Gebofal, Day 45

Note: None of what follows constitutes medical advice. Consult your physician before making any changes to your health-related habits.

Sunrise: Call/Key 5, (most practitioners refer to this as call 4, for it is the 4th spoken call). Call to King Babalel. Call to Governors Nocamal (LIT), Tahamdo and Nociabi (OXO), and Ozidaia and Calzirg (LIN) and their respective Zodiacal Kings Alpudus, Zarzilg, Lavavoth, Arfaolg and Arfaolg.

King Babelel arises, and shows himself to be a mixture of water and fire, but now also earth. He shows himself digging through the earth, plottingly and ploddingly. He shows me the many different qualities of earth, and the admixtures that can come thereby. He specifically asks me to consider that the power of Natural Substances to be related to matter itself. So, whereas we had with the four fundamental forces relating to the elements (earth to gravity, water to strong force, air to weak force, and fire to electromagnetism), here he says we can also liken them to the four usual states of matter (not made in a lab): solid to earth, liquid to water, gas to air, and plasma to fire.

“Let’s consider what it would mean to have a Martially separating action among earth,” King Babalel continues. Naturally there are earthquakes, but relating this to Natural Substances, he says, his power is strongest in the sense of the natural foods that one could eat and what they are composed of. He also bids me consider the soil in which such foods are grown, and ensuring that it is proper for growth and the taking in of these natural substances.

Turning to Medicine, King Babalel mentions the powder that stops bleeding, which is also of the power of Natural Substances. I concentrate on lovingkindness and the connection with him. He notes the long cycles of Natural Substances, the long preparation that it takes to discover the power and structure of a natural substance. There needs to be a great deal of planning and will (Mars); the heat of Mars is excellent for something as cold and aloof as understanding Natural Substances, he wryly says.

“It took a very long time for chemistry to come about in its fullness,” King Babalel notes, and it was just gaining that term in Dee’s day. In this case, chemistry can be understood as the individual structure of atoms and molecules, King Babalel comments (i.e., of points fixed relative to one another). The actual chemical structure of a molecule would fall under this; a chemist can immediately recognize at a glance the name of a chemical based on its diagrammed structure. Knowing this and how the geometry of two different molecules come together and form a larger structure in three dimensions: this is the real power of Natural Substances, he says.

Applying this to Medicine, there’s an even larger structure that needs to be accounted for, King Babalel continues: how to get through a cell wall or membrane that has its own physico-chemical structure via some kind of chemical lock-and-key mechanism. All of this, he says, is the power of Natural Substances and of Medicine. Of course, he continues there’s also energetic grounding with respect to Medicine, such as meditation, gardening, or running. Those sorts of things are indeed of his power of Medicine with respect to elemental earth.

He says he thinks that these are enough examples. He says that if I continue to meditate on density, structure, and finally how that relates to medicine and natural substances, that I should continue to understand more. He notes that sometimes one simply needs more of a mineral, amino acid, or vitamin in order to feel better: with respect to diet, these belong to Mars in Capricorn, he says. There’s the emotional and nurturing component to Cancer, yet the reality of what is in what is eaten: such is Mars in Capricorn.

“That’s it,” King Babalel concludes. I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure.

Once again, I see King Babalel emerging, and now I see myself in an black, elementally earthen sphere, with the four colors again coming from the inside of the sphere. At first I’m within the Terran plane, but I’m taken up into heaven soon after. And now I see four tunnels open in front of me, and again, the same whitish admixture of elemental earth, water, air, and fire comes from all of them, suffusing me. I’m feeling almost a sense of a third coronation, or perhaps a preview thereof. King Babalel says that it’s time, so I accept the crowning with humility. I thank him and all of the angels present.

I ask why this is happening earlier compared to the visions of the previous two days? King Babalel replies, “The Lord wisheth to speak more with thee about a specific topic related to you this evening. Let your heart be glad. Once again, meditate on these powers, and they will be revealed unto you.”

He says he has nothing further. Thus ends the vision(!).

Note: As I type this up, it occurs to me how the symbolism here matches exactly the structure of Enochian. For a third time (and in all likelihood, a fourth tomorrow) I have been taken into a sphere, and this sphere has four colors within it, yet one without. This parallels the circle and square motif I’ve noticed.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I feel a lot of energy coming up off of Leaf 5. I see three connecting spokes from from a handwheel to a hatch. They are turning along with the handwheel in a counter-clockwise rotation, and the hatch opens. King Babalel is behind it, and silently bids me enter into this blindingly bright light in the space behind the hatch.

Everything in my subtle body is gearing up in my subtle body now, and I’m in this light, in this light, the light of the Divine, the light of the Divine. I’m told to “Relax, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: Yea, my Very Son. Relax completely now.

“My Very Son, you look at the Trinity with amazement and befuddlement. Spirit, Body, Soul: and yet have you not already seen this in the Trinity of the religion in which you were raised?” (Christianity). “‘Mediator’ be the word that you are looking for. Mediation: that Unique Thing which brings into reconciliation the other Two.”

“I don’t know what to say, o my Lord,” I whisper.

“Triple-crowned king though you may be, there be indeed one more crown that may be offered unto thee, and note: the triple-crowned King Carmara would thus be crowned about you as the four kings of the Watchtower tablets. And so he be able to mediate, and two given kings, but by any two, he can thus mediate all of them. And you, in thy mediation, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, will have his crown as well. For you will be able to slip in between all of the different rules: between fire and earth, between water and fire, between earth and air, and between air and water.

“Thus will you be able to mediate among them as you see fit, and you will see fit on account of the perception that I will lay before you, that will be fused with your very being, much as you have come to know how fused you are with the universe in which you operate. Therefore, rejoice, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for clarity will be given to you, much as clarity hath been given to you at many times throughout this process. So shall this be a permanent clarity, and it will be as if you can step behind any given situation and, to use the phrase that Jessa Reed constantly refers to, you will be able to manipulate the ‘wiring underneath the board.’

“Your heart has so many places it wishes to go, but the main thing be: how to allow others the means to transcend suffering, in all of the various ways that it may be transcended. Let this be your lode star. Let the Work upon thy Heart continue: in Its Joy, in Its Sorrow, in Its Pain, in Its Pleasure, in Its Pettiness, and in Its Grandeur: let It endure. Let It continue. Let it go through all of the levels of the Heart. Blessings be upon you now, my Very Son.”

“I give thanks to Thee, o Lord.”

“I hereby grant my blessing unto you.”

Thus ends the vision.

Aethyr working: LIN

[March 2, 2019].

I am following the technique of placing attention on attention, and meta-attention, and further meta-awareness on meta-awareness. It appears that the angels are waiting for me to complete this, so I continue. Eventually I have a vision of chaos of all awareness, which in my mind seems like a whirling cloud: it’s a lot for me to handle, so I continue to gaze into the mirror. I see a bit of a pond. They instruct me to close my eyes, so I see a stream emptying into a pond. This parallels the nature field visions from prior Aethyrs. I’m reminding myself of lovingkindness; I continue on that meditation for a bit.

I’m staring into the pond, and from it arises a great angel. The angel is appearing to some extent on the HTOP. I’m trying to maintain awareness and union. It’s a large—probably 7- or 8-foot angel. He’s taking me by the hand. We’re walking upon the water. I am—he sets me upon the ground, and I am, partly on account of my meditative state, I am turning into millions and billions of particles. These are swirling, and he is swirling himself in a similar manner, and he instructs me to take on my human form (usually it’s the other way around), so I do that. As part of this, I put awareness on awareness—and I’m going to take this a step further and continue to put Briatic and Yetziratic and Atziluthic awareness on awareness, all sort of returning me to that same spot, and so on: infinite regress. This is a lot for my mind to take on (I strain at the concentration). That’s okay: I’m noticing these changes and I am doing the infinite regress thing and putting awareness on just my physical and metaphysical state.

I’m instructed to breathe, so I’m breathe. I can feel the energy throughout my physical body change, so I put my meta-awareness on all of that, and putting myself back into that state of union [with awareness], and then putting awareness on that union repeatedly, and I’m feeling this very large current of energy now, and he instructs me that this is the path to the ultimate union, and to continue on that path, and that he is very pleased with the progress. I’m very grateful for such progress, but I’m trying to avoid an ego boost, but he says it’s nothing, it

[the ego]

is a delusion and it [consciousness] is merely a flow, so I’m feeling it in my solar plexus right now. He is linking it—he is showing me earth—but he doesn’t want it to be too much of an earthly feeling, so he’s taking me up into heaven.

In heaven, this same feeling in my solar plexus is extending out to, in this lightning-like way, to all of these other beings in heaven. He says this is Chokmah, and to continue that meditative state, and so I do, putting awareness on awareness, meta-awareness, and awareness on union, and I’m including, because this is now the case, the object of awareness is heaven itself. I’m proceeding to put awareness on awareness on heaven itself, (I strain) and it is very powerful feeling energy right now that is opening up, and the angel says to hold off, to just take it down a step. I say, “OK.” He says this is going to continue to get more intense as I continue through [the Aethyrs]. He instructs me that this is the proper path for me to do it, this is well worth the while, and I’m—even as I’m expressing concern about the amount of energy [expended]—he says to just continue with it, to continue with this method.

So I say “Okay.” My mind flits upon the watchtowers [that I have yet to build], he says that everything is already here and coming together. I’m looking at alternative ways [to build the watchtowers], needed to build it. [Here the angel provides instructions to build the watchtower tablets that I made in my possession.] He mentions that the angels like geometry. He tells me to continue at my job; I say “OK.” He reminds me that that which I desire is grand, difficult, but not impossible. He notes my interest in political engagement; he informs me that truly this inner focus is more important right now; he reminds me that these are vicissitudes. I ask about the moral nature of my preferred candidate, whom he says is very moral; I ask if it is plausible, wise, and in the nature of the Divine Will to help this candidate win, and I am getting a very affirmative yes. Indeed, at this moment, it is not merely a matter of if but when I should move forward politically: “For behold, it has been destined.” This generates skepticism in me on account of that affirmation, just because I understand the nature of this [i.e., that spirits often flatter].

I ask if there is anything they would like to share for my magical colleagues. The angel tells me that God is waking the minds of humanity, and that people who practice magick are carrying out their co-divine role in the cosmos…that it should be turned (if it is to be done in the most appropriate manner) toward this liberation of human consciousness and setting humanity into its state of sustainability and expansion (e.g., into the cosmos). I express skepticism, but he tells me to be silent on that matter [Editorial note: there is tension between sustainability and expansion). I say, “OK,” but acknowledge my own divinity, so he bows to my own as well. There suddenly seems to be a great deal of angels who appear at this point. I remember to practice lovingkindness and once again to place attention on attention. He tells me that every time I do this consistently and with enough effort I will be reminded once again of my state of nature. So, I allow the vision to continue and I’m packed full of angels around me. I’m seeing a very solid—it’s as if goldened iron, or cast into this very strong steel—or, you throw in the mercurial quality of mercury with the denseness of lead—they [all of these kinds of metals] are all merging together, and this is how the path before me is laid out. And I’m getting a message: if it is [your] True Will to be wise, then the acts carried out with respect to that True Will are to gain and act from Wisdom, which means that they will always be ever-changing. They will be much more mercurial, and indeed I’m shown this sort of direct line of uniting different natures.

At any rate I feel there’s a very large contingent of angelic forces. There’s a feeling of mutual respect; a very large nexus, which for someone who is an introvert to become aware of, having an extremely extroverted spiritual side—seeing all of these angels and interacting with them [is ironic]. I thank the angels for their time and for their wisdom and their insight, and with that the vision ends.