart being at one with–and okay with–the flux of unfolding of possibility. “In what ways am I not doing this?” I ask. In certain ways with respect to a hyperfocus on myself in specific roles, and a need to honor the whole of myself and the whole of others. “Welcome to Saturn in Aquarius,” (my 7th house), I quip.

The angels give me a preview of the sphere of LIL from my previous scryings of it. I note that we’re getting previews of these later Aethyrs far earlier. Here the angels tell me that every subsequent day will enfold the previous days’ scrying sessions. They have me pay attention to the square pyramid, its full form of the octohedron (which, as it includes infernal consciousness), and the octahedron’s dual polyhedron complement, the cube. All of these point to “evil” or dukkha nature of material existence, yet this is helpful in bringing forward many paths of compassion. This is done in the sense that the outer points or vertices of a cube (material reality) or the octahedron (the elements’ embedding within material reality) are tangential to the points of a sphere of a given radius. This dual polyhedra pair can be thought of as a given angle seen by an individual, but this rotation would appear different to another. At any rate, multiple points unique to each individual which touch the sphere of all possible points can be thought of as a unique collection “fixed stars” (True Wills), one for each individual. The sphere itself can be thought of as the range of possibility a person inhabits. The Enochian angels are big on geometry.

The angels mention that I should take heed of the movement of the heart. Ultimately people moving with compassion is still a “cubing of the sphere,” not in the sense of getting the same amount of volume, but rather finding the appropriate orientation in which the True Will is realized and followed. There needs to simultaneous realization of the state of dukkha (cube consciousness) as well as finding the compassion to transcend suffering and help others do so (the points of the “fixed stars” of the True Will toward which the soul of an individual can travel, found along the sphere). When I ask about how this relates to the subtle body, the point back to the heart. Though the body has this dissatisfactory nature, this dukkha, such as in its tendency to grow old, to suffer disease/injury and death, the heart center (anahata) is like the sphere of Divinity, or can itself be seen as a personal microcosm of divinity within a person or entity, which can be as accepting of the unfolding of cubic reality–even in its dissatisfactoriness & falling away from the Kabbalistic World of Adam Qadmon and from Kether in Atziluth–the heart can be as accepting of this as God can be.

The angels close by telling me more of this will be revealed as I continue gebofal and work on opening the heart. Continue with the heart mantra, they tell me. The vision ends.

Noon: Same procedure, but Facing South. I vibrate title of Leaf 48a. This one was somewhat more difficult than the morning’s ritual, likely due to the washing machine in the adjacent room. There is indeed energy coming from the page, which I have my hand flat on (on account of the plastic sleeves–I used a scrapbook format for the book in order to preserve the pages as best I can).

I see the a point as the center of a sphere and an inscribed cube/octahedron. There’s a variable rotation to the sphere about the inscribed cube/octahedron. There’s a sense of the mind of God/the Divine working through the fixed stars, as it were, which relate to the True Will.

Now the angels form a tetrahedron, and I form the fifth point for a 5-cell polytope. Then the angels post the question to me: if I were instead the center of a tetrahedron, would I know the difference? Here I should interject: it’s probably a good idea for you to watch a video of a rotating 5-cell now. The answer I give is, of course, “No,” I could be mistaken that I’m at the center whereas instead I would suffer from an optical illusion. Here they point out that getting an additional state of consciousness with which to observe reality (such as meditation) is key to learning to orient oneself, and understand whether one is in a higher-dimensional perspective, or whether one has “fallen,” or remains stuck in, a lower-dimensional POV. This is important when it comes to understanding how well the heart has unfolded vs. remaining self-centered.

At any rate, the angels point out the importance of cube-octahedral consciousness, in order to get a better bearing on one’s set of fixed stars/True Will, and on the perimeter of the sphere, to thereby infer the center. Keep in mind that there’s a lot of geometrical metaphor with respect to the emotional heart, yet there’s also likely literal geometry being discussed. The angels point out that their nature is to be helpful, and continue the heart analogy: they can create a design into which a human being becomes the center, but in so doing they can change the arrangement which aligns to a different sphere in which a person can operate. They can also change a warped heart; for example in the case of a skewed octahedron/square pyramid (here the analogy would be a base of fire that is too wide, suggesting a hot-headed & angry heart), they can help to re-align and balance the elements. This is partly why the HGA is so key, because not only does the HGA appear after a period of balance is reached, but the HGA can continuously help to rebalance and to invite in other angels or spirits which can reconfigure the soul so that it can further unfold. Essentially, the heart detaches and remains in equanimity even as it continues to act according to the True Will.

In passing, the angels mention that the number of governors correspond to an astrological aspect: 3 governors suggest grand trines, where as 4 governors suggest grand crosses. Of extra geometrical note is that a 5-cell (4-dimensional polytope) has 10 triangle faces and thus 30 angles, which matches the number of Aethyrs, and that a 6-simplex (6-dimensional polytope) has 35 faces and thus 105 angles, which matches the number of letters on Leaf 49.

The focuses to what appears to be a bendy flagpole, except it seems like cloth tied to the top of it. What is this? Ah, the scene changes to show a mature dandelion with sail-seeds. Remaining at the center of spherical consciousness, one naturally produces seeds of benefit (as it were if dandelions were a desirable plant). There needn’t be any effort to scatter the seeds: they will be planted by the normal course of events without any effort. It occurs to me to ask whether this applies to a person reaching towards heaven, or an angel descending toward earth, and they say that both views are correct.

Finally, the angels mention that the exact placement of the moon had to do with the communication difficulties, and that I should simply continue to scry thrice daily.

Sunset: Similar procedure, facing West for the prayer of Enoch. I will probably be more diligent about my orientation throughout the rest of gebofal.

The angels ask me to reflect on the 6 and 8 points of contact between the circumscribed spheres of a the dual polyhedra of a cube and octahedron: 14 in all. They ask me to reflect on the 6-simplex (here we return to the simplest polytope in 7 dimensions) which is self-dual, meaning that altogether the two have 14 points on a single circumscribed 7D 6-sphere. So here the angels are pointing to an obvious resolution to the number 7 with respect to equidistance about a point: “Seven, rest in seven,” as the prayer goes, and of course a self-dual 6-simplex has 70 faces, for a total of 14 points and 70 faces (84=7*12, the number of planets times number of zodiacal signs, or (2*2*3)*(2+2+3)), or 140 faces + tetrahedra (14, which we’ve seen, times 10, the number of sephiroth and the base of the most commonly used number system).

The last part is me being told that the ultimately unfolding of this part of the Enochian angelic system as being in a similar to that of DMT entities (for the record, I have no experience of the latter yet). They close by suggesting again the “missingness” of the 7 letters in Leaf 49, and also to consider 7 as the reconciliation between 6 & 8. I also am told to retain the spirit of open-heartedness as a good guest.