Working with the Throne

One of the things I like to do is learn from and experiment with others’ experiences & techniques. One I recently found was Dean Hildebrandt’s description of the throne in the New Jerusalem in Revelations 21. Recall that “Jerusalem” was the location of the part of the Earth known as HUTMOCS.

I decided to explore this; and received guidance from the angels as to how. First, I was told to use my accounting for the eight letters of the name of the zodiacal king Lavavoth. The first letter, L, is omitted (referring to L/El, which in Enochian means “The First” and the unity of the Divinity); it winds up being used later. This shifts the first of the letters such that the throne is then named: VRVINVNEOCARNOGHCG, which I was later told was then to be followed by L as the name of the Divine, and they were to be used as the substitution for the Aethyr name in the call.

Preceding the call to the throne-as-Aethyr, I was to make the call to LIL, and before each call I was to make a short prayer, O remiges varpax, which may have the meaning of “Lord have mercy,” followed by Kyrie eleison (the Latin translation of same), three times. Finally, I was told to request a question and its answer, and then an empowerment.

I went ahead and did as told, and saw a throne, and the first thing I saw was a figure with a very tall crown, almost as if it were a pope’s hat, but instead was a crown made of intricate gold. “Resplendent” was the word that came to mind, and I became emotional. I was led partway to the throne by the 12 zodiacal king angels, and after a certain point I was to walk, so I did so, but prostrated fully every three steps (seven times/21 steps) along the way. I remained prostrated at the end.

The Divine appeared in feminine form, and reminded me that I was to request both a question and its answer from Her. “Yes,” I replied, and humbly asked Her for these. She smiled, bidding me to be still at first, then allowing me to approach. As I do, I see her seven angels around the throne, briefly appearing armed and as a warning at first with what looked like pikes with vajras at the end. Yet this was merely to show “This is what we can do,” and with the Divine having given Her leave, they now appear to be very soft and no longer appear as guards.

The Divine Herself appeared perhaps to ten to twelve feet tall, and I sat in Her lap, and She held me to her bosom. She thanked me for coming, telling me that it’s been a long journey and that there will continue to be journeys. What’s needed most for me, She continues, is health.

The question she has for me is “close to my heart”: “How does one continue to move with their heart aligned with the Cosmic [i.e., Divine] Heart?” The answer, she says, is in two parts. First, the heart is always aligned with the Cosmic heart: it’s a matter of maintaining awareness of that. Maintaining awareness of that is simply all that one needs to do, but in order to do that, one must be healed.

Next She reminds me that I was to ask for an empowerment, which I humbly do. I feel an energy about my heart, like a golden snake or coil, illuminating brightly a bright golden-white light. My solar plexus is feeling lit up by this, but the Divine instructs me to maintain awareness of my heart. She shows me an intricate, infinite metal tower, like a fleur-de-lis going out/up to infinity, and it is lit up by a brightly lit background, almost blindingly so. It is my heart, and She reminds me to maintain awareness on it, and how vast and how eternal that is, and to allow myself to merge with that. There are many red jewels, (rubies correspond to Mars but Star Rubies to Chokmah in 777) occasionally green also, but mainly red—I am to own the dominance of red jewels on the gold metalwork. She shows me some blue jewels as well (sapphires correspond to Jupiter but Star Sapphires to Binah), and finally to black diamonds (corresponding to the World of Adam Qadmon and Ain/Ain Sof/Ain Sof Aur).

“Now let the healing be complete,” She says. She’s working Her Will that my background awareness always be on my heart being aligned to the Divine Heart. She shows it overcoming areas of tension (such as in my body), and that this will improve in time. She concludes with a kiss, and we end in Union.

Gebofal, Day 9

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIN. Call to King BLUMAZA (associated with the sephira of Yesod), as described in Day 2.

Note: This was a slightly awkward scrying. I had to take one of our cats to the vet today and, my being a “householder,” I improvised a bit rather than trying to reschedule. I have tried to live by the commandment, “Render unto Caesar what is Caesar’s, and unto God what is God’s” (and, according to some versions: “…and unto me what is mine”). For me, this means trying to meet my worldly responsibilities as well as I can manage. In other words, I knew this ritual would leave me perpetually busy before I started it! 😀

I activated the furniture before I left; I brought what I could of it (a smaller version of the Holy Table of Practice, the large (main) Sigillum Dei Aemeth, King BLUMAZA’s seal, the Round Tablet of Nalvage, my wand, and Amzes Naghezes Hardeh, AKA Liber Loagaeth). I forgot the full, prayer of Enoch as related by the angel Ave (which I have modified), so I relied on Aaron Leitch’s transcript of the original. This being the 9th day, and angels constantly drawing out 40 & 9 (e.g., the numbers on the outer ring of the SDA summing to 441, 49*9, and there being 40 cells in all of this outer ring = 49-9), I expected a shift, and there was, and I’m not just talking about the awkward scrying session to start the day. Note also that the Aethyr of LIN is the first Aethyr with an angelic governor whose does not derive from the previous methods of the Watchtowers: PARAOAN.

The vision begins with four dots of a square; I then see a tesseract. The angels rotate the tesseract. I visualize holding a torch lit by compassion. The angels remind me that this was originally the Aethyr that tripped me up in 2014, but now I can see the rotation, and that this is a turning point when it comes to the Aethyrs, and where it gets more complicated. I’m seeing four dots above me and four dots below me, each set in a square configuration, and they’re twisting in opposite directions, then returning to their initial position. My subtle body is sort of being twisted along with this. King BLUMAZA bids me be still, and I do so after adjusting myself in my seat.

The Governors & King are showing me a light, which is reminiscent of the light which strikes George Malley in Phenomenon. It sort of hits me. The angels are trying to shake something loose in me, and they note that it’s difficult on account of the awkward physical position I’m in, but acknowledge it is how it is with my being a householder. My subtle body is moving a lot; this Aethyr is very dynamic. I try to remember the heart of compassion, and the angels commend this, saying it will always magnetize me in the proper direction. This dynamism, they tell me, is all part of the lunar nature of King BLUMAZA & his sephira of Yesod, and the cyclical nature of the moon and the understanding thereof. They say it’s almost like the start of a new moon cycle (note: the moon is in Aquarius, not Aries, so this is metaphorical).

The unfolding that’s taking place in this scrying session is like unto folding something in a different dimension, such as pushing and pulling front and back rather than left-right or up-down. I see a palace open before me. I see a cross, but it is now rotated 90 degrees, except that the left length is equal to the right, and the short top part is of equal length to the bottom. They ask me what this is reminiscent of, and I say, “an airplane” (aeroplane). An airplane is trying to maintain a balance, more or less, of orientation. The angels ask what happens if a pilot loses visual? The pilot goes to instruments. Yet if the pilot loses visual, then visual cues are needed. The instruments are the heart, they tell me, whereas the visual is the circumference. The angels say that there is what you see in the imaginal/astral, and then there’s what you see in the mundane. This will be important as I work my through the palaces, for the heart and the mind must navigate the earthly palace and the heavenly palace simultaneously, so rather than two navigations, I must track four! The astral heart (center), the mundane heart, the astral visual (circumference), and the mundane visual, and finally these two palaces which must be navigated, and I mustn’t confuse the mundane and the astral! 😀

There will be yet another doubling, I’m told, which will be the reconciliation of all of these things in some manner. I express gratitude, the angels acknowledge and say they foreshorten this on account of my responsibilities. “Peace be upon you; know that He governeth all things.”

The vision ends.

Noon: Similar, ritual as Day 2, call to King BLUMAZA and to Governors Ozidaia, PARAOAN, and Calzirg.

I take a 7-7-14 breath. I see several images, but the angels ask me to focus again on the light which shook me earlier during this morning’s session. I see a vertical ring of light, a horizontal ring of light, and then a ring of light which is circular about the x- and y-axes. The last of these is about me, and I’m feeling out, using my heart of compassion as a torch again, coming from this place of compassion again. I see this heart as a pearl again, and it’s vibrating about the y-axis, at times with an axial tilt of about 30 degrees (and then reverting to vertical) which causes a conic section at top to seem to be bored out, but then it seems to not be. I get a sense that this is “the limits of the [heart] sphere to undo anything.” The angels are telling me that if there is some change that needs to happen, there may be some tilt to this degree, but then the entire thing just repolarizes or, if the attempt to create a change isn’t working out, reverses polarities.

The sense that I get is that about the xz plane (e.g., the slightly more than the ecliptic), there isn’t as much need to change or to change perspective.

A frog shows up. After testing, it goes away, so it shouldn’t have been here. The angels are pleased with this. I concentrate on the solids I’ve previously received, including especially the small white sphere. It seems to resist being understood. I see it breaking apart as with slices of an orange and then coming back together. This, the angels tell me, is merely different faces of the same compassion shown, for example, to a zodiacal influence. Even with Venus in fall or exile, they tell me, showing compassion is down to the skill of the magician or sage or realized one to be compassionate.

I’m trying to relax into the vision, and the angels themselves instruct me to relax. The angels ask “What hath God wrought?” Note: this is a reference to Numbers 23:23; “For there is no enchantment with Jacob, neither is there any divination with Israel; now is it said of Jacob and of Israel: ‘What hath God wrought!’.” Ironically, it is also the first Morse code message ever sent, which is to say a means of giving a message which must be interpreted! Nonetheless, I answer plainly, “All things continue to be wrought through Him, and therefore all things are already wrought through him,” which I modify to “All is wrought by Him” (in an attempt to transcend the objectness or nounness).

There’s a shift in my manipura chakra when I say this. The angels again try to twist me, but this time inside out, shifting from me-as-center-and-God/Totality-as-circumference to me-as-circumference-and-God/Totality-as-center, and then back again. The angels try to return me to the “uncollapsed wave function” described in previous scryings. I’m also to see all of these at the heavenly and earthly levels (so we’re at 16 things to be seen simultaneously, if you’re keeping track!). I’m trying to consciously fuse all of this together into a single perspective; the angels declare that this will happen most definitely at the Aethyr of LIL.

I ask if there’s anything else. There’s something of a feeling of a coiling snake (which is often symbolic of kundalini, yet also the ouroboros) about my right ankle (my right foot is on King BLUMAZA’s seal). It coils up and about me, and I feel compelled to push its jaw above my head. Once again we have the Phanes egg of the Orphic Mysteries. They tell me to know the circumference of the snake itself (e.g., the energy of circumference of the Divine, and Its heart, and of oneself, and of one’s heart). The snake eating its tail and starting anew is a reminder of the fallacious concept of death.

Now the snake is literally stretching me apart. The metaphor to stretching the imagination, the energetic body, and so on could not be more obvious, but it’s only at writing this up that I make this connection. This, they tell me explicitly, is to help me be okay with a larger extent of myself. Again, I get the sense of a loss of reputation: “A snake shedding its skin, a snake shedding its skin,” they repeat. I look at the shed scales, and it’s reminding me of husks in Kabbalah. That part of me is already redeemed, I sense: the accomplishment of the True Will is already imminent. The completion of the project is already happening, so I’m not sure I entirely understand this. But it’s like who and what I am needs to be redefined. I’m looking at all of this with compassion. The angels are saying that it’s like the scales will drop from my eyes, in terms of my own circumference, and the circumference of God, and the circumference of All.

I see an equal-armed, which is like the kind of toy with regular white plastic, and then green squishy soft plastic and padding underneath; it’s about the size of my forearm and could be safely played with by a toddler. It has a hole at the center, signifying the heart and relating to the Monas Hieroglyphica. This is like unto the Buddhist deity Tara, the angels say. This is like unto the salvation of Christianity, they tell me, hastening to save humans from their sins and errors such as via the compassion of Buddhism, and there’s this Buddhist-mentality which can rectify the corruption of modern Christianity (I’m only the messenger, people!). I note the slightly lower quality of the transmission, but this is the turn towards the Abyss and then the supernals again, so it is not surprising.

I ask if the angels have anything further, but mention again that I do not wish to be a rude guest. They say “no,” but then show me a baseball diamond, but now seen from above, it is like unto the Masonic compass symbol.

The vision ends.

Sunset: I see a spiral come at me once more. I’m in a cocoonlike section of a twisty energy field, which is narrow except for the part which encompasses me. Rather than twisting as in the previous two visions, it’s stretching out like the spring of a pen from the ends, narrowing it out. This narrowing out is placing my energy field throughout the “circumference” or sphere of the universe.

The angels caution me that this is the point in which individuals can go down a bizarre road (they don’t expect me to, but there’s a reason for the caution). This, they say, is when an individual too wrapped up in petty or narrow ego concerns, or overly obsessed, or deluded as to the relative importance of matters: such a one can get a real sense of identification with the Divine, and thus go into grandiose directions which are not upheld by the totality of all. Whereas others can actually make this shift into the totality of the Divine, and continue to work within the areas which are upheld by all. They say that this takes a subtle mind and I request this as well as discernment and a proper heart and alignment toward all of these things.

The string is stretching me apart, and the angels say that what’s going on right now is the stretching apart of my subtle body into a more universal configuration with the Whole; it’s making its way out to the sphere of the universe (as it were), and God is now at the center, and we flip these perspectives back and forth. Essentially, we are reconciling, returning to an uncertain, uncollapsed quantum state as to Who is at the Center, and Who is at the “Circumference” (lacking a good term for the spherical equivalent of this). The angels say that for any given person, their relationship with God typically puts them at the center and God at the “Circumference” (“How do I relate to God of all?”), but one can also see the Divinity within oneself, and simultaneously extend their ideas of who they are to more and more of the “Circumference.” Both of these things are true at once, they tell me. This is the trick, they say: God is both indwelling within, but also interpenetrating the universe, thus both the center and spherical surface by each of our individual measures.

At the same time, we’re not only this core within, but we’re also the Circumference, and also the rules that determine the measures of these. As we develop into adulthood, this Circumference can seem to get larger, and as we become elderly this Circumference can seem to diminish, but someone who is truly Realized can get this Circumference truly realized with All, as it IS.

This Crowned Wisdom and Crowned Understanding is crucial, but not enough, for there needs to be a shift to the Heart. It’s not a simple thing to say, “Oh, it’s just the Heart, so I can just be loving, and everything will be just fine,” because at the same time, there’s still that pain and hurt by which too many of us have unconsciously defined ourselves. All of that said: what is going on here is a simultaneous process on both fronts (and for which I am profoundly grateful). I could feel this same kind of pull early. As far as Choronzon goes (which has been popping up–here I pause to call on the Governors Ozidaia, PARAOAN, and Calzirg and on King BLUMAZA). Here, again, they mention the black sphere of prior visions. It is spherical, which means it is properly balanced in this frame, so that when for an individual who is unbalanced, this seems like a prison, a black cube. But for one who is balanced, the core of dukkha is suddenly properly contextualized in an excellent system to undo suffering, via a white spherical heart of compassion. This happens both in the mundane world but also within the subtle body. These forces can thus be constrained and redeemed. It may seem scary to the ego, but going through this process, one comes to the core of issue of dukkha, and this torch of compassion cannot ever be snuffed out. The issue is with the mind, not the heart. If the mind put the heart first, the magnetized heart would eventually point the mind in directions which would allow the mind to correct itself, and to gain this transcendent understanding, and to put dukkha in its place and context.

The angels are encourage me to forget the form that all of this will take in the coming years. Instead, acknowledge that the spirit of the change will be understood in the coming weeks, rather than the form itself.