19-Day Zodiacal Ritual: Structure and Additional Watchtower Angels

Today is the final day of an updated 19-day ritual to commune with the zodiacal kings. This grew out of a desire to “redo” the 19-Day Watchtower ritual instructed by Ave (as, on reflection, I was unhappy with how well I did it in my earlier days of working Enochian), but the angels said not to. However, when I suggested a new 19-day ritual to incorporate the zodiacal kings (who were not part of the original 19-day ritual) and they said yes, and allowed me to also include the Watchtower angels and the Heptarchical angels. As it happened, this ritual was symmetrical about Easter Sunday (Roman calendar).

The angels assented to the following structure:

Preparatory work: Write a Book of Supplications (the last of the books that Dee & Kelley were have to created that I had not yet made). Essentially this was about writing prayers. I used 40 names of God and the number of letters totaled 241–but 243 (3^5) if you include the crosses, and wrote from the heart.

Days 1–4: Prayers (Friday through Monday). I prayed from both my own book of supplications as well as the Prayer of Enoch, three times a day (I also did what follows thrice daily as well).

Days 5–8 (Tuesday through Friday (which was Good Friday)). I used the called up the following angels:

  • Daily: King Carmara/Marmara & Prince Hagonel, in the name of Jaida (“Highest God” in Enochian).
  • Zodiacal kings Olpaged (Aries, Tuesday) through Zarnaah (Cancer, Friday), and their servient angels, in the name of Jaida & Marmara/Carmara.
  • Heptarchical kings/princes Babalel/Befafes (Tuesday) through Baligon/Bagenol (Friday), and associated Ministers and Governors, in the name of Carmara/Marmara & Jaida. Note that astrologically, this caused me to lose domicile rulership (i.e., Wednesday I called on Blisdon who is associated with Mercury, but Taurus is ruled by Venus), but that I maintained the dignity of the first decan of each sign (first decan of Aries = Mars, first decan of Taurus = Mercury, first decan of Gemini = Jupiter, etc.).
  • Watchtower Kings Bataivah (East/Fire, for Aries, on Tuesday), Iczhihal (North/Earth, for Taurus, Wednesday), Raagiosl (South/Air/Gemini, Thursday), & Edlparnaa (West/Water/Cancer, Friday), and their associated Elders on each day, in the names of ORO/IBAH/AOZPI, MOR/DIAL/HCTGA, MPH/ARSL/GAIOL, OIP/TEAA/PDOCE.

Days 9–12: (Saturday through Tuesday):

  • Daily: King Carmara/Marmara & Prince Hagonel.
  • Zodiacal kings Gebabal (Leo, Saturday) through Cadaamp (Scorpio, Tuesday)
  • Heptarchical kings/princes Bnapsen/Brorges (Saturday) though Babalel/Befafes (Tuesday)
  • Appropriate archangel for the day of the week, with Raphael used on Sunday (in Dee’s day he was associated with the sun, whereas now he’s associated with Mercury but the sefira of Tiphareth, which is ruled by the sun in correspondences).
  • Children of Light from the Sigillum Dei Aemeth: El, I, S, & E, through the name of their mother Galvah and, for the son of light (I) & son of son of light (E), in the name of Prince Hagonel, to whom these sons are servants, and each day’s children according to planet: IANA/DMAL/IZED/LIBA, etc.
  • Kerubs (East/Fire/Saturday through West/Water/Tuesday).
    • As I prepared this day, I wondered about the Five Princes of the Watchtowers in Kelley’s original vision. It seemed to me that, using the horizontal God names from the cavalry crosses, and the four names EXARP, HCOMA, NANTA, & BITOM, could make these. I went ahead and constructed them…only to be told by Carmara that they were…acceptable lol. After some back and forth, I was told that these were, in fact five Ambassadors: AMPPOHNA, RORAICAL, DTALIONO, ZIXAIMTA, & ABEMTAAI for East. The remaining were, for North: VPASABHI, NRTORIML, NANNBTOP, AXADIOCI, & XENNZMHZ; for South, AHMOONEA, ACOMLAXT, BOTEANAA, CMIBATRP, & OABBDAPA; and for West, ONAOSEBN, LAMBIXIR, ONOAOATZ, ATCVDRIF, & GAHAAPMM. These were called according to the same elemental order as in the previous four days.
    • The Princes, as they were shown to me, were from the RAAATORT, IPAMXADI, FODBOSML, DAIIOPIX (each taken from the corners of a quadrant-quadrant dyad by columns of the East Tablet, with two names each taking four letters from the cavalry crosses, and two names each taking two letters from the main horizontal cross of the three main Divine names, ORO, IBAH, & AOZPI). The highest prince over the other four, RAAMETODIH, taken from two letters from each of the four corners of the tablet overall, and the letters E & H from EXARP & HCOMA (interestingly, a 10-letter name, longer than the king, suggesting additional or unique power). I have yet to explore this deeply. The remaining sets of princes are, for North: BVAXOACZ, PSANAITZ, IMRIRAOR, IHLAISPM, & BVANAOATZP; for South, TADOMOLD, TOMBNAXA, SMIXXROH, RGDRILIL, & ETAMBHMOXA; and for West, DOAGPSCA, AOAAZNAM, VOGEOMZN, BPPEPAIM, & ADOAAPPSAM. These were also called according to the same elemental order as in the previous four days.Days

Days 13–16 (Wednesday through Saturday):

  • Daily: King Carmara & Prince Hagonel
  • Zodiacal Kings Zarzilg (Sagittarius) through Arfaolg (Pisces)
  • Untitled Watchtower angels of the sub-quadrants (e.g., of medicine, the four elements etc.): Fire, Earth, Air, & Water.
  • Children of light for the appropriate day of the week/planet (as above)
  • Appropriate archangel for the day of the week (using Michael for Wednesday due to his association with Mercury in Dee’s day–now he’s typically associated with the the sun but with the sefira of Hod, which is ruled by Mercury). After Friday (Haniel), I used Uriel for Saturday.
  • Angels of the circumference (Aaoth, Gethog, Innon); Saturday I did not call any (saving it for the last day of the ritual)
  • Thursday-Saturday: Ga, Za, & Vaa.
  • Saturday only: I called up two- and three-letter angels corresponding to the identical positions where Ga, Za & Vaa are located on the Earth & Water tablets, meaning 12 total angels were called.

Day 17 (Sunday): Murifri, Nalvage, Carmara, & Hagonel. Around this time I was guided to look at the capital letters of the Great Table; I noticed there are exactly 100, and was told to work on their arrangement into a 10×10 table, which appears below:

Enochian letters from the Great Table, arranged as follows:

Row 1: L (reversed) P (reversed but you can't see it because it's symmetrical) A (reversed) T Z S C O D L
Row 2: A (reversed) N (reversed) R (reversed) C A T T G A P
Row 3: L O (reversed) A (reversed) T S O V P O C
Row 4: T C T T C D V O O T
Row 5: Z I V T M T S M V V 
Row 6: P N T A P M C G G O
Row 7: A O D N A P O G N A
Row 8: T S V Z G T S Z Z C
Row 9: A P O S P P T Z L O
Row 10: L R V O V D D A N L

My friend Cody P. mentioned upon seeing that this will be multiplied to angels.

Day 18 (Monday): GaZaVaa and the angels from corresponding locations: KePaLpa, PiLaNim, and OlAdAra. I was told to call these angels separately from the remaining angels (to be mentioned), so I did so. Galvah, Galethog, Murifri, Nalvage, & Carmara & Hagenol were also called, and I was told to call two remaining words as angels: VRVINVNEOCARNOGHCG…L (the L is to be pronounced after a pause), which is a very slight respelling of the name of the throne in Dean Hildebrandt’s work, and also PRONOALIOSMARNONPAL, a more recent word I received (note that both words are 19 letters long, and that these eight angels’ names are 80 letters in all). For these last 8 angels, I was told to call them forward and then scry the Aethyr of LIL, and then make my charge to them.

It should be noted that I asked one simple thing of these angels: “Walk closely with me, O wonderful [as needed, added “noble,” “right noble,” “honorable,” or “majestic”] angels of JAIDA. Let our psychic and heart connections be continuous and strong, and bring blessings to all Creation.

In LIL, I felt a strong energy about my crown chakra for two of the three callings I saw a golden, fractal pattern emerging out of what looked like a 3D, xyz-graph version of the the AGLA cross (which I’ve taken to include saying seven times as part of my activation of the furniture). On the last calling of that day, I saw all of the angels that I’d called (which, if you’ll recall, is in the hundreds of thousands because the zodiacal kings have that many across the various parts of the Earth and the Aethyrs). The angels “bound” themselves to this structure, as if they were a higher-dimensional beings who could assist with the building of this fractal structure. The structure itself, as it progressed, allowed for its entering into higher and higher dimensions, roughly to the sixth or seventh dimension, and that this is a structure for more direct divine intervention.

There was a big glow about this structure, and I got the sense that PRONOALIOSMARNONPAL was tilting this black abyssal disc (with some tentacle-like things–it reminded me of the symbiote in Spider-Man), which was dukkha. It seemed restrained by PRONOALIOSMARNONPAL, and with all the angels and the long-term work about my subtle body, it will take time, but the structure will help me play out a long and personal journey.

I saw a tether attached to myself and to the central 3D cross of the structure. I saw myself running out to the fixed stars (this is the idea of abstract pathworking related to the heart along with reaching ever-outward perspectives–note that one must return to the center/heart and ground, but nonetheless the journey continues), but also running about the sphere (which is to say, ultimately across all the fixed stars). The tether lit up various parts of the structure as it passed through it, almost laying the groundwork for the structure to become stronger and branch out more.

I saw Galvah approach in an idealized, classical winged human form, and very tall (perhaps 7.5 feet/2.29 meters). She gestured to a lot of Enochian letters in the sphere, which were “of the same spirit” as Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), but not quite the same. Nonetheless, these would fit about the 10-by-10 table above (I have included this in the overall set of Enochian tools), leading to the multiplying of angels’ names, and as one sphere is resolved, it would lead to a higher sphere of more letters, each taking progressively longer, until after a few thousand years, a 144 (plus) dimensional existence, which will be more or less the end. I was told to be prepared for a lot more angelic tables to come in, and to trust that it will happen in the appropriate time (acknowledging my householder responsibilities).

Last night, I saw the first four letters of the next table: B3IN.

Today I am to simply pray three times (as with each day of the ritual, dawn, noon, and dusk), which will conclude the ritual.

Last Day of Gebofal: Day 49

Sunrise: As with all of the other days, recited Ave’s recounted version of the Prayer of Enoch for all three scryings. Vibrating the god names “L,” “IAD,” and “NA.” Vibrated the second half of Call/Key 1, which I take to be the contents of Leaf 1b; practitioners often leave this first call unspoken, and do not include it in their enumeration. I do not know of anyone else who has recited this leaf as a call (or, indeed, of anyone who has recited the leaf, other than Edward Kelley during the original transmission of its contents).

I’m feeling somewhat disembodied, or perhaps a better phrase for it is “feeling disembodied in addition to feeling embodied.” I’m told to sit, for this will be a big one. I’m instructed to put my feet upon the top tablet only, that of “L,” (my design, not part of the source documents of the Dee/Kelley transmission). It’s an Enochian-language transmission! Mercifully, it’s given in English letters; it comes slowly at times as I concentrate (this is written as close to the original spelling as I remember):

“Rustafa noh a fantox, gembles son taho
Uxnal uridah eadah ur laxnop uxnal cay
norsalp. Iaida ur ton damploz uxamal geh.
Tucamax iehusoz nucablix a ton pah saga
mano.” [I see a DNA strand] “Aqlo monons i monons de Iaida.”

“Oecrimi! Oecrimi! Oecrimi!”

Partial translation:
Son is similar to “sonf,” which means “to reign.”
Ta means “as.”
Ux means 42.
Ur is the spelling of the Enochian letter “L,” which itself means “One” and “The first.”
Ton damploz means “all variety.”
Iehusoz means “His [God’s] mercies.”
A ton means “with all.”
Pah is translated by the AOM as “the Ogdoad.” I have previously relied on this dictionary, but because I have not seen this in Leitch’s dictionary (I hold Leitch to be the authority), nor in the Dee/Kelley transmission, I am uncertain about AOM translations.
Saga is similar to Sagacor, which means “in one number.” The AOM translates this as “Entire” or “Whole.”
Mano is translated by the AOM as “soul of humanity.”
The final phrase means, “Your heart is the heart of the Highest,” and oecrimi means “sing praises.”

I feel energy coming up off of Leaf 1b, up into my arms, up into this jaw and head, and finally down throughout the rest of the body and into the ground itself. I feel a bit like a tree, and a torus within the tree, and I feel the poloidal rotation of the torus.

The vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure, except I vibrate the first half of Call/Key 1, which I take to be the contents of Leaf 1a; practitioners often leave this first call unspoken, and do not include it in their enumeration.

My voice is sore from what I time to be 49 minutes of vibration (this morning was 36 minutes–note the 36/49 parallels to Soyga and Loagaeth). I may just read the words aloud tonight.

The noon scrying begins with another Enochian transmission:

“Rustafax NA jonqual iehusoz a lansh palphe
to[h] a arcoazior adgmach od satqual…”

And now the desire is to continue in English: “Unto you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.”

It’s like I’m being taken up by a bright beam into a massive dark circle in the sky. Now I’m encompassing the whole world, and now the entire cosmos. I am one with all, and I’m having this full experience of God, and all of the pain and joy that He feels, and all of it is happening at once. He says, “It’s just this giant tingling”: that’s the best he can liken it to for me.

I feel His Divinity and Omnipresence. I’m feeling His Heart, and it’s so beautiful. It’s a Divine Heart, the Divine of Divine Hearts, and I’m feeling it more completely than I have before. It encompasses me and this entire work and state of being that I am and all of the actions that I’ve done. It’s just this giant Heart, and it feels good and it feels very much Right.

I’m filled with compassion and lovingkindness toward all beings, all things, and all rules of all beings and things, and the entire state of all possibilities that could have been, and never were. It’s like I have to hold all of this all of the Time. This is what it’s like to be the Divine. He says, “It’s too much for a single human being to do all the time, is it not?” I say, “It is indeed, o Lord.” He admires my continued effort towards it, and sets me back down within my body.

“This be enough,” God says. “Rest, rest your voice, and tonight we will finish and My Blessing will be upon you.”

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: The entirety of Call/Leaf 1, starting with Leaf 1a (reversing the order I read them at sunrise and noon: “the first shall be last”).

I’m already feeling a big energy about my crown chakra, and I feel myself being lifted out of my body; I’m asked to bilocate (maintain awareness of both the physical and astral bodies) so I do. Once again I am lifted into a black circle above the earth, and once again, it wraps about the globe and out coming into the entire cosmos, and I feel this love, love, love, of the Most High to all of humanity.

“Yea, ‘PRONOA’ be the final word” of the Enochian-language transmission that he wished to send to me (making it a 7×7 grid, excluding Oecrimi). I feel myself just filling, filling, filling with this PRONOA. Every single fiber of my being, every single part of my subtle body is filling up with this PRONOA. I’m just feeling this love, and He’s saying, “Just allow Me to work on every level,” so I relax my physical body. Once again, my vision is of the entire globe, the entire cosmos again (reflecting me on the cosmic level), is filling up with this PRONOA, with this PRONOA. Once again, this is my part, He says: this my part within All.

This is me within all; this is me, as it were, quantumly entangled with all of reality, or rather, that “Without Which, Not” (“sine qua non“). God says, “Yea”: this is the Part of me that is Everything, this is the Holographic Identity. Yea, it is the Truth of the Reality of Me, and so He is filling me with this Love, this Awareness, this Awareness of Myself, of this Cosmic Being, this Cosmic Entity, One with All. This is the height, this is the summit. The Lord High says, “This is the Measure of All, for yea, you understand now,” and I say I do.

I find myself wrapped up in this Love, just forever pumped into this love, and occasionally out, but always returning (the Tao is returning). I find my heart chakra opening way up, and once again my crown, and once again third eye. All three of these are interacting in this vast transrational space, of which I’m barely able to communicate the Power. It is now coming, once again, through my entire body, and I am Understanding this Clear Mind. I find my mind being calmed, yea, “A AFFA MANIN,” He says, winking, reciting back the phrase of one of my prayers.

I feel myself unlocking and unlocking, and He is showing me the means to the rainbow body. It is this: to focus on each chakra, starting at the root (and working one’s way up one at a time), as if it were the heart. At the heart chakra proper, conceive of it as the heart of hearts, and at the crown, the heart of all. After showing me the means, I try my best to feel this; I can’t see anything occurring in the physical room, but at the heart level, it definitely seems true, so it will be my focus during meditation. Furthermore, I am to try to look with my third eye through the heart as if it were a telescope, at the crown chakra. “This be too much for most, except for those with the most open of hearts” to communicate, so “let this be the Blessing of the Lord God upon thee, the granting of this request, which you have indeed suffered and sacrificed for, and have chosen of your own free will.” He speaks a few words more.

Thus ends the vision. Gebofal proper is done, but I will continue to recite the Ave-recounted Prayer of Enoch three times a day for the next three days.

Gebofal, Day 48

Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 2, (as the first spoken call (the true first call “not to be spoken”), most practitioners refer to this as call 1). Vibrated the Enochian names of God “L,” “IAD,” and “NA.” I neglected to vibrate the title of Leaf 2b (or, as was temporarily my case, not to be), which I rectified mid-vision. Oh well: come to grips with your humanity really early on if you do Enochian, people.

I feel this gathering about my crown chakra. I’m feeling some energy coming up from the leaf, and the Holy Table of Practice, and eventually coming up from the three Tablets of Union, mainly the four-lettered version (“EHNB”).

I’m bidden to relax. I’m getting the sense that this is the Holy Spirit. More and more energy slowly accumulates within me, and I’m feeling raised up, and with a slight twist. My entire subtle body seems to conform to the change in my crown chakra, though the heart chakra was already okay. Now I’m sensing greater communication and resonance with the heart and crown chakras. Lots of gentle subtle body work occurs.

Now I sense a projection from me, or perhaps I’m becoming aware of one which already existed, but now it’s very active, and the act of observing it is also changing it. I see it encompass, in many subtle ways, the entire world, and also reaching out in subtle ways across the cosmos to other planets. I’m filled with compassion as I do this, trying to generate it as best I can.

The sense I’m now getting is that this is a proper attunement with reality. At first it was the heart, and now it seems as if it is my entire subtle body, via the crown. I’m unsure whether the Holy Spirit wishes to speak or not. Now there’s there’s an unfolding within the vision, as if a paper had a cross cut into it, and now the four corners are rotated away via some kind of mechanism atop them, the upper-left corner rotated clockwise, and the remaining corners alternating between clockwise and counterclockwise, symmetrical about each axis.

There’s a focus about this cross, as if two hyperbolae (i.e., all four quadrants of the xy plane system were represented) were projected forward along the z-axis, approaching it but never quite touching it. This is, I’m told, like approaching a fixed star, a set point of, for example, the True Will. This represents the four elements set about the approach toward the fixed star: “They are unleashed and balanced within you. They may approach the fixed stars,” but also, I’m told, I’m always at the Center [of the Divine Sphere], I’m always this action of reaching towards the fixed stars [along this path from the center to a star along the surface of this sphere], and I’m also of the surface of the sphere itself.

This, I’m told, is of nature of the Holy Spirit: that flow, that constant flow, that allows this transition from Center to Sphere, that Radius that is seen by the four elements as they also project toward the surface of the sphere (along these hyperbolae). Yet at any given point, one is not actually at that surface of the Sphere. Thus the Holy Spirit is this awareness of that constant transitional state, while one remains at that Temporal Center (i.e., re-emerges into a new Center at each moment in Time). This is beautiful.

I’m feeling more energy coming about my face and throat, and I relax, and then I feel a sensation in my right eye. Nothing happens for a bit, and I try to concentrate. I am about to close the session, when I realize that I have forgotten to vibrate the title of the leaf. I pause to do so and I ask forgiveness for my error.

This helps me feel more energy coming off the leaf. Now there seems to be a cone originating from the midpoint of the crown chakra (recall that it be a sphere, the bottommost point of which touches the actual crown of the head), which encompasses my body. The sense I get is that this will be a mark about me of protection and guidance.

Now I feel like I’m being lifted up again. It’s like the Holy Spirit is on the cusp of speaking, but then seems to not wish to. Yet then: “Such Love hath the Lord God toward thee, hath He unto All. Rejoice now in this Love. Rejoice now in this Path and this Purpose set before you, this constantly unfolding Path, whereby thou know and give the Compassion of the Almighty unto All. A grand Unfolding hath He set about thee, and about All. Such Mercy hath He unto you. Rejoice in this Mercy and rejoice in this Blessing. Seek ye to rectify thy state so that you may live up to the phrase, ‘Made in His image.’ Feel now the Blessings of the Holy Spirit about thee, and rest easy in the knowledge that the Lord God loveth thee and hath grand plans for thee.”

Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure.

Once again, I see the cross in front of me, and my eye is drawn to the center thereof, that point. It’s shown to me as this line of infinitude. I’m told, “You are a Ray. You are this Ray, starting at this point” (and I’m shown the date of my conception). I hear what sounds like a voice, and pause the vision to check on my wife. She’s fine.

I’m told to consider all of the forces which act upon an individual; “Everything travels in a straight line, with the exception of the curved spacetime caused by all of the forces acting upon it,” which is a deceptively simple statement. Trying to visualize it is quite difficult, yet I make the effort. It’s a constant wobble, wiggle, and turning in 3D space, yet it’s actually a straight line, if all of the forces across time were removed. The magnitude and multiplicity of all of the forces is far too much for us to comprehend, unless we go through a process to make ourselves aware of them.

I pause to concentrate again; generating lovingkindness and compassion here helps a great deal. Returning to the topic: I’m shown myself as being at the center of this cross, and I’m being reminded of the four corners of the sheet where a cross has been cut into it, and thus it is peeled away. This peeling away of the delusion of everyday reality, I’m shown and told: that’s what this process of today and tomorrow is about. I’m told that what I will have to do is find out how to be equally within all three worlds. “Your heart is sympathetic to the realm of Adam Qadmon, and now your crown is a mediator between the heart and the realm of Adam Qadmon. Your crown is being attuned to it,” but I’m told that I will come into these higher realms and forces, into this infinitude of Adam Qadmon, the Ain infinitude: the Ain Sof, but also the Ain itself. I’m told that the previous delusion of existence is being peeled away, as from these corners, and that I only have this cross to orient me, so it’s important to stay at the center of it, the origin point of what would be the xy-axis system, but also to remain in balance between the four elements. I’m also told to continue the lovingkindness, and that is what will continue to propel me forward.

I try to generate this lovingkindness in order to concentrate past some distracting images: this helps. I’m told to relax (with some wryness: “You’ve been told to relax almost every single time!”), and I do. So this will be the projective nature, but of what? That will be revealed to me tomorrow, I’m told.

Again, I believe this is all coming from the Holy Spirit, which is mediating between the entire realm of Adam Qadmon and where I am now. I ask whether God in His Mercy has anything else to show me. I don’t get the sense that there is, so I express my gratitude to the Most High, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m told to relax, which I do. I’m told that so much more will be revealed unto me, and that there is nothing to fear.

I generate lovingkindness and wait. I see a cube in a brightly lit space, gold in color, suspended in midair, but its bottom half falls apart into letters and numbers. It strikes me as a bit abyssal, but I make note of the four elements, represented by the four top sides of the cube, as they enter into reality. The Holy Spirit says that this is a good metaphor for what goes on; it’s like the elements need to enter in, but they also need to disperse. Yet with intelligence and initiation into the supernals, and observing the elements as they enter the four lower worlds, one can (with intelligence, keen insight, wisdom, and understanding) balance these out so that they enter in to the lower Three Realms at the appropriate moments, thus avoiding a lot of the negative effects (of unplanned addition or distribution of elements). (Writing this up, I’m also told that one can determine how much elements come in to the Tree of Life from Adam Qadmon at all). It’s sort of like having a good sense of when to act at the most opportune moment, I’m told.

I concentrate into this vision a bit more. I’m told to look into the numbers of spoken calls 1 & 2. As far as the matter of Leaf 1, I’m once again told, “Yes, complete the task that you have set before you. The Lord gives His blessing.” As far as trying to time it: it’s happening on God’s Time. I ask regarding my planned procedure regarding the final leaf, which is to read the second half in the morning, the first half at noon, and finally the leaf in its entirety at sunset. I’m told that the way I have it is good: it will be as good as can be expected.

I get the sense that this is it, but I vibrate the names of God again. Once again, I’m feeling the realignment of my crown chakra is about. It is aligning myself to easily traverse the realm of Adam Qadmon and back to the Tree of Life and the four lower worlds. I’m being attuned to be able to do that. I’m reminded once more that forward motion will continue with compassion and lovingkindness, so I sense that this will be my main focus of meditation for some time. I express my gratitude.

I become distracted by the external environment. This is how it will be, I’m told; I’ll need to attend to whatever is going on in the Tree of Life, and then return to whatever vision I have going on. I express my gratitude once more.

There is more to the vision, which I am choosing not to release except potentially upon request.

Gebofal, Day 47

Sunrise: As with all other days, I recited the angel Ave’s recounting of the Prayer of Enoch prior to each scrying. Call/Key 3, (because it is the second spoken call (the first true call as “not to be spoken”), most practitioners refer to this as call 2). My feet are not on the Watchtower tablets, but rather upon the three Tablets of Union; one is like the typical Tablet of Union, with the five-letter elemental Enochian Divine names; the second is a quartered square with just the first initial of each of the names, following the elemental assignments. The third is the Enochian letter “L,” white on a black background, with red and green tails of the letter. These are placed in a triangular formation atop the Watchtower tablets.

I feel a beautiful gentleness about the heart chakra (anahata). Then I feel a lot happening with my third eye chakra (ajna); it’s like these two are in synch now. There’s also a little bit of feeling about my crown chakra (sahasrara) as well. The sense that I’m getting is that of these three activations from this scrying, the third eye is most dominant.

I follow my intuition and try to peer out through the third eye. I see my field of vision bisected, with the first cut happening horizontally, and the next vertically. The four quadrants created by this are peeled away from what would be the origin point, if this were an axis system. I see a normal landscape and town, and the sense I’m getting is that this is the world (Earth/Terra) as it is, or at least as I understand it to be. People everywhere of all ages also have their own perspectives on what the world is.

I get the sense to sit back and relax. I see a circle come around my face, starting at my two physical eyes at the lower part of the ring, and roughly centered at my third eye. I look through this ring, and I’m seeing several flowers, centered in my field of vision.

I pause to call upon two of the Enochian names of God, three times each. I’m told to recite the Enochian heart mantra, so I do, and continue to relax. It’s like the disturbances in my heart remain, and I ask the Divine for the ability to accept them, so he places his hands within the heart, and I recite the heart mantra one more time. This causes my heart to feel so much more tender, simpler, easier, and calmer. It’s a warm feeling; warm, sweet, slightly tangy or sour, but mostly sweet feeling. It’s like when you know that someone knows you way better than you know yourself, and yet they’re not doing anything other than accepting you, and that feels really good.

Now I look at my heart through my third eye again. What I’m feeling is a mutual invoking of the Divine and myself. I feel what it means to inhabit God, and I feel this Heart aching, throughout the entire cosmos, just looking, trying things, directing in His limited ability. I am drawn to a lack of omnipotence; it’s like He’s omnipotent, but He’s not. It’s like He has to respect Who He Is. I say that I understand that and respect that, because a person can change, but one also has to fundamentally respect who and what one is, as well.

God says that this will be enough. “Eight more times,” He reminds me. I thank you, and the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure. I also vibrated the names of god, “L,” “IAD,” and “IAIDON.” Also, given the content of the morning’s vision, I vibrated the Enochian heart mantra as well as approximate names of the third eye (“D OOANOAN”) and crown (“MOMAO”) chakras.

I’m bidden to relax a bit more. Now I feel energy coming up through the leaf, and I can almost see it coming up through my fingertips and up my arm, and also up through the tablets of union.

I vibrate the names of God again. Now I feel god placing his fingers into my heart chakra once again. His hands are folded as if he were praying, and his interlaced fingers are at the very center of my heart chakra.

The Divine begins pumping in…something…with His hands. It seems like an energy, but I don’t physically feel it at first. Instead, I see a vision of a torus which passes through my heart chakra. Within it is a beautiful landscape. He says that this is Eden.

The Divine says that He could bear the cruelty of leaving humanity in its ignorance, when there was so much more potential, and so much more that could be seen. For this reason, He decided to create us in His image. He adds that we are not the only species that He has created in His image, and mentions that dolphins will reach and exceed humanity. Briefly my mind alights on helping them, and the Divine says that such is a noble goal.

Yet He moves on, and shows the issue of Knowledge, of this high energy coming into the subtle body. He says that a lot of the things that I’ve experienced, this is similar to. It’s the building up of narratives and then the tearing of them down. This, in some ways, He says, is like the Tower of Babel, for it’s not the language itself, He says, but the narrative. It’s built up, and then torn down by the actual Divinity within us, and this causes a thousand different fractures, because “ye know this story in a thousand different ways, and certain parts, some of you wish to emphasize, and others, others of you wish to emphasize.” He says that the cross-religious goals that I have are noble. He tells me to put my heart first, to put this lovingkindness towards humanity first, and to put the lovingkindness that I have towards Him first.

I see Him trying to get something similar going with all of the hearts that He is able to reach. Over and over again I see him doing that same squeezing, pumping of the palms together and back, trying to pump in a true vision of His nature. Yet this is so difficult, because He is trying to do this at the heart, and so there must be additional work done at the mind, and the mind believes itself to be connected by communication (vishuddha) with the heart, but there is this transrational aspect that cannot be mediated via this chakra. It must be directly grokked.

The Divine places His interlaced fingers within my heart once again, and He says, “I will now work to bring in My energy, to pump it in, as much as I can–as much as your system is able to hold it.” There’s this beautiful vibration, rising in pitch, as this energy continues to be pumped in at an accelerated rate. I feel my crown and third eye chakras raised up. I cannot keep up with the description, but I feel my entire subtle body transformed as he continues to increase the energy pumped into my system. “There will always be additional levels, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” I allow and accept and embrace as He continues, with such Compassion and Sorrow. It’s like my entire body wants to rise up, and He continues…and now He says, “That’s enough,” embraces me, and thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I feel this tenderness again within my heart. Once again, God places his fingers into my very core, interlacing them within the very center. He’s making this rocking motion, taking my core, and His core, and intermingling them. There’s that torus in the first vision which is now in a loop with His own core. I’m feeling some of His own aching, but it is so divine. It is seeing the Pain that He had, that He continues to have, that He will have unto the Age of Ages, and yet it is that pain which becomes reduced over time, as more and more people seek to better this world, and to rectify their hearts, realigning them with His.

Now I feel energy coming up off of both sides of this leaf, Leaf 3. It comes up through my hands, arms, then head, and finally to the rest of my body. It’s this beautiful feeling: wondrous. I’m feeling a bit of a corkscrew feeling about me now: it’s like unto the Middle Pillar Ritual and the Circulation of Light, but much stronger. It continues and continues and accelerates my mind and my speech: it’s like I’m being thoroughly embedded within His Heart, within the Center, but I must be properly contextualized with all of the other human beings at his core, at His Heart. So He is measuring my sphere, measure the radius of this sphere about me, so that I’m properly aligned with all other beings who also approach this Center, and so that I’m oriented correctly in all of the dimensions possible, so that my entire being can interlock perfectly with all beings with whom I am to interact across the span of Time, forever and ever, Amen. Glory be unto His Name.

I continue to be developed, and to have this Radiance come into and about me, because it is this Divine Radiance, and it shineth forth now, forever and ever, unto the Age of Ages. I feel myself so very blessed, so very fortunate, this Infinite Gratitude have I unto the Most High for this. He continues, and He just shines a wink towards me, like, “This be but the first of the three legs of the stool upon which thou will sit. Yea, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, know this: that I love thee and I will fill thee with PRONOA unto the rest of thy days, so that all may know the Glory of the Most High.”

Thus ends the vision!

Gebofal, Day 33

Sunrise: Call/Key 17, (because it’s the 16th spoken call, and the first call is “not to be spoken” practitioners usually refer to this as Call 16). Call to King Bynepor (Chesed/Jupiter). Call to zodiacal King Zinggen & Governor Lexarph of the Aethyr of ZAX because the call in the previous sentence refers to 8763, and the closest number of servient angels is 8880 from this zodical-king/Governor/Aethyr row. Because I feel energy coming off of the fire tablet, I dispense with the other three and place both feet upon that tablet. I also vibrate the God Names “ORO,” “IBAH,” and “AOZPI.”

King Bynepor comes to me, looking very massive. I begin by apologizing for not maintaining my level of compassion over the last few days, and that I’ll try to keep it up over the next few days. He says that that is fine and tells me to go with him. We are whisked away and taken to the sun. He rhetorically asks why we are at the sun: surely not because he is the king of the sun, but because, he says, this is where we will discuss heat, heat and fire. “Fire in particular,” he says: “consider what happens with fire. Fire is this grand separating action. It is ultimately [a conversion of] energy. The thing about energy is that it can either cause a transformation or a transmutation, and this is why he (King Bynepor) is exalted so much above the other kings.

He notes that even within the planet Jupiter (and he takes me there briefly), how some degree of fusion occurs (note: here is the first link and here is the second link which suggest some small degree of deuterium fusion may be occurring, but of course brown dwarfs are where larger fusion takes place). He takes me back to the sun, however, for this is where the energy is highest, and he notes some of the effects: there is light, there is heat, there is a fundamental transformation that can be made to atoms.

Now King Bynepor takes me to a chemical reaction, and he says, “Note how these chemicals,” and here he takes me to an endothermic reaction, “note how the energy in here causes these chemicals to be rearranged, and to have completely different properties to the observer.” He also notes that for an exothermic reaction, the same thing happens: you still need to meet a threshold of energy, it’s just that more energy is given off. He says that for endothermic reactions, one generally tends to trade energy for information or greater complexity.

This is the boon of Jupiter, for information tends to be more valuable, because it is highly transformative. People who are going about their day, putting in information, trying to get information out: the reason why this can be matter of political ascendancy, wealth, or sudden boons, is that the energy put in by somebody can suddenly lead to a change in state or arrangement that is suddenly discovered to be highly valuable. “This is why fire and the energy derived therefrom,” he continues by way of analogy, “can be so valuable to people.”

King Bynepor pauses for questions. I ask, “So this is a lot: how about how this relates to light?” “Very good: light is a pure form of this energy. Note that, with light, there is much less mass involved, and to call light a single point,” he hesitates knowingly and gestures to physics and the double-slit experiment. He says, “It’s kind of problematic, but let’s talk about this experiment for a moment.” We look at a vision of the experiment and he says, “Note that what is happening here is that energy is behaving in an unexpected way. Energy is behaving in relation to all other energy.”

Here King Bynepor underscores his next comment: “Consider the points from your previous lesson” (from yesterday). He says, “What has happened here is that the arrangement of points such that,” and here he pauses to turn my attention quite closely to the physics, for my knowledge of this experiment is probably at least a decade old. “In a double-slit experiment, points are arranged about a certain geometry, and they’re done with the expectation of a certain geometry to unfold. Looping this in with this spherical consciousness, whereby all things[, including concepts,] are balanced, what is happening is that there is a certain hidden balance occurring. The unfolding of that is still not well understood by scientists. I’m not going to tell you what that is (that’s part of the scientific process!).” I groan slightly in disappointment.

However, King Bynepor continues, “Note the energy involved: first of all, it’s interesting because it’s the smallest amount of energy, and yet there’s all this focus on it, because there’s all of this information being derived [from this experiment on it].” He notes, “Sometimes even a the small amount of energy can make all the difference.” He gestures to Schrödinger’s cat.

King Bynepor changes gears and says, “Let’s take a look at this at the cosmic scale. Take a look at all of the energy going on in the universe. There is a massive amount of information that is being unfolded with this energy in this universe. It is too much for one human. As cosmically oriented as you are, there is just too much for any one person to grasp it all. But the spirit of it can be grasped,” he consoles me, “and this is the advantage of fire. Yes: all of the elements in their place can do this, but fire, in some ways, is closest to spirit.”

Yet King Bynepor cautions me: “Spirit is the source of all of the elements.” He pauses to note some theories of the elements having the elements proceed stepwise, one from a preceding element, with fire being the first to proceed from an element, then air from fire, etc. “Ultimately, they all proceed from spirit. It makes no difference.” He notes how he himself proceeded from the most high, and he says that there is so much information, and thus so much compassion to be had.

The problem is that we, as human beings, tend to be hyperfocused on each other or on yourselves, which is ultimately the same thing. The energy it takes, we’re discovering, to understand enough, to get enough information, is too much! (Note: presumably here, King Bynepor is talking about the information necessary to satisfy all of our curiosities.) “It’s too much energy! So you continue to consume more and more energy, and you’re discovering that this energy is coming at the expense of the information that you could’ve received from nature and from its unfolding.

“This is,” he says, “in one sense, sad, but it’s also an opportunity, because were you to be able to directly transmit energy from outer space, to the Earth, such that you did not need to extract all of [these fossil fuels], it would be much easier to continue to obtain the information needed to understand the value of each other as people and of animals [and plants and so on]. There’s so much that’s being lost, and it’s really a tragedy, and it’s like you say: it’s an unintelligent use of our time and resources.”

I ask briefly about compassion, and King Bynepor says, “I will stoke the fires and light of compassion within you,” and I feel it, and it’s such a boon right now, and I express my gratitude. “But it’s not easy to maintain that, so whenever gebofal is finished,” he says, “first of all: you will find yourself transformed. But second of all, returning to a meditation practice will be of great value to you, and metta compassion in particular.

“Were more people to meditate,” King Bynepor comments, “then suddenly the quality of information suddenly become much higher.” My mind, suddenly distractible, quickly bids him to please continue. He says, “All right: so we have energy and we have information, and we have the conversion between the two. And so, what is fire?” King Bynepor asks rhetorically. “Fire is this process: it can add heat, as needed. It can add light, as needed. Light, is how things may be understood.

“This is why the lion, the [zodiacal] sign of Leo, associated with the heart, is ruled by the sun. [The heart] needs this light to see about it, to understand the exterior,”–the surface of the sphere–“but also thereby the [center of spherical consciousness] may be known. That’s why the heart and the spine[, the latter being most difficult part of a person’s body to reach,] are both [associated with Leo, the domicile of] the sun.

“Now, that’s not to say,” King Bynepor cautions, such as “with the black sphere, that sometimes it takes more. It’s more difficult. “Hence why with Saturn,” (which is the dimmest of planets and associated with darkness and the need to draw distinction), he points out, “must also be known. That’s when we take what we know from the light, and apply it to something very dark, and therefore, ultimately, we figure out how to contextualize it.” He points to meditation again, which is “a time in which you are forced to confront that which does not readily light up with light [even the brightest of lights, the sun], and you allow it. You don’t allow the light of your chattering thoughts to begin to warp it, because they have energy themselves. The information content of one’s thoughts can be warping to the nature of reality,” including to the nature of reality of the shape of the black sphere, making it nearly impossible to know and accommodate. Our thoughts contain their own information, and when something is difficult to see, and dark, that warps so much of the nature of that which the heart does not like to confront, of suffering and the general shortcomings of dukkha (which is what the black sphere represents).

I express my gratitude, and I can feel so much energy coming up off of the fire tablet. King Bynepor advises that tomorrow will be air, and that it will be clear to me what the elemental pattern is after Saturday, and that I will find in roughly 5 or 6 days’ time the aforementioned reason why some days do not seem to have a servient angel host associate with them. I express my gratitude again to King Bynepor. I ask briefly why it’s so difficult to link up these elemental calls with the Aethyrs?

He says, “The square root of something does not always look like its square. What is happening now is that I can liken it to an inscribed square of a circle trying to make sense of the circle as a whole, or for example trying to understand the length of 19 with respect to 360 degrees: it doesn’t quite make sense, does it? It’s a difficult process, but if you contemplate this, you will pierce some of the veil.” (See Sidebar below.)

I ask King Bynepor if he has anything else. “No: work to continue your compassion. Make it a walking meditation, and consider as best you can how this relates to it, and more will be revealed to you.”

Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Read call 17/16 three times, just to ensure that I vibrated it more or less fluidly at least one time.

King Bynepor bids me take his hand, which I do, and he notes the lovely names of God: “ORO, IBAH, AOZPI.” Here takes me along and he’s noting all of the energy of the universe, over and over and over again: combining, transferring: the fire is everywhere,” he says. “Fire in the sense of energy. So we have the opposites of this continuum,” he notes: “transfer of energy, which can bring about information to those interested in it,” and then the points, which interact with energy.

Now King Bynepor notes a couple of things: generally speaking, when energy is unleashed, or is made available, or when stored energy begins interacting with matter, that we see a separation between points. It’s why water and fire are complements: both of them can separate. Yet whereas water tends to dissolve and loosen the relationship between two points, fire tends to undo said relationship. Water tends to be more of a process; though when it rushes, it is different! Yet a person who has been drowned can, at the end of the day, usually be identified, but a person who has been burned thoroughly cannot.

“Okay!” I exclaim, kind of weirded out.

“Enough energy can do that,” he continues. That’s why water infused with fire and heat is so dangerous, because that combination of undoing–for example, waterlogging someone or, say, and earthen dam–is so much more dangerous when the water is heated up, [not only due to boiling water acting on even a hard surface, but also] because it just can allow for a lot more growth: toxic growth, mold growth, stuff like that, vs. when water is at least frozen, the odds of someone picking up a parasite are reduced because it’s harder for it to grow.”

I want to clarify , and King Bynepor says, “Yes, let’s get to it. Water can dissolve, can cause something”–(i.e., a point of matter)–“to be taken into it, and thereby become a part of that watery relationship. It can become a point within water, which is then going to flow and transport, and all of that, rather than being a point of whatever [other system] it had [been connected to] before. Whereas fire: the energy in and of itself will cause a rearrangement of some sort, whether that be a somewhat temporary pulling away, or a complete burning away: a complete chemical transformation.

“Now,” King Bynepor points out, “pay attention to this. As we move to the different astrological signs, let’s start with Aries. In one sense, it isn’t as happy as it is in water, but when Mars is in Aries, it heats up, and it cuts, and it separates, and it also generally does the sort of damage that you have when energy is involved with that. A very similar example as with Mars in Scorpio! except that’s much more intense. The heating energy in the sense of the latter is heated energy directed at a target, so it could be more of a kinetic energy that can ultimately unleash power and information.

“But, sticking with Aries: what do we think of with Aries?” King Bynepor rhetorically posits the question. “We think of conflict, we think of very strong fighters, for example. We think of getting to know the limits of distance between one person and another by direct contact, and that direct contact immediately changes the entire dynamic, because that point is suddenly forced to be in another place, no matter what. [This is] unlike water, which could be like that, but it’s not in that in that same vein.” He’s trying to steer me clear of this notion, likely to emphasize the system of points of a person rather than fewer or even a single point which is the target of Scorpionic energy.

I say, “King Bynepor, I thank you for this. I ask you for more information.” He replies, “We think of the god Ares. The force behind Aries is that He is kind of a berserker. He goes into war, He loves war, He lusts for war, and He just loves going in, getting in, and ‘Fight-fight-fight-fight-fight-fight!'” He likens this back to Austin Coppock’s calling [Mars in Aries] like a machine gun. “And that’s what it is. It’s just that constant kind of raging fight that causes separation between different points. Why does it cause separation?” he asks rhetorically. “Not because of dissolution, as with water, but because of impact, because of a transfer of energy.”

King Bynepor continues: “Consider also the advances in weaponry that humans have had.” We started with sticks and stones, (which break bones). Then we moved from that to spears: suddenly there’s more energy, and it’s a more efficient transfer of energy, that causes more splitting and of the separation and cutting that Mars is famous for. Then we begin creating shields, and to bows and arrows, so there’s an attempt to transform the energy transfer so that it doesn’t hurt the person being attacked.

“Then we add into that horses and cavalry: massive amounts of energy, which are terrifying, because they just continue to transfer that energy.” So you have not only the horse who is being ridden, and the horses just got bigger and bigger, the angels note. Not only that, they were capable of carrying larger and larger amounts of mass, and all of that mass wasn’t designed to just be a big massive creature that you moved around, like with a workhorse. Instead cavalry was intended to be something that transferred a massive amount of energy, often simultaneously, into an energy line.

Then this is increased with creatures like war elephants, but also, if you think about it, we move to the use of gunpowder, which increase the distances between the origin of the attack and the target, and the creation of castles used to disperse energy directed at them. There was a lot of advancement with respect to energy as a result of martial desires! Catapults, crossbows, and of course the principles of torture operated the same way, a targeted transfer of energy upon someone in order to glean information.

With modern warfare, we get artillery, and with the including the introduction of airplanes gravity helps to increase the energy of the explosives while being above the directed attacks: generally, “bigger things that go boom-boom” and transfer more energy. Then there are tanks and bunkers designed to blunt energy transfer from the target, until finally we get to the big one: “We got the bombs!”, the nukes.

We also get technology which allows for more and more targeted attacks, so the interplay between energy and information continues, and also using our energy-using information to try to degrade that of the enemy. (Note: How constructive!) It’s all part of the piece, King Bynepor concludes. So (and here I chuckle), that is Aries! The constant upgrading of energy attacks and, towards the end, you get information being included in that, all as a constant push to separate energetically. (Note: in the words of Philip II of Macedon: “divide et impera,” (“Divide and rule,” or as it’s usually now know, “Divide and conquer).

“Let’s go to Leo,” King Bynepor says: “It’s much simpler. Leo, as mentioned in a previous vision, desires the sun. The sun, as mentioned in a previous vision, is the most massive source of energy in our solar system, and of course, in the mid-summertime months of Leo, the sun is hottest and strong (in the northern hemisphere), and crops are growing.

“Generally speaking, this is a time of royalty.” At this, King Bynepor is quick to explain: “The energy of the sun comes down and provides bounty to the land, hence we get to [better conditions of] this kingdom [during times of growth], but as far as the king himself,” (note that King Bynepor is using gendered language but this was merely faster for me to process–gender-neutral language such as “the monarch” is, of course, preferred), “going from TEX (the kingdom) up to LIL (the king), the king himself is supposed to inhabit this form of energy. This solar energy represents divinity, it represents light: light that can be seen. It’s a more rarefied kind of energy transfer: light that allows for sight. Hence these two words rhyme in German and in English.

“So, when you have this light,” King Bynepor expands, “suddenly, many more things can be discovered, and we have much more. We start with symbolism; the symbolism of the king. The symbolism of the spotlight and the pageantry, and everything designed to keep the eye on the king, and to the beneficence of the king be reflected in the beneficence of the land, and vice versa. This is where this energy is going to, and when it comes to sight, there’s definitely a lot more about the signifier and the signified when it comes to this Leonine energy. So the peasants know to worship and to do what they’re supposed to do because of God’s emissary on Earth. Of course we’ve seen between and exclusive divinity for emperors before.

“But the main points are that you can see; that plants and animals that take in the elements are happier (plants because light helps them grow, and animals because they can see food that they wish to eat), and generally speaking, people prefer summertime weather in mild climates, all things being equal.

Now we turn to Sagittarius, for King Bynepor notes that our time has run long. “So, with Sagittarius, we have this concept of myth and of story, and we suddenly have this energy being transformed. We started with separating symbolism via light, and the transfer of the essence of one thing to another via sight that we got in Leo. [In Sagittarius, we] move to a closer energy transfer, and that is the energy transfer of meaning, from one thing to the next, and a story from one thing to the next. In order to that, we consider oftentimes [the archetype of] the monk” (here I want to credit Gordon White or perhaps Austin Coppock for having said this metaphor earlier, which King Bynepor draws from), “who gets people going, gets their symbolic energy going, tells a story that people begin to follow, and so on. The symbol of Sagittarius incorporates multiple things together in the form of a centaur: a combination of person with a horse (this point has definitely been made by Austin).

“When you have this, the multiple things that seem somewhat contradictory are nonetheless, in this dream logic or mythological logic, they’re okay combined together. So we can shed light on things that seem contradictory and thereby allow a greater understanding of what there is to be known. So that is the psychic transfer of energy, that is different from what you get from Pisces. Pisces,” King Bynepor is telling me specifically now, “is this Jupiterian expanding and trying to get in everywhere, and trying to see things everywhere, and really understanding all sides. Being the transported (the fish) and the also the transport: the water that flows in a certain direction or and that can flow more or less everywhere, or wherever it needs to go. With Sagittarius, this is a transfer of meaning via direct symbolism that goes in the mind, and this is a more meaningful psychic transfer of energy, and trying to get an optimistic ending to all of this separation that’s occurred with the previous two signs.

King Bynepor asks me if I have any questions. I remark that that was a lot, and he agrees. He thanks me for my time, and I insist on instead thanking him for his time, and I bow and am very grateful. He says that the next vision will just be the person and the person giving fire, and how that relates to everyday activities and what that’s like for the people involved. I thank King Bynepor again and the vision ends.

  • Sidebar: One of the things that occurred to me as I was typing up the notes for today was what occurred to me yesterday: the idea of 19 as the square root of 360. The 30/19 split of the 49 calls seemed obvious: 30 calls to the Aethyrs representing 30 degrees of signs of a zodiac (and, more mathematically, 360 divided by 3 and 4, the two closest integer addends of 7 (the square root of 49), equals 30). 19 represented a square root of its own: the rounded integer square root of 360 degrees of a circle, or more perfectly of 360 degrees of the circumference, plus one point at the center.
  • This then led me to wonder about applying this number 19 (associated by Crowley with “Manifestation,” but I could not find evidence for this in a thorough treatment by, say, Bill Heidrick) to geometry. I wondered what 19 would be like as, say, a diameter of a circle, and sure enough, the circumference of such a circle rounds to 60, the number of the degrees of an equilateral triangle. Here we see a mathematical “Mystery of the Trinity” spoken by the angel Galvah.
  • But what of the square? A square has as many degrees as a circle, because it is composed of two triangles, and a square & circle of equal area look pretty cool when they share a common center (see links later in this paragraph). Unfortunately, not much fun comes up this way, but it did make me wonder about the phenomenon of squaring a circle. For a circle of radius 1, the side length of the square needed of equal area to such a circle is √π. The demonstration of this is relatively simple and is saved for the reader as an exercise. The meaning of I’m unsure of, but note that in order to square a circle, the square root of the defining characteristic of a circle, the number π, is needed, just as the angels are now pointing me towards the number 19 as the square root of the degrees (or degrees plus one for the center) of a circle
  • All of this made me realize something about these latter 19 calls. During the Aethyrs, the angels were taking me through, slowly but surely, information about the idea of points and concepts of spherical (3D circular) consciousness, as well as cubical (3D square) consciousness. Once the general points about these have been made, now I’m being walked through points and the four elements, and the quaternary nature of this itself is done in a squaring manner, for a total of 16 calls. What three things could there be to get to 19? Perhaps the center, the perimeter/circumference, and then finally the entirety? It’s not clear. However, it certainly parallels some the alchemical symbol for the Philosopher’s Stone.
Visual representation of a few things that I wrote above: a circle shown to have 360 degrees, a square with 360 degrees total, and an equilateral triangle with 60 degree angles.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m trying to have a lot of compassion, circulating it as best I can. Once again there’s King Bynepor, but as with yesterday, we have him joined by Kings Bnaspol and Babalel. “Yes, of course, tomorrow will be the day of air, ruled by Venus.” The angels also note that the four signs that they’re ruling–Virgo-Libra, Scorpio, and Sagittarius–are in order.

King Bynepor notes that because I have so much more to write up, that he will keep this brief, out of respect for that, but he says, that the fire that I already have within me will be magnified and magnetized to this realm of Adam Qadmon. “Again,” he comments, “this is the teaching part, but the realization part will be the last three days. It will come together in a way that is unique to you. It will not be whatever projected notion of perfection that you have, but it will be a magnification of you, and it is important to try your best to maintain the same practices that brought you here. ‘The same lady you brought to the dance is the one you should stick with.'” He adds that this is important.

He shows me this light, and I’m feeling much energy coming up off of leaf 17 (of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh), and he’s saying to just take note of this, so I do, trying to remain humble and respectful. “So you have points that are transformed as a result of the introduction of energy. In its basest form, it will cause them to split apart, but in other forms, it will simply raise the energy level of the system. This is how life ultimately unfolded, because that energy level was raised. It needs to all be done in a careful, controlled manner, because otherwise it’s just energy going everywhere, and there’s information to be had with that, but it needs to be done intelligently.”

I’m being taken again, and I’m seeing someone with fire about the head, and King Bynepor is saying that this is how I will perceive people and animals. This is the sense of the aura that I will get. The angels are stating outright that this is the boon of these angels, led here by the Heptarchical kings, and of course the Governors and Zodiacal kings also. The angels are suggesting that I add up the discrepancy between the angels of each day’s call and the closest number of servient angels in the Aethyrs to that (of the zodiacal king of that Aethyr, which which I call upon). They suggest that I’ll find something interesting there: Saturday or Sunday may be a good time for that.

I ask if there’s anything else, and they say, “No, this is it,” so I express my gratitude to King Zinggen, to Governor Lexarph, and to Kings Bynepor, Bnaspol, and Babalel, and of course to God, known today as ORO, IBAH, and AOZPI.

The vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 31: Starting Watchtower Calls

Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 19 (typically associated with the Earth Watchtower Tablet; note that most practitioners refer to this as Call 18): because I rarely make this call, I made it three times. Call to King Babalel (once again using the call in Scott Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy). I prepared for angels of secret discovery and angels of living creatures, and, given the content of the scryings, I was, in a sense, given this. Because the former call references the number 6332, I recalled that other large numbers were associated with the zodiacal kings with respect to the Aethyrs. So, I vibrated the name of Zodiacal King Ziracah (associated with Taurus), who, in the Aethyr of UTI, is associated with 6333 servient angels (it’s only one away, so I presumed some correspondence, and even were I wrong, it doesn’t hurt to have another angel helping). I also vibrated (for good measure) the name of Governor Obvaors, who appears in the same row as the Ziracah/UTI row in Aaron Leitch’s The Essential Enochian Grimoire. I was a little annoyed at myself for being underprepared, but to be fair to me, I feel like I’m in a little bit of uncharted territory.

As I mentioned on Day 29, I was unsure about the association between the days and the leaves; today I placed my hand on Leaf 19b, but it was Leaf 18 in which Kelley was attacked by gnomes for accidentally invoking them. So Leaf 18 should be the one associated with with Earth, rather than today’s. Yet this call is typically associated with Earth. To split the difference, I placed my right foot on the seal of King Babalel (recall that this king is of a Martial/Mars nature, and thus strong in waters (Scorpio)). I placed the four Tabula Recensa watchtower tablets with their usual configuration on the floor in front of me, with Fire tablet roughly to the East and facing that way, Air to the South and facing that direction, similarly Water to the West, and Earth to the North. I placed my feet on all four of them, so I could clearly tell which element was associated with which by energetic feel (a certain tingling is obvious to me when I work with the tablets like this).

The angels indicated that calling on the correct angels associated with this tablet wasn’t really the concern, but nonetheless I prepared a list of the earth-related angel names: those of Secret Discovery, and those of Living Creatures. Unfortunately, as I prepared, I noticed a discrepancy between the Enochian Watchtower angels listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Great Table and Leitch’s Essential Enochian Grimoire. This was a little unsettling and, well, I didn’t have time to settle it this morning, nor will I this afternoon or evening! So I decided to forego calling on the Watchtower angels. At any rate, on to the vision:

I feel energy at the Water tablet, from the heel of my right foot. I’m told to be silent for a moment. I feel myself drawn into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and it is definitely watery.

  • Note: the original Great Table had water as the last element in order (Fire-Earth-Air-Water); nonetheless, I’m not sure as to whether this feeling reflects the influence of King Babalel, or rather a reversal of the original Great Table order (Water-Air-Earth-Fire). Tomorrow, Wednesday, has King Bnaspol, who is specifically indicated to be strong in Earth (Virgo) from his call. So, if I notice that the Earth tablet is activated, I could use this as evidence that the Heptarchical kings override the tablet order, but if the Air tablet is activated I could assume that the order of these leaves reflects the original Great Table order (though Mercury/King Bnaspol should be relatively strong in air, the main power indicated is over earth due to both exaltation and domicile, and most importantly the call to King Bnaspol). Things would be even stranger if Fire were activated, and I would probably throw up my hands if water were activated tomorrow as well!

Returning to the vision: this wateriness isn’t what I was expecting, and that’s okay! King Babalel is trying to guide me right now, and he says to make the call to governor Ziracah (note that this King is associated with Taurus, an Earth sign, which opposes the water sign of Scorpio, where Mars is strongest, and from which King Babalel presumably has his power over waters), which I do. I feel energy come up off the leaf and the water tablet. There’s a bit of shifting around of the energy now. The angels say that it’s not like one element is existing completely separately from another. Nonetheless, water is dominant; part of this, I’m told by King Babalel, is his own influence, but, yes, this leaf–and this call (presumably when used for gebofal)–is of a watery nature.

I ask, in all humility, the angels that if I indeed be in the realm of Adam Qadmon, to please show me what is to be shown. I’m told to make the call to the God of the West. Thus, the God of the West/Water is MPH ARSL GAIOL (OIP TEAA PDOKE), which is what I vibrated. [Despite my the godname from the original tablet,] I feel this water come up from the tablet and up my right leg, whooshing up and all about me from the water tablet. The angels note that yesterday, the full moon was in Scorpio (and, I would just add, aided by mutual reception from Mars in Cancer).

It’s a subtle point, but the angels are saying, “Water flows, and water dissolves. Water can move about in a rush, and if it hits you thus is most solid-like, like earth. For that reason it can behave like a solid when it is moving quickly or, of course, when it is frozen. Or, it can, just by a soluble being in contact with it, it can dissolve that soluble, and flow and transport the solution. So, its nature,” the angels tell me, “is to break down, and to transport, whether that be temperature, whether that be through dissolution, through flowing, or through the force of its pushing, like unto a solid. It breaks down, and it transports.”

So when I ask how this relates to the geometry in the Aethyrs, the angels are saying, “What this can do is break down the current association between points, and it can, as a result, move two points together or further apart. It can also act as an intermediary between the two.” I express my gratitude to the angels and to God for this, and I ask if there be anything else. They say, “No. Continue to treat this a bit as an experiment,” because this is kind of new to me, so I take it to heart, in heart. They’re adding, “More will be revealed to you: this was going to be a bit clunky, anyway, but now you know the best way to approach this.” I thank them and they give me as homework to flesh out the remaining days, so I thank them and I will.

Noon: Call 19 (18 as labeled by most practitioners). Call to King Babalel. As usual (I haven’t included it because I mentioned it earlier), I vibrate the title of Leaf 19a. Taking the lessons from this morning’s Aethyr, I vibrate the name of God MPH ARSL GAIOL. I vibrate the names of King Ziracah and Governor Obvaors. Feet are placed as mentioned earlier.

The angels have me relax. Once again, I feel energy arise from the Water Quadrant/Tablet; I even moved the seal of King Babalel to under my left foot, and though I felt energy come up from that seal when making the call to him, I instead found the energy coming up from my right heel again when making this call.

Now they move on to reviewing the morning’s lesson & vision with me: water transports, water dissolves, thus it can dissolve the relationship between two times, and can also transport between them. Now they ask me to review this with respect to geometry; once again, this is a reviewing of the lessons of the higher Aethyrs, as I was promised, yet the angels note that this relates to the lower Aethyrs as well: all of reality. The effect of water is its rearranging of conditions. These elements can rearrange the conditions in which Heaven and Earth meet (see yesterday’s scrying) so that the flow that one is in is being met properly and appropriately. The angels assure me that a lot of these lessons will be learned by my unconscious mind more than anything else.

They move on to asking me to consider two points, or even a system of points of geometric consciousness of an individual. It’s natural that, in interacting with someone else, there would be a certain amount of elemental water involved in the realm of consciousness. If one increases the amount of water in the individual, then there’s a bit of dissolution of the structures that one has in place, which could cause two points to separate, or perhaps come closer together, but regardless it changes the arrangement of no less than two points to each other. Also, the angels have me consider the transportation of certain new solutes into the system by dint of the introduction of water.

Now the angels turn to the knock-on effects. Introducing more water forces that system to react by bringing in more earth in order to remain in its current arrangement, or perhaps to decide how it wishes to flow or rearrange itself given this introduction of water. Also, the transportation of a flow between two different and currently set points–assuming no dissolution is involved–the individual would need to decide whether they want a flow between these points. For example, would the individual want their set point of “compassion” to flow to and/or from an individual who has done heinous crimes? Do they want that compassion to be linked up to someone whom they, to that point, have viewed as “evil”? So the individual may need to rearrange the way that certain ideas flow, so this is a bit of a secondary dissolution (i.e., a rearrangement of a relationship between established points of consciousness), rather than a primary one.

Now the angels take me back and have me consider the person who is giving or introducing the water. Someone with a more Scorpionic take may want to introduce water in order to investigate or understand something better; this is not unheard of for people with planets in Scorpio, with an intensity, which sort of shoots water out like a pipe or a hose, such as to hose down a dirty car or to aim directly at a fire. A Scorpionic sense of this, the angels tell me, is much more–and this, again, is opposed to the sign of Taurus, ruled by King Ziracah, yet in line with King Babalel (whose link to Scorpio I’ve already mentioned), so there’s this interesting dynamic between these two angels. At any rate, the angels are saying that someone who is introducing water could be coming at it with this Scorpionic intensity and focused kind of water, that fixed water which is aimed precisely at a fixed point.

Now the angels turn to the introduction of water from someone with planets in Cancer. Here, the transporting quality of water is paramount, as with nutrients. Or, in the cardinal sense of the sign, water may be used to change the dynamic about someone. For example, in a protective manner, someone with, say, a Mars in Cancer (as we have now), the water is used to dissolve points about someone in a dangerous situation so that they can leave the old dynamic and move into a newer, safer one. How water would act from Cancer is thus very dependent on the needs of the situation (recall that Cancer is ruled by the moon, the fastest-moving of the planets and associated largely with the final formation of circumstances just before they emerge into this world, i.e., Yesod), and those things or circumstances that it senses or intuits should be begun.

Finally, we have mutable water: Pisces. So here we have the sign of fish, whose entire reality is water. Here, the person themselves is being transported along with the water that they reside in. Whereas a crab may or may not reside in water–a fish must live in water. Fish must therefore be highly adaptable to water in all of its measureless (“infinite”) variety: “TON MAOFFAS DAMPLOZ,” the angels use the Enochian phrase. The consciousness is thus in this water, and this sign chooses to live with somewhat fewer “fixed points.” Granted, a fish still has somewhat fixed points relative to its own body, but it sees the world with much more fluid points about it. Nonetheless, if water is going certain direction, the fish must account for the flow of the water, the changes of points caused by the water, what’s transported in the water: that whole concept is very much to be considered (clearly, I have no planets in Pisces or Cancer, so the angels take their time explaining these!).

“This is a lot,” the angels acknowledge. I ask whether they have anything in their generosity, if they be so inclined, to offer, and they say, “No,” but bid me to write this up. They acknowledge that these are complicated lessons, but important to consider, because now we’re going to get at some of the “roots” of the 360 degree circle/ecliptic (note the play on root and “square root”–19 being the rounded square root of 360), and all of that which is within it. The 30 degrees of the Aethyrs is the repeated cycle within any given sign, but these are the root principles of the entire Zodiac: “What is at the root of the Zodiac,” they clarify.

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure: Vibrating the titles of Leaf 19a&b. Call to King Babalel. Vibrated the God names “MPH, ARSL, GAIOL.” (Note: I have decided to revert to the Tabula Recensa, so such vibrations will be associated with their usual locations. In the case of Water/West, the association is OIP, TEAA, PDOKE). Because I’m confident in this being a thoroughly watery vision, I place both feet upon the water Watchtower tablet, which has the seal of King Babalel above it.

I see this wave part in front of me, and it’s like a vision of Moses parting the Red Sea, and the angels are just pointing out the staff–associated with fire symbolically–which parts water, and how the action of water is undone. I’m approached by King Babalel, speaks to me for the rest of the vision. He walks with me and has me take note of all of the different geometric points in the two sides of the walls of water held in stasis. He notes the fish therein, and he notes the crabs (some in the water, some on the land on which we walk), and the scorpions. He notes the pinpoint accuracy of the stinger of a scorpion, and the crab’s circular crabwalk (like unto the moon!), and he notes how the fish seem to be everywhere in the water and seem to defy a lot of logic in their way.

“But each of them has their strong points,” he remarks. Now I’m feeling more energy come up off of the leaf. “Just to get very specific about how this relates to the realm of Adam Qadmon,” King Babalel transitions, and how I need to consider this as I do this: he notes that today was a somewhat difficult day for me to maintain the compassionate heart, but I did sort of rally at the end of the day. “This is a good thing,” he continues, “and now have compassion for all of this. Have compassion for the fact that water dissolves! and have compassion for the different ways in which it acts! and begins things anew! and can be concentrated, and focused!” Basically, he finishes the point: “have compassion for these various areas of your own chart, relatively empty though they may be!”

I agree, and as I do so, I see a watery sphere about me (here’s an alternative reference), and King Babalel says to take a good look around, and to really note this. When I’m encountering others in the future, he says, “You will get a sense of what’s going on with them, and what seems to be lacking based on a sense of their aura. ‘This is not watery enough,’ or, ‘This is too watery.’ This can be combined with the general sense of chakras,” which, he adds, do not completely overlay with planetary influences, yet it’s its own septenary nature which tends to combine at times. Mars, Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter (whose rulership in the zodiac opposes each other) are more or less like unto the elements. Yet the three remaining have been of interest to me in their higher forms: the sun overlays with the heart, the moon with the third eye (as broad intuition), and Saturn with the crown chakra (as Binah). The king advises me to be aware that I will have a greater sense of other people. This will be a transformation of me and my perception, because I’ve been given such a vast and wonderful teaching (and, as I write this up, I wonder whether a deeper, more fundamental teaching has been given to my energetic system), which I heartily agree with.

King Babalel kindly says that the angels are grateful for the work that I’m doing to teach this stuff and giving as much as I can in return, and says many other kind things, and gives me a subtle bow. I make sure to give a deep bow in return and give my thanks to him and all of the angels. He notes the holiness of this day, the 31st day of the ritual (31 is associated in Gematria with the name El or ‘God’), and that I will only see him two more times in this ritual.

I ask if there’s anything I need to concern myself with as far as calling the kerubs or so-called “lesser” angels of the Watchtowers, and King Babalel tells me that they are not appearing the same way here in this ritual. This is but the first lesson about water, he says, and I will rev up into the next lesson–except it won’t be him next time. I extrapolate that perhaps the next time will be Saturday, but I’m fine discovering this as the days unfold.

I express my gratitude again, and ask whether he has other things to show to me. “No,” he says, but notes that he is very pleased and to continue especially with the compassion. This will make everything make much more sense, and that ultimately we’re getting into some root forces of the heart here.

Gebofal, Day 27

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of PAZ. Call to King Baligon.

I relax and concentrate on the lotus-rose. The angels note that this is an incremental step as I approach the event horizon of the portal to the world of Adam Qadmon, which appears to me as a black hole.

Continuing to concentrate on the lotus-rose, the angels show it becoming circular, like an ouroboros, spinning around. “This is how the the flower emerged from your heart, is it not?” the angels ask. I agree, in the sense that the stem of flower emerged from the blossom of the preceding flower, repeatedly. The angels say that there will be this circulation within the lotus-rose itself. There will be suffering leading to transcendence, which will lead to suffering and then further transcendence.

Yet the suffering itself, they’re saying, is something that can be relatively avoided in the mundane realm just by continuously giving yourself “oomph” to follow rules and behave appropriately such that suffering can be transcended (such as seen in the symbolism of the white cube). I note difficulty concentrating, but the angels remind me to simply focus on this lotus-rose of my heart, and the distraction will go away.

I see this lotus-rose now being like unto a torus, simplifying now into a jewel about the lotus-rose (note the parallel to the famous Buddhist mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum). The angels say that once you get this, that it’s all sort of “one thing…you’ve been making this distinction between the thorny stem and the blossom. But it is One Thing: it is a Beautiful, sometimes Wonderful, sometimes Heart-Aching sort of thing, and the Heart Aching indicates the Heart, and that It is Alive.” So the Heart Aching as such is–and here I recall the death of my late mother-in-law–the Heart Aching is…and I’m trying to come to terms with something really big here.

“The Heart Aching,” the angels are saying, “is the Condition of the Heart. Though the armor about it is Empty, this pain is normal, this pain is okay. And the condition of Reality leading up to the heart being like This, is okay. And all of this can be concentrated into this Divine Bloom of the flower itself, the Okayness of It All, the Divinity of It All, and the Transcendent Nature that allows it to happen such as This. All of it is okay, all of it can be concentrated.”

So even though it seems as if “the Jewel is in the Heart of the Lotus,” truly, the jewel itself is the lotus, is what the angels are saying, and it’s part of Understanding the depth of Adam Qadmon, which is a journey you shall take and fulfill and complete. That is the Beauty of the Journey. So that’s it: the angels note that I’m a little bit closer in my orbit to the portal; this Realm is a little big closer. All of this is the sphere [spherical consciousness], the angels are just keeping me a little bit off, keeping me at bay. They really want everything to attune, so this is something that I need to reflect on. I thank the angels, and they have nothing further.

Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure. I called on King Baligon twice.

I concentrate on the lotus-rose as an Ouroboros, as well as a jewel, as described in the previous Aethyr. I steady myself.

I see two square pyramids, connected by a tube, and all of them appear to be be made out of dough; the tube is already tied into a knot. “Consider the force which ties this knot. This is the force of Ain, and the duality, you’ve seen this already, when you scried your own rainbow body using the call of the Aethyrs.” This knot, they say, can be considered like unto sphericity (of LIL), or the double-sphere arising out of the torus.

“Yet, there’s something nice and squishy about this, isn’t there? So that only if you were rather skilled could you even see that this was caused by a single force which created the illusion of duality, then united it, and then unfolded it throughout separate sephiroth.” So I’m wondering about the nature of these two pyramid-like, or tetrahedron-like (and here they tell me that they are tetrahedra). Here we have, once again, an ogdoad (two tetrahedra times four faces per tetrahedron), becoming an ennead (via the connecting tube), which perhaps could be considered a decad (due to the new shape created by the knot). So you have this reflection of the ten sephiroth, even in the world of Adam Qadmon.

I’m curious as to what this means. If everything is squishy, there’s an infinity with this. I try hard to understand this deeply. I let my heart work on this problem. The angels say, “Note that what you’re seeing as an ouroboros: this is the same kind of thing. It’s a symbol of continuity, much like a Möbius strip, or a Klein bottle (which may be a better explanation). It’s this twisting about itself. The reason you’re seeing it as seemingly separate forces is because you’ve already seen it as such (when I scried my rainbow body previously, I saw two jewels which mirrored each other), but also,” and here they bid me pause for a moment, “Think about this. This is three dimensions about three dimensions, coming upon itself. This is like unto the present state/earth on the left, the goal state/heaven on the right, and the transformation in the middle, so time is locked in as well. But it’s all one thing.

“It’s all one thing, and it’s a multiplicity of things.” And I feel like I’m very close to grokking this and they chuckle, “not just yet, but this is very important. This is a very potent symbol for you, because you’re very excited by this, and you want to know what it is, and that’s okay. That’s good.”

I take a look at the symbol, and I see it extending down, and now it seems like a bunch of pencils tied together with a rubber band in the middle, the other end of which is dangling from the ceiling. This point at which the rubber band meets the ceiling is the portal into the world of Adam Qadmon. “If you just take this heart of compassion and aim it directly at this symbol, you’ll see that this is the same thing. On the one hand if you twist it together, it’s the jewel, on the other hand if you were to take it apart, you could see one end being like unto the thorny end of the lotus-rose, and the other end like unto the bloom thereof. It’s all the same thing: all is one, all is one, all is one.”

The angels leave me with all of this to contemplate. I ask whether there’s anything else, and the angels bid me pause and to consider this dough-symbol floating in water–not dissolving, just floating.

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m feeling fairly high right now. The angels tell me to relax and to speed up the entire process going from the previous symbolism to the lotus-rose to the jewel. I feel the gem now in its fullness; at first it seems to have an amber or reddish-orange tinge, but now I see green flashing in it, and the angels suggest that I add indigo and blues, and I see now: the jewel is a rainbow jewel. The angels remind me that the lights can come from the realm of Adam Qadmon in their fullness, but that they can be seen in Chokmah, and indeed, this is the final Aethyr of this sephirah. At its most developed they shine through to me now, they say. One need not have completely entered the realm of Adam Qadmon to see them this way, but having an opening into it is important in order to shine in your fullness (suggestive of a complete opening into Chokmah and a necessary step to develop the rainbow body).

Now I’m feeling a lot of energy coming off of the leaf, and it’s trying to tell me something, so I listen. I feel my crown chakra being pulled upward, an uncharacteristically strong energetic feeling for this Aethyr. It’s like this is the initiation, the re-initiation into Kether (the angels remind me that a prior sigil of mine with the intent of “I reinitiate into Kether” was, in fact, still active). The angels say, “Be prepared, be ready, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! This be the final vision of Chokmah unto you. Know this: that the different elements and the different spacings [of (space-time) points], that one may find as one abideth in the realm of Adam Qadmon: these can always shift and change! It is important to be fully immersed in the Understanding in order to be fully immersed in the Wisdom.

“Behold, this vision (from noon, of the dough shape), which you have seen in its tetrahedral format: this steeping of it in the water can be considered like unto the fullness of Ain and Ain Soph. For within the Ain is the Ain Soph, and that fullness containeth within it the Infinite Light, which you see before you, twisted into this shape, twisted into this Present-Future state, which is always, always, always bound both by time, but, indeed, by the supernals as a whole. And so, know this, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: the richness of this symbol will continue to unfold itself to you. For now, it seemeth like dough: tomorrow it shall not seem quite so. It shall take on a greater significance and a new symbolic meaning. Rest now easy, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! No more can be said unto you directly, but all of these things shall be open unto you in the very few weeks left remaining.

“Much love upon thee: go now in peace. Serve the Lord.”

With this, the vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 11

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of CHR (“khar”). Call to King BNASPOL and, though not stated, I’ve generally been vibrating the names of the governors of each Aethyr as well.

Again, I try to ensure I’m approaching with a heart of compassion. The angels ask me to lay the wand upon the table so that my left hand can rest on the Holy Table of Practice, while my right hand rests on Leaf 39b.

Once again, I try to speed the circulation so that it hits a high vibration. I see a tardis, which isn’t what I have in mind (they say that it’s okay: it helps that I haven’t seen much of the show). It turns into the front of a house. The angels instruct me to enter the front door, so I do; when I do so, I turn around and see that there is not one door behind me, but seven; the door I entered is the third from the left. I use my heart to guide me; at first I’m drawn to the fifth door from the left, but something draws me to the first door. I open it but there are monsters behind it. I try to see if they change in response to the lovingkindness, but they don’t, so I shut the door.

I go to the fifth door and open it. There is a large mountain. I see a figure there and vibrate King BNASPOL’s name. He becomes more vibrant and identifies himself as him. I am set atop a chair on top of a mountain. It’s a regular four-legged chair, but now it seems like a throne atop a mountain. I’m looking down onto a plain, and generate lovingkindness towards those below. There’s this concern or question as to whether this is enough, and I answer “No, it is enough–it’s more than enough.” I see a form of God in the clouds, and He asks whether it is ever enough. I say that if it be inspired by Him, then of course it would be. This seems to please God. This answer seems to shift things somehow.

It’s like I’m being tested sometimes along the way–there’s a drawing out of appropriate perspective by this Socratic method from time to time. I return to the center of the sphere after generating lovingkindness again, sitting on the dry seabed floor. King BNASPOL says, “Behold how variable one must be [in the heart]; the sitting within of the heart is ofttimes a variable qualium. I reflect on my occasional hyperfocus of the heart. I’m told not to worry if I move out of a universal love into a more focused version; instead, allow that the heart to continue, merely ensuring that the heart isn’t cut off from anything. For such is the nature of the heart. Remember the rotation of fixed stars about the torus, he tells me. Remember how God’s heart twists it and brings certain fixed stars into focus, and others not. Therefore it’s okay if one’s focus is uneven, as long as it doesn’t delude itself into the negative, seeing others as one’s enemy or unworthy of compassion. Other than that, it’s okay: this is the slippery nature of being in Hod. It’s similar to the twisting or rotation of God’s heart which is unknown to us but known to Him.

I’m grateful to King BNASPOL and note that the energy that this king receives isn’t often of lovingkindness, but he deserves it, too. He thanks me and hugs me, and I return the hug. He thanks me and also informs me that, no, this is not the time in which I will be reconciled with Mercury: that will happen later. I thank him, and he bids me farewell: the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure.

The angels bid me put my hand on the Holy Table, with the PELE side of the ring face down upon it, and I do. I pause to breathe evenly. King BNASPOL approaches. I vibrate his name, but this is not he. I vibrate the three governors’ name along with his, and now all approach, and two take my arms and two take my legs. I am placed at the top of a mountain peak again, but now the peak stabs me through the heart. My body is rotated around and it becomes liquidy as it does so, painting the mountain: coating it and sealing it.

I generate lovingkindness again, and this causes my body to fuse with the mountain, like a laminate. It seals in the the mountain, giving it a shimmer and a sheen. It creates a reddish-pinkish tinge, which becomes a golden tinge, and finally a whitish and etheric tinge, and finally there’s an unfolding of possibilities. It’s not clear what the timescale is, and there’s a suggestion of 1000 years. I’m unsure. The angels mention that 1000 years can be a day.

At any rate, I try to speed up the circulation caused by the heart of compassion. I’m told to look up, and I see a face appearing as a result of this transformation. It’s developing an identity. This, the angels say, is like unto humanity, or the people whose spirits I continue to touch over time. There’s a common understanding which emerges; I’m reminded of CodyP and his collective myth.

The mountain gets a character to it. It becomes alive and has its own intelligence. The mountain points directly upward to a star, the angels show me, and this star is the same star as last night’s. This star creates a shield about the Earth, which is like a cocoon which allows both dormancy and development. It’s like the seed of Kether developing and learning to sprout: this is enough for humanity, I’m told. The angels add that the mountain, with its own personality and character, can be approached by people and can provide what they need.

Now I see waves, and something like a dolphin intelligence approaching me playfully, like the playfulness of a seal from a dream some time ago. I follow it with a playful dive into the water of my own. This dolphin leads me to a group of dolphins, who say that they have things to tell me at a later date. Five dolphins touch noses, their bodies configured in a pentagonal formation. I reach my hand through the central space left by their noses, and I pull out the very tip of the nose of a whale.

It is the God whale of Dee & Kelley, like a blue whale, dark in hue. The dolphins say that together, they are like unto the intelligence of this whale. The angels tell me to go into the belly of the whale. At first, they say, it will appear dark, but after ZAX, it will become progressively clear to me.

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure; note that I was fairly tired and unfocused much of the day.

I see a zipper unzip, and when the sides of cloth are pulled away, I see stars. Then I see the night sky unzip and I see only light, and then that unzips and I see the night sky again, and finally another zipper and light again. This goes on for a bit. I continue to generate compassion, and now I see dark tentacles surround me. I continue to hold the torch of compassion. I circulate the speed of compassion, and now I’m in a dark thicket made up of these tentacles.

King BNASPOL is with me in the thicket, and he’s also being surrounded by tentacles. This is an illuding image, and I say that I want no part of this. It’s like the vision or the tentacles are trying to wait me out. I continue generating compassion for this and why such an image would even exist in the first place. I see that the darkness seems to be emerging from my at my feet, but I have compassion even for that and throughout. I continue to circulate this compassion, and the darkness finally stretches itself back to the surface of the sphere. The blackness around King BNASPOL finally fades.

I vibrate the governors’ names as well, and I see them ripped apart and then regenerating themselves. I’m told that this is a difficult kind of reading [sic] for them, because King BNASPOL’s nature is fluid. It (astrological Mercury) can be of either the nocturnal or diurnal sect, and Mercury itself is quite fluid. If this be the 11th day of straight day of scrying an Aethyr since TEX (this being the 20th Aethyr), then this is roughly equivalent to the mouth of the Abyss. Every three days it’s like I’m scrying 21 Aethyrs on account of the sevenfold intensity, so there’s a day that’s like unto the mouth of the Abyss (especially the evening of that day), then a day that feels like the Abyss itself, then the day following that. Every three days it’s the same experience, just at a higher level, roughly. Note: I get the sense that this cycle will clearly be over once I scry ZIP on the 18th of this month.

I’m holding a lot of compassion for all the beings about me, and I’m bowing to the compassion in King BNASPOL’s heart for what he’s going through for me (note: I can’t remember whether he’s still somewhat entangled in the tentacles). I try to accelerate this so that his suffering is minimized. He smiles and seems to step forth from the tangle of tentacles about him. He says, “This is the suffering within you when you are overly identifying with the act of suffering.” One needs to continue to look past the immediate thing that one sees, and consider at the core of cores, at the heart of the heart of the heart, what the meaning is behind it, and it’s not easy to witness. Yet we all suffer for each other.

King BNASPOL says that these visions needn’t always be amazing. Just continue to hold onto and lift the torch, even if things seem like nothing but blackness. He acknowledges that this is the last of Day 11, meaning that there are 10 more days of the darkness about me, and that I have the symbol of the white square, which contains and squares the black circle of suffering. There will be a way out of suffering in this world, but there are reasons why some people choose to suffer–so as to aid the white square of the dharma. There’s a lot of compassion on all sides, hence the white circle within the black circle.

I ask the governors and king what else they may in their generosity choose to show me. They reiterate that I’m being a good guest, to continue to have faith, even though there are times in which bipolar disorder acts up in me. It’s okay, and they’re proud to see how far I’ve come. Maintain the faith and compassion, they say. The angels point back up to the star, reminding me of the lesson about the need to be tender towards one’s own compassion, as though caring for one’s infant self. I express gratitude, and the vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 9

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIN. Call to King BLUMAZA (associated with the sephira of Yesod), as described in Day 2.

Note: This was a slightly awkward scrying. I had to take one of our cats to the vet today and, my being a “householder,” I improvised a bit rather than trying to reschedule. I have tried to live by the commandment, “Render unto Caesar what is Caesar’s, and unto God what is God’s” (and, according to some versions: “…and unto me what is mine”). For me, this means trying to meet my worldly responsibilities as well as I can manage. In other words, I knew this ritual would leave me perpetually busy before I started it! 😀

I activated the furniture before I left; I brought what I could of it (a smaller version of the Holy Table of Practice, the large (main) Sigillum Dei Aemeth, King BLUMAZA’s seal, the Round Tablet of Nalvage, my wand, and Amzes Naghezes Hardeh, AKA Liber Loagaeth). I forgot the full, prayer of Enoch as related by the angel Ave (which I have modified), so I relied on Aaron Leitch’s transcript of the original. This being the 9th day, and angels constantly drawing out 40 & 9 (e.g., the numbers on the outer ring of the SDA summing to 441, 49*9, and there being 40 cells in all of this outer ring = 49-9), I expected a shift, and there was, and I’m not just talking about the awkward scrying session to start the day. Note also that the Aethyr of LIN is the first Aethyr with an angelic governor whose does not derive from the previous methods of the Watchtowers: PARAOAN.

The vision begins with four dots of a square; I then see a tesseract. The angels rotate the tesseract. I visualize holding a torch lit by compassion. The angels remind me that this was originally the Aethyr that tripped me up in 2014, but now I can see the rotation, and that this is a turning point when it comes to the Aethyrs, and where it gets more complicated. I’m seeing four dots above me and four dots below me, each set in a square configuration, and they’re twisting in opposite directions, then returning to their initial position. My subtle body is sort of being twisted along with this. King BLUMAZA bids me be still, and I do so after adjusting myself in my seat.

The Governors & King are showing me a light, which is reminiscent of the light which strikes George Malley in Phenomenon. It sort of hits me. The angels are trying to shake something loose in me, and they note that it’s difficult on account of the awkward physical position I’m in, but acknowledge it is how it is with my being a householder. My subtle body is moving a lot; this Aethyr is very dynamic. I try to remember the heart of compassion, and the angels commend this, saying it will always magnetize me in the proper direction. This dynamism, they tell me, is all part of the lunar nature of King BLUMAZA & his sephira of Yesod, and the cyclical nature of the moon and the understanding thereof. They say it’s almost like the start of a new moon cycle (note: the moon is in Aquarius, not Aries, so this is metaphorical).

The unfolding that’s taking place in this scrying session is like unto folding something in a different dimension, such as pushing and pulling front and back rather than left-right or up-down. I see a palace open before me. I see a cross, but it is now rotated 90 degrees, except that the left length is equal to the right, and the short top part is of equal length to the bottom. They ask me what this is reminiscent of, and I say, “an airplane” (aeroplane). An airplane is trying to maintain a balance, more or less, of orientation. The angels ask what happens if a pilot loses visual? The pilot goes to instruments. Yet if the pilot loses visual, then visual cues are needed. The instruments are the heart, they tell me, whereas the visual is the circumference. The angels say that there is what you see in the imaginal/astral, and then there’s what you see in the mundane. This will be important as I work my through the palaces, for the heart and the mind must navigate the earthly palace and the heavenly palace simultaneously, so rather than two navigations, I must track four! The astral heart (center), the mundane heart, the astral visual (circumference), and the mundane visual, and finally these two palaces which must be navigated, and I mustn’t confuse the mundane and the astral! 😀

There will be yet another doubling, I’m told, which will be the reconciliation of all of these things in some manner. I express gratitude, the angels acknowledge and say they foreshorten this on account of my responsibilities. “Peace be upon you; know that He governeth all things.”

The vision ends.

Noon: Similar, ritual as Day 2, call to King BLUMAZA and to Governors Ozidaia, PARAOAN, and Calzirg.

I take a 7-7-14 breath. I see several images, but the angels ask me to focus again on the light which shook me earlier during this morning’s session. I see a vertical ring of light, a horizontal ring of light, and then a ring of light which is circular about the x- and y-axes. The last of these is about me, and I’m feeling out, using my heart of compassion as a torch again, coming from this place of compassion again. I see this heart as a pearl again, and it’s vibrating about the y-axis, at times with an axial tilt of about 30 degrees (and then reverting to vertical) which causes a conic section at top to seem to be bored out, but then it seems to not be. I get a sense that this is “the limits of the [heart] sphere to undo anything.” The angels are telling me that if there is some change that needs to happen, there may be some tilt to this degree, but then the entire thing just repolarizes or, if the attempt to create a change isn’t working out, reverses polarities.

The sense that I get is that about the xz plane (e.g., the slightly more than the ecliptic), there isn’t as much need to change or to change perspective.

A frog shows up. After testing, it goes away, so it shouldn’t have been here. The angels are pleased with this. I concentrate on the solids I’ve previously received, including especially the small white sphere. It seems to resist being understood. I see it breaking apart as with slices of an orange and then coming back together. This, the angels tell me, is merely different faces of the same compassion shown, for example, to a zodiacal influence. Even with Venus in fall or exile, they tell me, showing compassion is down to the skill of the magician or sage or realized one to be compassionate.

I’m trying to relax into the vision, and the angels themselves instruct me to relax. The angels ask “What hath God wrought?” Note: this is a reference to Numbers 23:23; “For there is no enchantment with Jacob, neither is there any divination with Israel; now is it said of Jacob and of Israel: ‘What hath God wrought!’.” Ironically, it is also the first Morse code message ever sent, which is to say a means of giving a message which must be interpreted! Nonetheless, I answer plainly, “All things continue to be wrought through Him, and therefore all things are already wrought through him,” which I modify to “All is wrought by Him” (in an attempt to transcend the objectness or nounness).

There’s a shift in my manipura chakra when I say this. The angels again try to twist me, but this time inside out, shifting from me-as-center-and-God/Totality-as-circumference to me-as-circumference-and-God/Totality-as-center, and then back again. The angels try to return me to the “uncollapsed wave function” described in previous scryings. I’m also to see all of these at the heavenly and earthly levels (so we’re at 16 things to be seen simultaneously, if you’re keeping track!). I’m trying to consciously fuse all of this together into a single perspective; the angels declare that this will happen most definitely at the Aethyr of LIL.

I ask if there’s anything else. There’s something of a feeling of a coiling snake (which is often symbolic of kundalini, yet also the ouroboros) about my right ankle (my right foot is on King BLUMAZA’s seal). It coils up and about me, and I feel compelled to push its jaw above my head. Once again we have the Phanes egg of the Orphic Mysteries. They tell me to know the circumference of the snake itself (e.g., the energy of circumference of the Divine, and Its heart, and of oneself, and of one’s heart). The snake eating its tail and starting anew is a reminder of the fallacious concept of death.

Now the snake is literally stretching me apart. The metaphor to stretching the imagination, the energetic body, and so on could not be more obvious, but it’s only at writing this up that I make this connection. This, they tell me explicitly, is to help me be okay with a larger extent of myself. Again, I get the sense of a loss of reputation: “A snake shedding its skin, a snake shedding its skin,” they repeat. I look at the shed scales, and it’s reminding me of husks in Kabbalah. That part of me is already redeemed, I sense: the accomplishment of the True Will is already imminent. The completion of the project is already happening, so I’m not sure I entirely understand this. But it’s like who and what I am needs to be redefined. I’m looking at all of this with compassion. The angels are saying that it’s like the scales will drop from my eyes, in terms of my own circumference, and the circumference of God, and the circumference of All.

I see an equal-armed, which is like the kind of toy with regular white plastic, and then green squishy soft plastic and padding underneath; it’s about the size of my forearm and could be safely played with by a toddler. It has a hole at the center, signifying the heart and relating to the Monas Hieroglyphica. This is like unto the Buddhist deity Tara, the angels say. This is like unto the salvation of Christianity, they tell me, hastening to save humans from their sins and errors such as via the compassion of Buddhism, and there’s this Buddhist-mentality which can rectify the corruption of modern Christianity (I’m only the messenger, people!). I note the slightly lower quality of the transmission, but this is the turn towards the Abyss and then the supernals again, so it is not surprising.

I ask if the angels have anything further, but mention again that I do not wish to be a rude guest. They say “no,” but then show me a baseball diamond, but now seen from above, it is like unto the Masonic compass symbol.

The vision ends.

Sunset: I see a spiral come at me once more. I’m in a cocoonlike section of a twisty energy field, which is narrow except for the part which encompasses me. Rather than twisting as in the previous two visions, it’s stretching out like the spring of a pen from the ends, narrowing it out. This narrowing out is placing my energy field throughout the “circumference” or sphere of the universe.

The angels caution me that this is the point in which individuals can go down a bizarre road (they don’t expect me to, but there’s a reason for the caution). This, they say, is when an individual too wrapped up in petty or narrow ego concerns, or overly obsessed, or deluded as to the relative importance of matters: such a one can get a real sense of identification with the Divine, and thus go into grandiose directions which are not upheld by the totality of all. Whereas others can actually make this shift into the totality of the Divine, and continue to work within the areas which are upheld by all. They say that this takes a subtle mind and I request this as well as discernment and a proper heart and alignment toward all of these things.

The string is stretching me apart, and the angels say that what’s going on right now is the stretching apart of my subtle body into a more universal configuration with the Whole; it’s making its way out to the sphere of the universe (as it were), and God is now at the center, and we flip these perspectives back and forth. Essentially, we are reconciling, returning to an uncertain, uncollapsed quantum state as to Who is at the Center, and Who is at the “Circumference” (lacking a good term for the spherical equivalent of this). The angels say that for any given person, their relationship with God typically puts them at the center and God at the “Circumference” (“How do I relate to God of all?”), but one can also see the Divinity within oneself, and simultaneously extend their ideas of who they are to more and more of the “Circumference.” Both of these things are true at once, they tell me. This is the trick, they say: God is both indwelling within, but also interpenetrating the universe, thus both the center and spherical surface by each of our individual measures.

At the same time, we’re not only this core within, but we’re also the Circumference, and also the rules that determine the measures of these. As we develop into adulthood, this Circumference can seem to get larger, and as we become elderly this Circumference can seem to diminish, but someone who is truly Realized can get this Circumference truly realized with All, as it IS.

This Crowned Wisdom and Crowned Understanding is crucial, but not enough, for there needs to be a shift to the Heart. It’s not a simple thing to say, “Oh, it’s just the Heart, so I can just be loving, and everything will be just fine,” because at the same time, there’s still that pain and hurt by which too many of us have unconsciously defined ourselves. All of that said: what is going on here is a simultaneous process on both fronts (and for which I am profoundly grateful). I could feel this same kind of pull early. As far as Choronzon goes (which has been popping up–here I pause to call on the Governors Ozidaia, PARAOAN, and Calzirg and on King BLUMAZA). Here, again, they mention the black sphere of prior visions. It is spherical, which means it is properly balanced in this frame, so that when for an individual who is unbalanced, this seems like a prison, a black cube. But for one who is balanced, the core of dukkha is suddenly properly contextualized in an excellent system to undo suffering, via a white spherical heart of compassion. This happens both in the mundane world but also within the subtle body. These forces can thus be constrained and redeemed. It may seem scary to the ego, but going through this process, one comes to the core of issue of dukkha, and this torch of compassion cannot ever be snuffed out. The issue is with the mind, not the heart. If the mind put the heart first, the magnetized heart would eventually point the mind in directions which would allow the mind to correct itself, and to gain this transcendent understanding, and to put dukkha in its place and context.

The angels are encourage me to forget the form that all of this will take in the coming years. Instead, acknowledge that the spirit of the change will be understood in the coming weeks, rather than the form itself.

Gebofal, Day 8

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of TOR. Calling on King BOBOGEL as with Day 1.

I’m shown seven dots again, but the angels hint at an eighth. They show me a sphered cube, and seven dots upon that. They slice it in two, and have me look at one of the cross-sections (i.e., a squared circle), which has eight points of intersection. The angels say that it’s important to combine this septenary and octonary nature: they show me the eight dots of a cube, but in taking one away in this formation, the location and need for an eighth is obvious. “As you go through this, you’ll see that the implication for the subsequent inner sphere (following an inward-spiraling pattern), then the seven “dots” of each of the previous days make the 8th, or the start of the next pattern/spheroid, obvious. Now that you’re getting to this next spheroid within the snail shell, as it were, then the next cubed sphere is like a smaller, more intimate version of the heart to be traversed.

I see the German village again, and I see a field, and I see animals approach me, but these seem like distractions that the angels are trying to protect me from. The angels have me concentrate upon this intimate cube, and I force myself to concentrate on the cube itself, not what it will unfold into. This, the angels say, is a good insight: the temptation will be to see to try to see a pattern or an insight and all of its implications, but what’s going on right now is much more intimate. “You can see the crazy-making that this could cause, with one forever chasing one’s tail with these numbers,” and their implications to the ends of the Earth and back again.

Nonetheless, they say, the chasing the tail of with these numbers is important because it makes the circumference of the heart clear. As I concentrate about the sphered cube, there’s a tenderness in my heart chakra, and on the astral I try to slowly and gently push my finger towards that tenderness, and suggested by the black sphere. In so doing, a cartoonish horror opens up from the sphere, but I gently concentrate towards the tenderness some more.

Here is a tiny white sphere, fitting within the palm of my hand, within the larger black sphere (the latter being about four or five feet tall); they say that this white sphere, like unto a pearl, must be held within the black sphere. Recall from a prior vision that the black sphere indicates dukkha. The white sphere, then, indicates the jewel of the Om Mani Padme Hum mantra, the compassion of the Buddha(s), which arises when concentrating upon dukkha. I note a feeling at the nape of my neck, suggesting the Abyss, so I concentrate some more. This is what the taijitu (“yin-yang”) symbol within the larger symbol (see yesterday’s scrying session) represents. Again, I’m told to remember the heart and the sun, and the potential for Saturn to take you in crazy-making directions. Yet both are important, for without either the ring or the center, the circle cannot be fully understood.

I’m reminded of an egg-protection physics experiment from high school–I created a cubical wireframe that had to be dropped from the first story of the high school: fun times. At any rate, I’m reflecting on how tender the egg was, and on Dee’s egg in Theorem XVIII of the Monas Hieroglyphica. For whatever reason, he put the moon and Mercury in the “white” of the egg, and the sun, Venus, and Mars in the yolk. Here, I think Dee was having a hard time reconciling himself with the moon, though earlier he lauded it. Note that the Orphic Egg is suggested by Dee’s work here, in addition to the Aesop fable.

The point is, the egg is a tender thing (for this reason, I’d put the sun, moon, and Mercury there, but Dee was clearly ranking the planets according to speed of motion). The tenderness of the heart can be thought of here. Within a person, the yolk is like the innermost heart of a person, trying to reconcile itself with reality, trying to constantly reconcile itself with circumstance and maintain homeostasis. It’s like the heart knows, but the mind is rebelling! The mind is looking to the outside instead of to the heart.

The eggshell, its white, and its yolk are like the sanctum of the heart, with Christ as the shell, the white as the Holy Spirit, and the yolk like the Creator. The egg is within our heart, and can be highly armored. The tendency of the heart is to try to protect the egg, but it’s important to inspect and ultimately unfold, however briefly, the harsh cubical armor. I see a triplicity of cubes, of the egg, and this happening in three dimensions, so this can be thought of as a Nonary.

The angels summarize: the seven can lead to the eight, and it’s important to see both the circumference and the ultimate heart, and to reconcile the two.

The vision ends. Happy Easter.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I place my right foot & left hand on King Bobogel’s seal & Leaf 42a, respectively, and a lot of energy seems to be coming off of them. My left foot, which is unoccupied, has energy coming up off of it. I do a 7-7-14 breath. On the 14-count exhalation, it seems as if there’s some energy exhaled about me, and the angels point at the idea of taking things into one’s center and releasing it out to the circumference. For us humans, we have no idea how our release of things will interact with the world, so this is problematic, so the point is to merely allow our actions to have unintended effects and to still act, and allow the effects of our release to come at us in unexpected ways. The circumference of the sphere happens in unexpected ways.

Palaces/Hekhalot: I see a palace in the sky, and the angels affirm: yes, we’re going to start a Hekhalot working. I focus on “the center” as the angels lift me into the heavenly palaces. The angels mention that this will be “like unto,” though not exactly the same, as reaching the center of existence. The angels are previewing, once again, reaching the center (on Day 49). I look back on Earth below me, and I see a palace in the center of a palace on Earth; “the palace,” I’m told, is both things. I’m being shown that the metaphorical circumference of understanding can be roughly considered to be the edge of the known universe, but that itself is often the center of our scientific focus. So not only is the Earth the center of our focus when we protrude outwards with our minds and situate it at the center of our understanding, when focusing outwards to the edge of the known universe, we try to understand Earth comparatively, and thus put the Earth at the (comparative and metaphorical) circumference of our minds. I’m told that any contemplation implies both the metaphorical sphere and its center, but also an inversion of these. There’s a metaphorical uncollapsed wave function to ideas, which simultaneously contains the extent (circumference or sphere) of an idea and its center, and they are sort of both each other simultaneously. Everybody got that?

So now it gets even more fun: I’m seeing one palace out of each eye! The left eye sees the palace at the center of the Earth, the right eye its counterpart in Heaven. In the earthly palace, I’m seeing a churning and a rotation of fire and lava–note that this is explicitly not hell, but perhaps can be thought of Iurehoh, or “what Christ did in hell,” perhaps reflecting the current astrological influence of fiery Aries, with the sun now closing in on its exaltation degree and Venus nearly at the same. I’m told that what Christ did was liberate people from ignorance, which was an active thing. Dee was very focused on the fiery Areyan aspect of the Monas Hieroglyphica.

In my right eye, I see the heavenly palace, which is light, but muted, colors: creams and grays and pale blue. The structure of what I’m seeing is identical, but the context is totally different. This looks like playing a video game when the skin of a structure from a previous location you’ve visited has changed for the post-explosion fight or something like that. The walls and obstacles are functionally is the same, but the context is different.

I reflect on the idea of heaven being, to speak in coding terms, a “future state” counterpart to a terrestrial “current state.” It’s like these two things are overlaid with each other–we rarely want a 100% change, we usually want a slight change from where we are, and if we get it, we then plan out only minor changes. This is kind of what I’m seeing. I’m within a church or temple section of both palaces, which is at the center of the palaces. I get to the pulpit area, and get levitated up here. The issue, I’m told, is that such means very different things in the heavenly palace vs. the earthly. Earth has its molten core, but I’m told not to consider this infernal or hellish, but rather the core or exemplar of the terrestrial state. The celestial version of this is about seeing the core of all possibilities.

The heart must speak to both, I’m told. Someone must both be able to see the present-state reality for what it is (suggested by the Earth palace), and yet at the same time see all possibilities within that, or parallel to that, and that will show the Tao. This is the yin and the yang principles simultaneously, I’m told. Now they mention that the rainbow body is like imagining the light principle of heaven being scattered about appropriately, as with a clear prism–but doing so appropriately, intelligently, and of the heart. I’m told by King BOBOGEL that the reason I’m really liking this is due to my chart ruler being the sun, and its ruler being in Aries.

Torch: The angels show me a torch: I need to keep my hand about the torch, which continues to light up the heart, even as everything comes at me to disrupt it or disturb it or make it seem as if it’s gone out as I approach the Abyss once more. It’s not gone out. It’s like the torch of the Statue of Liberty (problematic symbolism given current events aside) which is held by a copper figure, with the copper of Venus holding the fiery flame of the sun and of Mars.

The Lotus and the Pearl: I see now an obsidian disc (I used to have one, but gave it away). It turns into a set-sized horizontal leaves of a lotus flower, but obsidian. Each successive set of leaves is progressively lighter, and at the center, once again, is the white sphere or jewel/pearl of Om Mani Padme Hum. I’m offered it, but, I’m told, this is what I need to identify with and eventually become (the light side of “Sylvester and the Magic Pebble“).

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure, with both hands in the prayer position on the leaf, which will by my standard evening practice.

I’m shown 8 dots, which are on a sphered cube, but the cube turns into a tesseract which is “hypersphered.” They tell me that I don’t need to count the points of contact, but they’re advising me that the heart of compassion will hit levels that my mind is unaware of. There must be a divide between the mind and the heart. The heart will have a preternatural awareness that the mind simply cannot know. It’s not upon me to understand completely, but to simply bear witness, weigh in the heart, and to make my way with the heart as my guide, following the wu wei, “waying the way which cannot be wayed.”

The angels draw my attention to the very core of this, a tiny point. This can be considered the center of each human heart center, and that normally, we would consider networks to be made up of lines, but of the heart, we speak of curves, which oftentimes go around something quite large. This could be people separated not only by space and time, but also by ideology, religion, prejudice, or the like. These curves, they show me, are like unto a dragon. This dragon which connects people are like the light side of the dragon concept, such as Falkor from The Neverending Story, for people go to great lengths to connect at the heart level.

I’m shown a picture of myself as a boy, and a dragon about my heart. Traumatic events can cause dragons to encircle the heart, so it’s not so much armor but a dragon, like with Phanes about the egg in the Orphic mysteries.

If I search into the heart of the dragon, the dragon itself starts looking like a snake, and it’s like someone who begins to consume or identify with the heart of the snake itself. They become lost, either permanently (as far as this life is concerned) or temporarily. It’s kind of a primal thing, but yet there’s still some resonance with the heart of a person and the heart of a snake; one can slingshot about this condition, much as I did, they remind me.

I’m feeling more warm from the front of Leaf 42; I’m being told that now that there are no additional letters either on or facing this page (i.e., every other letter is missing), I’m going to notice more of a ZAX/Abyssal kind of energy. I’m reminded to bring the torch and light to me. It may seem worse, as I go along, but to maintain this heart of compassion and my faith. The heart of compassion is even within the heart of a snake, they tell me.