I have completed the Book of Silvered Leaves. Let me start by discussing the book’s general structure as it was transmitted to me:
The first 19 leaves had images on both sides, and at least one of the sides of each leaf incorporated one of the 21 letters of the Enochian alphabet into the image (for two leaves, Enochian letters were incorporated into each side’s image; the letter pairs for these were Pa/Gisg (the first and last letters of the Enochian alphabet) and Ger/Pal (the least-used Enochian letters). It should be noted that one of the images that arose was what I was told was the seal of the angel Mapsama, the angel who directed Dee & Kelley to create the book.
Nine leaves with moon phases: The next two leaves consisted of 49-word Enochian-language messages, while the following seven leaves included 49-word Enochian-language messages, as well as moon phase symbols (2 leaves with full moons, 1.5 leaves waxing crescent, 3.5 waning crescent). This suggested to me that the previous two leaves represented new moons.
The next 12 leaves each had one of the glyphs for the signs of the zodiac on both sides, and also had 49-word Enochian-language messages. At times these included the name of some of the zodiacal kings, and all 12 of the watchtower’s names of God were used, often with an IA- (“God”) prefix.
The next seven leaves each had an astrological symbol for the seven classical astrological planets (in order) on each side, each with shorter, seven-word Enochian-language messages (which were to be on a single line).
The final, 48th leaf was the astrological glyph for Earth. As with the 49th leaf of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (commonly, but not quite properly, known as Liber Loagaeth), this leaf was to have three 3×7 tables on the front, and two of the same on the back, each cell with one letter.
As far as how I wrote it, sometimes I would see the outline of a shape or letter in the silver borne by the page, sometimes I would hear what I was to write (in Enochian, or in English to be looked up in Enochian).
So we have some parallels between the Book of Silvered Leaves and Amzes Naghezes Hardeh/Liber Loagaeth. While the former has a distinctly lunar quality (indeed, it happens that the cover I bought to bind the book was very dark and reminiscent of the night sky), the latter is quite solar (to be bound in blue silk, with letters of gold, with Bornogo, the prince of the sun, appearing prominently in Leaf 9–the only leaf with numbers in addition to letters).
Now on to the effects. My friend Cody P. mentioned that his view of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth) that it created, so to speak, the rainbow body on the astral, from which a true rainbow body could ultimately be realized (this is a recollected conversation, not verbatim). There was certainly a lot of symbolism and coming to terms with a lot of my being during my reconstructed gebofal ritual. Although he didn’t say so, it’s like the world of Briah, and probably also Atziluth (and even Adam Qadmon), manifesting into Yetzirah. Note that my making a perfected copy of this book was probably heavily assisted by having previously scried the Aethyrs in this interpretation.
As I was told towards the end of constructing the Book of Silvered Leaves, I scried the word “PRONOA,” a word (meaning roughly alchemical love) which I had received during my initial trip through the Aethyrs. When I did so, I had an extremely powerful vision, almost as if all components of reality had their own Aethyric-style vision, and all of them were overlaid with each other simultaneously (like the many sound tracks at the end of the Beatles’ Revolution Number 9–except visual). This was the most intense vision I’d had, and I was guided to relax into the love. Doing so, I saw myself on a still, spherical ocean. I was told that I was to scry this word once more after the book had been completed, and afterward would receive the title of the book as well as realize the rainbow body–Yetzirah manifesting into Assiah.
The title of the book was PRONOA PIBLIAR CAOSGO, or roughly “Alchemical Love’s Places of Comfort of the Earth.” I wrote this on the silver which I had already affixed to the front (an extra silver leaf from the package I bought). More importantly, a nascent rainbow body has appeared, right now only appearing to me astrally, but something I can work with at will.
Now for ultimate reflections on this book. I do not believe that everyone will receive the same book if they go through this process (especially given that many of the messages seem quite personalized). However, I believe that making this book, as creating a perfected copy of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), is important to the magician. It is certainly the easier of the two books to make! The level of trance I would say I had–with the exception of the final ritual of scrying the word PRONOA–was not as heavy as, for example, almost all of the reconstructed gebofal ritual. So in the sense of a doable ritual, I would almost encourage people to make this book first, since it was to be created just as much as Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), but is far less effort. It may even be wiser for those born at night to make the Book of Silvered Leaves first, for in Hellenistic astrology, the main luminary for such people is the moon, not the sun. Regardless, the moon, being the closest astrological planet to the earth, is considered most “earth-like,” and can sort of be considered a gateway to the higher realms.
I did a brief review of the chart for the absolute end of the ritual, and found the following septile aspects (something I noticed at the end of the gebofal ritual; 3-degree orb (except for quincunx/triseptile)):
Before I get into my analysis of the Pure Lands, let me note how this is related to Enochian in my mind. Mainly, the concept of Pure Lands remind me of the Enochian word pibliar, which means “places of comfort.” Pibliar itself is striking to me, for why have such a different word for heaven, unless it is not about heaven? Pibliar appears in the seventh spoken Enochian call, the translation of which is quite lovely:
“The east is a house of virgins singing praises amongst the flames of the First Glory; wherein the Lord hath opened His Mouth, and they become 28 living dwellings in whom the strength of men rejoiceth and they are appareled with ornaments of brightness such as work wonders on all creatures. Whose kingdoms and continuance are as the Third and Fourth; strong towers and places of comfort, the seats of mercy and continuance. O you servants of mercy, move, appear, sing praises unto the Creator, and be mighty amongst us. For to this remembrance is given power and our strength waxeth strong in our Comforter.”
I’ll digress to note the here the astrological, kabbalistic, and numerological implications: there’s a clear reference to the 28 lunar mansions (“28 living dwellings…appareled with ornaments of brightness [stars]”), and the implication of the moon (“waxeth”). The ordering of the dyads would suggest that the Third or the number 3 relates to strong towers, a seat of mercy, while the Fourth or the number 4 suggests places of comfort and a seat of continuance–but a clear reading of the text suggests a switch of significations, which should instead be as follows: 3, strong towers, a seat of continuance; and 4, places of comfort, seat of mercy. This corresponds well with 3 as Binah/Understanding and 4/Chesed/Mercy.
As I mentioned: I digress. To the analysis: in Buddhism, pure lands or buddha-fields are reminiscent of an actual location or place. Indeed, the Buddha Amitabha’s pure land of Sukhavati is described as millions of Buddha lands to the west, whereas other Buddhas’ pure lands also have directions: Aksobhya’s pure land of Abhirati to the east, Ratnasambhava’s pure land of Srimat to the south, and Amoghasiddhi’s pure land of Karmaprasiddhi/Prakuta of the north. Vairocana hosts Akanistha-Ghanavyuha. Note that “millions of Buddha lands to the west” (I’ve read in some sources “west of earth”) suggests a continuum of what is extruded out–presumably from Earth–and that this itself is reminiscent of both the celestial sphere of astrology, but also the Sambhogakaya or “body of enjoyment.”
Thus, we have the Earth (or other physical worlds) as the place of the actual bodies of Buddhas, or Nirmanakayas, the extrusion or reflection of these into Sambhogakayas and perhaps a similar extrusion of pure lands (which resemble metaphorical “fixed stars” mentioned by my friend Cody P.), and finally a Dharmakaya, which is an inconceivable aspect of being a Buddha. This makes the physical world very important, for we have a means of experiencing or even integrating all pure lands at once. To that end, as practitioners, it may be worthwhile to not only attempt to travel or project astrally to a pure land, but also to consider using the technique (from what I loosely “Hermetic Kabbalah”) of pathworking (i.e., finding paths from one Pure Land to another). The latter will likely help the seeker discover more about their own particular set of “fixed stars” which could guide and inform the particular Sambhogakaya they can develop.
Relating the Dharmakaya to Enochian, it reminds me of the phrase from Hermeticism (specifically Book of the 24 Philosophers) which I found referenced here: “God is an infinite sphere, the center of which is everywhere, the circumference nowhere.” To that I’ll add that for me, the Divine must also have the Buddha nature.
Update 2: Someone mentioned that they needed the Enochian Flip font. A visitor named Marco sent me a flipped file of the font. Please reach out to me directly for it for now.
Update 1: I have removed the zodiacal table as it originally appeared below and replaced it in the same location with the new table.
An excellent discussion on Frater RC’s podcast, Magick without Fears, led to a nugget that I had not known: the original Holy Table of Practice was to be replaced with a second table (in personal communication, RC credits Frater Yechidah). This was new to me, but it wasn’t completely surprising. After all, the Great Table of the four Watchtowers was itself replaced with the Tabula Recensa (this change merely affected the relative locations of three of the four tablets), and Jason Louv mentions that the switching of the original table is a pattern.
Nonetheless, I’m not aware of any record of what the second table was to have looked like. But inspiration struck as a way to create one: the structure of the original Holy Table is a remix of the seven Heptarchical kings and their seven princes. These fourteen angels each have a name starting with the letter B, and these fourteen B‘s are consolidated into four (one for each corner of the table), and the remaining 84 letters are arranged in a particular manner along the four sides of the table (in Enochian Vision Magick, Lon Milo DuQuette does a good job explaining the exact manner in which these sides are arranged in the table).
The number 84 stuck out to me: 84 is seven times twelve, a perfect mirror of the number of classical astrological planets times the number of signs of the zodiac. You see this emphasized in the inner part of the original Holy Table as well: not only are there seven ensigns of creation placed on it, but there is a central square of twelve letters.
This suggested to me another seven times twelve: twelve zodiacal kings, eleven of whom have a seven-letter name. The twelfth, Lavavoth, the king of Capricorn, has eight letters, and is also the only king starting with the letter L (Enochian Ur). Furthermore, this letter is translated as “One,” “The First,” or “God,” and is a direct analog to the Semitic word El, which also name for God.
It struck me that this letter should be excluded from the 85 letters, allowing for the remaining letters to be placed on a revised Holy Table with the exact same dimensionality as the original, at least along the outside. The nice thing about the Zodiacal Kings is that, representing the zodiac, they also refer to the four elements. This part in particular helps relate the Zodiacal Kings with the four Watchtower tablets, so I have used the Enochian colors of the Watchtower tablets on the four sides of this second Holy Table. Rather than having a central square of 12 letters, I simply put the the Enochian letter L/Ur. Rather than the first revealed Enochian letter B at the corners, I chose to use the Enochian letter T/Gisg, which was the last one to be revealed, and for it, I used the color blue rather than red for the background of these, partly to not be confused with the red of the fire side of the table, and partly because blue is the color of Liber Loagaeth, and was used in the original Holy Table.
Regarding the rest of the design, it again occurred to me to think of the original Holy Table and to the Watchtower tablets. The dimensions of the latter are 12 by 13, while the former has the aforementioned seven ensigns of creation along with a hexagram in the middle, which of course has six sides. Six and seven matches the numeracy of the Heptarchy. Each king has both a prince and six ministers, for seven angels underneath them in all.
To complement the original Holy Table, this new version has a single letter in the center, leading to a total of 13 letters between the two of them. To parallel the original Holy Table, a hexagram is included, but this time stretched slightly to be inscribed within a heptagram. The heptagram thus parallels the seven ensigns of creation. The table still felt imbalanced, so I included four squares in the corners of the table to parallel the four miniature SDAs in the original configuration. Furthermore, the 16 sides that these squares is a rough parallel to the 16 corners of the four Watchtower tablets.
Then comes the question of what order to put the Zodiacal Kings. Here, I take a cue from the planets in the original ensigns of creation: Venus, the sun, Mars, Jupiter, Mercury, Saturn, and the moon. All of the planets rule have domicile in two signs, with the exception of the sun and moon, which only have a single sign of domicile. For two signs ruled by the same planet, I put the nocturnal sign first, mainly because the Aethyrs are associated with initiation into Binah, but also because the placement of the ensigns appeared to prioritize the nocturnal sect. This order creates an interesting balance of the zodiacal kings as they appear in the Aethyrs: the first six kings (Taurus, Libra, Leo, Scorpio, Aries, and Pisces) appear in the Aethyrs 46 times, while the latter six (Sagittarius, Virgo, Gemini, Capricorn, Aquarius, and Cancer) appear 45 times, though Capricorn’s king, Lavavoth may deserve extra “weight” due to its extra letter.
The original Holy Table, of course had a lamen made in order to “conciliate” the wearer with it. This lamen was made from the same table of letters that the Holy Table used. To parallel this, I followed the same order of the original lamen.
“Pressure Testing” the New Table and Lamen
I never like releasing magick without trying it myself, so I tried these out by activating the original table and lamen in addition to the Zodiacal-King versions, in the spirit of conciliation.
Recommended Configuration
I wanted to finish with a suggestion as to how to configure the table. This table top could be combined with the original table and the four Watchtower tablets to form a cube, and the four legs of the table could be painted with the names of God on the Black Cross of the original Great Table. The SDA’s would then be placed inside, or one could follow the original design and have thick boxes underneath the cube for the miniature SDA’s.
Pressure-Testing the Revised Table
I put on the ring and then the original lamen along with a paper version of the revision. I then activated the original table, and then the paper version of the revised table. Then I activated the central square of the original table, and then the letter Ur (L) in the center of the revised table. There was a lot of energy raised, which I compounded by doing an extended Middle Pillar ritual in all five Kabbalistic worlds.
I then made Calls 1 and 2; not getting anything, I made these calls again. The angels show me that this table is a broader type of ritual–“Chokmah! Chokmah! Chokmah!” they repeat. This is like Chokmah spilling into Binah, much as the original table is Binah spilling into Chokmah. “When you can, use both tables together,” they advise, and are on board with the cubical configuration. The angles have an urgency to this message which I haven’t heard before.
The angels advise me to activate the zodiacal table first (“last shall be first”) and then the planetary (original) table. If one wants to, for example, activate Jupiter in Pisces (coming up in a month), then one should activate the zodiacal table and then the planetary table, and then the effect of calling on Bynepor and Butmono will be amplified.
A female angel comes forward: it’s Galvah! “Behold God’s mercies,” I’m told. The angels show me a golden sphere coming towards me, and she flicks it with her finger, and it creates a beautiful ringing tone. She says it’s a tone that humanity has not seen (heard?) before. “People will be drawn to it; those who know will be enamored with it. Behold His mercies! Behold his mercies!” she repeats.”
This symbolism is reminiscent of LIL. She replies, “This is like a higher octave of LIL.” She tells me to scry this Aethyr with this table now activated. “Make haste: do not delay any more.”
I make the call to LIL. I see the golden sphere again. It’s starting to vibrate wildly, violently even, and there’s a massive amount of electricity coming off of it. It’s creating a torus of energy, which comes towards me and coalesces at my center, and which then comes out and back to it; it’s like two united tori. There’s a Uranian feel to it. The angels tell me to scry this once a week until the new ring (with Enochian letters) arrives, when the fullness of the vision will come.
The golden sphere is now spinning, and now colors are coming off of it (in my initial scrying of LIL, colors instead appeared in the vision), and the angels tell me that there are 24 of them. These colors represent the twenty-four elders (from the Watchtower vision). Note: 7 times 24 is 168, which is one less than 13 times 13. Thirteen is the height of each of the Watchtower tablets.
The golden sphere is now spinning in two different directions, violently shaking around. It is how I imagine an atom in a high-energy state to move. I’m told to allow every atom of my body to vibrate like this, and I’m feeling this same violent vibration go through my subtle body. The sphere approaches me and it’s brightening like the sun, and it’s like the sun as the prime mover for all of the other planets. Now I’m feeling a Venusian love emanate off of it.
Now it wishes to speak–I have to try very hard to concentrate, which again suggests a higher-octave energy for me to have to spend such energy to receive: “Behold, the Mercy of the Lord upon you, and upon your species. Yea, I will have for you a Great Awakening and Opening of the Heavens. You shall see all of these things, and more, at the Heart of your Hearts, come to fruition, and His Divine Mercies shall be multiplied exponentially, and yea, ye shall rejoice, for the Lord has seen the Heart of Man, beneath the layers of armor with which it hath clad itself, and yea, this Heart be Divine. Therefore shall the Divine know Itself. Go now, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, in this rich golden fervor with which He hath called thee, and with which thou hast answered, and with which He hath banished thy ignorance from thee. Know thou that PRONOA of the Most High abideth and redoundeth unto even the smallest atom–yea, every atom which appeareth before the Lord. For each atom, yea, all atoms and all energy pleaseth Him.
“In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; the Mother, the Daughter, and the Holy Spirit; the daka, the dakini, and the Holy Spirit; and the Buddha, the Sangha, and the Dharma. Amen! Amen! Amen! Adgmach! Adgmach! Adgmach! [Much glory! Much glory! Much glory!”
I look to Liber Loagaeth and get the sense that another will be transmitted.
Here are the Zodiacal-King version of the Holy Table and lamen:
If you have a question related to Enochian or magick more generally, send me an email and I’ll try my best to give a thoughtful answer at the end of the month!
I’m very pleased to announce that I’ve had another podcast appearance with Ryan Villa on Praxis Behind the Obscure, Episode 19 (a fitting number)! We talk about Enochian, angels, gebofal, Buddhism, and so much more, and of course we had a great time: check it out here!
This is a relatively short post; I think that I have figured out what John Dee was trying to do with his Monas Hieroglyphica, specifically theorem XXIII. First, I think Dee was trying to say that the symbol itself is elegant on account of the pure dimensionality (the arms are twice as long as the neck, the head’s radius is the length of the arm, the “torso” is thrice the length of the neck, etc.).
Second, one thing that confused me is why he substituted 2 for the number four in 1-2-3-4 (I’ve re-created is part from Theorem XXIII because I can’t do a simple copy/paste, which I would do for something public domain like this; I took the opportunity to clarify what Dee was doing):
to get 1-2-3-2:
Why did the 4 change to a 2, thus changing all of the sums that follow? Note this digression on numbers is related to the actual symbol of the Monas Hieroglyphica by starting at top going with each element in rotation: neck (length 1), arm (length 2), torso (length 3), and opposing arm (length 2 again).
Still, Dee also calls what he is doing calling “Kabbalistic” & either Temurah or Tsiruf, as scholars such as Sledge has already noted. I think Dee is making not an empty appeal here. Rather, my specific observation is that Dee makes a substitution, which is not actually one of the three simple forms of Temurah substitution listed on Wikipedia (Atbash, Avgad, and Albam). Instead, Dee is likely implying a different substitution, a simple one of numbers for letters, namely, those of the Tetragrammaton, YHVH, which is adduced in addition to his geometric justification of his symbol:
Thus, the Yod (typically equal 10 in Gematria) is 1, the first Heh (typically 5) is 2, Vav (typically 6) is 3, and the second Heh must have the same value as the first and is thus 2 again. I’m not sure whether this theory has been posited before, so I will simply say that this is an observation, not necessarily that it’s an original one. Regardless, I agree with Sledge that Dee is using his limited familiarity with the Kabbalah (again, the numbers do not add up correctly according to typical Gematria!) to justify his symbol, but he does so in a clever way.
Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 2, (as the first spoken call (the true first call “not to be spoken”), most practitioners refer to this as call 1). Vibrated the Enochian names of God “L,” “IAD,” and “NA.” I neglected to vibrate the title of Leaf 2b (or, as was temporarily my case, not to be), which I rectified mid-vision. Oh well: come to grips with your humanity really early on if you do Enochian, people.
I feel this gathering about my crown chakra. I’m feeling some energy coming up from the leaf, and the Holy Table of Practice, and eventually coming up from the three Tablets of Union, mainly the four-lettered version (“EHNB”).
I’m bidden to relax. I’m getting the sense that this is the Holy Spirit. More and more energy slowly accumulates within me, and I’m feeling raised up, and with a slight twist. My entire subtle body seems to conform to the change in my crown chakra, though the heart chakra was already okay. Now I’m sensing greater communication and resonance with the heart and crown chakras. Lots of gentle subtle body work occurs.
Now I sense a projection from me, or perhaps I’m becoming aware of one which already existed, but now it’s very active, and the act of observing it is also changing it. I see it encompass, in many subtle ways, the entire world, and also reaching out in subtle ways across the cosmos to other planets. I’m filled with compassion as I do this, trying to generate it as best I can.
The sense I’m now getting is that this is a proper attunement with reality. At first it was the heart, and now it seems as if it is my entire subtle body, via the crown. I’m unsure whether the Holy Spirit wishes to speak or not. Now there’s there’s an unfolding within the vision, as if a paper had a cross cut into it, and now the four corners are rotated away via some kind of mechanism atop them, the upper-left corner rotated clockwise, and the remaining corners alternating between clockwise and counterclockwise, symmetrical about each axis.
There’s a focus about this cross, as if two hyperbolae (i.e., all four quadrants of the xy plane system were represented) were projected forward along the z-axis, approaching it but never quite touching it. This is, I’m told, like approaching a fixed star, a set point of, for example, the True Will. This represents the four elements set about the approach toward the fixed star: “They are unleashed and balanced within you. They may approach the fixed stars,” but also, I’m told, I’m always at the Center [of the Divine Sphere], I’m always this action of reaching towards the fixed stars [along this path from the center to a star along the surface of this sphere], and I’m also of the surface of the sphere itself.
This, I’m told, is of nature of the Holy Spirit: that flow, that constant flow, that allows this transition from Center to Sphere, that Radius that is seen by the four elements as they also project toward the surface of the sphere (along these hyperbolae). Yet at any given point, one is not actually at that surface of the Sphere. Thus the Holy Spirit is this awareness of that constant transitional state, while one remains at that Temporal Center (i.e., re-emerges into a new Center at each moment in Time). This is beautiful.
I’m feeling more energy coming about my face and throat, and I relax, and then I feel a sensation in my right eye. Nothing happens for a bit, and I try to concentrate. I am about to close the session, when I realize that I have forgotten to vibrate the title of the leaf. I pause to do so and I ask forgiveness for my error.
This helps me feel more energy coming off the leaf. Now there seems to be a cone originating from the midpoint of the crown chakra (recall that it be a sphere, the bottommost point of which touches the actual crown of the head), which encompasses my body. The sense I get is that this will be a mark about me of protection and guidance.
Now I feel like I’m being lifted up again. It’s like the Holy Spirit is on the cusp of speaking, but then seems to not wish to. Yet then: “Such Love hath the Lord God toward thee, hath He unto All. Rejoice now in this Love. Rejoice now in this Path and this Purpose set before you, this constantly unfolding Path, whereby thou know and give the Compassion of the Almighty unto All. A grand Unfolding hath He set about thee, and about All. Such Mercy hath He unto you. Rejoice in this Mercy and rejoice in this Blessing. Seek ye to rectify thy state so that you may live up to the phrase, ‘Made in His image.’ Feel now the Blessings of the Holy Spirit about thee, and rest easy in the knowledge that the Lord God loveth thee and hath grand plans for thee.”
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Similar procedure.
Once again, I see the cross in front of me, and my eye is drawn to the center thereof, that point. It’s shown to me as this line of infinitude. I’m told, “You are a Ray. You are this Ray, starting at this point” (and I’m shown the date of my conception). I hear what sounds like a voice, and pause the vision to check on my wife. She’s fine.
I’m told to consider all of the forces which act upon an individual; “Everything travels in a straight line, with the exception of the curved spacetime caused by all of the forces acting upon it,” which is a deceptively simple statement. Trying to visualize it is quite difficult, yet I make the effort. It’s a constant wobble, wiggle, and turning in 3D space, yet it’s actually a straight line, if all of the forces across time were removed. The magnitude and multiplicity of all of the forces is far too much for us to comprehend, unless we go through a process to make ourselves aware of them.
I pause to concentrate again; generating lovingkindness and compassion here helps a great deal. Returning to the topic: I’m shown myself as being at the center of this cross, and I’m being reminded of the four corners of the sheet where a cross has been cut into it, and thus it is peeled away. This peeling away of the delusion of everyday reality, I’m shown and told: that’s what this process of today and tomorrow is about. I’m told that what I will have to do is find out how to be equally within all three worlds. “Your heart is sympathetic to the realm of Adam Qadmon, and now your crown is a mediator between the heart and the realm of Adam Qadmon. Your crown is being attuned to it,” but I’m told that I will come into these higher realms and forces, into this infinitude of Adam Qadmon, the Ain infinitude: the Ain Sof, but also the Ain itself. I’m told that the previous delusion of existence is being peeled away, as from these corners, and that I only have this cross to orient me, so it’s important to stay at the center of it, the origin point of what would be the xy-axis system, but also to remain in balance between the four elements. I’m also told to continue the lovingkindness, and that is what will continue to propel me forward.
I try to generate this lovingkindness in order to concentrate past some distracting images: this helps. I’m told to relax (with some wryness: “You’ve been told to relax almost every single time!”), and I do. So this will be the projective nature, but of what? That will be revealed to me tomorrow, I’m told.
Again, I believe this is all coming from the Holy Spirit, which is mediating between the entire realm of Adam Qadmon and where I am now. I ask whether God in His Mercy has anything else to show me. I don’t get the sense that there is, so I express my gratitude to the Most High, and the vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I’m told to relax, which I do. I’m told that so much more will be revealed unto me, and that there is nothing to fear.
I generate lovingkindness and wait. I see a cube in a brightly lit space, gold in color, suspended in midair, but its bottom half falls apart into letters and numbers. It strikes me as a bit abyssal, but I make note of the four elements, represented by the four top sides of the cube, as they enter into reality. The Holy Spirit says that this is a good metaphor for what goes on; it’s like the elements need to enter in, but they also need to disperse. Yet with intelligence and initiation into the supernals, and observing the elements as they enter the four lower worlds, one can (with intelligence, keen insight, wisdom, and understanding) balance these out so that they enter in to the lower Three Realms at the appropriate moments, thus avoiding a lot of the negative effects (of unplanned addition or distribution of elements). (Writing this up, I’m also told that one can determine how much elements come in to the Tree of Life from Adam Qadmon at all). It’s sort of like having a good sense of when to act at the most opportune moment, I’m told.
I concentrate into this vision a bit more. I’m told to look into the numbers of spoken calls 1 & 2. As far as the matter of Leaf 1, I’m once again told, “Yes, complete the task that you have set before you. The Lord gives His blessing.” As far as trying to time it: it’s happening on God’s Time. I ask regarding my planned procedure regarding the final leaf, which is to read the second half in the morning, the first half at noon, and finally the leaf in its entirety at sunset. I’m told that the way I have it is good: it will be as good as can be expected.
I get the sense that this is it, but I vibrate the names of God again. Once again, I’m feeling the realignment of my crown chakra is about. It is aligning myself to easily traverse the realm of Adam Qadmon and back to the Tree of Life and the four lower worlds. I’m being attuned to be able to do that. I’m reminded once more that forward motion will continue with compassion and lovingkindness, so I sense that this will be my main focus of meditation for some time. I express my gratitude.
I become distracted by the external environment. This is how it will be, I’m told; I’ll need to attend to whatever is going on in the Tree of Life, and then return to whatever vision I have going on. I express my gratitude once more.
There is more to the vision, which I am choosing not to release except potentially upon request.
Sunrise: Call/Key 11; because this call is the 10th of the spoken calls, most practitioners refer to this as call 10. Call to King Bnaspol. Call to Governor Vixpalg
I made some changes to the pronunciation of angel and names of God in this ritual. Because Aaron Leitch, who painstakingly reconstructed the pronunciation of angelical (i.e., “Enochian”) from the primary source material, has the word “OL” pronounced “oh-el,” it occurred to me to make this change for any name with this, so the name of God, “GAIOL,” becomes “Gah-ih-oh-el,” etc.
I see a rush of air about me, as a sphere. I see a lot of faces, all speaking at once, within it (note that today, Mercury, the planet of communication, is within its domicile of the air sign of Gemini, and that Bnaspol, the king of Mercury (more properly, the sephirah that it rules in Kabbalah, Hod), is today associated with the air tablet and, apparently, Gemini. King Bnaspol appears, and is quite large, perhaps 40-50 feet in height, whitish and windy form.
He takes me to a town, and there he whispers the word “gold” or “diamonds,” and this causes this rush, this power, this rush of people approaching an alleged location filled with gold and diamonds. There’s this mania that takes over; he points particularly to the chatter among the people. There’s a lot of emotion at first, King Bnaspol notes, but this gives way to information (or misinformation, or even disinformation!) being exchanged, or people attempting to exchange it: location, size, amount (of gold or diamonds), that sort of thing.
Then, when the treasure returns from its source, when it’s actually in hand, then it goes to the people who know how to harness it, test it, make sure it’s authentic, identify (the gold as true gold, and the stone as either a diamond or some other precious stone): all sorts of information that we (i.e., people like me!) do not pay much attention to. King Bnaspol notes the care, especially when it comes to a diamond: how many facets to make, what sort of overall cuts to make and how to make them. He also notes the many ways in which gold is manipulated to continue to have that beautiful outward sheen, for example, or perhaps to make it less soft via alloying with silver or with copper, depending on the ultimate desired look of the gold by the person. There’s a lot of information that goes into each of these processes, a lot of discussion at each point along the way. The product at the end of all of this, King Bnaspol is saying, are two things that I’m wearing: the gold-plated lamen and the gold-plated ring, the latter of which is the more important of the two, for “Without this, I shall do nothing.”
“Note the transportation involved in all of this,” King Bnaspol comments. “Once the information is achieved, then the transportation is simple and easy, and people will work very hard to make it simpler and easier,” he adds wryly, “once the site is secure: roads, vehicles, and all the powers of transportation” are implemented. He points out, “Consider the immense amount of information that goes into something simple like a car, or even something simpler, or even something simpler, such as running or walking. There is a constant map that is being updated,” and here he notes the grid cells found in many mammals. “There is a constant map that is updated within an individual,” he remarks.
Here I pause, for a few moments, trying to concentrate past some intrusive thoughts. “There is a constant network of grid cells within an individual,” King Bnaspol repeats, “indicating location, location, location. There is also the occipital lobe, which is very good at trying to project forward and try to estimate location if it is unknown, and is constantly being updated” with information.
King Bnaspol bids me go deeper into trance, so I self-induce a deeper hypnotic state. “Know ye not, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth,” he asks, “that such will be imprinted upon you? More, yea, even more will be required of you. Take heart, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, the Lord will not give thee more than thy householder responsibilities require. The Most High merely bids you rest, rest, rest.
“These [powers] will be indeed be borne out according to [astrological] sign once again. Take care after your health, and after your ability to rest. Nothing more have I to say to you.”
The vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure.
Once again, King Bnaspol bids me remain calm. I do so, and once again see him rushing up towards me. He notes the particular leaf that my left hand is upon right now, Leaf 11A:
Leaf 11a, with a central 19×19 square of bold Enochian letters within the overall 49×49 grid of normal Enochian letters.
This half-leaf is one of the more unique ones, along with 10b (which is something of a counterpart with its 21×21 grid), Leaf 1 (both sides, the gargantuan leaf made of words inside the cells(!), the leaves with changing orientations of the letters from 25-28, then change to every other cell being empty around Leaf 29, and then of course the final leaf of 49, which is much easier to make (the most effort went into designing it!). So it was exciting! Note that Leaves 10 and 11 add up to 21, a number we see in Leaf 49 in the five 3×7 tables (also note that, although 105 letters are used, this is from a reduction–left to us magicians, for the angel Galvah did not indicate how they were to be reduced!–from 112. Sooo…tables of 21 made from 112, or 21,112…a palindrome across two numbers. The odd numbers in this, 5 (tables overall) and 7 (taken away from the 112 via the magician’s method), add to 12, and can extend the palindrome further: 21,12,112.
King Bnaspol notes the interesting inversion when one goes from usual order when operating the watchtower tablets, which is to say that this call usually is to earth (and indeed the text of the call references the earth and earthquakes). King Bnaspol is strong in elemental earth: “To whom the earth with her bowels, and secrets what so ever are delivered,” likely due his association with Mercury, which is both exalted and in Domicile in the astrological sign Virgo, an earth sign). King Bnaspol says that because this is Loagaeth/gebofal (as opposed to a specific calling) there’s this inversion in the energy. He notes that my feet are upon the Air/Southern tablet as opposed to what this call is usually associated with, the Earth/Northern tablet. Still, Mercury does receive planetary dignity (domicile) in Gemini, an air sign.
King Bnaspol bids me to note the translation to these four calls (spoken calls 7, 8, 9, and 10 (but actually the calls are 8-11)), as well as the next four calls, for they will shed some light on my understanding. He also bids me make a mental note of this day, May 5th, because this is what I will be referring to, the inversion of the orders when it comes to Loagaeth: this will be of an important interest to me later.
Regardless, he appears to me again in this whitish, windy form, or a whitish smoke. He uses the same example of whispering the word “gold” and notes the different powers of transportation and those of gold and precious stones associated with these (e.g., of demand).
King Bnaspol has us start with Gemini, and attributes the initial communication, the whispering of the word “gold,” to it, that information about that which is coveted or desired: that is Gemini, as is the communication about verify information related to it. Additional things to consider are the information related to the properties therein, as discussed above. Of interest is that the Prince of the Sun, Bornogo, is related to knowledge of metals, and so could be combined with these elemental angels with respect to gold.
There’s an energy coming up off the leaf, which is of interest, but King Bnaspol bids me wait on it. It is the power of seeking information about the most precious of metals, gold, or precious stones. Though not necessarily about knowing such information about these in advance, it is the seeking, coming to know, and communicating the information related to the topics from this morning’s vision (such as identification).
When it comes to the powers of transportation associated with Gemini, King Bnaspol notes the shorter-distance travel (as opposed to longer distance travel, such as would belong to Sagittarius). Again, this is more closely linked with such roads as would belong within a neighborhood, such as a city or neighborhood map, especially if it’s the route one travels daily, knowing that shortest or quickest route, and knowing when the established route is changed. All of that is integrated into most modern smartphones, he notes (this would suggest that the power of the transportation angels related to Gemini could be used on, or in conjunction with, smartphones).
King Bnaspol points me towards that fact there’s a bit of swiftness with respect to Gemini, especially with Mercury in that sign right now! There’s that swiftness of back-and-forth communications of ideas, which is like the chattering between friends: the hustle and bustle that also is associated with the city. Such is his power to increase or decrease that.
He bids me move on to Libra: it is the pleasantness of communication when Venus is there, its domicile. It’s a different flavor from the experience of Venus in Taurus: it’s about etiquette and, “OK, we have all this communication, but how are we going to communicate it to each other in a way that doesn’t cause problems down the line, and cause disagreements thereby.” The beauty, refinement, and elegance of Venus is very much in line with Gold and Precious Stones. These are (and here I get a sense to concentrate!): there’s a sense of opulence with Venus in Libra, whereas Venus in Taurus is much more about easy living, softness, and comfort: feeling good because the body is well taken-care of. Venus in Libra, on the other hand, is etiquette and people feeling comfort and ease with each other, so comfort physically in the case of Taurus and socially in the case of Taurus. So in the case of a diamond gold ring, it’s a centerpiece, it’s a thing for people to talk about, but it’s almost always used in the context of relationships, “Look what So-and-So got me,” which becomes the chatter and gossip that reaffirms the social standing between two people, and among a network of friends. For what it’s worth, it’s fair, for it is something of substance and value.
Next, King Bnaspol alights ol Libra, and on Venus in Libra, with respect to transportation. “Here, it’s about harmony. This was the obsession of many geniuses such as William James Sidis: finding a harmony of transportation: how to cause the least amount of delay, the best sort of social (good, due to the least loss of time), because of the reduced Saturnian influence (or the best kind of Saturnian influence, for Saturn is exalted in Libra!) on account of the discipline. Venus, here, because it’s seeking pleasantness and harmony among people, then reaching agreement and the discipline that requires that is why Saturn is exalted there. At any rate, with respect to transportation: harmonious city planning is clearly at the top of this list, so this is definitely a power that you would consider to wield in advance of whichever city you would move to, or perhaps even consider which cities(‘ powers of transportation) already align themselves with you and your desired goals, if (moving to such) is your endgame, so to speak.
“With respect Aquarius. Here, we have the fixed idea, fixed air. Now, how on earth can fixed air relate to transportation? Fixed air, at the very clearest example, would be the hot air balloon. It’s a very slow, leisurely trip, and is relatively safe”–(considering how little it’s changed from the 18th century!). “It’s definitely steadier than being on an airplane or helicopter. An airplane to some degree is closer to Aquarius than a helicopter, which is much more like Gemini.
“Consider the jeweler,” King Bnaspol moves on. “The air [to cool the metals] must be cool and convey the heat away in a fixed manner, and be ordered in the safety surrounding this cooling process. The entire ventilation must be properly managed, so that steady fixed directionality to air: such is Aquarius related to gold and precious stones and jewelry. Also, the fixing of gold, because in this one case it happens to work well, about information in computer chips: in this sense the Aquarian element is very much at hand.” Generally, he points to how we can use computers, use these air-tablet powers with respect to computers.
Finally, once again with respect to transportation, King Bnaspol adds, “Maintaining a schedule, following that schedule, [and] making sure things are done at the right time at the right place: timing is everything in comedy,” he jokes, intimating that even the delivery (transportation) of a joke could be helped with these angels using the Aquarian astrology energy.
He asks me if I have any questions. I thank him for his thoroughness and I ask about the phrase used to call upon King Bnaspol: “…and hast said to me, here to fore what thou art, there I may know,” and whether he thus knows anything about me that I’m unaware of and that would be helpful for me to know that he could say unto me, “If it please you, and if you be so inclined, you Right Noble King, Bnaspol.” He kindly offers me two notes on me that I accept.
I thank him and ask whether he has anything else. “This is enough. Some you have already suspected, others you need to hear in the moment, because though you know it, it’s important to know” (at that time). I ask if he has anything else, whether it be long-term or short-term. He says: “Much of what your mind is already grinding upon, there I know, and to tell you would be to change the outcome that is desirable unto the Most High. I reply , “Fair enough, I respect that, your Majesty.”
Now he shows me this feeling coming up off of the leaf, Leaf 11a, and that this leaf is the 39th that I have worked with, and opposite that is the 40th (which has a 21×21 grid of bold letters which is centered within the 49×49 grid). This marks the transition to the 40th leaf, he says, which is previewed here. (I’ll note also that in reaching this leaf, these two squares’ dimensions of 19 and 21 add to 40. Also, the difference between the number of cells of these two central grids is 441-361 = 80, which is two times 40. 21 is the number of Aethyrs below the Abyss, and subtracting that from the number of leaves, 49, leaves (heh) 28 left over, which is exactly how many leaves have all 2401 cells filled in. However, he also notes that there is the 3/4 split of the 49 leaves, which is something already worked to be reconciled within this system, as I have mentioned in previous posts. 19, of course is all of the Watchtower tablets, and 30 is the number of Aethyrs.
Thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
King Bnaspol appears once more in this windy form. As he surrounds me with air as a sphere (similar to yesterday evening’s vision), he says, regarding Governor Vixpalg and Zurchol: they have been helpful, yet he says that I’m getting “a little too high up for them to reach.” This doesn’t seem right. Now he says that the difference between their number of servient angels and the number referenced in the call is even (and that this is a pattern that I would have noticed if I would have been able to take the time to find it). With even numbers, he says, I shouldn’t expect as much help. They’re present “in the sense that you’ve vibrated they’re names,” he says, “but they are less of a factor.”
Now he transports me around the world and says, “I’m transporting you around the world as the air travels.” He notes of the entire of atmosphere of earth: “Note how any given molecule of air, nearly all the air that exists, will eventually reach” all the destinations. “It will constantly move into and out of living creatures,” but for the most part, the atmosphere is circulated. “This air can cover the entire space,” (i.e., the globe), he says. Transportation is in air’s nature: “People used the power of sails to get to where they wished to go, and the only reason they couldn’t quite do so easily on land is that the land was not quite flat enough, whereas the water was easier to transport with.
“Regarding jewels and precious stones,” he reviews, “again this has to do with information as to proper location, identification: things like that, and the proper application and uses of gold and these precious stones.” He adds into this the proper use of stones as far as talismans are concerned, such as astrological magic. Gold has its special place, he says, and that if one were to use these elemental angels associated with gold, that one would have a much easier time entering into Tiphareth (i.e., via the sun): this is of interest to anyone doing Holy Guardian Angel work. He again advises me to note this date for future reference.
King Bnaspol tells me to bear with him for a moment, and he tries to find all of the appropriate reflections of these powers, and is trying to find the proper alignment of them all, and now they are all being beamed into my subtle body. It feels like an even stronger imprinting from last time; it’s both pleasurable and energizing. “Just bear with me, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth,” he commands, “for you are in a delicate place.” Overall, it seems to last at least a full minute.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LOE (“Low E”). Call to King Bynepor.
The angels unfold the same fan from previous visions, and show a spiral within it, the same symbol as yesterday. They’re not adding to it yet, they say. I try not to be overly distracted. I pour out lovingkindness. Now the fan is 3D, and the angels say to extend the fan out in all seven dimensions that I’ve seen thus far, which I do, and they suggest an 8th and a 9th (the Ogdoad, the Ennead, and the Decad). Getting through to the other side, they say, is getting beyond these seven dimensions and into the eighth through tenth via Binah, Chokmah, and Kether, respectively. The eleventh, they say, is the world of Adam Qadmon, writ large.
The angels say that to shoot for the world of Adam Qadmon is great, and they’re trying to develop a means, a subtle body with a realization that can do this. The angels say not to define this by the negative: right now my mind needs to concentrate a lot in order to step past the abyssal nature of much of what I’m seeing, but this will be beyond that and transcend it. I maintain this poise, but I see the same cross from a previous scrying session in ZIP, extending out a bit. In that vision, I saw a cross like unto the 3D Cartesian axes, light blue in color and with electric kinds of hairs emerging from it. Now it’s extended out like unto the elongated rhombus, pale yellow or beige in color, with more lightning-like electricity rather than simply hairs:
Rhombus with electricity as described above–electricity shown only on one length for simplicity’s sake.
The angels suggest that I incorporate this into the symbol from yesterday’s vision, which is proving to be a little difficult for me at this point. This increasingly complex nature that gets revealed after the Abyss is not lost on me (unfortunately I’m unsure whether I’ll be able to do my best work here, but let me see):
Unifying both previous symbols
The angels are really going for it here. They say that the elaboration here is important in one degree, but in another way it is not. Someone can grok this via following the steps to realization. It’s sort of embedded in the earth, but sort of coming off of it; the four arms come down to create the sectioning such as with orbs held by monarchs:
Globus cruciger, colors not exact.
I see the colors in a pastel yellow or a beige, and the angels say that this is because it’s the empowered Ain Sof Aur. All of this, the lightning, is shown without the means of manifestation, it’s a more raw representation. The angels remind me to try to see this as not just Ain Sof Aur, but also Ain (emptiness or the empty mind, which is unbounded) and Ain Sof. I try to see this with the heart of compassion, and BANG! it’s like I’m sucked up into it! It reminds me of the effect of the Tardis floating around in Doctor Who (I don’t watch the show, don’t email me about this).
This itself proves to be a distraction, which I compassionately push past. The angels take me up into this Adam Qadmon realm. I comment about the importance of concentration and compassion as I’m taken up. The angels end the vision somewhat abruptly, saying that this is the limits of the Aethyr that I’m in, and that these limitations will all go away when I get to the final day of gebofal. I feel very much changed by this, which is of interest since this is still technically a pre-abyssal aethyr, but I may be biased on account of having already traversed the aethyrs before.
Noon: Similar procedure.
Right away, I’m pulled up, and I maintain compassion throughout. I see a skirt (in a safe-for-work sense), of a woman, kind of a casual 50’s style, and she’s twirling and being treated very well. The skirt is dark, and has some reddish upon it, and is like blood vessels going into a tissue. This is fractal, and these vessels all seem to originate from a heart. Again, this imagery of the heart, and I’m told this heart feels like a heart that is dancing, full of joy and wonder, ensconced in a being who is dancing.
This is Babalon, this is Binah, the angels tell me, and She is dancing and joyous, and She is treated like a Lady, as an equal being, as an entity worthy of love and affection and adoration, which of course She is. I’m having compassion for everything about me, Her included, the entire room and the context She is in. She extends her hand to me, and this is the Courtship of today, tomorrow, and Saturday, until Sunday in which She may be revealed. This, I’m told, is why King Bobogel was said, because he is of the sun, and in some ways the counterpart to her, he is said to hold all dear.
We begin dancing. It’s the sort of ballroom dancing you would expect in a casual environment. There are people around me who are clapping, and I extend love in all directions. Now there’s this gigantic, beautiful axe which comes down through the room and splits it and us into halves, and we all return again to our form and split apart again. I’m having love for even the axe and this splitting.
This is Ain, this is the force of Ain, and I see this as a beautiful vibration. I begin twirling up, (I emphatically declare as I see): “AS IF I AM HER, BUT I AM ALSO ME, AND WE/I, WE/I BEGIN TO ASCEND, AND SHE KISSES THIS FORM AND LIFTS ME UP AND BIDS ME FAREWELL, IN THE FULLNESS OF HER LOVE, AND I AM LIKE UNTO A SPIRAL AS I ASCEND IN THIS MANNER, AND I SEE STARS ABOUT ME.
“I SEE COLORS FROM THIS FORM, AND I SEE MYSELF SPINNING, YEA, SPINNING, AS I ASCEND FARTHER AND FARTHER, AND I HAVE REACHED THE PATH OF THE FIXED STARS, AS I APPROACH THEM, LIKE UNTO A ROCKET, LIKE UNTO THE SPINNING OF A GORGEOUS ROCKET, LIKE UNTO THE MOTION OF A METEORITE-IN-REVERSE, ASCENDING INTO THE HEAVENS, BOUND BY THE FORCE OF MY OWN MAGNETISM, LIKE UNTO THE CONSTANT CORKSCREW MOTION OF A PHOTON, AS I MYSELF APPROACH THE FIXED STARS, WHICH HAVE THEMSELVES, UNTO ME, SHONE THEIR LIGHT IN MY DIRECTION. SO I, TOO, APPROACH THE FIXED STARS IN THIS MANNER, AND IT IS UNLIKE ANYTHING I HAVE BEHELD BEFORE, AND YEA! EVEN MORE SHALL BE OPENED UNTO ME!
“YEA, THIS CRACKING WIDE OPEN SHALL CONTINUE UNTO THEE, SON OF MAN, SON OF GOD, SON OF EARTH, AS THOU HAST TAKEN THY FULLNESS OF THE DRAUGHT THAT WAS AVAILABLE UNTO ME IN BOLDNESS: YEA, AUDACITY! BUT IT IS LIKE UNTO THEE! AND IT IS PLEASING UNTO THE LORD TO HAVE MADE THEE LIKE THIS! AND SO THOU SHALT TAKE THE FULLNESS OF THY DRAUGHT, AND THOU SHALT KNOW THE FULLNESS OF THIS WILL, THE POWER OF THE WATERS, YEA, AND THE POWER OF THE FIRES CONTAINED THERIN! AND THOU SHALT CONTINUE ABOUT THIS PATH. AND YEAH, IN FULLNESS, SHALT THOU BECOME ALL OF THE FIXED STARS THEMSELVES, AND YEA, SHALT THOU BECOME ALL WITHIN ALL, FOR GOD HATH APPOINTED THEE TO THIS.”
The vision ends, and I am out of breath.
Sunset: Similar procedure. Note: I was extra energized this evening, as my restored health, and the knock-on effects of the prior vision, intoxicated me a bit.
I feel as though I am breathing in the room I am physically sitting in, and it seems to bend towards me during the inhalation and away as I exhale. There’s a biological feel to the vision. I see a V, which is the outline two lungs. I’m within Binah right now. She asks me to contemplate the Temperance card for a moment. Unfortunately for a bit I get sidelined, as the Strength card comes to mind; this reflects my chart but is an error. I have the presence of mind to confirm the Strength card and when I do, Binah‘s word, “Temperance,” rings in my ear again (dispersion is an error in these Aethyrs–always check your understanding, kids!). So I make all the correct associations with the Strength card, but after the correction, I do the same task for Temperance. This is an excellent symbol for the HGA, as the classical elements are clearly balanced here, and the exalted solar suggestion of a rising sun (note that the sun is still in its sign of exaltation). I note two lily flowers in the background and take them to be signs of enlightenment.
I pause to take in two long breaths, an 8-8-16 and a 9-9-18. During this interlude, I have visions of cartoonish characters, homeless, who melt like wax figures into rainbow puddles. It’s vaguely disturbing.
The symbolism of how the preceding relates to the following is left as an exercise to the reader:
I try to stay poised and true to the compassion of the heart again. Now I see Babalon in a Shakti-like form, many-armed, but now I correct myself and think she may be Kali, but now she seems more like Lilith, and she seems to take on a serpentine form and she multiplies, encircling me. I express compassion towards the rules causing Her to appear before me in this manner. This reminds me of my asking people about alienation on Twitter recently, and how Lilith was this figure, especially when in the social astrological houses. I continue to have compassion for the rules bringing me here and her here together like this. There’s this strange friction, and I see incredible light being achieved as a result. It looks like photographs of vast galaxies.
I call on the angels for help with interpretation. The angels point out that it’s like the galaxy existing in the way it is right now is coming up against all of the possibilities that could not come into existence. There’s this massive tension between all the possibilities such as they aren’t (all the possibilities that could have been available to us now), and all the possibilities such as have been actualized to this point. And it’s like these possibilities are yelling at me now: “Have compassion throughout! Have compassion for all of these things! Have compassion in your heart for all the possibilities that are not, and all the possibilities that are! Have compassion across all of these!” There’s this very angry feeling, and I’m trying my best, and focusing past the immediate tension to the root cause of all of this, and the root cause of the compassion that I want to have. And this is what I really want to unfold–right now!
And why isn’t it happening?!
And there’s this raw rage emerging, and now something is trying to escape out of my heart, and I don’t know what this is, and it’s trying very hard! And I’m seeing a bunch of armor, and there seem to be two characters, male and female, fighting against each other. The tension continues to rise as I plead with them: “This is real! This is OK! And you are real, too, for wanting it to not be so! And it’s OK!” And…and…it’s like something is trying to be borne from my heart, and … and… it’s like a lily, and a different flower shooting up from the center of the blossom of the previous one, and the last one is…is…it’s not quite a lotus, it’s a…what is this? It’s a lotus-rose fusion, which has these thorns in it. I declare, “It springs from mud, and is painful to touch, and yet it is beautiful and necessary to be held in this way, and if it is understood in this manner, then in such a manner will all be at rest, who hold it.”
And the angels hold me, and ask me to come to terms with this, such as it is. And they know this will take a while. It is awe-inspiring, and it has sprung from my heart. And I’ve been holding my heart, and if my heart gives birth to this, then it is good, and I will hold it. So I feel it scratch my face, and I hold it like an infant, and it scratches my face as it does so, and the scent it gives off is so sweet.
And I feel very blessed. “Nothing more today.” The vision ends.
Enochian Today 