Just posted a video on my experience making the Enochian Book of Silvered Leaves. Big takeaway is it feels good drawing the symbols in it! Enjoy!
It has been one week since I finished making the Book of Silvered Leaves, spoken of by the angel Mapsama to John Dee and Edward Kelley (Aaron Leitch first references this encounter in The Enochian Saga: Exploring the Angelic Journals of Dr. John Dee on page 130, and Stephen Skinner’s edition of Dee’s diaries give a similar accounting on page 319). I wanted to take this time to discuss what the book is, how I went about making it, and the effects I’ve noticed mid-consecration.
The angel Mapsama, whose name means dic illis in Latin–“tell them” in English–appeared on May 24, 1584 (Julian calendar) and instructed Dee and Kelley to bind together “48 leaves [of paper], whose skin shall bear silver: Whose Perimeter shall be 30 inches, in length 8, in breadth 7.” When finished, the book is to be placed in a room with the door closed (presumably locked) for two weeks. Dee is told to invite the angels of the Lord, and also that humanity “is not worthy to write that shall be written: neither shall there be found many worthy to open that book.” He was then to place the book on a table-cloth (presumably the same cloth which was to go over the Holy Table of Practice) and invite the angels. Dee gets little more information about the book upon further questioning, though does ask to be allowed to do less work than this(!).
No record of Dee or Kelley making such a book exists, yet this book, I should add, is considerably simpler, in theory, than the book of Liber Loagaeth. No 49×49 tables, no binding in silk, and the like. Instead, this seems like a straightforward creation of a book with silvered leaves, and, given the lack of guidance, it seems that all that is required is that each leaf have some amount of silver added to it, and then the book is consecrated by remaining out of sight.
The particular use of silver on a page struck me, reminding me of the Abramelin operation, at the end of which, when the Holy Guardian Angel manifests, the supplicant is to look upon silver and copy down the sigil seen therein. My own experience with this was that I saw it as if I had seen bright neon sign flash against darkness–in other words, I saw the after-image of that kind of glare–but only when looking at the silver. So here we have silver, like the moon with which silver has almost unfailingly corresponded throughout the millennia, creating a reflection of light (as it does with sunlight), and what is seen is to be copied on paper. My guess is that the Book of Silvered Leaves would operate similarly, and so far the angels have not given me an intuitive sense that I am wrong. For although I am not worthy to write in the book, the consecration may either rectify me with the Divine to do so, or at least allow me to copy that which is seen in silver into the book itself–not technically writing so much as capturing that which is written. For all I know, the method may be that I’ll walk into the room next week and find a completely written book! But the angels have indicated that my intuition is correct, and that moreover I will receive 19 symbols which are to be linked to the 21 letters of the Enochian alphabet, with B (in Enochian, the name for this letter is “Pa“) and C/K (“Veh“) being linked with the first symbol, S (“Fam“) and T (“Gisg“) with the last, and the remaining symbols each being linked with one letter each.
The main reason I’m writing this, however, is to establish how I went about making the book and to confirm its lunar effects. I took guidance from the book of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (also known as Liber Loagaeth)–to use paper with no writing on it, cutting it down to 8 inches by 7 inches, and I simply glued silver leaf squares to an upper corner of each of the 48 leaves (front and back). I also bought an 8×8 scrapbook because the pages would be bound in the sense of “not going anywhere” to that scrapbook, and then put those leaves in the plastic sleeves (I couldn’t find an 8″x7″ scrapbook, so I taped off the extra inch on each of the 48 plastic sheets). Finding myself with one silver leaf remaining, I taped it to the front of the book. Finally, I had to adjust the width of the back slightly by adding in some cardboard. In all, this this took me about a week, and I was told by the angels that the astrological election for completing the work (which I counted as putting in the last page and then inviting the angels) would be obvious, and given my natal chart, it definitely was. When I finished the book, I activated the furniture, placed Liber Loagaeth above the Sigillum Dei Aemeth (which as usual was on the table), put the “flashing red and green,” tabasco-silk cloth atop the table so that everything was covered up. Atop that cloth I placed the Book of Silvered Leaves. As far as inviting the angels, I read lines 21 through 26 of table 1a of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), read calls 1 and 2, and finally recited the first section of Dee’s invocation to the good angels (Fundamentalis ad DEVM Supplicatio, et Obtestatio pro Angelorum Bonorum, benigno, habendo Ministerio; in Latin and English). It has been one week since this, so this is about halfway through the consecration period.
The effects of this have been as follows: first, daily, I have sensed the energy coming from the room, and it grows every day. My sense is that it will ultimately encompass the entire home. Second, it has been an especially emotional time at home, which is quite in line with lunar effects. Next, I have noticed that other lunar effects, mainly dreams, have been strongly activated. I rarely remember my dreams, but I have been recalling them often. Finally, I have a sense that there is some angelic “resolution” associated with incorporating this lunar energy. Amzes Naghezes Hardeh/Liber Loagaeth indeed brought the wisdom of the cosmos, but some more “down-to-earth” revelation seems indicated by the Book of Silvered Leaves. It’s quite the oversimplification to call Amzes Naghezes Hardeh/Liber Loagaeth “solar” (though the solar angelic prince Bornogo is featured prominently in Leaf 9) but if one incorporates the idea of the path of the sun as pulling in all of the cosmos, then it makes sense that it can open the gates of Wisdom/Chokmah. My sense is that there will be quite complementary solar and lunar energies from using both books in tandem, and I wouldn’t be surprised by a lunar wisdom (or perhaps a foundation/Yesod for such Wisdom) coming from the Book of Silvered Leaves.
I will, of course, give an update to this when I have finished the consecration of the book and have more to report.
With my recent Enochian workings, I have usually taken to working with Marmara/Carmara, the angel who is something of a high king to the Heptarchy (closest to Baligon, king of Venus—“Love conquers all”!) but also, in my experience, also seems to be high king over (or at least working in concert with) the zodiacal angelic kings. In concert with Marmara, I usually work with Galvah (and also have worked with a form of her in practices outside of Enochian proper). Aaron Leitch did an excellent write-up of Galvah last year and relates her to the mother in heaven in Revelation 12, a theory I see no reason to oppose. There’s also reason to relate her to the Mother of Life in Manicheanism, part of the World of Light (note that 28 of the angels on the Sigillum Dei Aemeth are in four groups: the Sons, Daughters, Sons of Sons, and Daughters of Daughters of Light). I won’t repeat much of what Leitch has written, but wanted to draw out some of the astrological and mathematical information associated with this mother as presented in Revelations, using the KJV translation. This would have been available shortly after Dee’s death and likely reflects some of the theology of the time—though surely can’t be thought as highly representative, given the upheaval in late medieval/early Renaissance England.
First, the obvious: verse one described the mother in heaven as “clothed with the sun, and the moon under her feet, and upon her head a crown of 12 stars.” This is clearly a reference to the ecliptic, the 12 signs of the zodiac, and either a south node lunar eclipse (the south node representing the tail/feet) or the general sense of the moon being the lesser of the two luminaries (giving less intense but also borrowed light).
Verses 2 and 5 suggest speak of her giving birth to a son “who was to rule all the nations with a rod of iron: and her child was caught up unto God, and to his throne.” This parallels Manichaeism, in which the Mother of Life giving birth to the Original Man who is sent to Earth (this makes sense, given Manichaeism was influenced by early Christianity).
Verses 3 and 4 describe a dragon with seven heads and 10 horns. Seven of course parallels the number of classical astrological planets: the aforementioned luminaries as well as Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn. Note that we go from the fixed stars (zodiac) to the more volatile planets: this reminds me of SHWEP’s episode Silent Encounters (brought to us by the unmatchrd Earl Fontainelle), which includes a review of how the fixed stars were considered more divine. In The Ogdoad Reveals the Ennead (or Discourse on the Eighth & the Ninth); the eighth sphere is that of the fixed stars (and that there is a ninth sphere also a hint of a tenth sphere beyond it). Also included in that episode is a reference to ten divine powers in Corpus XIII, “hidden hymn,” which interestingly “purge [Tat] of zodiacal influence” according to Fontainellle. So we see a bit of an opposition between the number 10 and the zodiac across these various texts.
Returning to Revelations 12: Verse 6 has the mother flee into the wilderness for “a thousand two hundred and threescore days,” or 1260 days. 1260 is 35*36, a near square (note that each of the watchtower tablets is 12×13, another near square). 1260 is 2^2 * 3^2 * 5 * 7, the first four primes, with the first two squared, and all four—even the first two squares, 4 and 9–being less than 10. 4 and 9 together, of course, together are reminiscent of 49, the number of leaves of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh and the square of the number 7 which is repeated so often in Enochian. 1260 days is just under 3.5 years (half of 7, or 1/10 of 5*7). The other references to the mother are in verses 14, in which the mother is “given wings of a great eagle“ (like an angel!) and flies to a great wilderness, to be nourished away from the serpent (Satan) for (switching to the NIV here) “a time, times, and half a time,” which is a minimum of 3.5 (the same number we’ve seen before—indeed much of this verse repeats verse 6). Finally, in verse 16, the mother is aided by the Earth itself: “as above, so below.”
As I’ve come to discover, there’s a lot of astrology to be found if you revisit the Bible. However, I wasn’t expecting later Hermetic astrology and Manichaeism to parallel Revelations so strongly!
I was not quite satisfied with the zodiacal HTOP, though the structure was excellent. I knew that somehow the names of God from the Watchtower tablets needed to be included and, indeed, remixed, but how? With 48 letters, the four names resembled the 48 letters of the archangels on the SDA (and the heptagram seemed to be indicated). But the arrangements of letters just weren’t right. Clearly, the main thing that was missing was the angels!
For various reasons I was delayed until today in making the call to King Carmara, yet when he arrived he was kind enough to make the corrections for me. I used a color scheme close to Liber 777’s for the letters (as this was advised) and got a very stable new vision of LIL when I made the call to it. I’m including the latest version of the Enochian tools below, and will update where it appears elsewhere on the blog. You may use it but please do not adapt it:
Enochian Implements ( 8) by Cliff is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.
The general use here is to combine the planetary angels of the original holy table with the zodiacal angels. Obviously, knowledge of essential dignity is key, but with this you can do combinations related to your birth chart for MAJOR remediation. This is not something minor and should be seen as a massive opportunity.
Use it wisely, use it well, use it joyfully.
So this gebofal post is mainly for astrology nerds. Other than beginning on the Sunday sunrise after Passover, this was not an astrologically elected beginning.
Note the culminating Libra full moon, conjunct the Part of Forthne, ruled and received by Venus in fall as the sun, in exaltation by sign, applies to a conjunction (yet both are received by sign by Mars), which, incidentally is at my Lot of Eros. Mars, chart ruler, is received by a separating square with Mercury, which like the moon is also in fall, but is also in exile; Mars is also in a separating trine to Saturn. Saturn is in its domicile and receives Jupiter.
All planets are in their own light. In general, the planets seem fairly well disposed. Mars is my final dispositor.
Now here is the chart for the end of gebofal:
This date follows the days of the Counting of the Omer; it’s after sunset because of the time it took me to read the Angel Ave’s recited Prayer of Enoch, plus Leaf 1 of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth) after sundown. Once again, we have all planets in their own light, and the Part of Fortune is in Libra again. I am timing the end of gebofal as the end of the reading of Leaf 1, which is 4802 Enochian words, after reading the call to prayer of Enoch. I’ll probably start the latter earlier than sunset to get the timing as close to this chart as possible:
Now, however, we have not one, but four planets in domicile: Saturn, Jupiter, the moon, and Mercury: one each from the four planetary types. We have even more robust reception: a tight applying conjunction of the moon to Mars in Cancer, lending its strength to the malefic in its fall. The peregrine sun is disposed by Venus, which is received by Mercury in Gemini (the latter trined Saturn on the last day I made a call to the Heptarchy, a Wednesday, Mercury’s day, when I called King Carmara for help in giving the power of that day from Mercurial King Bnaspol to Saturnian King Bnapsen (King Bobogel is also called to lend support, having taken Bnapsen’s place on Saturday the 8th).
The Ascendant is in an applying square to its chart ruler, while the benefic of sect is sextile the MC and loosely applying to a trine with Saturn. Both the moon and Mars are injunct Saturn.
The only odd duck here is the sun; other than being in the sign of my natal sun and moon, it seems out of place, except for a trine to Pluto.
At the start of gebofal, I would say the planets start off as an interdependent hodgepodge, with most gaining strength only by reception or exaltation. At the end, they continue to lend strength by reception (and stronger reception at that), but the majority are in their own domicile. The balanced Part of Fortune in Libra suggests that the entire process is bringing out in me a clear balance to my life’s path.
I’m a Leo rising with a Taurus new moon, so the activated houses here are my 7th, 8th, 10th, 11th and 12th are all being heavily activated, and also my natal Saturn and Jupiter are activated by transiting angles.
I’ll update this post if the timing shifts.
Update 1: See text.
Update 2: I have added King Carmara & Prince Hagonel to those days in which multiple kings & at least one prince must be called, for they are the high king and prince, respectively. See my write-up of Day 36, coming shortly. This also leaves (heh) both King Carmara & Prince Hagonel called times each.
I think I have something of a scheme (subject to change) which explains the different order that I’ve observed with respect to these leaves. Today (Day 35/Leaf 15), the tablet activated was the Air tablet, and because it’s Saturday, it was King Bnapsen who I called. He said that there will be a reversing, several times, of the tablet order.
Yet I have also noted the following: most of the time, the Enochian calls (which, among other things, are associated with the leaves of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth) of gebofal) sometimes have large numbers (i.e., in the thousands) in them, and these are relatively close to the number of servient angels associated with zodiacal kings in the Aethyrs. Yet there are some calls which do not have them.
Thinking through both of these discrepancies, I had a tentative order to the remaining days’ workings; it was beautiful, it was, in King Bnapsen’s words, “clever,” but “wrong.” Rather than show the original, here’s what he hacked with me during today’s solar noon scrying. I’ll link to this after the fact.
The only thing I’ll note is that tomorrow, Sunday, I will actually call on Prince Bornogo (in addition to King Bobogel). Other days I’m either calling on only the king or a king and prince jointly. Saturn and the sun invert their associations for exaltation and fall, so there are two days when their influences are combined (“the last shall be first, and the first, last.“)
The second of these, the last elemental day (yet n.b. that two watchtower calls remain on Thursday & Friday, and Leaf 1 I will read on Saturday), falls on Wednesday, yet King Bnapsen associated it with the Sun and Saturn. When I call on Prince Brorges the Saturday prior, it is nonetheless during Mercury’s hour). Mercury is mercurial! By then, astrological Mercury will be in exact trine to Saturn, and the sun the sun is transiting will be ruled by Venus, who will be in Mercury’s sign of Gemini. Finally, the sephirothic & planetary switch between Raphael and Michael for Tiphareth, Hod, Mercury, and the sun seem somehow reconciled with Saturn in this plan.
In general, he says, this is tailored to me and my natal chart (King Bnapsen notes that my Mercury is in Aries, the sign of the sun’s exaltation), so your results may vary.
Finally, note that the tablet order changes from:
- Water-Earth-Fire-Air (West-North-East-South, which suggests the night, a reversal of the day), to
- Air/South-Water/West-Earth/North-Fire/East (shifting the order by a single tablet), then
- Air/South-Water/West-Earth/North-Fire/East (again), and finally:
- Fire-Water-Earth-Air, which, interestingly, has the “first and last” from the previous two rounds reversed.
Here’s the table:
|Call (by convention / proper)||Day of week||Date||Element||King(s) / Prince||Planet||Sign||Domicile|
|17/18||Wednesday||28-Apr||Earth||Bnaspol||Mercury||Virgo||Domicile & Exaltation|
|13/14||Sunday||2-May||Water||Carmara, Hagonel, Bobogel Bornogo & Baligon||Venus||Pisces||Exaltation|
|12/13||Monday||3-May||Earth||Carmara, Hagonel, Blumaza, Bralges, Bnapsen||Moon / Saturn||Taurus / Capricorn||Exaltation /Domicile|
|7/8||Saturday||8-May||Fire||Carmara, Hagonel, Bnapsen, Brorges,|
|5/6||Monday||10-May||Water||Carmara, Hagonel, Blumaza, Bralges, Bynepor||Moon / Jupiter||Cancer||Domicile/ Exaltation|
|3/4||Wednesday||12-May||Air||Carmara, Hagonel, Bnaspol, ||Sun/Saturn||Aries/Libra||Exaltation (inversion)|
|*1: Leaf 1||Saturday||15-May||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A|
|†0||Prayer of Enoch only||16-May||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A|
|‡00||Prayer of Enoch only||17-May||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A|
|**000||Prayer of Enoch only||18-May||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A||N/A|
†Included to complete a full septile and to fulfill promise: “Thrice 50 times will I lift my hands unto thee” in prayer of Enoch.
‡Included to complete a full astrological septile
**Actual end of the ritual; included to complete a full septile. This day the moon is in Leo, my rising sign, while the sun is in Taurus, my 10th house and the sign of my sun & moon.
Strikethrough text indicates changes to calls based on advice from King Carmara in later readings.
Sorry for the formatting. Full spreadsheet available on request.
Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 19 (typically associated with the Earth Watchtower Tablet; note that most practitioners refer to this as Call 18): because I rarely make this call, I made it three times. Call to King Babalel (once again using the call in Scott Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy). I prepared for angels of secret discovery and angels of living creatures, and, given the content of the scryings, I was, in a sense, given this. Because the former call references the number 6332, I recalled that other large numbers were associated with the zodiacal kings with respect to the Aethyrs. So, I vibrated the name of Zodiacal King Ziracah (associated with Taurus), who, in the Aethyr of UTI, is associated with 6333 servient angels (it’s only one away, so I presumed some correspondence, and even were I wrong, it doesn’t hurt to have another angel helping). I also vibrated (for good measure) the name of Governor Obvaors, who appears in the same row as the Ziracah/UTI row in Aaron Leitch’s The Essential Enochian Grimoire. I was a little annoyed at myself for being underprepared, but to be fair to me, I feel like I’m in a little bit of uncharted territory.
As I mentioned on Day 29, I was unsure about the association between the days and the leaves; today I placed my hand on Leaf 19b, but it was Leaf 18 in which Kelley was attacked by gnomes for accidentally invoking them. So Leaf 18 should be the one associated with with Earth, rather than today’s. Yet this call is typically associated with Earth. To split the difference, I placed my right foot on the seal of King Babalel (recall that this king is of a Martial/Mars nature, and thus strong in waters (Scorpio)). I placed the four Tabula Recensa watchtower tablets with their usual configuration on the floor in front of me, with Fire tablet roughly to the East and facing that way, Air to the South and facing that direction, similarly Water to the West, and Earth to the North. I placed my feet on all four of them, so I could clearly tell which element was associated with which by energetic feel (a certain tingling is obvious to me when I work with the tablets like this).
The angels indicated that calling on the correct angels associated with this tablet wasn’t really the concern, but nonetheless I prepared a list of the earth-related angel names: those of Secret Discovery, and those of Living Creatures. Unfortunately, as I prepared, I noticed a discrepancy between the Enochian Watchtower angels listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Great Table and Leitch’s Essential Enochian Grimoire. This was a little unsettling and, well, I didn’t have time to settle it this morning, nor will I this afternoon or evening! So I decided to forego calling on the Watchtower angels. At any rate, on to the vision:
I feel energy at the Water tablet, from the heel of my right foot. I’m told to be silent for a moment. I feel myself drawn into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and it is definitely watery.
- Note: the original Great Table had water as the last element in order (Fire-Earth-Air-Water); nonetheless, I’m not sure as to whether this feeling reflects the influence of King Babalel, or rather a reversal of the original Great Table order (Water-Air-Earth-Fire). Tomorrow, Wednesday, has King Bnaspol, who is specifically indicated to be strong in Earth (Virgo) from his call. So, if I notice that the Earth tablet is activated, I could use this as evidence that the Heptarchical kings override the tablet order, but if the Air tablet is activated I could assume that the order of these leaves reflects the original Great Table order (though Mercury/King Bnaspol should be relatively strong in air, the main power indicated is over earth due to both exaltation and domicile, and most importantly the call to King Bnaspol). Things would be even stranger if Fire were activated, and I would probably throw up my hands if water were activated tomorrow as well!
Returning to the vision: this wateriness isn’t what I was expecting, and that’s okay! King Babalel is trying to guide me right now, and he says to make the call to governor Ziracah (note that this King is associated with Taurus, an Earth sign, which opposes the water sign of Scorpio, where Mars is strongest, and from which King Babalel presumably has his power over waters), which I do. I feel energy come up off the leaf and the water tablet. There’s a bit of shifting around of the energy now. The angels say that it’s not like one element is existing completely separately from another. Nonetheless, water is dominant; part of this, I’m told by King Babalel, is his own influence, but, yes, this leaf–and this call (presumably when used for gebofal)–is of a watery nature.
I ask, in all humility, the angels that if I indeed be in the realm of Adam Qadmon, to please show me what is to be shown. I’m told to make the call to the God of the West. Thus, the God of the West/Water is
MPH ARSL GAIOL (OIP TEAA PDOKE), which is what I vibrated. [Despite my the godname from the original tablet,] I feel this water come up from the tablet and up my right leg, whooshing up and all about me from the water tablet. The angels note that yesterday, the full moon was in Scorpio (and, I would just add, aided by mutual reception from Mars in Cancer).
It’s a subtle point, but the angels are saying, “Water flows, and water dissolves. Water can move about in a rush, and if it hits you thus is most solid-like, like earth. For that reason it can behave like a solid when it is moving quickly or, of course, when it is frozen. Or, it can, just by a soluble being in contact with it, it can dissolve that soluble, and flow and transport the solution. So, its nature,” the angels tell me, “is to break down, and to transport, whether that be temperature, whether that be through dissolution, through flowing, or through the force of its pushing, like unto a solid. It breaks down, and it transports.”
So when I ask how this relates to the geometry in the Aethyrs, the angels are saying, “What this can do is break down the current association between points, and it can, as a result, move two points together or further apart. It can also act as an intermediary between the two.” I express my gratitude to the angels and to God for this, and I ask if there be anything else. They say, “No. Continue to treat this a bit as an experiment,” because this is kind of new to me, so I take it to heart, in heart. They’re adding, “More will be revealed to you: this was going to be a bit clunky, anyway, but now you know the best way to approach this.” I thank them and they give me as homework to flesh out the remaining days, so I thank them and I will.
Noon: Call 19 (18 as labeled by most practitioners). Call to King Babalel. As usual (I haven’t included it because I mentioned it earlier), I vibrate the title of Leaf 19a. Taking the lessons from this morning’s Aethyr, I vibrate the name of God MPH ARSL GAIOL. I vibrate the names of King Ziracah and Governor Obvaors. Feet are placed as mentioned earlier.
The angels have me relax. Once again, I feel energy arise from the Water Quadrant/Tablet; I even moved the seal of King Babalel to under my left foot, and though I felt energy come up from that seal when making the call to him, I instead found the energy coming up from my right heel again when making this call.
Now they move on to reviewing the morning’s lesson & vision with me: water transports, water dissolves, thus it can dissolve the relationship between two times, and can also transport between them. Now they ask me to review this with respect to geometry; once again, this is a reviewing of the lessons of the higher Aethyrs, as I was promised, yet the angels note that this relates to the lower Aethyrs as well: all of reality. The effect of water is its rearranging of conditions. These elements can rearrange the conditions in which Heaven and Earth meet (see yesterday’s scrying) so that the flow that one is in is being met properly and appropriately. The angels assure me that a lot of these lessons will be learned by my unconscious mind more than anything else.
They move on to asking me to consider two points, or even a system of points of geometric consciousness of an individual. It’s natural that, in interacting with someone else, there would be a certain amount of elemental water involved in the realm of consciousness. If one increases the amount of water in the individual, then there’s a bit of dissolution of the structures that one has in place, which could cause two points to separate, or perhaps come closer together, but regardless it changes the arrangement of no less than two points to each other. Also, the angels have me consider the transportation of certain new solutes into the system by dint of the introduction of water.
Now the angels turn to the knock-on effects. Introducing more water forces that system to react by bringing in more earth in order to remain in its current arrangement, or perhaps to decide how it wishes to flow or rearrange itself given this introduction of water. Also, the transportation of a flow between two different and currently set points–assuming no dissolution is involved–the individual would need to decide whether they want a flow between these points. For example, would the individual want their set point of “compassion” to flow to and/or from an individual who has done heinous crimes? Do they want that compassion to be linked up to someone whom they, to that point, have viewed as “evil”? So the individual may need to rearrange the way that certain ideas flow, so this is a bit of a secondary dissolution (i.e., a rearrangement of a relationship between established points of consciousness), rather than a primary one.
Now the angels take me back and have me consider the person who is giving or introducing the water. Someone with a more Scorpionic take may want to introduce water in order to investigate or understand something better; this is not unheard of for people with planets in Scorpio, with an intensity, which sort of shoots water out like a pipe or a hose, such as to hose down a dirty car or to aim directly at a fire. A Scorpionic sense of this, the angels tell me, is much more–and this, again, is opposed to the sign of Taurus, ruled by King Ziracah, yet in line with King Babalel (whose link to Scorpio I’ve already mentioned), so there’s this interesting dynamic between these two angels. At any rate, the angels are saying that someone who is introducing water could be coming at it with this Scorpionic intensity and focused kind of water, that fixed water which is aimed precisely at a fixed point.
Now the angels turn to the introduction of water from someone with planets in Cancer. Here, the transporting quality of water is paramount, as with nutrients. Or, in the cardinal sense of the sign, water may be used to change the dynamic about someone. For example, in a protective manner, someone with, say, a Mars in Cancer (as we have now), the water is used to dissolve points about someone in a dangerous situation so that they can leave the old dynamic and move into a newer, safer one. How water would act from Cancer is thus very dependent on the needs of the situation (recall that Cancer is ruled by the moon, the fastest-moving of the planets and associated largely with the final formation of circumstances just before they emerge into this world, i.e., Yesod), and those things or circumstances that it senses or intuits should be begun.
Finally, we have mutable water: Pisces. So here we have the sign of fish, whose entire reality is water. Here, the person themselves is being transported along with the water that they reside in. Whereas a crab may or may not reside in water–a fish must live in water. Fish must therefore be highly adaptable to water in all of its measureless (“infinite”) variety: “TON MAOFFAS DAMPLOZ,” the angels use the Enochian phrase. The consciousness is thus in this water, and this sign chooses to live with somewhat fewer “fixed points.” Granted, a fish still has somewhat fixed points relative to its own body, but it sees the world with much more fluid points about it. Nonetheless, if water is going certain direction, the fish must account for the flow of the water, the changes of points caused by the water, what’s transported in the water: that whole concept is very much to be considered (clearly, I have no planets in Pisces or Cancer, so the angels take their time explaining these!).
“This is a lot,” the angels acknowledge. I ask whether they have anything in their generosity, if they be so inclined, to offer, and they say, “No,” but bid me to write this up. They acknowledge that these are complicated lessons, but important to consider, because now we’re going to get at some of the “roots” of the 360 degree circle/ecliptic (note the play on root and “square root”–19 being the rounded square root of 360), and all of that which is within it. The 30 degrees of the Aethyrs is the repeated cycle within any given sign, but these are the root principles of the entire Zodiac: “What is at the root of the Zodiac,” they clarify.
Thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Similar procedure: Vibrating the titles of Leaf 19a&b. Call to King Babalel.
Vibrated the God names “MPH, ARSL, GAIOL.” (Note: I have decided to revert to the Tabula Recensa, so such vibrations will be associated with their usual locations. In the case of Water/West, the association is OIP, TEAA, PDOKE). Because I’m confident in this being a thoroughly watery vision, I place both feet upon the water Watchtower tablet, which has the seal of King Babalel above it.
I see this wave part in front of me, and it’s like a vision of Moses parting the Red Sea, and the angels are just pointing out the staff–associated with fire symbolically–which parts water, and how the action of water is undone. I’m approached by King Babalel, speaks to me for the rest of the vision. He walks with me and has me take note of all of the different geometric points in the two sides of the walls of water held in stasis. He notes the fish therein, and he notes the crabs (some in the water, some on the land on which we walk), and the scorpions. He notes the pinpoint accuracy of the stinger of a scorpion, and the crab’s circular crabwalk (like unto the moon!), and he notes how the fish seem to be everywhere in the water and seem to defy a lot of logic in their way.
“But each of them has their strong points,” he remarks. Now I’m feeling more energy come up off of the leaf. “Just to get very specific about how this relates to the realm of Adam Qadmon,” King Babalel transitions, and how I need to consider this as I do this: he notes that today was a somewhat difficult day for me to maintain the compassionate heart, but I did sort of rally at the end of the day. “This is a good thing,” he continues, “and now have compassion for all of this. Have compassion for the fact that water dissolves! and have compassion for the different ways in which it acts! and begins things anew! and can be concentrated, and focused!” Basically, he finishes the point: “have compassion for these various areas of your own chart, relatively empty though they may be!”
I agree, and as I do so, I see a watery sphere about me (here’s an alternative reference), and King Babalel says to take a good look around, and to really note this. When I’m encountering others in the future, he says, “You will get a sense of what’s going on with them, and what seems to be lacking based on a sense of their aura. ‘This is not watery enough,’ or, ‘This is too watery.’ This can be combined with the general sense of chakras,” which, he adds, do not completely overlay with planetary influences, yet it’s its own septenary nature which tends to combine at times. Mars, Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter (whose rulership in the zodiac opposes each other) are more or less like unto the elements. Yet the three remaining have been of interest to me in their higher forms: the sun overlays with the heart, the moon with the third eye (as broad intuition), and Saturn with the crown chakra (as Binah). The king advises me to be aware that I will have a greater sense of other people. This will be a transformation of me and my perception, because I’ve been given such a vast and wonderful teaching (and, as I write this up, I wonder whether a deeper, more fundamental teaching has been given to my energetic system), which I heartily agree with.
King Babalel kindly says that the angels are grateful for the work that I’m doing to teach this stuff and giving as much as I can in return, and says many other kind things, and gives me a subtle bow. I make sure to give a deep bow in return and give my thanks to him and all of the angels. He notes the holiness of this day, the 31st day of the ritual (31 is associated in Gematria with the name El or ‘God’), and that I will only see him two more times in this ritual.
I ask if there’s anything I need to concern myself with as far as calling the kerubs or so-called “lesser” angels of the Watchtowers, and King Babalel tells me that they are not appearing the same way here in this ritual. This is but the first lesson about water, he says, and I will rev up into the next lesson–except it won’t be him next time. I extrapolate that perhaps the next time will be Saturday, but I’m fine discovering this as the days unfold.
I express my gratitude again, and ask whether he has other things to show to me. “No,” he says, but notes that he is very pleased and to continue especially with the compassion. This will make everything make much more sense, and that ultimately we’re getting into some root forces of the heart here.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIL. Call to King Blumaza. Note: If you’ve never done Enochian, this Aethyr is quite powerful. After scrying this Aethyr the first time in 2019, I took steps to try to initiate myself into Chokmah and, for this Aethyr, Kether. After meeting with some success thereby, I was able to deepen the vision of this.
I see this pure, white sphere. It’s like it’s trying to shine out all of these different colors, and I feel my crown chakra lifting and raising up. There’s a lot of lightning coming off of this sphere now, and now it is so bright because it is reflecting all of the light which ever has come to reflect off of it. It is blindingly light now, and I am being wrapped up in a beam from it. It is holding me and taking me into a cocoon and it is taking me inside of itself.
This is the Diving Heart of Hearts. I approach the Center, and I’m slowly decelerated as I approach It. When I look about me, I see all of these thousands of millions of possibilities of beings, and I’m having compassion towards all of them, all of these lives lived, moments of Joy, Sorrow, Horror, and Peace. I’m seeing them through millions and billions of species’ eyes. I’m just trying to maintain this level of compassion for all of them.
I feel all of these moments come through me now, rotating from the outside to the Center, where I am, as through a torus, and I continue to have this rotation, and as I speed it up…it’s like they’re both at this Center and about the Surface of the Sphere simultaneously. No longer is this a rotation, this is a humming, a sympathetic vibration.
Now I feel the energy coming up off the leaf, the table, and the seal of King Blumaza under my foot. I hold this compassion, and await any message from the Divine. There’s such a beautiful feeling of peace right now; it’s like I’m lying in a bed of Compassion and the feeling that comes over me from lying there is Peace.
“Oh, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: this which you have sought for so long, it be only 19 days hence. I have put it in your Heart to read this first leaf, for it was to be read. Know this, that such Love is neither earned nor unearned, it is neither conditional nor unconditional, for this is PRONOA: it merely is. It is always available to you and to your fellow human beings, and to the animals and to the plants and to all of this life upon this planet Terra, or in English known as Earth: CAOSG.
“It is always available unto you, if you look for it, if you seek it, if you steep yourself in it, and all of its infinite varieties. The Love of solving a complex problem, the Love of merely holding one who is mourning, the Love of joining in to the rejoicing of grand moments of Beauty. It is always available unto you.
“And now, feel you this change about your subtle body as you prepare to enter into this realm of Adam Qadmon. Feel it in its fullness, for I am the One True God, and show Myself in Many Different Aspects, many different divinities, for all gods are One God, and what there is to be known and what is to be grokked, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: it is far beyond your understanding, and I will merely do what can be done to bring it out in you, to unfold it in you, to make it more visible to you, to give you Perspective, yea: Coelispex, so that you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, may help unfold it in others, and be able to unfold it in all of its infinite variety: TON DAMPLOZ.
“Such Love have I to you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, and to All. For All may come unto me. All may know this Love. Fear not the words which arise out of your mouth, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for the Spirit of the Lord is with you and speaketh through you. Yea, even when thou knowest it not.”
My voice is caught in my throat: “O God, is there anything else?”
“No, Son of God, Son of Man, Son of Earth: you have two more times to call upon this today. You will know it in its fullness this evening: yea, when you repeat the word ‘LIL’ seven times. Such sevenfold depth you will know, and then, 19 days hence, you will enter into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and you will realize this rainbow body. Much love unto thee. Commence now.”
Union, and then: “Such Beauty there is in this, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. I have nothing else for you today, until you call me again at noon, and again at sunset. Much love to you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: remember always: God hath such love, hath such PRONOA, for thee.”
The vision ends.
Commentary: I see the phrase “One True God” as the Divine identifying the truth of unity, and “show Myself in Many Different Aspects, many different divinities, for all gods are One God,” as the Divine unifying across all panthea (e.g., possibly panentheism) “and what there is to be known and what is to be grokked, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: it is far beyond your understanding” as an obvious reference to my limits. So, please, be forgiving if this doesn’t match up with your worldview. Peace and love, peace and love!
Noon: Similar procedure.
The angels have me make some physical adjustments. Again I see a white sphere, this time with a vertical ring about it; I note that it reminds me of the rings of Uranus, and doing so causes it to appear a bit more bluish, but it returns to white shortly. The ring comes undone at the point farthest from me and once again approaches and enfolds me like a cocoon, and again takes me to the center.
Again, I see the interior of the sphere, and I slowly come to a pause. I see again all of the experiences of all of the beings, and God is once again showing me all of the possibilities which could not be (i.e., foreclosed based on actualizing certain previous possibilities). God shrinks down the pictures of actual experiences of beings and now I see this vast space between all of them, and it’s this massive light, and I see how very close I am to this portal to the realm of Adam Qadmon. I see the vast spaces of unbounded possibility, and both Binah and Chokmah, in this vast emptiness of potentiality which cannot be, are ineffective in that Binah cannot receive, and Chokmah cannot project.
I’m told to try my best to have as much compassion as I can for all of it, equally, and I do, and I do, and I do: it just magnifies, and once again I try to speed the flow to the point where there’s this hum reached, and there is. I feel my entire body just lifted or raised up, and it’s this beautiful hum to my subtle body, and I feel energy coming up once again now off of the book (Amzes Naghezes Hardeh, Leaf 20a), more off of the table, and finally off the seal again.
God is saying, “Behold, Blumaza [king of the lunar sephira of Yesod], and with Mars in Cancer [in its fall], and the moon in its fall [in Scorpio]: it is opposing where it is normally in its exaltation, and thus they are receiving each other. So, though they are themselves in a weakened condition, they themselves are nonetheless raising each other up. So this lunar and sublunar sphere can be in a better condition to receive the light, to receive the light of this lunation, and thereby work it into the grand unfolding of All That Is. Thus now you are able to receive the light, such as you are able to receive it.
“Yea, have compassion for those that are in your path! Have compassion for those who are in pain, and have compassion for those who are confused, and have compassion for all that Could Have Been, for the reality in which you are taught by the one whom you must now teach! Have compassion across space and time, and across all of the possibilities that were foreclosed as a result. Just continue to have this Grand Compassion, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for this is your destiny! This is the unleashing of the Venusian nature within you, much as your sun was released and rectified yesterday in its fullness, so you must know now that today marks the beginning of the unleashing of this PRONOA, of this compassion, for yea, although your capacity to love has been very confused, it has been very difficult: it has [nonetheless] received help along the way, and now receives the Highest of all Help, the Help of the Almighty God Himself, Herself: the Almighty Divine as you have come to know It.”
I just try really hard to focus on this, and to do as I have been bidden, and it’s like I’m now encased in this spherical rainbow jewel, and it’s beautiful, this vibration and hum. The angels are saying, “Yea, it is difficult to unfold completely, this completely spherical consciousness in which all the light is there [as a bright white light], and yet, you have only known What You Have Been Alive to Know, and What You Have Been Around to Experience. Yet the Divine Has Known all of these things In Equal Measure, and so continue to hold this in equal measure, and at times your rainbow will seem like unto a beautiful white sphere. At other times, it will seem like unto the process of putting the black sphere in its proper measure. But at all times, hold, as bet you can, when meeting another, this transparent sphere, knowing them as they are to be known, and allowing them to be as they are, and allowing, to some degree, the suffering which they are choosing for themselves. For in so doing, they can come to know the fullness of God on their own terms, and thus the Law of the Parts will be upheld as well as the Law of the Whole.”
I feel God now within me, and He is reaching into my torso, into my anahata chakra, yes, even the heart of my heart, and He gives it the subtlest of touches and caresses, and it opens so much up in me, and I feel so much, and I’m so grateful unto the Most High for this. He is saying, “Your heart is being prepared. Look you to the elements and approach them with this same transparent heart.”
I say, “O God, please give me the strength and the fortitude and the sensitivity and all that which is needed to do so,” and He says, “This I will give you, and more, and I will give you, indeed, confidence to do so.”
And I ask, “O God, my God, is there anything else?” And he says, “No, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: go now in peace. Know now that this journey is already a fait accompli.”
Thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Call to LIL. Call to King Blumaza. Due to delays and feeling upset, I neglected the call to the governors, and to the Zodiacal Kings.
The angels bid me to lean back and relax. They acknowledge the emotional content of a day like this. They praise my work at compassion, and say that it is multidimensional work. I grieve into my heart of hearts, and recall how the Divine blessed me by touching this heart. I remain so grateful. I allow myself to feel the emotional pain, and it’s okay.
I see a hand come towards me, and it takes me by the hand and leads me to the center of the white sphere. It’s the hand of Christ, and we sit on rugs and drink tea at the center of this sphere. He shows me His hands and feet, He shows me the scarring about His scalp, and the wound in His side. He notes that my hands are together (in the prayer position, holding Leaf 20 between them), and my feet apart (so as to be touching the sides of the table). In a sense, He notes, that a cylinder could go through my hands at this point. He notes that, in general, my placement of my hands with each other, and my feet apart, is an inversion of the placement of Christ’s own placement. Peter was crucified this way.
He says that I have doubted, and have returned. I have denied, and I have returned, because I have come to accept the pain. He reverts my astral body back into the usual crucifixion pose as a symbol of accepting me. He says that at the center of this cross is the heart: the heart of the heart of the heart of the heart of the heart. He then bids me to repeat the call, this time repeating LIL seven times as had previously been advised of me, “And we will resume.”
I repeat the call to the Aethyr and this time remember to call the Zodical Kings and Governors of the Aethyrs, except I substitute “LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL” (“LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL”) for just “LIL.” Note: this would seem to presuppose that each Aethyr can be thought of as able to be subdivided into Aethyrs within Aethyrs. I have used this technique before and found that you can get into quite rarefied Aire (heh) by doing so.
I’m directly within the sphere again, this time seeing all of these screens of possibilities again, but this time all of these possibilities are whirling about me, as is the space in between, a massive rotation. I’m having compassion even for the forces which are causing this rotation, and this seems to click something into place! And behold, I see again, and I see again, and I see again: I see this massive rotation, and we are approaching this realm of Adam Qadmon, and I’m told that tonight, I will be right at the event horizon, and I will cross right into it tomorrow.
There’s this massive energy, this beautiful light, and it seems to completely encompass this sphere, which now seems more like an egg of a shuttle-pod, surrounded by intense energy and light, and all of the possibilities on the screen, actualized and foreclosed, are increased in intensity, and I continue to hold this compassion for all of them, as I can. I try to turn my compassion up to Infinite: and this is the key word, “infinite”: MAOFFAS MONONS (measureless heart): MAOFFAS MONONS! MAOFFAS MONONS! MAOFFAS MONONS! Measureless heart! Measureless heart! Measureless heart! And this heart is just encompassing all of this, and I see now about me all of this grand beauty, all of this grand heart which is just trying to pour out to all possibility, and to all of this Infinitude.
It is unlike anything that I would have possibly conceived, and I’m trying to stay at both the Center and About Everything, and it is almost too much for my heart to take! And I know that God knows my limits, so I continue (and I nearly weep now) and continue with this Measureless Heart for all of these Possibilities, and just this Potential Itself, that I’m trying to have this Measureless Heart for, this Infinite Heart, as best I can!!
And I’m trying, trying to reflect the Whole [of existence] within me, as best I can, because I know that this is the best as I can be purified as to try to maintain this emotional state, this Vastness of Compassion! “Let it be Infinite! Please, o God, let it be Infinite!” And He says, “Aye, indeed, but you yourself are human and have limits, but indeed, it is the spark of Me within you that chooses to cry out in such ways, and so I will give you as measureless a heart as your system is capable of.” My emotions still run quite high and I continue with this vast feeling of compassion towards all I see, and it is this tragedy that I, as a human being, and yea, even the Divine, have our Limits.
But even working within these Limits, there is so much to be done. There is so much good to be had, and so much Compassion to be had, and so much Peace to be modeled and distributed, offered in pure generosity and compassion for All. I’m feeling this beautiful energy now, coming up off of the leaf, up through my hands and arms and into my torso: and it is God in His Mercy Who is changing me and my entire subtle body now, all the way down through my feet. I especially feel energy coming up from the seal of King Blumaza, and I’m feeling it all about me now, all about this table. And I see the same elongated octahedron arising out of the Sigillum Dei Aemeth. I see the top half encompassed by a sphere, and now the bottom half also, with a filled circle at the middle, as follows:
The spheres represent heaven (future state, and the upper part of the lotus-rose bloom) and terra/earth (present state and the lower thorny stem of the lotus-rose). It is all new to me. All of it in its beauty must be accepted for what it is. These two spheres thus look like unto the symbol for infinity, and a twisted ouroboros, but about many dimensions. I know them to be of many dimensions, but they are represented in 3D here.
The middle ring on the plane perpendicular to the meeting point of these spheres is the Ain Sof Aur of the realm of Adam Qadmon, shooting into the link between heaven and earth. It is Wonderful. I’m told that it is this filled circle in this plane, where these two spheres meet, is what I will circumambulate over the next 19 days.
I ask whether God, in His Mercy, has more to show me, and he says “No.” I thank Him, and the vision ends.
Note: Only now, after all of this time, do I realize the final piece I did not realize before. Gebofal is 49 days long, and there are 49 leaves of Loagaeth. It is not only 7*7, the squaring of the septenary nature of Enochian as a whole, but it is also the sum of the 30 (degrees per astrological sign) and 19. Nineteen relates to manifestation, but also 12 (signs of the zodiac) + 7 (planets), and is also the rounded square root of 360, which is why it is the degree of exaltation of the sun. Once again, the exaltation scheme of Enochian is borne out.
(Cross-posted from a Facebook Group)
I’ve been thinking about the letters of this ring and how they relate to the kings of the Heptarchy. (Note: Here, a member correctly reiterated something I’d already read in DuQuette’s Enochian Vision Magick, which is that this name derives from the name Peh-Lamed-Aleph of Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa’s Three Books of Occult Philosophy).
Nonetheless, this was intended to supplement what was already known or observed about the ring. I suggested a correspondence to the names of the kings and their relative location on the ring astrologically; I’ve uncapitalized the first letters of the kings’ names and capitalized the letters of interest to make it easier to follow:
- blVmaza (top center V on the ring)-moon
- bObogel (central O)-sun
- bnaspoL (bottom center L)-Mercury…note that we have the central three figures of the Monas Hieroglyphica.
- bynePor (P in PELE)-Jupiter
- bnapsEn (first E in PELE)-Saturn
- baLigon (L)-Venus
- babalEl (E)-Mars
The only issue with this is that it leaves the pairs of Jupiter and Saturn inverted with respect to the Monas Hieroglyphica (they were at bottom, not at top). Still, they are the slowest planets Dee would’ve known about, and are the greater benefic and malefic, respectively, so it makes sense that they’d be afforded some dignity by being placed at top. And it doesn’t much matter anyway, since the ring’s design in its entirety doesn’t quite lend itself to being perfectly ordered combination of the planets as in the MH.
At present, this is a proposal; note that several letters of the ring appear in multiple points of the kings’ names, and that multiple assignments could be made. Still, having tried multiple possibilities, this one seems to match the overall sun-moon-Mercury portion of the MH very well, and Saturn and Jupiter are well-paired, as are Mars and Venus.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of OXO, call to King BLUMAZA after Stenwick’s method.
I generate compassion from the transparent heart. I feel a force pulling my heart away from me and downward. I ignore this and continue. Now I see that my heart has things on it trying to pull it down, and which are dripping downward from it, creating an inverse teardrop effect. I see a mirror below the heart, and now I see that this mirror is actually the larger Heart of the Divine, and my heart is actually nested within It.
So now I wonder what I ought to do to get my heart aligned with the Heart of All, as I have prayed (see Prayer 111). Partly I’m told that this is God needing to choose His time to align with me, but the angels also say that there are certain things that I need to let go of, such as my reputation. I acknowledge and try to work on my heart so that it’s not clinging to those things.
What I see happen now is that there’s a golden shimmer about my heart, which causes it to become more closely aligned with the Heart of All. I see this magnetized take me on my journey. The feel of this was the same in my first trip through the Aethyrs, in which I saw golden overlay about glass eggs, inside of which were seeds of the True Will, which were floating atop a muddy existence.
This is the higher octave of this; rather than seeds in the mud of samsara, now it’s a being’s heart within the Heart of the Divine, and there is still a central point within this Heart, and there’s a guiding factor which will allow a certain blooming to appear. The angels are saying that I should use my heart of compassion to circulate the circumference of daily existence. Such will allow my heart to continue to move according to this path. The angels say that all of what I’ve seen in this vision is predicated on my continuing this lovingkindness.
The governors and king tell me to be of good cheer, for that which God hath sows, such does He also reap.
Noon: Similar procedure.
The angels are reminding me to generate compassion, which I do. I’m trying to let go of a few moments before and after this scrying, and instead stay focused on the present. I vibrate the king’s and governors’ names, and feel some energy coming off the holy table, and off of the seal of King BLUMAZA.
Once again, I feel my heart come out and drop down. The angels are saying that the water I took in from the Golden Cube a couple of sessions ago is itself magnetized to seek the Center of the Heart of God. The angels remind me that as I begin to approach this Center, that is what the fixed stars (the movement according to the True Will) will seem like to me. It’s a series of successive approximations by which one slowly approaches the Center in the Divine. One is trying to get as close as one can to being balanced, and still working toward the Heart of God, and being completely in tune with that: one gets so very close toward the end. They’re saying that, ideally, all beings would be as concentric spheres, with their centers being at the very Center of God at the very end. “Thus, His Glory would be magnified.” But even if you’re not quite there, as long as one is centered within the Heart of God, and the center of God is somewhere within one’s heart, then many blessings come upon such as that.
I call upon my HGA briefly. It’s like doing so causes additional heart surgery within me. It’s like God is saying that there are things for me to do, and that they all seem different when you have This Heart about you. I agree. The water within me is magnetized, He says; the golden shimmer is about me. He bids me continue to remind myself and to stay in the habit such that this compassion is about me always. I ask for any way for it to generally top of mind; He says it will always be with me, I just have to work at it in order to make it habit.
My mind leaps ahead to Day 49; God says to just take that whole week off: an unusually direct command by the Divine, and he advises that I spend time meditating and outside, and to not be overly distracted. There’s this attunement between both my hands, and my heart, and the vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure. Note: There was unfounded doubt just before this session, but it wasn’t mine.
I generate compassion again, including towards that voice that was feeling doubt. I contextualize it, and try to put it through this same compassion. I feel the issue bodily, in manipura, and allow myself to feel whatever pain is there. The feeling moves lower down later, and I take a similar approach of compassion and allowing the feeling of pain. It eventually exits.
The angels take me up, and note this same movement within the Heart of God, toward the Center. The sensation which I was feeling is now looking like the same dripping down and off of me that I saw yesterday. The angels say that today’s physical issues created a bit of a wobble about this path towards the Center, but it’s settled down now. The angels say that although I’m not feeling the best, overall it’s pretty decent, considering what I put my system through.
I feel a bit about my sahasrara chakra, and the angels are lifting me up. There’s like a massage about this area; it feels like a transmission trying to come through, so I try to be still. I’m partly being taken out of my body, but I let the angels know that I will still need to be able to speak about the experience; my Holy Guardian Angel comes forward and speak as I see myself in the center of a palace:
“The Palaces of the Almighty, indeed, the Hekhalot: a Divine Prism, for all that is to be contained within a Divine Heart: you feel the aching within: allow yourself to align with the aching. Indeed, this aching shall unfold, and it shall create a tear within your eye, as it creates the tear within everyone’s eye: that tear which bringeth people together to hug, and to weep, and to create beautiful art. Fall down upon thy knees, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! not in despair, but in rejoicing, for the heart leaps out of its chest at such grand beauty, the grand tune of which is heard upon every eardrum which may hear, and the collective sight of which enters in through every iris of every eye which may see, and which shuddereth down the spine of every being to feel it.”
“Would you indeed, pour yourself into this, as a pitcher of water?” “Yes, I would, o God.”
“Would you indeed, pour yourself into this, as a pitcher of water?” “Yes, thirty times would I! Seventy times seven would I!”
“So be it, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. You are always poured into this, the glass which catcheth the tears of God. Pour this into the cup of every being whom thou encountereth.”
My heart lifts up at this. It’s a beautiful vision, and I’m humbled by this.
I ask the angels whether they, in their mercy, have more to show me. My sahasrara and ajna chakras feel like they’re being fused, or very directly connected, in this way. The angels are saying that this will undo that blinding which I’ve had to my natal moon. This will be an unfolding of the moon in its fullness. I’m starting to get the sense that all seven of the planets will be reconciled before the Aethyr of ZIP, and the angels agree. I express my gratitude.
The vision ends.