Gebofal, Day 47

Sunrise: As with all other days, I recited the angel Ave’s recounting of the Prayer of Enoch prior to each scrying. Call/Key 3, (because it is the second spoken call (the first true call as “not to be spoken”), most practitioners refer to this as call 2). My feet are not on the Watchtower tablets, but rather upon the three Tablets of Union; one is like the typical Tablet of Union, with the five-letter elemental Enochian Divine names; the second is a quartered square with just the first initial of each of the names, following the elemental assignments. The third is the Enochian letter “L,” white on a black background, with red and green tails of the letter. These are placed in a triangular formation atop the Watchtower tablets.

I feel a beautiful gentleness about the heart chakra (anahata). Then I feel a lot happening with my third eye chakra (ajna); it’s like these two are in synch now. There’s also a little bit of feeling about my crown chakra (sahasrara) as well. The sense that I’m getting is that of these three activations from this scrying, the third eye is most dominant.

I follow my intuition and try to peer out through the third eye. I see my field of vision bisected, with the first cut happening horizontally, and the next vertically. The four quadrants created by this are peeled away from what would be the origin point, if this were an axis system. I see a normal landscape and town, and the sense I’m getting is that this is the world (Earth/Terra) as it is, or at least as I understand it to be. People everywhere of all ages also have their own perspectives on what the world is.

I get the sense to sit back and relax. I see a circle come around my face, starting at my two physical eyes at the lower part of the ring, and roughly centered at my third eye. I look through this ring, and I’m seeing several flowers, centered in my field of vision.

I pause to call upon two of the Enochian names of God, three times each. I’m told to recite the Enochian heart mantra, so I do, and continue to relax. It’s like the disturbances in my heart remain, and I ask the Divine for the ability to accept them, so he places his hands within the heart, and I recite the heart mantra one more time. This causes my heart to feel so much more tender, simpler, easier, and calmer. It’s a warm feeling; warm, sweet, slightly tangy or sour, but mostly sweet feeling. It’s like when you know that someone knows you way better than you know yourself, and yet they’re not doing anything other than accepting you, and that feels really good.

Now I look at my heart through my third eye again. What I’m feeling is a mutual invoking of the Divine and myself. I feel what it means to inhabit God, and I feel this Heart aching, throughout the entire cosmos, just looking, trying things, directing in His limited ability. I am drawn to a lack of omnipotence; it’s like He’s omnipotent, but He’s not. It’s like He has to respect Who He Is. I say that I understand that and respect that, because a person can change, but one also has to fundamentally respect who and what one is, as well.

God says that this will be enough. “Eight more times,” He reminds me. I thank you, and the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure. I also vibrated the names of god, “L,” “IAD,” and “IAIDON.” Also, given the content of the morning’s vision, I vibrated the Enochian heart mantra as well as approximate names of the third eye (“D OOANOAN”) and crown (“MOMAO”) chakras.

I’m bidden to relax a bit more. Now I feel energy coming up through the leaf, and I can almost see it coming up through my fingertips and up my arm, and also up through the tablets of union.

I vibrate the names of God again. Now I feel god placing his fingers into my heart chakra once again. His hands are folded as if he were praying, and his interlaced fingers are at the very center of my heart chakra.

The Divine begins pumping in…something…with His hands. It seems like an energy, but I don’t physically feel it at first. Instead, I see a vision of a torus which passes through my heart chakra. Within it is a beautiful landscape. He says that this is Eden.

The Divine says that He could bear the cruelty of leaving humanity in its ignorance, when there was so much more potential, and so much more that could be seen. For this reason, He decided to create us in His image. He adds that we are not the only species that He has created in His image, and mentions that dolphins will reach and exceed humanity. Briefly my mind alights on helping them, and the Divine says that such is a noble goal.

Yet He moves on, and shows the issue of Knowledge, of this high energy coming into the subtle body. He says that a lot of the things that I’ve experienced, this is similar to. It’s the building up of narratives and then the tearing of them down. This, in some ways, He says, is like the Tower of Babel, for it’s not the language itself, He says, but the narrative. It’s built up, and then torn down by the actual Divinity within us, and this causes a thousand different fractures, because “ye know this story in a thousand different ways, and certain parts, some of you wish to emphasize, and others, others of you wish to emphasize.” He says that the cross-religious goals that I have are noble. He tells me to put my heart first, to put this lovingkindness towards humanity first, and to put the lovingkindness that I have towards Him first.

I see Him trying to get something similar going with all of the hearts that He is able to reach. Over and over again I see him doing that same squeezing, pumping of the palms together and back, trying to pump in a true vision of His nature. Yet this is so difficult, because He is trying to do this at the heart, and so there must be additional work done at the mind, and the mind believes itself to be connected by communication (vishuddha) with the heart, but there is this transrational aspect that cannot be mediated via this chakra. It must be directly grokked.

The Divine places His interlaced fingers within my heart once again, and He says, “I will now work to bring in My energy, to pump it in, as much as I can–as much as your system is able to hold it.” There’s this beautiful vibration, rising in pitch, as this energy continues to be pumped in at an accelerated rate. I feel my crown and third eye chakras raised up. I cannot keep up with the description, but I feel my entire subtle body transformed as he continues to increase the energy pumped into my system. “There will always be additional levels, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” I allow and accept and embrace as He continues, with such Compassion and Sorrow. It’s like my entire body wants to rise up, and He continues…and now He says, “That’s enough,” embraces me, and thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I feel this tenderness again within my heart. Once again, God places his fingers into my very core, interlacing them within the very center. He’s making this rocking motion, taking my core, and His core, and intermingling them. There’s that torus in the first vision which is now in a loop with His own core. I’m feeling some of His own aching, but it is so divine. It is seeing the Pain that He had, that He continues to have, that He will have unto the Age of Ages, and yet it is that pain which becomes reduced over time, as more and more people seek to better this world, and to rectify their hearts, realigning them with His.

Now I feel energy coming up off of both sides of this leaf, Leaf 3. It comes up through my hands, arms, then head, and finally to the rest of my body. It’s this beautiful feeling: wondrous. I’m feeling a bit of a corkscrew feeling about me now: it’s like unto the Middle Pillar Ritual and the Circulation of Light, but much stronger. It continues and continues and accelerates my mind and my speech: it’s like I’m being thoroughly embedded within His Heart, within the Center, but I must be properly contextualized with all of the other human beings at his core, at His Heart. So He is measuring my sphere, measure the radius of this sphere about me, so that I’m properly aligned with all other beings who also approach this Center, and so that I’m oriented correctly in all of the dimensions possible, so that my entire being can interlock perfectly with all beings with whom I am to interact across the span of Time, forever and ever, Amen. Glory be unto His Name.

I continue to be developed, and to have this Radiance come into and about me, because it is this Divine Radiance, and it shineth forth now, forever and ever, unto the Age of Ages. I feel myself so very blessed, so very fortunate, this Infinite Gratitude have I unto the Most High for this. He continues, and He just shines a wink towards me, like, “This be but the first of the three legs of the stool upon which thou will sit. Yea, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, know this: that I love thee and I will fill thee with PRONOA unto the rest of thy days, so that all may know the Glory of the Most High.”

Thus ends the vision!

Gebofal, Day 24

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of DEO (dee-oh). Call to King Babalel via Stenwick’s method.

The angels have me relax. I see a swirling. The angels have me recall the spiral within the pyramid which ultimately compressed into the symbol of the lotus-rose. The lotus-rose, they say, has its own type of magnetization, and to hold this very dear to the heart. I do so, and this creates the perception of the line to the “black hole” portal of the world of Adam Qadmon. The portal seems even bigger to me now.

I ask the governors and kings about this portal. “Look, you are making this leap,” they chuckle, “it’s not like you can help it.” I can feel the realm of Adam Qadmon pulling at my heart now, like it’s literally magnetized toward it. I feel this force pulling me towards it. “It’s not to be done right now,” the angels advise, “so continue to feel the force and honor it.”

The angels wish to show me this stellation which I recall from the previous Aethyr, and as it relates to Binah and to Chokmah. The angels explicitly lay it out for me: the stellation can be considered like unto the force of Chokmah. This force, in my case or view: I’ve always been fairly literal about Chokmah. The angels say, “Look, if you’re looking for Kaos, the deity, in it, the truth of the matter is that you are highly ordered. Kaos is not, at least in the way that you consider it. In terms of it trying to be this expression of this projective [formerly “masculine”] principle, note that this is different from the willful principle of Mars,” which the angels themselves separate out from Geburah. All of these things need to be distinguished from each other.

“But this projective principle, this cosmic principle,” they’re saying, as they redirect me to focus on this principle in spite of my heart being pulled toward the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels show me a point, which, by definition means that its existence is in distinction to all other points. It still demands its “day in court,” its “due,” as it were. That’s it, and all of it. That point demands its distinction among all other things, and all points in space does this, hence there’s this force of Kaos.

The angels now say, “Let’s look at how this relates to stellation. The force of a collection of points, or a system (such as an individual) itself: it orders itself and demands its ‘day in court,’ therefore a central point is somewhat able to organize all other points about it.” It’s able to create an organization about itself, the angels clarify, so that we don’t spend too much time about dominance and subservience, though there is a bit of that in this schema by necessity. But the entire system is agreeing to it, so it’s not horrific to consider.

Of course, Binah, throughout time, is very accepting of this situation, but is Sorrowful for the suffering which can occur which is a natural outgrowth of the loss of realization of one’s own Divinity. My heart feels pulled again towards the world of AQ, and the angels chuckle, and say, “OK, so consider this now, as one approaches that world: by definition, any individual point at the very least requires or causes all of these other points to become equidistant from itself [as the point reacquires spherical consciousness]. Instead of a monarch with the dukes, duchesses, and lower classes such as counts, the monarch in this case develops sphericity these classes (and indeed the center and area of the sphere become interchangeable), and equally so, because of the infinite light, because all light is infinite.

I ask how this relates to colors. The angels reply, “Various colors, various formations of the heart, that particular point of the heart. Consider the colors and the emotions of the heart. All of these are natural outgrowths, because the point or the system of points, though it requires its ‘day in court,’ nonetheless, if it is approaching this Kether point [sphericity of consciousness]–approaching itself, even (this is why the sun and Tiphareth are in the Middle Pillar)–as the heart approaches another being or situation, the heart itself in the fullness of its situation attempts to grok another being or situation or point. As it does so, it naturally has this reaction to this other being, for it sees flashes of this other being’s infinity. The same emotions that it sees, it begins to reflect in itself, and vice versa. It emits its own feeling and it becomes reflected back.

The angels say that I can remain magnetized to the world of Adam Qadmon, this is natural, especially as I approach the halfway point of his ritual. The angels say that the energy raised will be like unto Zeno’s paradoxes, but in my case the energy produced will double for every half (and half of the half, and half of the half of the half) of the ritual to remain(!!).

I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure. Mild panic attack in the morning, clonazepam to treat.

I relax. I see different elements of geometry. As I do so, I hold onto the symbol of the lotus-rose, hold on to the geometry of the square pyramid/octahedron; I see the image of it extend backward fractally, and forward fractally, covering all of the different bases along a line, which is the line to approach the world of Adam Qadmon. I try very hard to stay in the moment, and again open up to the angels. They are holding this lotus-rose and bend it.

I decide to read the call to the Aethyr again, just to ensure a clear and unambiguous transmission. The angels say that this was necessary, because they had something bigger to show me, and energetically I wasn’t quite in the right spot (note: sometimes even an experienced practitioner will need to make the same call twice). I see and feel a twisting motion, as if you rotated your shoulders clockwise and then counterclockwise. I sense that this is doing something to my subtle body system.

I hold on to the lotus rose and see the angels again–it’s like they’re stroking the tops of the petals of the bloom, and this indicates that this vision is approaching towards the inner part of LIL, the inner sanctum of of the lotus-rose bloom. The angels show me that this twisting rose motion (and here I see a roller coaster ride): this is all of the points, they say, seeking their day in court, their day of reckoning and appropriate judgment, which in this metaphor means deciding what something is, and being judged in the sense that there’s understanding of what a point is and the uniqueness of that thing. Babalon can accept all over time, but the Wisdom is the inner Knowing of something that allows one to project out into their (unique) ways on account of knowing their own very nature, and knowing it fully. Also, this extends in a very extraordinary sense, to knowing it in relation to all other things.

It’s by this that we get principles which for the most part work, but there are always exceptions because, although whole knows any unique point perfectly, other points in the system do not. Hence, individual Chokmah laws break down. I see each of these individual points about the line, which due to other entities are really curves like on a rollercoaster track (i.e., about the many consciousnesses, spherical and cubical, which these lines navigate). There’s a sense of needing to twist, which allows a new configuration of all of the points of the path that one is in, but also a new configuration of the points of consciousness that individuals move to spherically integrate into one’s system.

Just looking at this unfold along this track, it’s like I wait for the vision to pop open; I see a featherlike object cross another one, and it’s like someone who has been holding these swiftly makes extending motions with their arms all is part of a Y formation. The configuration of all of the points which contain these two different feathers becomes reconfigured, and thereby allows for a better and more intelligent and heart-focused unfolding across all of the points involved. (Typing this up, I think this is about individuals contextualizing different laws from different spiritual systems and how well they feel they apply to their own lives).

In order for Space and Time to operate appropriately together, there thus needs to be this appropriate meeting.

I try to see what else may be here. I’m not seeing it right now. I feel a bit of a shift to my muladhara chakra (likely healing to my root chakra). Other than that, it’s like this is being integrated a little bit. I ask the angels whether they in their mercy may have anything else for me. They say, “Let’s leave this here for now; there is time enough to go through the remainder of this Aethyr and the remaining Aethyrs. Go ahead and rest up, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: we will speak with you more shortly.”

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I hold on to the lotus-rose and now it seems that I’m riding a dragon; much like holding on to a large lotus-rose would, its scales cut me. I am bleeding.

I get off the dragon and alight upon a square, which is the base of the square pyramid, which I’m also seeing as part of the sphere as in previous visions. They’re showing me this pyramid rising up more steeply, and it’s part of the stellation. The angels are trying to relate the two things together: the pain of interacting with another being (geometrically, multiple systems of points causing degradation of these systems), but also the pain of being true to oneself: these two ideas are combined in this vision.

The blood relates to Spirit elementally; the angels are saying that this is a preview of looking ahead to Days 31-48, after the Aethyr of LIL, to the Watchtowers, as I get into elemental work. The first and second spoken Enochian calls or keys (the 2nd & 3rd, technically), which I prayed for guidance on: for the second spoken key relates to calling in of entities into this form of Spirit.

The angels explicitly say that it’s important to relate how Spirit and the elements relate to Chokmah and Binah. This is a little difficult for me to see on account of the geometry of the Aethyrs being quite enticing on their own. Nonetheless, the angels note that in making the distinction between two points, and all of which goes into causing two points to be distinguished in a variety of manners, the four elements map on to the Standard Model of Physics as follows:

• Gravity maps on to elemental earth (“I fall down, for I am of the earth,” said Enoch in the prayer related by the angel Ave).
• Strong force maps on to elemental water.
• Weak force, related to beta decay, maps on to elemental air.
• Electromagnetism maps on to elemental fire.

Blood as a metaphor for spirit combines these things to a degree. It most closely resembles water, yet takes broken down fruits of the earth and distributes them via fiery like pumping action of the heart and also redistributes air. As water causes the parts of the nucleus to settle down into itself, it causes the points of the nucleus to be difficult to distinguish, weak force causes the points of the atom to be more readily distinguished, the force of electromagnetism causes the flourishing of manifest light in all its varieties, but also the grosser movements, and affects the paths of the points, and the unfolding thereof, and finally gravity causes all points to remain on this curved, yet otherwise even, playing field (note: I think this relates specifically to the surface of a planet).

I feel some energy come up from the seal of King Babalel: he’s trying to say that the planetary difference here is a distinction between Will as a chemical separation of Mars. The angels add that the astrological movement of the planets, fixed though they may be and nearly impossible to change, they themselves are arising out of this elemental mix. So although an emanative model of Kabbalah tends to have a one-way direction from the world to Atziluth to Briah to Yetzirah (which, as I took away from Modern Magick, can be thought of where the elements form before reaching the world of Assiah), there’s a co-arising of the planets out of the action of the elements, going up and down each of the worlds.

The vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 10

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ASP. Call to King BABALEL via the Stenwick method, but not using Enochian Keys. I vibrate the title of Leaf 40b. Once again, allergies are pretty bad.

I feel King BABALEL’s energy come up through the seal and into my foot, and up through my right hand, which is on Leaf 40b. I reflect on having watered the front and back yards, and it feels as if this energy is bubbling up into my subtle, like a spring, and this energy is mainly that of King BABALEL, whose power is in the waters. Even though this ritual is being done with a lot of Aries energy (with five planets in this sign now), this is nonetheless a watery energy today, just with more spread, as one would expect with Aries.

I try to focus and relax. This energy is now coming up through my neck and head and is alleviating my allergies. It’s this energy is the equivalent of heavy water pressure through a flexible tube, opening it up and clearing it out. I’m encouraged to focus on the white sphere of compassion, and I’m told to always focus on the heart of compassion when I call the Aethyrs from here on out. As I focus on it, a lot of things seem to open up; it’s like parting the Red Sea; the excellence of this point will be made to clear to me as I go along, they tell me.

I see all sorts of things about me as I do this. The angels tell me this is like automatically magnetizing myself back to the center. This allows for the unfolding of yourself; yesterday, with the vision of myself like a spring stretched out and ultimately flooded out to the circumference. This sort of “magnetizing-the-heart-via-compassion” back to this psychic center. It’s like one starts out in the Red Sea, sort of drowning in the vicissitudes of dukkha and random, jumbled thoughts and such, but charging the heart is like using the staff (or, referred to earlier, the torch) will part the seas and allow one to measure the diameter of the sphere. King BABALEL agrees, noting his white and black sleeves, both ways that the sea can appear. The whiteness is the white sphere of compassion which can penetrate out through the mind, and can take oneself to the extent of the sea along the surface of the sphere, always using that light as the guide to traverse the waters.

King BABALEL is showing me a large fish, perhaps four feet in length, that he’s pulling from the Red Sea and gutting, and he reminds me of Raphael from the Book of Tobit, who used the innards of a fish to rout a demon into Egypt, and bind it there. King BABALEL tells me that Egypt is the circumference of the black sphere itself (for those who are imbalanced, this may appear instead as a black cube). King BABALEL says, “This is you; it is the tendency of people to become caught up in the waters” of the mind/emotions. It’s wonderful to be able to banish this to the circumference, he says, but if one identifies with the circumstances that one finds oneself in, or stories, then one will continue to swim around in the darkness, forever lost. But by lighting up the heart of compassion within this darkness, one can at least get one’s bearings, and one knows that this light will help one to do that. The killing of the fish is important to in order “paint the outside” (i.e., the surface of the sphere, the extent of oneself), using the measure of the heart of compassion to do so (i.e., to find the opposing side of the recently painted part of the sphere).

It’s also important to find lines of intersection with the white cube, King BABALEL notes, and one does this by using the small white sphere to light up the extent of the black sphere, and when one finds something lighting up more than one would expect, then one knows one is near the intersection with the ordering white cube. Again, the white cube represents an ideal way to reduce suffering via mundane means. The white cube will rotate and sometimes suddenly, as one finds a more efficient tool to accomplish a task or finds better ways to accomplish the ending of suffering.

Another object appears above me. It’s a single point which is above the four corners of the top square, which allows for the emergence of a square pyramid. The ascent of this pyramid can be thought of as approaching the common/collective center, across other people’s spheres, for the top point of this pyramid is also the top of other pyramids of varying sizes which are rotated in some manner. The correct orientation towards these four-ish points.

How does one distinguish these four points? These will be the points or contaminates which seem to cause the rotation of the sphere. I ask quickly about the fish, and I’m told not to worry as much about the Book of Tobit, but instead to focus on the inability of ancient Egypt to uphold itself over additional millenia than it managed. The collective black sphere wasn’t tended to enough, but despite that, we are now here, at this threshold point among sentient beings, to be able to rectify this.

I express gratitude, and the vision of ASP ends; I know this got pretty symbolic, but, hey: that’s Enochian!

Noon: Call to ASP, call to BABALEL, hand on page 40a.

I extend forward with my heart of compassion and now instead merely seeing the Red Sea part, I now divisions of the sea in three dimensions, as if I were in the middle of the sphere and rings extending from the origin of a 3D grid along the x/y, x/z, and y/z planes, out to the edges of the sphere. I see this extension with the heart causing a circulation of light out to these rings and returning to the heart. I’m told that this is like unto the Middle Pillar Ritual.

I now see a lily which is merged with a monarch butterfly. It’s as if they are one organism. The lily is beautiful; now comes the interpretation. I call on the angels of this scrying session: Governors Chirspa, Toantom, Vixpalg, & King BABALEL. The angels seem awfully coy as to what this is, yet it strikes me as Kether fused with the remaining sephiroth–the living reality creating seeds as it goes, yet fused with that which it creates seeds by. This is sufficient, they tell me. I try to extend this scene by the same principle of the compassionate heart, and this causes a rotation in the vision; first, I see this natural scene rotate, with the field churning about a torus; this yields a wooden crown with several, perhaps 12 or more, stalks. The twisting action then yields into a golden crown, which twists into an etheric crown, which itself rotates into a “crown of all possible rotations.” Finally, I see a collective rotation across that which has manifested within all of the possible rotations. It’s all very beautiful “Doctor Strange, eat your heart out,” I quip.

The angels say that this rotation and twisting is key. All of this is the rotation of the collective heart as it moves through. It’s beautiful to watch, it’s awe-inspiring, a literal circle of life. The angels are saying that we’re getting pretty close to this level of collectivity.

My heart is trying to speed this rotation up to the level that it feels like a vibration out of this, and this creates quantum shift, the light side of a flatline, if you will. Once again, see a white square. I briefly think of the True Will, but decide to set that aside.

I return to the angelic governors and king. They create a tetrahedron about me, and once again remind me that this could be a five-cell instead. The angels show themselves approaching with the same heart (note: typing this up, the importance at this stage is the angels themselves approaching with this same heart, but “the training wheels will come off,” I’m told). This creates a spinning tetrahedron with psychedelic colors. It’s like the law of light-bridges, but a continuous churning of form and light. “Behold His Wonders, behold His Wonders, churning and turning and churning again, in and through all. Nothing need you fear, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” It’s like something out of 2001, or what I’ve been told about DMT trips.

It’s beautiful. I can feel my whole energy body taking this in; it’s transcendent and reminiscent of the higher Aethyrs, those beyond the Abyss. I’m coming in with the advantage of having already scried the Aethyrs. The key is to approach with this compassionate heart. “This is part of the process of fusing the heavenly and earthly rainbow bodies at once.” This is the reaching of the next octave. I’m at a loss for words. The angels say that I should try to keep this energy going throughout the day, and it will manifest as an overlay to the reality I’m seeing. They were not kidding around when they said that this would happen. The angels say they aren’t ending the vision but rather closing their active participation in the vision and encouraging me to enjoy the experience.

Sunset: Similar procedures.

I feel a pleasant energy from Leaf 40. Once again, the governors & king extend the compassion towards me, creating the psychedelic visuals. There’s too much to describe. I see a door in outer space, and as I walk through frame, I see different versions of myself following me. It’s like my motion is pulling through the door has a wicking effect on these alternate versions, like xylem in a plant.

I turn my gaze to the left of the door I am looking back on. I see a large star. I’m beckoned to it, and it’s yellow like our sun. I see a chair in the middle of it and am offered it. I sit and I see a dragon, maroon and pink, with light blue tinges at the edges of the wings. It turns into a seahorse. King BABALEL agrees with what I’m thinking: this is my reconciliation with astrological Mars. He bids me hold the seahorse, which I do, and he fits in my palms. It transforms into a newborn.

I’ve never held a newborn.

And now I see that it is me.

All the compassion that I would have for myself at this moment: this is what I need to have for the entire universe. King BABALEL notes that with Mars as my malefic out of sect, above the horizon, and in its domicile–the only thing missing is Mars being angular–but with such a strong and itchy Mars, one could tend to pick fights, or feel like everyone is against oneself. Still, I recall the Robert Anton Wilson phrase, “There is no enemy anywhere.” Instead, I need to direct this Martial energy with the principle of it needing to move in such a way as to reduce suffering.

“Really care for that as you would an infant.”

I am utterly touched by this. The vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 3

Sunrise: Same procedure as Day 2, except calling on King Babalel. Also, filing under “What Should Have Been Completely Obvious,” I place my right hand on the back of Leaf 47 (47b, which is at my right). I have my left foot on Babalel’s seal for balance.

I make the call to BAG. The vision starts with a hallway, which has a CGI feel. There’s set of double doors which I open, which shows another length of hallway with a set of doors at the end. This pattern repeats, and I zip through many hundreds of doors in this manner: these are the doors of the main sequence of letters from this side of the leaf. There are also sets of double doors to my left and right which represent those letters that I used my intuition to write in. I get to the last set of double-doors, which has the letter Van on it (the angels remind me that the first two letters are X & I, i.e., the transliteration of the Greek letter xi).

I open this last set of doors, and I seem to have opened a set of doors into the sky or heaven. I walk around through the sky, and they call it a hidden or alternative or mathematical Merkava. This is in the vein of the Merkava as Dee would have understood them, they tell me. I’m in a “chariot,” which is metaphorical: the chariot can be thought of as a force which allows me to traverse the heavenly realm. It’s bright and daylight; I can see the blue sky and there are clouds just below me.

I repeat the governors’ names: Labnixp, Focisni, Oxlopar. I see a set of 2D spirals, reddish (note that the moon is in Scorpio, thus the luminaries are both ruled by Mars today, which is Tuesday, the day of Mars). They create a square, and they ask me to step into the center of the square. I do so; they note the dimensionality but then say they won’t dwell on it in this vision. Reddish protrusions or perhaps the spirals themselves extend and come at me.

Now I’m at the center of a cube (so now we’re back to dimensionality); they remind me that from the center of the square, six square pyramids can be made, which can be made into three octahedra. This, they tell me, is the Glory of the Trinity. These are the signs of the zodiac in “duality”–the heavenly part and the earthly part, of each sign. “As above, so below,” they remind me. My mind alights on the idea of the fixed stars: “Not this vision,” they tell me.

I look at the three octahedra. They get tall and each forms a loop which come at me. Then I see the octahedra in normal form and they turn around me (counterclockwise from above), and two are shown as under my feet, supporting me, and one I’m holding as a rein. This clearly feels like I’m in a chariot. “This is how an individual can perceive a given moment of astrological influence. One can bring to mind a given planet, which is one of these modalities [cardinal, fixed, or mutable.]” The cube is sort of this earthly existence, the limits of being in one of these three states. One can feel like one is in a Black Iron Prison on account of either the earthly state of affairs itself being in one of these modalities, or feeling as if the strings are being pulled from heaven. Feeling like this would indicate a need for spherical consciousness.

I am curious as to where the chariot is going. I’m taken into a Roman-style stadium. It’s like the final leg of a triumph in the Roman sense. There’s cheering and the amphitheater itself is reflective of this spherical consciousness with the members of the audience being like unto the fixed stars (which we weren’t going to talk about? heh heh). So of course being cheered feels good, but note the emotional pull of all the possibilities which these fixed stars represent. I see a particular light flashing at me from the crowd. I float towards this spot and there’s a king who is flashing this light from a mirror.

The angels tell me to not look so much at what the king was getting me to do, but rather to look back at the center, the chariot. I can see my light body there, and it’s doing a better job of reflecting all of the fixed stars of possibility. I wonder what would happen if I expanded this out to all the places that the stars have been. They emotionally indicate that this is good, so my heart extends out.

Then I think about all of the possibilities that the stars could have been (to quote the Hole song: “My name is Might-Have-Been, my name is Never Was”), and that’s when I can see my heart extend into an amazing light show. This, is more of the rainbow body. I reflect during the vision that this is deep: when we think of possibilities, this is sort of a limiting idea or category. But if we think of all of those things that each possibility could have been, that’s sort of where Nuit and Hadit meet, to use Thelemic concepts. What if, for example, Jupiter had become a star instead of Sol? Honoring all of this in one’s heart and at all the levels of existence and awareness: this is key.

The vision ends.

Noon: Same procedure. Call to the Aethyr of BAG.

I now see the same spiral as show fourfold this morning, but it seems to come from in one form, and as a single point in the darkness. The spiral comes around me and I now appear energetically as I do in the Circulation of Light portion of the Middle Pillar Ritual. They back me up to see this energy field about me from afar and in the context of fixed stars. They mention that doing the Middle Pillar Ritual magnetizes the self, as it were, so that one can become a compass for the True Will, i.e., the particular set of fixed stars. This can, of course, become skewed by an imbalance of the elements, so the importance of the Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram is obvious.

Regardless, the angels have me dwell on the fixed stars, and mention that one can use the MPR to find one’s personal fixed stars, i.e., the “lode stars.” Still, I contemplate this: were someone to orient themselves to their fixed stars, it is a proper thing to do so in order to follow one’s True Will, but this is also somewhat insufficient in two senses. First, what I call “the shifting of the orbit,” i.e., the discovery of additional fixed stars or elements within oneself which causes an adjustment to the True Will. Second, there’s the importance of honoring all of the fixed stars, appearing not only as Hadit and Nuit (which is really just one thing, and not merely the principles of Chokmah and Binah, respectively, leading to each individual’s Tiphareth/sun), nor as their single unified unfolding and enfolding in spacetime as the unified process of Kether. Instead, considering the need to honor the possibilities of possibilities and the world of Adam Qadmon, the idea of the True Will becomes secondary. The True Will continues to speak to the heart and its configuration, but honoring the depths of all fixed stars not only as individual lode stars but possibilities which could have been very different–this is where one honors the world of Adam Qadmon and the unfolding force of Ain.

I ask how I am to honor this, then. The angels point ahead and say that something will come around Leaf 15–which is the fire tablet, the last of the Watchtower tablets, if one starts with the most dense of them (earth).

I speak in an offhanded way about being a good guest to the angels who are hosting me, and they begin speaking about hospitality (note that the single word “host,” which can refer to either a multitude of an army or to one who receives guests, both derive from the word for “stranger, guest, enemy”). They mention that each of the leaves gives me a full day and night as a guest in the heavenly homes which God has created, and that Day 49 is the central home, the home of homes, in the throne room, which I will “never leave” (in status) and tending to the kingdom. The traveling which I do will be as a monarch or viceroy traveling to different realms to tend to whichever realm requires it.

Sunset: Same procedure. Call to BAG.

The angel governors ask me to focus on the feeling of the leaf, and then to focus on the spiral, which was common to both visions. Then the angels tell me to put the feeling of the energy of that spiral into the vision of heaven from this morning. I put my vision there and include my energetic body there.

I notice that I need to put more energy into concentration than I normally would for an Aethyr this low. I interpret this as being similar to dealing with the Aethyr of ZAX–in other words, the sevenfold nature of doing the Aethyr call during gebofal is putting the abyssal feeling much lower. They tell me to focus on the spiral and note the increasing size of the length of a diagonal as you go from one corner of the page to the book and the similar increase and decrease in size of a spiral’s arcs extending out from the middle:

Each of these leaves is thus similar to a fractal. This fractal is not only across leaves (such as going from only 105 letters on Leaf 49 (which is reduced from a small number of words) to 4802 letters on Leaf 2, to Leaf 1b which has letters at the end but which complexifies into words at the top, and finally Leaf 1a which is all words) but also within a single leaf. This self-similarity relates to the “as above, so below” principle of Hermeticism.

I try to relate this to the vision of the Roman-style triumph and to the idea of honoring all of possibilities and how each possibility itself could have been different. This pattern of self-similarity, I realize, is the universe/Divine trying to honor itself and the decisions it has made. Therein is the unity and multiplicity of coming into existence in the manner it has, and the arising and falling of patterns from moment to moment.

My mind alights on the concept of vibration as I handle the leaf in my hand. The phenomenon of vibration honors the idea of development. A vibration is an anticipation of the future, which we then take stock of after the fact. The most important vibrations are those which are meaningful: that makes the difference as to whether development proceeds in a given trend as anticipated. The concept of personal resonance relates to this.

I’m trying to combine the ideas now with the idea of being centered amidst polarities and forces. Fractals shift levels and do so in apparently nonlinear fashion; the idea of accepting things as they are is important, and I see development as a matter of homeostasis, but at the same time, biology speaks of punctuated equilibria. We find these in traversing the heart by attempting to be accepting, so accepting that we pay attention and at times we find, either by natural change or by noticing that which comes to be noticed with our development–we come to notice that which changes how we perceive everything. In such times, it seems like everything changes, and if we’re okay with that, we accept and flow with the change.

These moments are when our hearts feel that they would leap out of our chests into the unknown, because we see our past, our present, our future, our selves, our loved ones, and our world: these we see clearly and anew.

Updated Rainbow Body Enochian call; Addition of empty mind Enochian call

This post has been updated: here is the latest iteration.

I continue to mix-and-match Eastern concepts with Enochian techniques because I believe that at the core of these traditions is the same structure of reality. In my last post on the topic, I called upon a specific part of heaven, but I decided to change it after doing some chanting to Padmasambhava. My preparation was to do the Supreme Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (I modded to add invoking-spirit pentagrams after banishing all 5 elements). This was followed by an Expanded Middle Pillar ritual (of my own devising) to call all four Kabbalistic worlds using the correspondences 776 1/2. Finally, I did a Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram, followed by a Greater Invoking Ritual of the Hexagram of OM. Because this is beyond the Tree of Life proper (i.e., associated with Ain, Ain Sof, and Ain Sof Aur), I chose to use the “color” of clear for drawing both the hexagram and the Sanskrit word–similar to the camouflage effect from Predator (but in a good way!), or heat vision waves as seen in Smallville.

The new call is phrased:

MADRIAX DSPRAF MAOFFAS QAA DE TON DAMPLOZ OLPIRT DE OI, A MANIN DE AFFA OLPIRT…[complete remainder of the call to the Aethyrs]. (“O you heavens which dwell in the measureless garment (body) of all variety of light of this, in the mind of empty light”).

I dropped the “of me” in favor of “of this” (sidestepping ego issues by referencing “me” in the call). I also linked the rainbow body to the clear light mind.

There was a nascent sense of the actualization of the lesser rainbow body afterward; this is uncharted territory for me. The vision included eclipse imagery (note the date; I was comfortable doing this magick because this was aimed at the supernals), but also Christian imagery. The message was that the cross was not to be thought of in the vertical position, to lift up the sacrifice, but rather the horizontal (emphasizing the accepting of the fulfillment of the law, so to speak). From this horizontal cross emerged a being, or perhaps a scaffold, which resembled me, who locked in around me. There was a shift, but the shift seemed to be one of awareness, as well as a subtle body shift.

I was told at the end to use a separate call for the clear mind itself, which was much simpler (and more directly referring to Ain):

MADRIAX DSPRAF AG (NOIB, AFFA MANIN)… (“O you heavens which dwell in nothing (yea, the empty mind)”).

This evoked a very peaceful state of the clear mind and I recommend trying it out.