Last Day of Gebofal: Day 49

Sunrise: As with all of the other days, recited Ave’s recounted version of the Prayer of Enoch for all three scryings. Vibrating the god names “L,” “IAD,” and “NA.” Vibrated the second half of Call/Key 1, which I take to be the contents of Leaf 1b; practitioners often leave this first call unspoken, and do not include it in their enumeration. I do not know of anyone else who has recited this leaf as a call (or, indeed, of anyone who has recited the leaf, other than Edward Kelley during the original transmission of its contents).

I’m feeling somewhat disembodied, or perhaps a better phrase for it is “feeling disembodied in addition to feeling embodied.” I’m told to sit, for this will be a big one. I’m instructed to put my feet upon the top tablet only, that of “L,” (my design, not part of the source documents of the Dee/Kelley transmission). It’s an Enochian-language transmission! Mercifully, it’s given in English letters; it comes slowly at times as I concentrate (this is written as close to the original spelling as I remember):

“Rustafa noh a fantox, gembles son taho
Uxnal uridah eadah ur laxnop uxnal cay
norsalp. Iaida ur ton damploz uxamal geh.
Tucamax iehusoz nucablix a ton pah saga
mano.” [I see a DNA strand] “Aqlo monons i monons de Iaida.”

“Oecrimi! Oecrimi! Oecrimi!”

Partial translation:
Son is similar to “sonf,” which means “to reign.”
Ta means “as.”
Ux means 42.
Ur is the spelling of the Enochian letter “L,” which itself means “One” and “The first.”
Ton damploz means “all variety.”
Iehusoz means “His [God’s] mercies.”
A ton means “with all.”
Pah is translated by the AOM as “the Ogdoad.” I have previously relied on this dictionary, but because I have not seen this in Leitch’s dictionary (I hold Leitch to be the authority), nor in the Dee/Kelley transmission, I am uncertain about AOM translations.
Saga is similar to Sagacor, which means “in one number.” The AOM translates this as “Entire” or “Whole.”
Mano is translated by the AOM as “soul of humanity.”
The final phrase means, “Your heart is the heart of the Highest,” and oecrimi means “sing praises.”

I feel energy coming up off of Leaf 1b, up into my arms, up into this jaw and head, and finally down throughout the rest of the body and into the ground itself. I feel a bit like a tree, and a torus within the tree, and I feel the poloidal rotation of the torus.

The vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure, except I vibrate the first half of Call/Key 1, which I take to be the contents of Leaf 1a; practitioners often leave this first call unspoken, and do not include it in their enumeration.

My voice is sore from what I time to be 49 minutes of vibration (this morning was 36 minutes–note the 36/49 parallels to Soyga and Loagaeth). I may just read the words aloud tonight.

The noon scrying begins with another Enochian transmission:

“Rustafax NA jonqual iehusoz a lansh palphe
to[h] a arcoazior adgmach od satqual…”

And now the desire is to continue in English: “Unto you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.”

It’s like I’m being taken up by a bright beam into a massive dark circle in the sky. Now I’m encompassing the whole world, and now the entire cosmos. I am one with all, and I’m having this full experience of God, and all of the pain and joy that He feels, and all of it is happening at once. He says, “It’s just this giant tingling”: that’s the best he can liken it to for me.

I feel His Divinity and Omnipresence. I’m feeling His Heart, and it’s so beautiful. It’s a Divine Heart, the Divine of Divine Hearts, and I’m feeling it more completely than I have before. It encompasses me and this entire work and state of being that I am and all of the actions that I’ve done. It’s just this giant Heart, and it feels good and it feels very much Right.

I’m filled with compassion and lovingkindness toward all beings, all things, and all rules of all beings and things, and the entire state of all possibilities that could have been, and never were. It’s like I have to hold all of this all of the Time. This is what it’s like to be the Divine. He says, “It’s too much for a single human being to do all the time, is it not?” I say, “It is indeed, o Lord.” He admires my continued effort towards it, and sets me back down within my body.

“This be enough,” God says. “Rest, rest your voice, and tonight we will finish and My Blessing will be upon you.”

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: The entirety of Call/Leaf 1, starting with Leaf 1a (reversing the order I read them at sunrise and noon: “the first shall be last”).

I’m already feeling a big energy about my crown chakra, and I feel myself being lifted out of my body; I’m asked to bilocate (maintain awareness of both the physical and astral bodies) so I do. Once again I am lifted into a black circle above the earth, and once again, it wraps about the globe and out coming into the entire cosmos, and I feel this love, love, love, of the Most High to all of humanity.

“Yea, ‘PRONOA’ be the final word” of the Enochian-language transmission that he wished to send to me (making it a 7×7 grid, excluding Oecrimi). I feel myself just filling, filling, filling with this PRONOA. Every single fiber of my being, every single part of my subtle body is filling up with this PRONOA. I’m just feeling this love, and He’s saying, “Just allow Me to work on every level,” so I relax my physical body. Once again, my vision is of the entire globe, the entire cosmos again (reflecting me on the cosmic level), is filling up with this PRONOA, with this PRONOA. Once again, this is my part, He says: this my part within All.

This is me within all; this is me, as it were, quantumly entangled with all of reality, or rather, that “Without Which, Not” (“sine qua non“). God says, “Yea”: this is the Part of me that is Everything, this is the Holographic Identity. Yea, it is the Truth of the Reality of Me, and so He is filling me with this Love, this Awareness, this Awareness of Myself, of this Cosmic Being, this Cosmic Entity, One with All. This is the height, this is the summit. The Lord High says, “This is the Measure of All, for yea, you understand now,” and I say I do.

I find myself wrapped up in this Love, just forever pumped into this love, and occasionally out, but always returning (the Tao is returning). I find my heart chakra opening way up, and once again my crown, and once again third eye. All three of these are interacting in this vast transrational space, of which I’m barely able to communicate the Power. It is now coming, once again, through my entire body, and I am Understanding this Clear Mind. I find my mind being calmed, yea, “A AFFA MANIN,” He says, winking, reciting back the phrase of one of my prayers.

I feel myself unlocking and unlocking, and He is showing me the means to the rainbow body. It is this: to focus on each chakra, starting at the root (and working one’s way up one at a time), as if it were the heart. At the heart chakra proper, conceive of it as the heart of hearts, and at the crown, the heart of all. After showing me the means, I try my best to feel this; I can’t see anything occurring in the physical room, but at the heart level, it definitely seems true, so it will be my focus during meditation. Furthermore, I am to try to look with my third eye through the heart as if it were a telescope, at the crown chakra. “This be too much for most, except for those with the most open of hearts” to communicate, so “let this be the Blessing of the Lord God upon thee, the granting of this request, which you have indeed suffered and sacrificed for, and have chosen of your own free will.” He speaks a few words more.

Thus ends the vision. Gebofal proper is done, but I will continue to recite the Ave-recounted Prayer of Enoch three times a day for the next three days.

Gebofal, Day 47

Sunrise: As with all other days, I recited the angel Ave’s recounting of the Prayer of Enoch prior to each scrying. Call/Key 3, (because it is the second spoken call (the first true call as “not to be spoken”), most practitioners refer to this as call 2). My feet are not on the Watchtower tablets, but rather upon the three Tablets of Union; one is like the typical Tablet of Union, with the five-letter elemental Enochian Divine names; the second is a quartered square with just the first initial of each of the names, following the elemental assignments. The third is the Enochian letter “L,” white on a black background, with red and green tails of the letter. These are placed in a triangular formation atop the Watchtower tablets.

I feel a beautiful gentleness about the heart chakra (anahata). Then I feel a lot happening with my third eye chakra (ajna); it’s like these two are in synch now. There’s also a little bit of feeling about my crown chakra (sahasrara) as well. The sense that I’m getting is that of these three activations from this scrying, the third eye is most dominant.

I follow my intuition and try to peer out through the third eye. I see my field of vision bisected, with the first cut happening horizontally, and the next vertically. The four quadrants created by this are peeled away from what would be the origin point, if this were an axis system. I see a normal landscape and town, and the sense I’m getting is that this is the world (Earth/Terra) as it is, or at least as I understand it to be. People everywhere of all ages also have their own perspectives on what the world is.

I get the sense to sit back and relax. I see a circle come around my face, starting at my two physical eyes at the lower part of the ring, and roughly centered at my third eye. I look through this ring, and I’m seeing several flowers, centered in my field of vision.

I pause to call upon two of the Enochian names of God, three times each. I’m told to recite the Enochian heart mantra, so I do, and continue to relax. It’s like the disturbances in my heart remain, and I ask the Divine for the ability to accept them, so he places his hands within the heart, and I recite the heart mantra one more time. This causes my heart to feel so much more tender, simpler, easier, and calmer. It’s a warm feeling; warm, sweet, slightly tangy or sour, but mostly sweet feeling. It’s like when you know that someone knows you way better than you know yourself, and yet they’re not doing anything other than accepting you, and that feels really good.

Now I look at my heart through my third eye again. What I’m feeling is a mutual invoking of the Divine and myself. I feel what it means to inhabit God, and I feel this Heart aching, throughout the entire cosmos, just looking, trying things, directing in His limited ability. I am drawn to a lack of omnipotence; it’s like He’s omnipotent, but He’s not. It’s like He has to respect Who He Is. I say that I understand that and respect that, because a person can change, but one also has to fundamentally respect who and what one is, as well.

God says that this will be enough. “Eight more times,” He reminds me. I thank you, and the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure. I also vibrated the names of god, “L,” “IAD,” and “IAIDON.” Also, given the content of the morning’s vision, I vibrated the Enochian heart mantra as well as approximate names of the third eye (“D OOANOAN”) and crown (“MOMAO”) chakras.

I’m bidden to relax a bit more. Now I feel energy coming up through the leaf, and I can almost see it coming up through my fingertips and up my arm, and also up through the tablets of union.

I vibrate the names of God again. Now I feel god placing his fingers into my heart chakra once again. His hands are folded as if he were praying, and his interlaced fingers are at the very center of my heart chakra.

The Divine begins pumping in…something…with His hands. It seems like an energy, but I don’t physically feel it at first. Instead, I see a vision of a torus which passes through my heart chakra. Within it is a beautiful landscape. He says that this is Eden.

The Divine says that He could bear the cruelty of leaving humanity in its ignorance, when there was so much more potential, and so much more that could be seen. For this reason, He decided to create us in His image. He adds that we are not the only species that He has created in His image, and mentions that dolphins will reach and exceed humanity. Briefly my mind alights on helping them, and the Divine says that such is a noble goal.

Yet He moves on, and shows the issue of Knowledge, of this high energy coming into the subtle body. He says that a lot of the things that I’ve experienced, this is similar to. It’s the building up of narratives and then the tearing of them down. This, in some ways, He says, is like the Tower of Babel, for it’s not the language itself, He says, but the narrative. It’s built up, and then torn down by the actual Divinity within us, and this causes a thousand different fractures, because “ye know this story in a thousand different ways, and certain parts, some of you wish to emphasize, and others, others of you wish to emphasize.” He says that the cross-religious goals that I have are noble. He tells me to put my heart first, to put this lovingkindness towards humanity first, and to put the lovingkindness that I have towards Him first.

I see Him trying to get something similar going with all of the hearts that He is able to reach. Over and over again I see him doing that same squeezing, pumping of the palms together and back, trying to pump in a true vision of His nature. Yet this is so difficult, because He is trying to do this at the heart, and so there must be additional work done at the mind, and the mind believes itself to be connected by communication (vishuddha) with the heart, but there is this transrational aspect that cannot be mediated via this chakra. It must be directly grokked.

The Divine places His interlaced fingers within my heart once again, and He says, “I will now work to bring in My energy, to pump it in, as much as I can–as much as your system is able to hold it.” There’s this beautiful vibration, rising in pitch, as this energy continues to be pumped in at an accelerated rate. I feel my crown and third eye chakras raised up. I cannot keep up with the description, but I feel my entire subtle body transformed as he continues to increase the energy pumped into my system. “There will always be additional levels, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” I allow and accept and embrace as He continues, with such Compassion and Sorrow. It’s like my entire body wants to rise up, and He continues…and now He says, “That’s enough,” embraces me, and thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I feel this tenderness again within my heart. Once again, God places his fingers into my very core, interlacing them within the very center. He’s making this rocking motion, taking my core, and His core, and intermingling them. There’s that torus in the first vision which is now in a loop with His own core. I’m feeling some of His own aching, but it is so divine. It is seeing the Pain that He had, that He continues to have, that He will have unto the Age of Ages, and yet it is that pain which becomes reduced over time, as more and more people seek to better this world, and to rectify their hearts, realigning them with His.

Now I feel energy coming up off of both sides of this leaf, Leaf 3. It comes up through my hands, arms, then head, and finally to the rest of my body. It’s this beautiful feeling: wondrous. I’m feeling a bit of a corkscrew feeling about me now: it’s like unto the Middle Pillar Ritual and the Circulation of Light, but much stronger. It continues and continues and accelerates my mind and my speech: it’s like I’m being thoroughly embedded within His Heart, within the Center, but I must be properly contextualized with all of the other human beings at his core, at His Heart. So He is measuring my sphere, measure the radius of this sphere about me, so that I’m properly aligned with all other beings who also approach this Center, and so that I’m oriented correctly in all of the dimensions possible, so that my entire being can interlock perfectly with all beings with whom I am to interact across the span of Time, forever and ever, Amen. Glory be unto His Name.

I continue to be developed, and to have this Radiance come into and about me, because it is this Divine Radiance, and it shineth forth now, forever and ever, unto the Age of Ages. I feel myself so very blessed, so very fortunate, this Infinite Gratitude have I unto the Most High for this. He continues, and He just shines a wink towards me, like, “This be but the first of the three legs of the stool upon which thou will sit. Yea, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, know this: that I love thee and I will fill thee with PRONOA unto the rest of thy days, so that all may know the Glory of the Most High.”

Thus ends the vision!

Gebofal, Day 31: Starting Watchtower Calls

Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 19 (typically associated with the Earth Watchtower Tablet; note that most practitioners refer to this as Call 18): because I rarely make this call, I made it three times. Call to King Babalel (once again using the call in Scott Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy). I prepared for angels of secret discovery and angels of living creatures, and, given the content of the scryings, I was, in a sense, given this. Because the former call references the number 6332, I recalled that other large numbers were associated with the zodiacal kings with respect to the Aethyrs. So, I vibrated the name of Zodiacal King Ziracah (associated with Taurus), who, in the Aethyr of UTI, is associated with 6333 servient angels (it’s only one away, so I presumed some correspondence, and even were I wrong, it doesn’t hurt to have another angel helping). I also vibrated (for good measure) the name of Governor Obvaors, who appears in the same row as the Ziracah/UTI row in Aaron Leitch’s The Essential Enochian Grimoire. I was a little annoyed at myself for being underprepared, but to be fair to me, I feel like I’m in a little bit of uncharted territory.

As I mentioned on Day 29, I was unsure about the association between the days and the leaves; today I placed my hand on Leaf 19b, but it was Leaf 18 in which Kelley was attacked by gnomes for accidentally invoking them. So Leaf 18 should be the one associated with with Earth, rather than today’s. Yet this call is typically associated with Earth. To split the difference, I placed my right foot on the seal of King Babalel (recall that this king is of a Martial/Mars nature, and thus strong in waters (Scorpio)). I placed the four Tabula Recensa watchtower tablets with their usual configuration on the floor in front of me, with Fire tablet roughly to the East and facing that way, Air to the South and facing that direction, similarly Water to the West, and Earth to the North. I placed my feet on all four of them, so I could clearly tell which element was associated with which by energetic feel (a certain tingling is obvious to me when I work with the tablets like this).

The angels indicated that calling on the correct angels associated with this tablet wasn’t really the concern, but nonetheless I prepared a list of the earth-related angel names: those of Secret Discovery, and those of Living Creatures. Unfortunately, as I prepared, I noticed a discrepancy between the Enochian Watchtower angels listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Great Table and Leitch’s Essential Enochian Grimoire. This was a little unsettling and, well, I didn’t have time to settle it this morning, nor will I this afternoon or evening! So I decided to forego calling on the Watchtower angels. At any rate, on to the vision:

I feel energy at the Water tablet, from the heel of my right foot. I’m told to be silent for a moment. I feel myself drawn into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and it is definitely watery.

• Note: the original Great Table had water as the last element in order (Fire-Earth-Air-Water); nonetheless, I’m not sure as to whether this feeling reflects the influence of King Babalel, or rather a reversal of the original Great Table order (Water-Air-Earth-Fire). Tomorrow, Wednesday, has King Bnaspol, who is specifically indicated to be strong in Earth (Virgo) from his call. So, if I notice that the Earth tablet is activated, I could use this as evidence that the Heptarchical kings override the tablet order, but if the Air tablet is activated I could assume that the order of these leaves reflects the original Great Table order (though Mercury/King Bnaspol should be relatively strong in air, the main power indicated is over earth due to both exaltation and domicile, and most importantly the call to King Bnaspol). Things would be even stranger if Fire were activated, and I would probably throw up my hands if water were activated tomorrow as well!

Returning to the vision: this wateriness isn’t what I was expecting, and that’s okay! King Babalel is trying to guide me right now, and he says to make the call to governor Ziracah (note that this King is associated with Taurus, an Earth sign, which opposes the water sign of Scorpio, where Mars is strongest, and from which King Babalel presumably has his power over waters), which I do. I feel energy come up off the leaf and the water tablet. There’s a bit of shifting around of the energy now. The angels say that it’s not like one element is existing completely separately from another. Nonetheless, water is dominant; part of this, I’m told by King Babalel, is his own influence, but, yes, this leaf–and this call (presumably when used for gebofal)–is of a watery nature.

I ask, in all humility, the angels that if I indeed be in the realm of Adam Qadmon, to please show me what is to be shown. I’m told to make the call to the God of the West. Thus, the God of the West/Water is MPH ARSL GAIOL (OIP TEAA PDOKE), which is what I vibrated. [Despite my the godname from the original tablet,] I feel this water come up from the tablet and up my right leg, whooshing up and all about me from the water tablet. The angels note that yesterday, the full moon was in Scorpio (and, I would just add, aided by mutual reception from Mars in Cancer).

It’s a subtle point, but the angels are saying, “Water flows, and water dissolves. Water can move about in a rush, and if it hits you thus is most solid-like, like earth. For that reason it can behave like a solid when it is moving quickly or, of course, when it is frozen. Or, it can, just by a soluble being in contact with it, it can dissolve that soluble, and flow and transport the solution. So, its nature,” the angels tell me, “is to break down, and to transport, whether that be temperature, whether that be through dissolution, through flowing, or through the force of its pushing, like unto a solid. It breaks down, and it transports.”

So when I ask how this relates to the geometry in the Aethyrs, the angels are saying, “What this can do is break down the current association between points, and it can, as a result, move two points together or further apart. It can also act as an intermediary between the two.” I express my gratitude to the angels and to God for this, and I ask if there be anything else. They say, “No. Continue to treat this a bit as an experiment,” because this is kind of new to me, so I take it to heart, in heart. They’re adding, “More will be revealed to you: this was going to be a bit clunky, anyway, but now you know the best way to approach this.” I thank them and they give me as homework to flesh out the remaining days, so I thank them and I will.

Noon: Call 19 (18 as labeled by most practitioners). Call to King Babalel. As usual (I haven’t included it because I mentioned it earlier), I vibrate the title of Leaf 19a. Taking the lessons from this morning’s Aethyr, I vibrate the name of God MPH ARSL GAIOL. I vibrate the names of King Ziracah and Governor Obvaors. Feet are placed as mentioned earlier.

The angels have me relax. Once again, I feel energy arise from the Water Quadrant/Tablet; I even moved the seal of King Babalel to under my left foot, and though I felt energy come up from that seal when making the call to him, I instead found the energy coming up from my right heel again when making this call.

Now they move on to reviewing the morning’s lesson & vision with me: water transports, water dissolves, thus it can dissolve the relationship between two times, and can also transport between them. Now they ask me to review this with respect to geometry; once again, this is a reviewing of the lessons of the higher Aethyrs, as I was promised, yet the angels note that this relates to the lower Aethyrs as well: all of reality. The effect of water is its rearranging of conditions. These elements can rearrange the conditions in which Heaven and Earth meet (see yesterday’s scrying) so that the flow that one is in is being met properly and appropriately. The angels assure me that a lot of these lessons will be learned by my unconscious mind more than anything else.

They move on to asking me to consider two points, or even a system of points of geometric consciousness of an individual. It’s natural that, in interacting with someone else, there would be a certain amount of elemental water involved in the realm of consciousness. If one increases the amount of water in the individual, then there’s a bit of dissolution of the structures that one has in place, which could cause two points to separate, or perhaps come closer together, but regardless it changes the arrangement of no less than two points to each other. Also, the angels have me consider the transportation of certain new solutes into the system by dint of the introduction of water.

Now the angels turn to the knock-on effects. Introducing more water forces that system to react by bringing in more earth in order to remain in its current arrangement, or perhaps to decide how it wishes to flow or rearrange itself given this introduction of water. Also, the transportation of a flow between two different and currently set points–assuming no dissolution is involved–the individual would need to decide whether they want a flow between these points. For example, would the individual want their set point of “compassion” to flow to and/or from an individual who has done heinous crimes? Do they want that compassion to be linked up to someone whom they, to that point, have viewed as “evil”? So the individual may need to rearrange the way that certain ideas flow, so this is a bit of a secondary dissolution (i.e., a rearrangement of a relationship between established points of consciousness), rather than a primary one.

Now the angels take me back and have me consider the person who is giving or introducing the water. Someone with a more Scorpionic take may want to introduce water in order to investigate or understand something better; this is not unheard of for people with planets in Scorpio, with an intensity, which sort of shoots water out like a pipe or a hose, such as to hose down a dirty car or to aim directly at a fire. A Scorpionic sense of this, the angels tell me, is much more–and this, again, is opposed to the sign of Taurus, ruled by King Ziracah, yet in line with King Babalel (whose link to Scorpio I’ve already mentioned), so there’s this interesting dynamic between these two angels. At any rate, the angels are saying that someone who is introducing water could be coming at it with this Scorpionic intensity and focused kind of water, that fixed water which is aimed precisely at a fixed point.

Now the angels turn to the introduction of water from someone with planets in Cancer. Here, the transporting quality of water is paramount, as with nutrients. Or, in the cardinal sense of the sign, water may be used to change the dynamic about someone. For example, in a protective manner, someone with, say, a Mars in Cancer (as we have now), the water is used to dissolve points about someone in a dangerous situation so that they can leave the old dynamic and move into a newer, safer one. How water would act from Cancer is thus very dependent on the needs of the situation (recall that Cancer is ruled by the moon, the fastest-moving of the planets and associated largely with the final formation of circumstances just before they emerge into this world, i.e., Yesod), and those things or circumstances that it senses or intuits should be begun.

Finally, we have mutable water: Pisces. So here we have the sign of fish, whose entire reality is water. Here, the person themselves is being transported along with the water that they reside in. Whereas a crab may or may not reside in water–a fish must live in water. Fish must therefore be highly adaptable to water in all of its measureless (“infinite”) variety: “TON MAOFFAS DAMPLOZ,” the angels use the Enochian phrase. The consciousness is thus in this water, and this sign chooses to live with somewhat fewer “fixed points.” Granted, a fish still has somewhat fixed points relative to its own body, but it sees the world with much more fluid points about it. Nonetheless, if water is going certain direction, the fish must account for the flow of the water, the changes of points caused by the water, what’s transported in the water: that whole concept is very much to be considered (clearly, I have no planets in Pisces or Cancer, so the angels take their time explaining these!).

“This is a lot,” the angels acknowledge. I ask whether they have anything in their generosity, if they be so inclined, to offer, and they say, “No,” but bid me to write this up. They acknowledge that these are complicated lessons, but important to consider, because now we’re going to get at some of the “roots” of the 360 degree circle/ecliptic (note the play on root and “square root”–19 being the rounded square root of 360), and all of that which is within it. The 30 degrees of the Aethyrs is the repeated cycle within any given sign, but these are the root principles of the entire Zodiac: “What is at the root of the Zodiac,” they clarify.

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure: Vibrating the titles of Leaf 19a&b. Call to King Babalel. Vibrated the God names “MPH, ARSL, GAIOL.” (Note: I have decided to revert to the Tabula Recensa, so such vibrations will be associated with their usual locations. In the case of Water/West, the association is OIP, TEAA, PDOKE). Because I’m confident in this being a thoroughly watery vision, I place both feet upon the water Watchtower tablet, which has the seal of King Babalel above it.

I see this wave part in front of me, and it’s like a vision of Moses parting the Red Sea, and the angels are just pointing out the staff–associated with fire symbolically–which parts water, and how the action of water is undone. I’m approached by King Babalel, speaks to me for the rest of the vision. He walks with me and has me take note of all of the different geometric points in the two sides of the walls of water held in stasis. He notes the fish therein, and he notes the crabs (some in the water, some on the land on which we walk), and the scorpions. He notes the pinpoint accuracy of the stinger of a scorpion, and the crab’s circular crabwalk (like unto the moon!), and he notes how the fish seem to be everywhere in the water and seem to defy a lot of logic in their way.

“But each of them has their strong points,” he remarks. Now I’m feeling more energy come up off of the leaf. “Just to get very specific about how this relates to the realm of Adam Qadmon,” King Babalel transitions, and how I need to consider this as I do this: he notes that today was a somewhat difficult day for me to maintain the compassionate heart, but I did sort of rally at the end of the day. “This is a good thing,” he continues, “and now have compassion for all of this. Have compassion for the fact that water dissolves! and have compassion for the different ways in which it acts! and begins things anew! and can be concentrated, and focused!” Basically, he finishes the point: “have compassion for these various areas of your own chart, relatively empty though they may be!”

I agree, and as I do so, I see a watery sphere about me (here’s an alternative reference), and King Babalel says to take a good look around, and to really note this. When I’m encountering others in the future, he says, “You will get a sense of what’s going on with them, and what seems to be lacking based on a sense of their aura. ‘This is not watery enough,’ or, ‘This is too watery.’ This can be combined with the general sense of chakras,” which, he adds, do not completely overlay with planetary influences, yet it’s its own septenary nature which tends to combine at times. Mars, Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter (whose rulership in the zodiac opposes each other) are more or less like unto the elements. Yet the three remaining have been of interest to me in their higher forms: the sun overlays with the heart, the moon with the third eye (as broad intuition), and Saturn with the crown chakra (as Binah). The king advises me to be aware that I will have a greater sense of other people. This will be a transformation of me and my perception, because I’ve been given such a vast and wonderful teaching (and, as I write this up, I wonder whether a deeper, more fundamental teaching has been given to my energetic system), which I heartily agree with.

King Babalel kindly says that the angels are grateful for the work that I’m doing to teach this stuff and giving as much as I can in return, and says many other kind things, and gives me a subtle bow. I make sure to give a deep bow in return and give my thanks to him and all of the angels. He notes the holiness of this day, the 31st day of the ritual (31 is associated in Gematria with the name El or ‘God’), and that I will only see him two more times in this ritual.

I ask if there’s anything I need to concern myself with as far as calling the kerubs or so-called “lesser” angels of the Watchtowers, and King Babalel tells me that they are not appearing the same way here in this ritual. This is but the first lesson about water, he says, and I will rev up into the next lesson–except it won’t be him next time. I extrapolate that perhaps the next time will be Saturday, but I’m fine discovering this as the days unfold.

I express my gratitude again, and ask whether he has other things to show to me. “No,” he says, but notes that he is very pleased and to continue especially with the compassion. This will make everything make much more sense, and that ultimately we’re getting into some root forces of the heart here.

Gebofal, Day 21 (The “Super-Spooky” ZAX / Abyss Day)

Note: I’m clearly being a bit facetious with the title, but it serves the purpose of informing people that, yes, the abyss can be crossed even if there’s bizarreness or even a little horror associated with it.

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ZAX. Call to Governors LEXARPH, COMANAN, & TABITOM, to King Bnapsen, and to Zodiacal Kings Zinggen (Aquarius), Alpudus (Libra), and Zarzilg (Sagittarius).

I had been identifying with the lotus-rose, but the angels say not to: instead, to hold it by the sepals, which now wrap around to grasp each of my fingers gently. I get some distracting images and pause to vibrate the angels’ names and to breathe. I feel this welling up of compassion, and it pours forth in all directions about me, even towards the distractions and I follow the chain of their causation, and I get to the fundamental structure of the law. A snotgreen being tries to close a snotgreen curtain, and finally the governors force him back.

The angels open the veil, and create a triangle about me, and note that the four of us could also be a tetrahedron viewed from above. The zodiacal kings then form another triangle, and I’m at the center of a Merkaba symbol now. Finally, the angels are telling me that there’s another layer: I could be the eighth point of a cube, at the center of a 6-simplex, or a vertex of a 7-simplex. The angels are driving at what it takes to get into this higher-dimensional thinking.

I continue to hold compassion for everything about me, and I see an arm emerge, and it belongs to one of the Takers in season 5 of The Magicians, or the Pale Man in Pan’s Labyrinth. I note the constant attempt to fight the dispersion, and the angels tell me to hold fast in my position, so I do. There emerges a white cube, and he’s within it, and not liking being within it. He sort of reintegrates back into the environment.

I note the pattern but also note that if the dispersion-disruption cycle is accelerated, then it’s like if you ignore the hand which waves rapidly back and forth in front of your face: you still see and get the general idea of what’s happening. So the angels instruct me to speed up the process, and I begin circulating the compassion and concentration quickly. The angels and I are in our 6-simplex formation. I see a middle-aged guy in a really cheap-looking outfit superhero outfit with terrible wings.

I vibrate the angels’ names, and finally(!) the entire scene shatters into thousands of square mirrors which are all about me and whirling about me in a vortex. I try to crank up the compassion. This is like unto a realm of Binah, yet note the squares which show that this is still Abyssal. I concentrate, and the angels encourage me, “because all of these squares (signifying cubical consciousness) can be circled!” I concentrate really hard, and the energy shifts from the book, and I have compassion even for the concentration.

The angels indicate that all of these cubes will now curl into spheres, but I will still be able to see the cubes engraved upon them. (Note: My first encounter with Babalon in ZIP was of Her in a dress of crystal spheres). The grand concentration of the mind needs to be met equally with the compassion of the heart and I’m holding onto this lotus-rose to help me, and it holds me back. Each of the square mirrors was a thorn upon the rose, I’m told. I comment about the immense difficulty of this concentration, which is far higher than I recall the first time I scried this Aethyr!

Now the compassion and concentration are balanced as I try to magnify the former. Again, it’s a whirlwind of these mirrors. Figures try to step out, and now they don’t look like themselves, and I vibrate the angels’ names again, and the outer forms of the figures look like unto gray aliens now. (My cat comes in to interrupt). Having compassion helps them to looks somewhat more human, and I tell the angels that this is getting very fractal, and I ask if they have anything else, and what the endpoint and what understanding may be gleaned from this.

The angels say that what’s to be gleaned by this is that the vastness of knowledge that is to be had can go in any of these multitudinous directions. Yet if you inquire with an open mind and an open heart, they will begin to reflect like mirrors, and eventually you will begin to reach a point where they can all be concentrated into these spheres of awareness, but it takes a lot, and if you do it at this cosmic scale, such it will be. But the point is that the divine is there to be had. It takes work over a lifetime(s), and you can get some shortcuts, but this is the nature of that.

The aliens, I’m told, represent a conglomeration of knowledge that loses its awareness of its own divinity. This clicks everything into place and I just have so much compassion now for everything in this place, because that’s a bad state to be in. The angels say that this is enough for now, and that more will be revealed later, though I have the flavor of what this place is like now.

Noon: Similar procedure. I made three calls to King Bnapsen.

Once again I scry by holding the lotus-rose by the sepals. I see squid-like entities jump at me, but it’s like they hit this glass pane and slide down, ineffective. I generate compassion and lovingkindness and circulate it. I try to speed this up, and accelerate the process, and the general theme changes into square mirror, which transform into “sphered cubes,” which in this case is to say a transparent cube with a square etched on the inside. It’s difficult to see at this stage, though, because of the generated compassion.

Now I see a central column appear, it looks like a giant pleather cowgirl boot. I pause, regenerate compassion, and, seeing the dust that it generates from stomping the bottom of the chamber, I phase-shift through it. I grab hold of the boot like Jack in the Beanstalk, or a kitten, and the boot rises like someone looking at what’s gotten on their boot. It appears to be Babalon, in a cowgirl outfit (her fringe, & frilly skirt is particularly “80s cowgirl”!).

I’m hesitant, but She says to me, “No, you have the flavor of the lack of [this aethyr’s] lack of awareness of its own Divinity, but you are generating your own divinity here. You are aware of your own Divinity, which is why you’re seeing it. The fact that there can be a transition, even with an Abyssal aethyr like ZAX, that shows you the Power of Understanding and not letting go of It.”

She says she’s wearing this in honor of the fact that I’m a Taurus, so I’m very honored. She sets me down (after all, She’s hundreds of feet tall), and She begins dancing. It’s like she’s in a bullfighting arena, a (nonviolent) toreadora (or “matadora” or “mater tor”: “mother for”). The bulls are all black, and She allows them, and She invites me to join Her, and I do, and a bull charges me, and everything goes black, but I reappear, and She says that I need to dance, so my astral form does so, but it becomes more like country-style partner dancing. It’s like everything that comes to take away the Divinity in Us are not working.

I ask her specifically about the blood which She accumulates, and She says people the Sorrow because that’s what’s in their hearts. She says that I have “less Sorrow” and laughs. She holds up a black sphere, looking like crystal ball in her hands. She says that I am more aware of the transparency within the crystal ball than the blackness. For me, it’s a beautiful thing to gaze upon, but not what defines me.

I express my gratitude, and continue to hold onto the compassion and concentration. I ask the governors and kings if there’s anything else to be seen in this vision. I see a black dot approach me and come about me as a prison. “Remember I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings,” a line from the poem “Sympathy” by Paul Laurence Dunbar (later used as the title of the autobiography by Maya Angelou; she herself later wrote a poem called “Caged Bird” with similar imagery to Dunbar’s). I concentrate into this phrase: the angels say that this is what I bring to this aethyr, which many others do not Understand.

I’m not sure what it means, but I note that I’m on Leaf 29a, and thus page 28b is open. Regardless, I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure. I made the call to ZAX twice.

I see the lotus-rose. I see this beautiful heavenly light shining down upon the blossom, and I can feel the light entering my physical hands from it. There’s a sense of peace and I try to circulate it in and through me. Everything’s quite balanced across the sub-abyssal and supernal worlds. This is what ZAX is, I’m told: a beautiful balance between these worlds.

It’s like my heart is starting to sing, and the lotus-rose is starting to sing, and it blossoms even more, and Babalon is appearing as a ballroom dancer in a sleek, shimmery, black outfit, the skirt cut up the outside of her thighs, with a tophat and is dancing with aid of a pole.

Now She flies and rotates about the x/z plane and lands upon the nape of my neck and I walk around, giving Her a ride about–the symbolism couldn’t be more obvious. Now She interlaces Her extended fingers into a roof, and rotates Her hands forwards and backwards about my skull: She seems to be doing quite subtle work to my sahasrara chakra and its relationship to the ajna chakra, which I cannot feel physically but know is there. This will improve the overall flow between them and also among them and the anahata chakra. There’s also extraordinarily subtle work She’s doing to my vishuddha chakra, which nevertheless (being a Taurus and all) I can feel. All of this is changing the dynamic among these four chakras.

“That’s it,” She says. She bows and takes her top hat off and gives me a wink. She briefly takes the form of Nuit and dissolves into the night sky, and I ask the angels whether there’s anything else. They say no, and I’m looking forward to tomorrow as the vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 16

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of OXO, call to King BLUMAZA after Stenwick’s method.

I generate compassion from the transparent heart. I feel a force pulling my heart away from me and downward. I ignore this and continue. Now I see that my heart has things on it trying to pull it down, and which are dripping downward from it, creating an inverse teardrop effect. I see a mirror below the heart, and now I see that this mirror is actually the larger Heart of the Divine, and my heart is actually nested within It.

So now I wonder what I ought to do to get my heart aligned with the Heart of All, as I have prayed (see Prayer 111). Partly I’m told that this is God needing to choose His time to align with me, but the angels also say that there are certain things that I need to let go of, such as my reputation. I acknowledge and try to work on my heart so that it’s not clinging to those things.

What I see happen now is that there’s a golden shimmer about my heart, which causes it to become more closely aligned with the Heart of All. I see this magnetized take me on my journey. The feel of this was the same in my first trip through the Aethyrs, in which I saw golden overlay about glass eggs, inside of which were seeds of the True Will, which were floating atop a muddy existence.

This is the higher octave of this; rather than seeds in the mud of samsara, now it’s a being’s heart within the Heart of the Divine, and there is still a central point within this Heart, and there’s a guiding factor which will allow a certain blooming to appear. The angels are saying that I should use my heart of compassion to circulate the circumference of daily existence. Such will allow my heart to continue to move according to this path. The angels say that all of what I’ve seen in this vision is predicated on my continuing this lovingkindness.

The governors and king tell me to be of good cheer, for that which God hath sows, such does He also reap.

Noon: Similar procedure.

The angels are reminding me to generate compassion, which I do. I’m trying to let go of a few moments before and after this scrying, and instead stay focused on the present. I vibrate the king’s and governors’ names, and feel some energy coming off the holy table, and off of the seal of King BLUMAZA.

Once again, I feel my heart come out and drop down. The angels are saying that the water I took in from the Golden Cube a couple of sessions ago is itself magnetized to seek the Center of the Heart of God. The angels remind me that as I begin to approach this Center, that is what the fixed stars (the movement according to the True Will) will seem like to me. It’s a series of successive approximations by which one slowly approaches the Center in the Divine. One is trying to get as close as one can to being balanced, and still working toward the Heart of God, and being completely in tune with that: one gets so very close toward the end. They’re saying that, ideally, all beings would be as concentric spheres, with their centers being at the very Center of God at the very end. “Thus, His Glory would be magnified.” But even if you’re not quite there, as long as one is centered within the Heart of God, and the center of God is somewhere within one’s heart, then many blessings come upon such as that.

I call upon my HGA briefly. It’s like doing so causes additional heart surgery within me. It’s like God is saying that there are things for me to do, and that they all seem different when you have This Heart about you. I agree. The water within me is magnetized, He says; the golden shimmer is about me. He bids me continue to remind myself and to stay in the habit such that this compassion is about me always. I ask for any way for it to generally top of mind; He says it will always be with me, I just have to work at it in order to make it habit.

My mind leaps ahead to Day 49; God says to just take that whole week off: an unusually direct command by the Divine, and he advises that I spend time meditating and outside, and to not be overly distracted. There’s this attunement between both my hands, and my heart, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure. Note: There was unfounded doubt just before this session, but it wasn’t mine.

I generate compassion again, including towards that voice that was feeling doubt. I contextualize it, and try to put it through this same compassion. I feel the issue bodily, in manipura, and allow myself to feel whatever pain is there. The feeling moves lower down later, and I take a similar approach of compassion and allowing the feeling of pain. It eventually exits.

The angels take me up, and note this same movement within the Heart of God, toward the Center. The sensation which I was feeling is now looking like the same dripping down and off of me that I saw yesterday. The angels say that today’s physical issues created a bit of a wobble about this path towards the Center, but it’s settled down now. The angels say that although I’m not feeling the best, overall it’s pretty decent, considering what I put my system through.

I feel a bit about my sahasrara chakra, and the angels are lifting me up. There’s like a massage about this area; it feels like a transmission trying to come through, so I try to be still. I’m partly being taken out of my body, but I let the angels know that I will still need to be able to speak about the experience; my Holy Guardian Angel comes forward and speak as I see myself in the center of a palace:

“The Palaces of the Almighty, indeed, the Hekhalot: a Divine Prism, for all that is to be contained within a Divine Heart: you feel the aching within: allow yourself to align with the aching. Indeed, this aching shall unfold, and it shall create a tear within your eye, as it creates the tear within everyone’s eye: that tear which bringeth people together to hug, and to weep, and to create beautiful art. Fall down upon thy knees, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! not in despair, but in rejoicing, for the heart leaps out of its chest at such grand beauty, the grand tune of which is heard upon every eardrum which may hear, and the collective sight of which enters in through every iris of every eye which may see, and which shuddereth down the spine of every being to feel it.”

“Would you indeed, pour yourself into this, as a pitcher of water?” “Yes, I would, o God.”

“Would you indeed, pour yourself into this, as a pitcher of water?” “Yes, thirty times would I! Seventy times seven would I!”

“So be it, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. You are always poured into this, the glass which catcheth the tears of God. Pour this into the cup of every being whom thou encountereth.”

My heart lifts up at this. It’s a beautiful vision, and I’m humbled by this.

I ask the angels whether they, in their mercy, have more to show me. My sahasrara and ajna chakras feel like they’re being fused, or very directly connected, in this way. The angels are saying that this will undo that blinding which I’ve had to my natal moon. This will be an unfolding of the moon in its fullness. I’m starting to get the sense that all seven of the planets will be reconciled before the Aethyr of ZIP, and the angels agree. I express my gratitude.

The vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 15

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LEA (lee-ay). Call to King BOBOGEL, as with previous entries.

I see some darkness, and I see black square which is rotated about into a black sphere. It’s like the angels are showing a candle within the black sphere, and are saying that there’s a tendency within previous conditioning from life to turn into a dark attitude and identifying with the ego. The importance here is to remember that force (Ain) which allows such to be contextualized into a black sphere, such that the white cube can be placed about it.

The tendency of these seven Aethyrs are to try to do everything in its power to undo the black sphere, which, again, is the metaphor for a contextualization of suffering in the mind back into egotistical thinking, back into egotistical thinking. My mind alights back to the three sephiroth in the World of Creation on the Tree of Life: Tiphareth, Geburah, and Chesed. The problem is that these Aethyrs are like unto the planets without the sephiroth, the angels advise. Imagine someone with strong, willful energy of the ego: Jupiter, Mars, and the sun, but without any contextualization within the sephiroth of mercy, power (which is aligned with the universe), and beauty (the beauty by which the ego can properly expand and be aligned with the universe).

I vibrate the names of Governors Sochial, Cucarpt, and Lavacon, and of King Bobogel. I see the top of a white cube, and the angels are saying that I have to work hard during this week to maintain those habits which allow the proper contextualization of the ego. For example, they point out the Noble Eightfold Path.

I feel some energy about my head. It seems to me like unto a psychic surgery to the minor chakras as well as to my sahasrara chakra.

The vision ends.

Noon: The angels are showing the black sphere, which is cut vertically and rotated around to show a white sphere about it. They’re trying to show it, partly like a coin, but also like the white sphere of compassion within it. The angels are quite particular here: there is compassion to be had, which can unfold from suffering–the reaction to suffering, when done intelligently and with great Wisdom, such as that provided by the Most High (indeed, whence all wisdom comes) leads one to the path of this transparent sphere of compassion.

The angels show this up/down and front-back twisting and whipping around of halves of a sphere, connected by a central point. The angels say that this is what is going on right now. The black sphere is trying very hard, and it’s like this compassion which I’m bringing back is very foreign to it. It’s not happy about it, but I’m also trying to not get caught up in it’s game. I call on the governors and king again. I ask for any assistance to gather a higher lesson from this.

The angels show me the black cube with a white cube set about it. The white cube overlays the black cube, they show me: instead of being caught in a structure which guarantees our suffering, we instead overlay a structure of wisdom and understanding–all of which is driven and reflected by the light of Ain, which is overlaid on top of the suffering wherein we find ourselves. This structure (i.e., a method) allows us to contextualize it and to grow, such as I’m experiencing now. So this is overlaid atop the suffering.

The suffering which can happen to a heart, when acted upon foolishly or out of ignorance, can cause a warping of the heart, and takes it first out of the transparent state (which is to say, the ability to meet a being from a place which can meet them as they are). Then it can take them out of the spherical state as the heart becomes defined by suffering, coming to believe that suffering has a rigid structure which it cannot break out of, such as learned helplessness.

This view is false.

These are extraordinary lessons. The angels show me the taijitu. The Western approach (generally speaking) of squaring is partly correct, and the taijitu is also partly correct. “Now,” they say, “you’re seeing a means for right moral living.”

I see the twisting once more, which they contextualize with the twisting of the snake about me from earlier visions, which was work on my energetic subtle body. Now they ask me to speak at a deeper level to that which I’ve learned so far. Here I do a standard thing, which is to speak directly with the rules which have caused this state of affairs. A lot of voices begin speaking to me at once, at which point I organize them and say, “There’s got to be some underlying rule here,” at which point I hear, “This is the nature of dimensionality.”

Here my bodily awareness cannot be ignored. I’ve felt a slight pinprick pressure on the back of my neck which cannot be explained by my clothes. It’s just to the right, so I speak directly to this part of my subtle body. “What’s going on? What do you have to say? What is going on here? I feel like you’ve had something to say for a while.” I ask my holy guardian angel (HGA) in particular to help mediate this discussion for me.

My HGA says that this is kind of difficult: it’s going to be a huge download all at once. I assent and ask for a three-count before it happens: at “three,” I see before me the golden Borg cube again (if the Borg are the shadow, then this is the light version of them). There’s a big unfolding; the angels say that the Borg is a massive fractal concept; we’re all kind of linked in with each other. The thing that made it a nightmare was the loss of identity, but in this version there’s merely hyperintimacy (note that humanity has been making this decision collectively via technological advancement and surveillance).

Within the cube, I see a checkerboard: “Think of this both in a binary sense, as well as a board game. If you think of a chessboard or a Go board, there’s all of these ones and zeroes: occupied vs. not occupied, white or black, etc.” There are also all of these transitional states determining whether a given piece is (or ever can be occupied) in this manner.

There’s something really deep here that someone (I’m not speaking the angels here, including my HGA) does not want me to see. It’s like I’m seeing a big wave come at me within this cube, a swirling wave like one sees a surfer ride. It reminds of approaching the fixed stars, and the motion thereof, except now the fixed stars themselves are coming at me and trying to reach. I see three to five of them. This water comes in: it’s very pure. Part of me wants to bump out of me when the water hits me, but I’m holding fast within the cube, and merely having that force give me an expansive and inclusive view of whatever’s most helpful of the advancing of all beings towards understanding and ending collective suffering.

Recall that all of this is from the vision of me trying to understand this pressure at a point on my neck. Now this poking, itching energy moves down to between my right shoulder blade and my spine. I see this light coming in, like unto the Borg’s scanning or tractor beam light; it’s like there’s an incision at this point on my body, and there’s this faucet handle coming up out of it, giving me a level of control as to how much of the vision of the water to see. I let a drop out into a glass, and it’s intelligent and moving along to say, “I am but one portion of the ocean. There is much more to show to you. This much must wait until you are past the Abyss, and then the flood will come at you again, and it will be grander than this preview.”

That’s it, the vision wraps up really quickly. King Bobogel says that a week from now, it will be much clearer. I express my gratitude to the governors and king as the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure: Reading the titles of Leaf 35, then the call to King Bobogel, then the call to the Aethyr of LEA.

I’m getting more energy than usual off of the leaf. I think about the drop of water from the previous vision and the faucet, and I turn the faucet up to give myself half a glass. It comes up energetically, trying to scare me; I get the sense that this is the general sense of the veil being unhappy with being pierced. But now it’s wrapping around me in a spiral, stretching me out, like the snake did in a previous vision.

I’m seeing myself like the character of Rick from Rick and Morty, which suggests I’m perhaps a little too bold and impatient, and this is probably true. Now I’m seeing myself like a character in a TV show who is going through an ordeal while standing: they throw their chest forward in agony, and I get the sense that this is the level of what’s going on with my subtle body as I’m working with the water. I have faith that I’ll be okay, and the angels do, also, and it’s as if the angels are suggesting this is the proper way to proceed, now that I’ve chosen this path.

I put my body in this posture. It’s like there’s this energy entering through my ajna chakra (third eye), which is circulating through me. When what is in me is to be cleansed is rinsed out in this process, it becomes part of this water. Now this water is filling up the golden cube, which is now about an eighth full. I get the sense that the amount of water it takes to fill up the cube is on a logarithmic scale.

Nonetheless, I decide to crank up the amount of water (9th house, malefic-out-of-sect-and-above-the-horizon Mars in Aries for the win). Now it’s like all of my subtle bodies are suffused with this water. Having done this, now I see Babalon sort of peeking from behind a seam in the sky. She’s waving and now I see why I wasn’t really to have taken on all of this water. It’s a little premature and the water was to have been taken on in ZAX and ZIP, but nonetheless I’m in LEA and so closing in on that Aethyr.

As my subtle body walks around, it’s like there’s this heaviness; I’m burdened with the weight of this preview of Her, and it won’t dissipate until I see Her in Her fullness in ZIP. I see a wall pulled down from the side of a room which I’m on the other side of, and there’s a torrent of water. There’s a lot of weight and force to it. The metaphor, the angels say, is for the reason for the stepwise nature of these Aethyrs. The angels say I’m okay to do it because I’ve already scried all of the Aethyrs (I note that I need to check any ego-delusion) and on account of that experience and the development of my subtle bodies to go through this. The metaphor is like drinking too much before sleep and then having to pee at night. The angels say I’ll have to carry this burden until I cross the Abyss again.

The angels take me into the heavens once more, the seam in the sky and Victorival’s work. The beings are coming through the seam very quickly and taking refuge in the water of my subtle body. Whatever it is, this has a lot of implications. The angels say that as I develop, my subtle body vessel will be able to accommodate many more beings. It will behave both as a magnet and a holding station.

I see something like unto a multicolored plant; it seems to have some kind of intelligence. It’s kind of confused and trying to understand what’s going on with me. The angels say to hold off on interacting with this being, so I ask it to wait, and it agrees. I get the sense that the entity is like unto a Chokmah entity, and the angels hint that such is likely the case. The angels have nothing further, and the vision ends.