Scrying the “Inner Aethyr” of TRATOMB

Enochian is an interesting practice because there are many suggestions that it’s intended to be expanded from the source material of John Dee’s diaries. First, it embodies the idea of continuous revelation, which is to say that the Divine continues to reveal itself to us, because Dee and Edward Kelley literally petitioned God for knowledge, understanding, wisdom, etc. Second, because it’s been reconstructed from lost material, we have to make do with the information that we have and fill in the gaps in the material. Third, there are times in the source material itself that the angels hint at additional material, such as the 30 additional Parts of Earth (for a total of 121, or 11 squared) or the hints that a different Holy Table may be ultimately used, which differs from the original one received.

So it was that I found myself looking at the notes on my phone that I took when creating the Book of Silvered Leaves: a 31st “inner” Aethyr that I just forgot about (LOL–remember to take notes, kids!) by the name of TRATOMB. Unlike the first 30 Aethyrs, this one’s name is seven letters long, which means that all the letters in these Aethyrs (so far) total 97. This is an interesting parallel to me between the Book of Silvered Leaves (96 leaves across 48 pages) and the Book Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (commonly known as Liber Loagaeth, which is 98 leaves across 49 pages–though there are 101 tables in all on it).

I recently scried this Aethyr and the pertinent parts from the vision are below:

I began by seeing four separate circles in a row, with the 3rd one offset downward, reminding me of the dip in a ladle. The four circles seemed like the Tetragrammaton to me. Then they arranged themselves as the base of a square pyramid (a symbol which appeared to me during my reconstructed gebofal ritual). They then told me to imagine these five points as a 5-cell rather than a square pyramid.

Next, I saw eight circles at the points of a cube. The circles then continued to increase according to the Fibonacci sequence. I reflected on how adding or subtracting 1 to elements of the Enochian system got you interesting results: 4 watchtowers plus one gets you 5, the fifth Fibonacci integer; the seven kings of the Heptarchia plus the one king over them (Carmara) gets you to 8, the sixth Fibonacci integer. 12 zodiacal kings plus one gets you 13, the seventh Fibonacci integer (Carmara has noted to me that, as Marmara, he also is the high king over the zodiacal kings); note that the dimensions of the watchtowers are 12 by 13. The 21 letters of the Enochian alphabet themselves are the eighth Fibonacci integer, and adding 1 comes to 22, the number of letters in the Hebrew alphabet.

When it comes to reversals (the angels liked to reverse things, quoting Christ in Matthew, and numbers are no exception), 13 is the reverse of 31 (the Gematria value of one Hebrew name for God, El), 21 is the reverse of 12 (the number of apostles, tribes of Israel, signs of the zodiac, etc.).

At this point in the vision, I made an odd error–I added 21 to 8, not 13. I say that this is odd because I very rarely make arithmetic errors or mathematical errors in general (you’ll just have to take my word for it). At any rate, this led me to 29, which is an important Enochian number (see my summary of the number 29 as part of a larger analysis; a possibly easier to read summary, which follows from a more general introduction to Enochian, can be found in my Telicom article reprint). From here I added this to 21 and got 50, which is of course important in Gematria. This got me thinking about a potential alternatives to Fibonacci: 1,1,2,3,5,7 (5+2),12,19,31,50,81,112 (81+31–112 is the original number of letters in the vision given to Edward Kelley for Leaf 49)–every 6th number adds the previous number with the number two places back (rather than one).

Next, the angels pointed to the need to both add and subtract 1; subtracting from 4, you get 3, the number of points need to make a plane (note that Galvah mentioned “The Mystery of the Trinity”). 4 itself is the minimum number of points for the simplest 3D solid, a tetrahedron, while 5 is the minimum number for a hyperspace object, the aforementioned 5-cell. From 8, you can subtract to 7 (the septenary nature of Enochian), or up to 9, the trinity squared. From 13 (Christ and the apostles, Israel and his sons) you can go down to 12 or up to 14 (the number of kings and princes in the Heptarchy). From 21, you can go down to 20–half of 40 (cells in the outer ring of the Sigillum Dei Aemeth, Christ’s days in the desert, Noah’s days on the ark), or up to 22 as mentioned above. From 29 you can go down to 28 (Enochian’s 7 times the 4 watchtowers) or up to 30 (the number of Aethyrs received by Dee, the number of degrees in each sign of the zodiac). Ultimately the angels told me to look up the geometry, which is mostly done here–leave a comment if you find more interesting geometrical parallels.

Next the angels show me a light and a fractal pattern, then a golden ratio, but the angels are specific that I ought to think of this more as a fractal pattern. The golden ratio is an irregular number which converges after a long series, whereas a fractal pattern is regular from the beginning; “As above, so below, and as below, so above.” The angels show me that the light is coming through in this vision, and shows me my “point” along this fractal pattern, and show me that within, the pattern continues in a shrinking fashion, and without, it continues in a growing fashion. It’s up to the heart to rectify itself to the fractal of divinity, to “get out of its stupor” (misalignment of consciousness from the Divine).

When we move ourselves into the clear-light consciousness, because the “outer” world is not yet rectified with the Divine, there is the “skew” that CodyP has talked about, which slightly misaligns us once more out of the fractal of the Divine. The nature of the “Great Work” is to do the difficult thing of compensating for the dynamic skew. I ask, “How do I do this for myself? What is it that keeps me here?” The Divine answers, “It’s partly karma”–in the sense of how every seeker must undo a lot in their ecosystem. Because of the karma, we overly identify with the karma. We need to release ourselves from this thinking, and allow the fact that it’s going to take time. The Divine does what he can, knocking out some obstacles in my head, heart, and in the rest of my system. The Divine repeats to “just be patient, just do the work, just keep doing the work: that’s all you ever need to do,” and laughs gently. The Divine shows me one part in particular with respect to a major recent event in my life, he knocks the obstacle in my heart out there, too–allowing a greater freedom within these circumstances.

I see a large sphere that is being held by a space taken up by a cone, or more precisely a line that is rotating about an axis to create a cone. The xy-axis is not quite able to spin at the appropriate rate for the sphere to stay in the same level; this is a metaphor for the heart not being able to stay in the clear light. How does the heart compensate for this? It needs to find the bias within that is reflected in the bias without and somehow compensate for it. Part of it is working through the “unreality” or misconception or “lower-level” thinking that happens when one tries to armor the heart against the outside world. One also needs to compensate for the fact that not everyone else has done that yet and to allow for that. In that allowing and in that constant work of compassion and wisdom–yet not identifying with or craving a particular end-result of that compassion and wisdom–just allowing one’s heart to be in that space. Wisdom essentially allows one to be as effective as possible at one’s compassion, but the highest wisdom is not getting caught up in the particular results.

The vision ends and I feel very uplifted.

Experiencing Enochian Aethyrs

It would be foolish to talk about a singular experience of scrying an Enochian Aethyr, but I have offered free scrying sessions, both in person and via teleconference, for the lower Aethyrs, as well as having scried all of the Aethyrs at least twice (and the highest one several times). Here some general observations of what I and others have experienced during an Enochian scrying session:

Lower Aethyrs
  • A sense of peace: For beginners, and during the lower Aethyrs especially, there tends to be a sense of peace that comes.
  • Warmth: Some people experience physical warmth, such as on the side of one’s face.
  • Geometry: Interestingly, even for those with aphantasia, visions with geometry tend to arise.
  • Collective visions: It’s quite common for elements from one person’s vision to be repeated in another’s when there’s a group scrying.

Middle Aethyrs: (Note: The following qualities are the reason why going through therapy with a good (and accepting) therapist during the process of scrying the Aethyrs is recommend; also, these are mainly taken from my own experience):

  • Continued geometry
  • Visions of undoing: Depending on how closely one holds to illusory narratives of oneself, visions of undoing, perhaps in violent imagery, may arise.
  • Feelings of loopiness“: This tends to occur during higher Aethyrs; raw emotion and more difficulty managing them during the vision may happen.

Higher Aethyrs:

  • Progressive sense of peace
  • Balancing of projective/yang (unfortunately, often referred to as “masculine”) and receptive/yin visions in the visions from ZIP to LIT.
  • Progressively spherical visions: For the remaining visions, I noticed visions seemed to go from merely stellated to more and more spherical visions, culminating in the highly spherical vision of LIL.

That’s all for now.

Squaring the Square to Reach the Root of the Circle: Reflections on the Watchtower Powers and Gebofal

See update at bottom:

One of the things that has stuck with me since yesterday (Day 37) of the gebofal(-like) ritual is the implications of the various angel “sets,” and how this relates back to the idea of squaring the circle from Days 33 and 34. With four elements and eight different angelic powers per element, and four angels per power and two controlling names of God per power…this gets complicated.

I’ve decided to reduce this largely to the powers and only exploring a single element of fire. Below is a diagram to help illustrate what I’m talking about; the colors are not completed but it’s sufficient:

A squared circle (roughly equal area, as this was done freehand); inscribed within the square is another square rotated at 45 degrees. There are six squares in all like this, with a rotation by 45 degrees for each square. Inscribed within the innermost square (which is rotated as a diamond) is another circle, and an equilateral triangle inscribed within that. The circle itself is quartered by an X, with each limb of the X shown by color (red, white, green, and black). Shown along the fire limb of the X (this could also be shown with any or all of the elements; the fire axis alone is only shown for the sake of simplicity) are four red squares.

Here, I have shown the powers roughly related to the fire quadrant; the order so much doesn’t matter to me, but rather a suggestion of an idea that the kerubs and “lesser” angels exist somewhere within these circles, corresponding roughly to the areas of the numbers 1 through 8 (only 1-4 are shown due to space constraints). I have created square ABCD to indicate an overlap between the powers of 1, 2, 3, & 4 (again, the order doesn’t matter so much to me, because such hasn’t been the order as they’ve arrived, but in this case Living Creatures, Transportation, Gold and Precious Stones, and Medicine).

The key point I want to make is that, regardless of the actual order, my conjecture is that the seniors occupy segments EF, FG, and, not shown, GJ, connecting these overlapping squares. The king would occupy the entire upper-left quadrant (this would require a cross which would make the diagram too busy, but use your imagination). I’ll also note that this roughly overlaps with the symbolism received during the vision:

Early iteration of the symbol: A taijitu with out accompanying inner dots, a Christian cross at its center, a diamond with indented sides about it, and a spiral about it.

The spiral here indicates the work that I’ve been doing to get at the center, and overlays well with the symbolic representation of the Watchtower tablets. The trinary nature of this is further symbolized by adding the pyramid and octahedron:

Later iteration of the symbol.

And finally, a later iteration suggesting the grounding of the symbol within earth:

Final iteration of symbol.

This was later expanded on Day 30.

I am still not entirely clear on the purpose of the triangular portion; I have considered a model of “inside-outside-union” or “God-person-earth” or “Heaven/Future state-Becoming-Earth/Present state”; none of this is clear and I leave it to the rest of gebofal for it to become clear. Nonetheless, the geometry and symbolism continues to hold my focus.

Finally, I wanted to note the general thrust or spirit behind the forms of the powers of the angels:

Transformation: energy/matter qualia change for perception
Transportation: distinction of spacetime for perception
Gold & Precious stones: single-pointed focus of perception
Living: creates ability to perceive
Medicine: agency to continue perception
Secret Discovery: arrangement of perception
Mechanical Arts: arrangement of matter/energy
Natural substances: perception of differences within matter (qualia)
Seniors (“to impart or influence, knowledge and judgment in human affairs”): rules distinguishing perception across perceivers (this includes necessary changes to matter and energy to do so).

Update: So it occurred to me that there are six seniors per element, not three. One could make the argument that there are three seniors going from the outer square to the inner, and then three returning, which is to say EF to FG to GJ (or whatever that final letter should have been: man, I lose track of my own system when I do rush jobs!) and then back again: JG to GF to FE. This implies directionality, and I’m unsure about this.

Another possibility seems more likely: factorial math, where 3! is the number of connections. In the example above, suppose the common point is of square ABCD and the subsequent square with F as its center (yes, I really should’ve set that up better!) is point D (which for the next square would be in the upper-left corner). The next square we’ll label DXYZ (because I have to start at the back of the alphabet now!), the next we’ll label YUVW, and the innermost we’ll label VRST. This would leave three common points—D, Y, V, and S—across four squares per element (recall that I could only show three squares due to space constraints!), representing all four combinations of power dyads. Thus, rather than the centers, we consider this in terms of common points, which themselves connect to each other as six seniors, represented as DY, DV, DS, YV, YS, and VS.

One could take this step further and imagine these six seniors as six points of an octahedron, connecting the more visible angels, each of which occupies a triangle representing a power. Yet there are four angels per power, and two names of God controlling each set of four! For the former, the only thing I can think of is that each Angel set is divided evenly into four equilateral triangles. For the latter, I think about the duality of regular polyhedra (credit to Tilman Piesk), and the dual of the octahedron is the cube, which can be diced into eight smaller cubes, each of which has a point most external to the center, and has the common center among them. Each of the names of God controlling these sets of four angels can be represented as the outermost and innermost points of the smaller cube.

Gebofal, Day 34

Sunrise: Vibrated the title of leaf 16b. Call to Heptarchical King Baligon. Call/Key 16, (because it’s the 15th spoken call, most practitioners refer to this as call 15). Call to Left foot placed on the seal of King Baligon (over the fire & earth tablets) as a final test of the scheme. Vibrated, in turn, Governor Abriond, Zodiacal King Cadaamp, and King Baligon (seven times each–this is how many times I do so for the preceding calls, sorry for noting this stuff after the fact). After these, the energy from the air tablet was obvious, so I moved the other tablets out of the way and placed the seal atop the air tablet and then both feet upon the seal and tablet. I then vibrated the God-names of MOR, DIAL, and HCTGA, seven times each–update this should be MPH ARSL GAIOL based on the Tabula Recensa. I changed my original approach based on incomplete information from an otherwise reliable source–or I just read them wrong lol).

King Baligon just has me breathe easily. He says he knows it’s been a lot, and kind of confusing, because I’ve been getting these lessons piecemeal, whereas in the Aethyrs it’s more of a stepwise process. Here, it’s been more like, “Here’s this chunk, here’s this other chunk,” etc. These are all roots, he reminds me: roots to the issues of the heart.

He takes me into the clouds, into the air, and he has me observe for just a moment the sphere about the earth, the aerial sphere (i.e., the atmosphere). He notes that something like this same sphere is what I will see when all of these powers are steadied within me. “Just note,” he encourages: “there’s something so beautiful about just having fresh air,” and I reply, “Oh yes! This is something that I took for granted for far too long!”

King Baligon muses, “The nice thing about air is that it conducts sound. People can hear, and they can hear music, and nothing else compares to music. It’s beautiful, it lifts up the soul, and it’s wonderful. The issue with music is that it’s this grand communication, and even when you make these calls,” he says, “you are reading. You are looking, so that’s the fiery part, but you are also speaking, you’re converting that. The energy of conversion is itself fire, but the sound itself, and the way it hits the ears: all of that is conducted through air.

“Let’s ponder what air does,” he suggests. “Air[, like water,] also dissolves, but only to a degree. The main thing that air does is convey, usually not particles so much, but waves. So we have this wave-particle duality, and much of the energy transmitted by fire is of a wave-like nature,” so he notes that I was pondering the discussion of electromagnetism, and how I was concerned about weak force vs. strong force. “Weak force,” he reminds me, “is associated with air, electromagnetism with fire.” Electromagnetism, he says, really is the big one when it comes to this wave-like issue, and air(/weak force) is also like this (note this is unclear to me).

“When you think about a transfer of air, there is a great cycle here on Terra” King Baligon mentions (note: I’m substituting “Terra” for “Earth” throughout this post to avoid confusion with elemental earth), “but it’s very subtle. The plants do their thing, the animals and fungi do their thing, humans and animals do their thing, and so on, but of interest here is the fact that it all comes into one thing. This is not unlike water.”

I interject politely to ask how this relates to points [in geometry]. “Here we have the concept of a–it’s a bit more harmonious, so hence why Venus is here. But it’s more of a harmonious occupation of a space filled with points. So Saturn is happy here because agreement can be reached, like it or not, across the various points.” I interject again: “I’m really hoping for a profound insight, as best I can.”

King Baligon takes my request well, and says, “Let’s get to it.” He goes through a few visual examples, but we settle on first, the picture of wind blowing a wind turbine. He notes that on Terra, most of the winds are caused by the uneven heating of Terra. “And you’ll see that: first of all, air requires an open space to do its magic. However, it can be compressed and studied, and can turn fetid and putrid in the event of air being locked in a closed system, so it prefers openness. So, openness, when you think of a [mathematical] field,” and I’m shown a mathematical grid upon a black background for simplicity, “and you think of openness, you think of this air upon it in an open field.” He takes me to a view of the grid. “What air can do is go anywhere, and how fast it goes depends largely upon the amount of energy [elemental fire], but it wants to go everywhere. It wants to go into water and can dissolve into it. It can go into fire as a flame, feeding it that way. It can go faster or slower, depending upon the amount of energy.

“Most specifically,” he emphasizes, “what air does is it can clear out, but it can also bring in. So, usually, on this planet, it can clear out pollution and smoke from, say, a campfire, and it can also bring in fresh air from trees and such. But both the ancient and medieval thinkers were concerned with fetid air, and the need for fresh air: and all of this was true! The quality of the air matters. And so, that’s why pollution is such a big deal, because air [on this planet] has limits in its ability to carry the bad things away, because it’s not, strictly speaking, completely open [over a short length of time], and it cannot, on its own, completely undo the nature of that which has been entered into it. Same thing for water,” he remarks.

I ask, “What else about air?” King Baligon replies, “Note that the transfer of air tends to happen not with earth, but within water,” hence why Venus is exalted in the water sign of Pisces, because Venus (ruler of Libra) can dissolve into it very well. Nonetheless, Venus also rules Taurus. It’s happy there for a different reason. In Libran air, Venus is happy because of the free flowing of points, the balance of points: the fact that air will naturally undo vacua, and each point will flow to wherever it is already going to flow, absent outside interference. “It’s just going to go where it’s going to go. This is a simple lesson!” he cries, kiddingly.

“Okay!” I cry back. Is there anything else he has to show me? “No, this will be a much shorter series of visions.” I thank him and thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I feel energy come up off the tablet, now the seal, and now off of the leaf of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), and to some degree the table. The angels are bidding me to chill out. Now King Baligon bids me take his hand, extended from a cloud, and we’re in the air again.

“Let’s take each of these [air astrological signs] in turn,” he cuts right to it. “So what does Gemini do? Gemini, the twins: it is communication, it is the circulation of air and sound. This is how it is best thought of.” He makes an aside, “We may even go in reverse [zodiacal] order.”

King Baligon continues: “But it is the circulation air: it goes from one source and goes to another, and then returns back, and then back, and forth. This could be a bigger cycle, from A to B to C and ultimately to Z, and then back to A again: or A to Z and then reversing that pattern. This is the returning of the air, the spreading out of the air: the point which, again, is in an open field, but here we have the tendency of air, it can go anywhere! and so it may return to the same spot. This is air: this is how these points manifest.

“Looking at Aquarius,” King Baligon transitions, “the easiest way to think about this, obviously, is what we have right now: fixed air (i.e., air fixed by mask and PPE use), fixed ideas, and, oftentimes the reality or actualization of that idea, that which needs to be communicated, does not match the ideal, and so it is very depressing to the individual. Hence, they often just want to walk away from people,” he chuckles. I’ll note that I saw a meme of this earlier this year on AstroTwitter, which essentially was someone saying to an Aquarius, “Hey, you’re my best friend.” The friend approaches the Aquarius, who reciprocates the expression of friendship. Then, inexplicably, the Aquarius walks away. It’s like, “What?” So the closeness is one of ideas, and the air of Aquarius tends to want to just stay in one spot. So it’s not necessarily fetid air, but it could be like that, but the sign is ruled by Saturn, so you could have these stuck ideas which do not want to change. On the lighter side, it could be like a sealed capsule (like a space capsule or a submarine) of fixed air which goes into outer space or into the depths of the ocean. The air is sealed within, and the submariner or astronaut has enough time to live in that capsule–similar to the “castles in the sky” idea put forward, again, by Austin Coppock–for some time, and then come back down and report whatever there is to communicate. Such a person would do that because the goal of that (in the case of scientific submarines! and space missions) was science, which was to see what could be communicated via such means.

Finally, we have Libra. Libra is a difficult one for me, King Baligon tells me: it’s my third house, hence the house of Goddess, but Venus, the ruler of the 3rd house, is in the 9th house, the house of God. What I’m told is that at its ideal, it balances, and you see that even with someone like Stephanie Miller, whom I have listened to. She is a Libra sun in a day chart; she did have more of a team-like energy about her, circulating communication about her team, a Venusian balance of harmony (yet she maintains pointed political critiques). Generally speaking, the tone of her show is pleasant, and even if it can’t be pleasant, well, at least let’s make some jokes about it, and the angels remind me that cynical Saturn tends to have a cold and dry wit in response to the things going wrong, and is exalted in Libra.

I try to concentrate into this, and King Baligon says, “Let’s take a deeper look at Libra, which means ‘scales.’ We see this in relationships, right? This is the creative use of air: wind blowing one way here, and another way here in order for harmony. Harmony is a key signification of Libra, and what do you think of when you think of with music. It is the harmony–the collection of sounds, in such a way that the air moves. It communicates sounds that way, via sound waves. So we have communication (Gemini), the fixity of what is communicated (hence, “castles in the sky”), and, finally, we have the creative impulse of Libra, to either create harmony of the thoughts and communications of people (groups of friends, for example), or we have music itself.”

The angels ask me to concentrate on this, and actually the sense I’m getting–King Baligon, who I now see in classic medieval angelic form (with wings), he’s saying that the thing I’m seeing now is that I have completed this first round about the elements, so it will be completely finished tonight. However, because I’m more than halfway done with this round so he wants to let me know: “Yes, so the issue with getting at the square root of the circle:” (see yesterday’s post) “the problem is similar to getting at the square of the circle” (squaring the circle).

King Baligon illuminates me: “The square root of the number of degrees of the circumference [plus one for the center]”–361–“is 19; in order to square the circle, however, you need to take the square root of Ï€ (the side length of the square). You see how you need to get at the root of the circle (or the irrational transformative constant of the circle), in order to square the circle. But in order to get at the square root of that circle, you need to get at the squaring of the square (a square of side length 1 has a perimeter of 4, and squaring that length leads to a perimeter (and area) of 16, the number of elemental watchtower calls). Add this to the “mystery of the trinity” spoken of by the angel Galvah: this can be derived by multiplying a diameter of 19 times Ï€ = 59.7 ≈ 60 by rounding, the number of degrees of an equilateral triangle. Furthermore, going on to inscribe an equilateral triangle within this circle gives the triangle a side length of 9.5 * √3 = 16.45 ≈ 16 by rounding, to each of three sides (16,3,361: “the last shall be first; and the first, last“); again the same number of watchtower calls, with three remaining.

Everything I said yesterday, he’s giving me a huge clap, because I was saying everything, but now it’s clear the way that everything is lining up. He says, “You need to get that exaltation in Libra [symbolized by the squaring of the circle] in order to do so, so that all of the ideas can come together in harmony.”

I’m very pleased with all of this. I thank the angels and the Divine. The angels add: “Tonight, it’s going to be a little different, but you’re going to get the sense of the air about an individual and their aura, but you’ll also start to see into and get a preview into the actual thoughts and communications that are going on, and several things will become clear to you at once. The correspondence of the classical elements to each of the universal forces: that will be one. The correspondence of the classical elements to the usual suspects (astrology, etc.), and finally this will happen not only with an individual whom you’re encountering but also within a group dynamic. It will be a massive change.”

King Baligon is just giving me a lot of love and warm feeling right now, just so that my heart will be ready for this, so I’m expressing gratitude, but I notice a little bit of a lamprey like monster, and King Baligon says, “This is it: you’re getting into the thorns. They are not about you as opposed to you holding the thorns.” I say, “OK,” and express further gratitude.

“This is the beginning of digestion, so do not worry: you’re just being digested now for the rest of this process. The end is imminent.”

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I feel a whole-body buzz at the arrival of King Baligon. He notes the breath of fresh air. He says to consider “someone who has music in their soul or their heart.” Describing someone this way is to say that they have found their harmony with themselves and with the universe that they did not have before. “And so, with this: consider what it means to receive air from another, and what it means to take air from another. When we say that ‘air has been taken out of the lungs’: a freedom has been lost, an openness has been lost.” (Note: or even that one has lost one’s spirit!). “Being ‘free to fly the friendly skies’ means there is no limit to where one can go.

“Very simple expressions,” King Baligon remarks, “but they serve a point here. So, ideally, because of this competition for the same air,” (i.e., freedom within a given, otherwise-open area), “agreements must be reached. One person wants the freedom to take money from another person, but that other person says, ‘Well, I will, if…’. It has to go beyond mere ‘Let’s talk about this,’ because you begin talking about the idea of it, with Gemini, and you develop a sense of harmony that could be reached if you work together,” (as with Venus in Libra), “and then that harmony must be enforced by agreements such as with Saturn” (in Libra), “but also, these agreements are informed by what an ideal actualization of an idea may be,” (Aquarius), “and then it’s never going to live up to that, with a very strong Saturn. Or, one learns to accept [something] close enough to one’s ideal.

“So that’s what it means. So when one is providing air, one is perhaps giving the idea, or the ability, the freedom of communication to speak about things that perhaps they did not dare speak, and in speaking about something, one is allowing for the elaboration of these points. In other words, when air is compressed, or not allowed the freedom to move about,” and here King Baligon cautions that this is slightly different from Aquarian fixed air, but we will return to this idea. “This is an uncirculated air that just sits and doesn’t circulate. Consider this in relation to the heart: if the air is sitting, if this tendency of the heart to want to move about openly, in ways that speak to it, but is not able to: then suddenly it becomes constricted, and it seeks smaller and smaller avenues with which to move. It seeks to find the openness, and finding little or none, its dreams tend to die out. Its view of what is possible tends to die out. The geometry collapses, or even if it doesn’t collapse, it becomes rather dull,” (like a balloon which only expands on a fourth of its surface, unable to measure correctly to the center from the circumference).

“It doesn’t make connections among other points,” King Baligon adds, sadly, “because, though it moves, the limitation of a point that cannot reach out and make a connection with another point is problematic. So, the problem is that the relationships or connections between other points (such as those with another person or from one idea to another) are lost, or are not made [to begin with]. That’s ultimately the issue there. Similarly, with restricted air when it comes to Libra, connections are lost: this time not between ideas, necessarily but points and systems between people, or as someone’s ideas about whether they are allowed to relate and their own behavior.

“And finally,” King Baligon wraps up the air trio, “when it comes to Aquarius, when air is restricted or limited or lacking, then a person’s ability to create an idea about how things ought to be, how rules ought to be, become restricted. Those become thoughtcrime,” King Baligon concludes.

I ask whether there be anything else, and he says no, because the introduction of air is merely the reverse of all of these. Someone who has too much of this maybe gets a little too focused on the ideas of freedom, or where one can go or what one can do, and it just becomes a lot of ideas: a lot of ideas about doing something, and then never doing it, and that’s a problem, and this is where the introduction of [elemental] earth could be helpful.

King Baligon says that’s it. “Good job! No hints as far as tomorrow” (when King Bnapsen of Saturn does not line up well with the sign of Water, which means either he will have poorer dignity or the associated tablets of the next four days will follow a different pattern), but to indeed call King Bnapsen.

Once again, I’m so grateful to the angels for this, and thus ends the vision.

Gebofal, Day 33

Sunrise: Call/Key 17, (because it’s the 16th spoken call, and the first call is “not to be spoken” practitioners usually refer to this as Call 16). Call to King Bynepor (Chesed/Jupiter). Call to zodiacal King Zinggen & Governor Lexarph of the Aethyr of ZAX because the call in the previous sentence refers to 8763, and the closest number of servient angels is 8880 from this zodical-king/Governor/Aethyr row. Because I feel energy coming off of the fire tablet, I dispense with the other three and place both feet upon that tablet. I also vibrate the God Names “ORO,” “IBAH,” and “AOZPI.”

King Bynepor comes to me, looking very massive. I begin by apologizing for not maintaining my level of compassion over the last few days, and that I’ll try to keep it up over the next few days. He says that that is fine and tells me to go with him. We are whisked away and taken to the sun. He rhetorically asks why we are at the sun: surely not because he is the king of the sun, but because, he says, this is where we will discuss heat, heat and fire. “Fire in particular,” he says: “consider what happens with fire. Fire is this grand separating action. It is ultimately [a conversion of] energy. The thing about energy is that it can either cause a transformation or a transmutation, and this is why he (King Bynepor) is exalted so much above the other kings.

He notes that even within the planet Jupiter (and he takes me there briefly), how some degree of fusion occurs (note: here is the first link and here is the second link which suggest some small degree of deuterium fusion may be occurring, but of course brown dwarfs are where larger fusion takes place). He takes me back to the sun, however, for this is where the energy is highest, and he notes some of the effects: there is light, there is heat, there is a fundamental transformation that can be made to atoms.

Now King Bynepor takes me to a chemical reaction, and he says, “Note how these chemicals,” and here he takes me to an endothermic reaction, “note how the energy in here causes these chemicals to be rearranged, and to have completely different properties to the observer.” He also notes that for an exothermic reaction, the same thing happens: you still need to meet a threshold of energy, it’s just that more energy is given off. He says that for endothermic reactions, one generally tends to trade energy for information or greater complexity.

This is the boon of Jupiter, for information tends to be more valuable, because it is highly transformative. People who are going about their day, putting in information, trying to get information out: the reason why this can be matter of political ascendancy, wealth, or sudden boons, is that the energy put in by somebody can suddenly lead to a change in state or arrangement that is suddenly discovered to be highly valuable. “This is why fire and the energy derived therefrom,” he continues by way of analogy, “can be so valuable to people.”

King Bynepor pauses for questions. I ask, “So this is a lot: how about how this relates to light?” “Very good: light is a pure form of this energy. Note that, with light, there is much less mass involved, and to call light a single point,” he hesitates knowingly and gestures to physics and the double-slit experiment. He says, “It’s kind of problematic, but let’s talk about this experiment for a moment.” We look at a vision of the experiment and he says, “Note that what is happening here is that energy is behaving in an unexpected way. Energy is behaving in relation to all other energy.”

Here King Bynepor underscores his next comment: “Consider the points from your previous lesson” (from yesterday). He says, “What has happened here is that the arrangement of points such that,” and here he pauses to turn my attention quite closely to the physics, for my knowledge of this experiment is probably at least a decade old. “In a double-slit experiment, points are arranged about a certain geometry, and they’re done with the expectation of a certain geometry to unfold. Looping this in with this spherical consciousness, whereby all things[, including concepts,] are balanced, what is happening is that there is a certain hidden balance occurring. The unfolding of that is still not well understood by scientists. I’m not going to tell you what that is (that’s part of the scientific process!).” I groan slightly in disappointment.

However, King Bynepor continues, “Note the energy involved: first of all, it’s interesting because it’s the smallest amount of energy, and yet there’s all this focus on it, because there’s all of this information being derived [from this experiment on it].” He notes, “Sometimes even a the small amount of energy can make all the difference.” He gestures to Schrödinger’s cat.

King Bynepor changes gears and says, “Let’s take a look at this at the cosmic scale. Take a look at all of the energy going on in the universe. There is a massive amount of information that is being unfolded with this energy in this universe. It is too much for one human. As cosmically oriented as you are, there is just too much for any one person to grasp it all. But the spirit of it can be grasped,” he consoles me, “and this is the advantage of fire. Yes: all of the elements in their place can do this, but fire, in some ways, is closest to spirit.”

Yet King Bynepor cautions me: “Spirit is the source of all of the elements.” He pauses to note some theories of the elements having the elements proceed stepwise, one from a preceding element, with fire being the first to proceed from an element, then air from fire, etc. “Ultimately, they all proceed from spirit. It makes no difference.” He notes how he himself proceeded from the most high, and he says that there is so much information, and thus so much compassion to be had.

The problem is that we, as human beings, tend to be hyperfocused on each other or on yourselves, which is ultimately the same thing. The energy it takes, we’re discovering, to understand enough, to get enough information, is too much! (Note: presumably here, King Bynepor is talking about the information necessary to satisfy all of our curiosities.) “It’s too much energy! So you continue to consume more and more energy, and you’re discovering that this energy is coming at the expense of the information that you could’ve received from nature and from its unfolding.

“This is,” he says, “in one sense, sad, but it’s also an opportunity, because were you to be able to directly transmit energy from outer space, to the Earth, such that you did not need to extract all of [these fossil fuels], it would be much easier to continue to obtain the information needed to understand the value of each other as people and of animals [and plants and so on]. There’s so much that’s being lost, and it’s really a tragedy, and it’s like you say: it’s an unintelligent use of our time and resources.”

I ask briefly about compassion, and King Bynepor says, “I will stoke the fires and light of compassion within you,” and I feel it, and it’s such a boon right now, and I express my gratitude. “But it’s not easy to maintain that, so whenever gebofal is finished,” he says, “first of all: you will find yourself transformed. But second of all, returning to a meditation practice will be of great value to you, and metta compassion in particular.

“Were more people to meditate,” King Bynepor comments, “then suddenly the quality of information suddenly become much higher.” My mind, suddenly distractible, quickly bids him to please continue. He says, “All right: so we have energy and we have information, and we have the conversion between the two. And so, what is fire?” King Bynepor asks rhetorically. “Fire is this process: it can add heat, as needed. It can add light, as needed. Light, is how things may be understood.

“This is why the lion, the [zodiacal] sign of Leo, associated with the heart, is ruled by the sun. [The heart] needs this light to see about it, to understand the exterior,”–the surface of the sphere–“but also thereby the [center of spherical consciousness] may be known. That’s why the heart and the spine[, the latter being most difficult part of a person’s body to reach,] are both [associated with Leo, the domicile of] the sun.

“Now, that’s not to say,” King Bynepor cautions, such as “with the black sphere, that sometimes it takes more. It’s more difficult. “Hence why with Saturn,” (which is the dimmest of planets and associated with darkness and the need to draw distinction), he points out, “must also be known. That’s when we take what we know from the light, and apply it to something very dark, and therefore, ultimately, we figure out how to contextualize it.” He points to meditation again, which is “a time in which you are forced to confront that which does not readily light up with light [even the brightest of lights, the sun], and you allow it. You don’t allow the light of your chattering thoughts to begin to warp it, because they have energy themselves. The information content of one’s thoughts can be warping to the nature of reality,” including to the nature of reality of the shape of the black sphere, making it nearly impossible to know and accommodate. Our thoughts contain their own information, and when something is difficult to see, and dark, that warps so much of the nature of that which the heart does not like to confront, of suffering and the general shortcomings of dukkha (which is what the black sphere represents).

I express my gratitude, and I can feel so much energy coming up off of the fire tablet. King Bynepor advises that tomorrow will be air, and that it will be clear to me what the elemental pattern is after Saturday, and that I will find in roughly 5 or 6 days’ time the aforementioned reason why some days do not seem to have a servient angel host associate with them. I express my gratitude again to King Bynepor. I ask briefly why it’s so difficult to link up these elemental calls with the Aethyrs?

He says, “The square root of something does not always look like its square. What is happening now is that I can liken it to an inscribed square of a circle trying to make sense of the circle as a whole, or for example trying to understand the length of 19 with respect to 360 degrees: it doesn’t quite make sense, does it? It’s a difficult process, but if you contemplate this, you will pierce some of the veil.” (See Sidebar below.)

I ask King Bynepor if he has anything else. “No: work to continue your compassion. Make it a walking meditation, and consider as best you can how this relates to it, and more will be revealed to you.”

Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Read call 17/16 three times, just to ensure that I vibrated it more or less fluidly at least one time.

King Bynepor bids me take his hand, which I do, and he notes the lovely names of God: “ORO, IBAH, AOZPI.” Here takes me along and he’s noting all of the energy of the universe, over and over and over again: combining, transferring: the fire is everywhere,” he says. “Fire in the sense of energy. So we have the opposites of this continuum,” he notes: “transfer of energy, which can bring about information to those interested in it,” and then the points, which interact with energy.

Now King Bynepor notes a couple of things: generally speaking, when energy is unleashed, or is made available, or when stored energy begins interacting with matter, that we see a separation between points. It’s why water and fire are complements: both of them can separate. Yet whereas water tends to dissolve and loosen the relationship between two points, fire tends to undo said relationship. Water tends to be more of a process; though when it rushes, it is different! Yet a person who has been drowned can, at the end of the day, usually be identified, but a person who has been burned thoroughly cannot.

“Okay!” I exclaim, kind of weirded out.

“Enough energy can do that,” he continues. That’s why water infused with fire and heat is so dangerous, because that combination of undoing–for example, waterlogging someone or, say, and earthen dam–is so much more dangerous when the water is heated up, [not only due to boiling water acting on even a hard surface, but also] because it just can allow for a lot more growth: toxic growth, mold growth, stuff like that, vs. when water is at least frozen, the odds of someone picking up a parasite are reduced because it’s harder for it to grow.”

I want to clarify , and King Bynepor says, “Yes, let’s get to it. Water can dissolve, can cause something”–(i.e., a point of matter)–“to be taken into it, and thereby become a part of that watery relationship. It can become a point within water, which is then going to flow and transport, and all of that, rather than being a point of whatever [other system] it had [been connected to] before. Whereas fire: the energy in and of itself will cause a rearrangement of some sort, whether that be a somewhat temporary pulling away, or a complete burning away: a complete chemical transformation.

“Now,” King Bynepor points out, “pay attention to this. As we move to the different astrological signs, let’s start with Aries. In one sense, it isn’t as happy as it is in water, but when Mars is in Aries, it heats up, and it cuts, and it separates, and it also generally does the sort of damage that you have when energy is involved with that. A very similar example as with Mars in Scorpio! except that’s much more intense. The heating energy in the sense of the latter is heated energy directed at a target, so it could be more of a kinetic energy that can ultimately unleash power and information.

“But, sticking with Aries: what do we think of with Aries?” King Bynepor rhetorically posits the question. “We think of conflict, we think of very strong fighters, for example. We think of getting to know the limits of distance between one person and another by direct contact, and that direct contact immediately changes the entire dynamic, because that point is suddenly forced to be in another place, no matter what. [This is] unlike water, which could be like that, but it’s not in that in that same vein.” He’s trying to steer me clear of this notion, likely to emphasize the system of points of a person rather than fewer or even a single point which is the target of Scorpionic energy.

I say, “King Bynepor, I thank you for this. I ask you for more information.” He replies, “We think of the god Ares. The force behind Aries is that He is kind of a berserker. He goes into war, He loves war, He lusts for war, and He just loves going in, getting in, and ‘Fight-fight-fight-fight-fight-fight!'” He likens this back to Austin Coppock’s calling [Mars in Aries] like a machine gun. “And that’s what it is. It’s just that constant kind of raging fight that causes separation between different points. Why does it cause separation?” he asks rhetorically. “Not because of dissolution, as with water, but because of impact, because of a transfer of energy.”

King Bynepor continues: “Consider also the advances in weaponry that humans have had.” We started with sticks and stones, (which break bones). Then we moved from that to spears: suddenly there’s more energy, and it’s a more efficient transfer of energy, that causes more splitting and of the separation and cutting that Mars is famous for. Then we begin creating shields, and to bows and arrows, so there’s an attempt to transform the energy transfer so that it doesn’t hurt the person being attacked.

“Then we add into that horses and cavalry: massive amounts of energy, which are terrifying, because they just continue to transfer that energy.” So you have not only the horse who is being ridden, and the horses just got bigger and bigger, the angels note. Not only that, they were capable of carrying larger and larger amounts of mass, and all of that mass wasn’t designed to just be a big massive creature that you moved around, like with a workhorse. Instead cavalry was intended to be something that transferred a massive amount of energy, often simultaneously, into an energy line.

Then this is increased with creatures like war elephants, but also, if you think about it, we move to the use of gunpowder, which increase the distances between the origin of the attack and the target, and the creation of castles used to disperse energy directed at them. There was a lot of advancement with respect to energy as a result of martial desires! Catapults, crossbows, and of course the principles of torture operated the same way, a targeted transfer of energy upon someone in order to glean information.

With modern warfare, we get artillery, and with the including the introduction of airplanes gravity helps to increase the energy of the explosives while being above the directed attacks: generally, “bigger things that go boom-boom” and transfer more energy. Then there are tanks and bunkers designed to blunt energy transfer from the target, until finally we get to the big one: “We got the bombs!”, the nukes.

We also get technology which allows for more and more targeted attacks, so the interplay between energy and information continues, and also using our energy-using information to try to degrade that of the enemy. (Note: How constructive!) It’s all part of the piece, King Bynepor concludes. So (and here I chuckle), that is Aries! The constant upgrading of energy attacks and, towards the end, you get information being included in that, all as a constant push to separate energetically. (Note: in the words of Philip II of Macedon: “divide et impera,” (“Divide and rule,” or as it’s usually now know, “Divide and conquer).

“Let’s go to Leo,” King Bynepor says: “It’s much simpler. Leo, as mentioned in a previous vision, desires the sun. The sun, as mentioned in a previous vision, is the most massive source of energy in our solar system, and of course, in the mid-summertime months of Leo, the sun is hottest and strong (in the northern hemisphere), and crops are growing.

“Generally speaking, this is a time of royalty.” At this, King Bynepor is quick to explain: “The energy of the sun comes down and provides bounty to the land, hence we get to [better conditions of] this kingdom [during times of growth], but as far as the king himself,” (note that King Bynepor is using gendered language but this was merely faster for me to process–gender-neutral language such as “the monarch” is, of course, preferred), “going from TEX (the kingdom) up to LIL (the king), the king himself is supposed to inhabit this form of energy. This solar energy represents divinity, it represents light: light that can be seen. It’s a more rarefied kind of energy transfer: light that allows for sight. Hence these two words rhyme in German and in English.

“So, when you have this light,” King Bynepor expands, “suddenly, many more things can be discovered, and we have much more. We start with symbolism; the symbolism of the king. The symbolism of the spotlight and the pageantry, and everything designed to keep the eye on the king, and to the beneficence of the king be reflected in the beneficence of the land, and vice versa. This is where this energy is going to, and when it comes to sight, there’s definitely a lot more about the signifier and the signified when it comes to this Leonine energy. So the peasants know to worship and to do what they’re supposed to do because of God’s emissary on Earth. Of course we’ve seen between and exclusive divinity for emperors before.

“But the main points are that you can see; that plants and animals that take in the elements are happier (plants because light helps them grow, and animals because they can see food that they wish to eat), and generally speaking, people prefer summertime weather in mild climates, all things being equal.

Now we turn to Sagittarius, for King Bynepor notes that our time has run long. “So, with Sagittarius, we have this concept of myth and of story, and we suddenly have this energy being transformed. We started with separating symbolism via light, and the transfer of the essence of one thing to another via sight that we got in Leo. [In Sagittarius, we] move to a closer energy transfer, and that is the energy transfer of meaning, from one thing to the next, and a story from one thing to the next. In order to that, we consider oftentimes [the archetype of] the monk” (here I want to credit Gordon White or perhaps Austin Coppock for having said this metaphor earlier, which King Bynepor draws from), “who gets people going, gets their symbolic energy going, tells a story that people begin to follow, and so on. The symbol of Sagittarius incorporates multiple things together in the form of a centaur: a combination of person with a horse (this point has definitely been made by Austin).

“When you have this, the multiple things that seem somewhat contradictory are nonetheless, in this dream logic or mythological logic, they’re okay combined together. So we can shed light on things that seem contradictory and thereby allow a greater understanding of what there is to be known. So that is the psychic transfer of energy, that is different from what you get from Pisces. Pisces,” King Bynepor is telling me specifically now, “is this Jupiterian expanding and trying to get in everywhere, and trying to see things everywhere, and really understanding all sides. Being the transported (the fish) and the also the transport: the water that flows in a certain direction or and that can flow more or less everywhere, or wherever it needs to go. With Sagittarius, this is a transfer of meaning via direct symbolism that goes in the mind, and this is a more meaningful psychic transfer of energy, and trying to get an optimistic ending to all of this separation that’s occurred with the previous two signs.

King Bynepor asks me if I have any questions. I remark that that was a lot, and he agrees. He thanks me for my time, and I insist on instead thanking him for his time, and I bow and am very grateful. He says that the next vision will just be the person and the person giving fire, and how that relates to everyday activities and what that’s like for the people involved. I thank King Bynepor again and the vision ends.

  • Sidebar: One of the things that occurred to me as I was typing up the notes for today was what occurred to me yesterday: the idea of 19 as the square root of 360. The 30/19 split of the 49 calls seemed obvious: 30 calls to the Aethyrs representing 30 degrees of signs of a zodiac (and, more mathematically, 360 divided by 3 and 4, the two closest integer addends of 7 (the square root of 49), equals 30). 19 represented a square root of its own: the rounded integer square root of 360 degrees of a circle, or more perfectly of 360 degrees of the circumference, plus one point at the center.
  • This then led me to wonder about applying this number 19 (associated by Crowley with “Manifestation,” but I could not find evidence for this in a thorough treatment by, say, Bill Heidrick) to geometry. I wondered what 19 would be like as, say, a diameter of a circle, and sure enough, the circumference of such a circle rounds to 60, the number of the degrees of an equilateral triangle. Here we see a mathematical “Mystery of the Trinity” spoken by the angel Galvah.
  • But what of the square? A square has as many degrees as a circle, because it is composed of two triangles, and a square & circle of equal area look pretty cool when they share a common center (see links later in this paragraph). Unfortunately, not much fun comes up this way, but it did make me wonder about the phenomenon of squaring a circle. For a circle of radius 1, the side length of the square needed of equal area to such a circle is √π. The demonstration of this is relatively simple and is saved for the reader as an exercise. The meaning of I’m unsure of, but note that in order to square a circle, the square root of the defining characteristic of a circle, the number Ï€, is needed, just as the angels are now pointing me towards the number 19 as the square root of the degrees (or degrees plus one for the center) of a circle
  • All of this made me realize something about these latter 19 calls. During the Aethyrs, the angels were taking me through, slowly but surely, information about the idea of points and concepts of spherical (3D circular) consciousness, as well as cubical (3D square) consciousness. Once the general points about these have been made, now I’m being walked through points and the four elements, and the quaternary nature of this itself is done in a squaring manner, for a total of 16 calls. What three things could there be to get to 19? Perhaps the center, the perimeter/circumference, and then finally the entirety? It’s not clear. However, it certainly parallels some the alchemical symbol for the Philosopher’s Stone.
Visual representation of a few things that I wrote above: a circle shown to have 360 degrees, a square with 360 degrees total, and an equilateral triangle with 60 degree angles.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m trying to have a lot of compassion, circulating it as best I can. Once again there’s King Bynepor, but as with yesterday, we have him joined by Kings Bnaspol and Babalel. “Yes, of course, tomorrow will be the day of air, ruled by Venus.” The angels also note that the four signs that they’re ruling–Virgo-Libra, Scorpio, and Sagittarius–are in order.

King Bynepor notes that because I have so much more to write up, that he will keep this brief, out of respect for that, but he says, that the fire that I already have within me will be magnified and magnetized to this realm of Adam Qadmon. “Again,” he comments, “this is the teaching part, but the realization part will be the last three days. It will come together in a way that is unique to you. It will not be whatever projected notion of perfection that you have, but it will be a magnification of you, and it is important to try your best to maintain the same practices that brought you here. ‘The same lady you brought to the dance is the one you should stick with.'” He adds that this is important.

He shows me this light, and I’m feeling much energy coming up off of leaf 17 (of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh), and he’s saying to just take note of this, so I do, trying to remain humble and respectful. “So you have points that are transformed as a result of the introduction of energy. In its basest form, it will cause them to split apart, but in other forms, it will simply raise the energy level of the system. This is how life ultimately unfolded, because that energy level was raised. It needs to all be done in a careful, controlled manner, because otherwise it’s just energy going everywhere, and there’s information to be had with that, but it needs to be done intelligently.”

I’m being taken again, and I’m seeing someone with fire about the head, and King Bynepor is saying that this is how I will perceive people and animals. This is the sense of the aura that I will get. The angels are stating outright that this is the boon of these angels, led here by the Heptarchical kings, and of course the Governors and Zodiacal kings also. The angels are suggesting that I add up the discrepancy between the angels of each day’s call and the closest number of servient angels in the Aethyrs to that (of the zodiacal king of that Aethyr, which which I call upon). They suggest that I’ll find something interesting there: Saturday or Sunday may be a good time for that.

I ask if there’s anything else, and they say, “No, this is it,” so I express my gratitude to King Zinggen, to Governor Lexarph, and to Kings Bynepor, Bnaspol, and Babalel, and of course to God, known today as ORO, IBAH, and AOZPI.

The vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 32

Sunrise: Call/Key 18 (most practitioners refer to this as Call 17, since it is the 17th spoken call). Call to King Bnaspol. Call to Zodiacal King Zingen & Governor Zaxanin of the Aethyr of TOR, since the former, in that Aethyr, is associated with 7333 servient angels, which is close to the “7336” referenced in this call.

Note: For this scrying, I placed the seal of King Bnaspol on the water/air tablets. Although I certainly felt energy from his seal, as far as the tablets go, I definitely felt the energy come up from the heel of my left foot, the Earth tablet. So, it seems as though either the strength of the king overrides the tablet (King Bnaspol/Mercury being strong in earth, i.e., Virgo, an earth sign, is where Mercury is both in domicile and exaltation), or, more likely, the order is shifted from the Tabula Recensa. Here is my proposal for the order of energy based on gebofal (recalling that I started on a Sunday and have followed the days of the week throughout, such that today’s Leaf, 18, falls on a Wednesday), based on my perceived activation of the energy of the tablets (recall that yesterday, I perceived that not only King Babalel, but also the water tablet were activated), as follows:

  1. Original Table order of the Watchtower tablets: Fire/East-Earth/South-Air/West-Water/North
  2. Tabula Recensa order: Fire/East-Air/South-Water/West-Earth/North
  3. “Last shall be first” Tabula Recensa order (sunset is first, midday is last): Water/West-Earth/North-Fire/East-Air/South

This will need to confirmed based on the following four tablets, but is my working hypothesis for now.

To the vision: I see a sphere; it is Earth, but I’m only seeing land; it is elemental earth. King Bnaspol approaches and has me just put my feet on dry land. He tells me that this will be a slower vision because it is earth. I’m seeing gnomes, and I note the energy as described above. I begin talking during the vision about the scheme of the planets, and King Bnaspol says wryly and playfully, “We’ll see.”

He asks me to consider earth for a moment. Earth is solid, and is an anchor. It can be considered to be the points of geometry themselves. Yet at the same time, as Earth alone, they’re in an arrangement that can slowly move over time. King Bnaspol really wants me to get my hands into this astral dirt that I’m in, so I do. “Feel it,” he bids me, “think about what worms do. They slowly push their way around and through, and get whatever they can. Think about the sign of Capricorn, the goat.” That goat just goes through the land, he says. The sea-goat, he says, is just the goat at its “goatiest” (here I pause to reflect on a sea-goat ruler of time, Pricus), trying to have a somewhat better means of traveling through, but once it finds itself on land, it’s a little bit tougher (in the myth of Pricus, his children come to land and over time lose their tails and must make do with the slower land life of having to get by on four legs).

“If you think of the bull, the goat, or even the maiden in the field,” he says, “there’s this recognition that earth should be changed, and then there’s this change, and then it’s like, ‘OK: let’s stop. Let’s keep things how they are here.'” It’s dried out, if need be: there’s this acknowledgment of this need for moisture, but there’s this big tension between the two. On the one hand, in the case of a ceramic pot, it needs to be able to contain water, so it needs to be dried (one of the qualities of earth is dryness) so much so that it can be a seal against the dissolution of water.

King Bnaspol shows me the [elemental] earth sphere again. He says to consider the next layer down, the molten core. All of these points together are so close, so packed together (as an aside, he notes the density of the sun, which, though largely made of hydrogen, is nonetheless a thousandfold more dense than the Earth’s atmosphere; and upon typing this up I looked up the density of the earth’s core, which is more than twice as dense as the Earth as a whole). The heat is a result of the compactness creates tension among the points themselves; the structure is unsustainable and (here I get a note from King Bnaspol as I type this up that the energy is partly from multiple point unable to “become a single point” or for one point to “impose itself on another” without tension and energy being generated in the system as they approach such a state).

Now King Bnaspol turns to the topic of density. “That’s the big thing about [elemental] earth, there’s much more compactness.” He takes me to a neutron star. He says, “Let’s review what happens to a neutron star: the density is high, things collapse in, there’s no more fuel (any remaining fuel that could have been is gassed out by the supernova stage). Everything else is so heavy and so dense, that everything else is essentially compact neutrons, which are arranged in the tightest possible formation. There’s plenty of energy to be had for a neutron star–and here he has me concentrate deeply (he know it’s tough: “It’s tough to think about dirt,” he kids)–“If you consider how compact that is: analogies have been made to a diamond.” He’s trying now to show me the spirit of a neutron star. He’s saying the density is as tightly packed as points can be, and it’s kind of a drag on account of that, but nonetheless, it does have this beautiful formation to it. It represents something of an absolute limit–perhaps not perfectly so: there are exceptions to every rule, he adds–but the points are very tightly packed. He has me concentrate on this geometry, and the tightness of the points together.

Now King Bnaspol is saying to consider “the bummer around that,” someone who is too earthy, too stuck. “Such a person will not be able to change, will not be able to alter their formation. If a person is like this, obviously the biological systems will do what they’re going to do” (i.e., age and die), “but they themselves will be stuck. Their patterns will be stuck about them. They will see no need to change. They will see the structure that they have as being the ideal structure. Note how your heart leaped,” he continues to me, “when you thought about a sphere of points all dense together: it has this beautiful geometry to it, “but it’s not a true geometry. It’s not a true spherical consciousness in the sense of a center and a surface of a sphere, or a center by which the circumference is known, and vice versa, because everything is filled in.” (Note: here I consider points in the sense of not being conscious of themselves to be part of a sphere, and with no sense of relationship to other points). Ultimately, it’s just a very round hunk of gunk: very dense gunk!

He says that someone like this can, on the one hand, be very good at imposing a structure. “This is your forte,” he tells me: “imposing structure, imposing order if you sense it, or have an indescribable desire to do so, but on the other hand, there’s not as much call for development. In your case, you needed fire”–(my chart is heavy in fire)–to ultimately bring that about. Yet you nonetheless have still surrounded yourself with a highly structured environment in which to do so,” he points out, clearly referring to the entirety of both Enochian and the full-time job and householder responsibilities that I hold in order to make it possible.

“That’s okay!” he adds. “If you think about children: children need structure. Children need routine, because they need some of that in order to grow, but on the other hand,” (note, reader, the Mercurial expressions King Bnaspol uses: I’m here for it!), “that can also be a double-edged sword, where they think that all they need to be is structure, and that was the problem that you had as you transitioned into adulthood, is learning, ‘OK, where does this structure end, and where do who I am, as an identity, begin?’

“And that’s the problem: the real problem is this lack of freedom that this order brings to the mind, to the routines, to the path of the individual.” So he points out particularly that a couple of months from now, “Some stuff is going to happen to you that will offer you such freedom as you have not known. It will, on the one hand, be somewhat scary, but on the other hand: ‘Hey! A chance to do something different! A breath of fresh air!’ That’s another element that’s not included in this,” he says. “But I rule it,” he grins slyly and playfully.

He says he’s going to, once again, leave the lessons about the individual earth signs, but they will be relatively straightforward for me. He continues: “We’ve talked about someone who has this”–the earth element–“so let’s get down to, much as we”–the angels–“had with water, let’s get down to the purpose of earth. The purpose is structure. The purpose is that arrangement which does not change for a given period of time, so that other things about it can change according to an elegant unfolding. So it is this structure about which other things may unfold or enfold. It is a state of continuing to have been unfolded or enfolded.

“It is the present state which does not change in the future state for a given length of time.” He repeats: “It is a present state which does not change in the future state over a given length of time, which is not to say that it will never change, but it is that state-to-state consistency of the period of time which is of interest to the individual. Hence,” he continues, “you think about things associated with earth signs: stability, structure, order.”

I ask if he or any of the other angels upon whom I have called have anything else to say. “No,” he says. He says other things which he says are not relevant to the write-up, and then the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure. This time, having confirmed to my satisfaction the active Watchtower tablet of this call, I also vibrate seven times the northern godnames of “OIP,” “TEAA,” and “PDOCE” (Update: although I vibrated these godnames on this day, I will be using the Tabula Recensa names going forward, and Earth is associated with “MOR,” “DIAL,” “HCTGA”). As with yesterday, I dispense with the remaining tablets and rest both of my feet on the seal of King Bnaspol, and on the Earth tablet underneath it.

King Bnaspol appears and is leading me. Upon my mentioning it, the angels confirm, “Yes, we are the first [part of the Enochian system], so we are here to lead.

“Let’s resume where we left off, which is to say, the actual signs [of the zodiac].” I see an earthen sphere [elemental earth]. He says very simply, “Virgo: let’s talk about it in terms of giving Virgo, and receiving Virgo.” He alludes to my natal chart, and continues, “Giving Virgo is giving the [geometric] points [of consciousness], the emphasis of the points, in terms of: the earth is given, so as to give the desired arrangement. So, this could mean changing things around; it’s as if the points are fine, but there needs to be just a tweak so that they are properly laid out. The energy of Virgo is to be clear, to clearly see the points, to identify with the points such that the desired arrangement of the points is achieved.

“Next, let us go to Capricorn, since that is what you are least familiar with. Capricorn–” and here he bids me be quiet so that I can clearly hear the transmission. I do a 7-7-14 breath. He shows me a point, and he shows me another point. “The issue with Capricorn is that they can see the arrangement of points over time. So this is partly why they are so desirous of ancient things of value, things which have kept their value over time, not so much that there’s this by-gone feeling: the value of the thing over time is that it’s this way that the past can speak to the present, or possibly even the future.

Here, I’m substituting “terrestrial” for where King Bnaspol references “Earthly” in order to reduce confusion between Planet Earth and elemental earth. “Consider the [terrestrial] sphere,” (here King Bnaspol is is referencing the vision from Day 30), “as it meets the Heavenly sphere. What Capricorn wishes to do is take from the elemental energy of Adam Qadmon, and it wishes to combine that with the present [terrestrial] sphere as a way to meet up with that heavenly sphere. If the heavenly sphere is the future state” (as I’ve previously suggested a way to consider heaven: a goal or future state), “and the [terrestrial] sphere is the present state, Capricorn is seeking to take those points of value from this present terrestrial state, and to take those points, those earthy points–remember that the points are identified with earth and with matter–what Capricorn is seeking to do is to take those points and arrange them in such a manner such as they will be perpetuated into the future.

“In order to do that, it needs to understand cycles of history. It needs to understand time. So it is creating something,” (Capricorn is a cardinal sign), “but it has this vast time scale at hand. It’s almost as if it understands this radius or circumference of both earth and heaven, in that sense.

“And finally, Taurus, which is notorious for liking things as they are, but also enthusiastic about a given change when the arrangement obviously is not there. Why? Because the desire here is for the arrangement of points that–”

Here, he cautions me: “Your impulse is to say, ‘Reduce suffering’: that is not it. The arrangement of points…” And here I pause to listen carefully. “Your heart is speaking very loudly, and I’m trying to have you listen to what I have to say.”

I pause for another 7-7-14 breath. This seems to clear the transmission enough for him to continue. He shows me a bunch of seeds, and a farmer working in a field. What he’s saying is that the goal of Taurus is to arrange the seeds, and to arrange the circumstances about them, to try to ensure that a certain seed grows. Extrapolating, Taurus seeks to arrange the circumstances that the [desired] unfolding [or enfolding] takes place. So, in that sense, it is the fixed earth, the earthiest of earths. But he cautions me: “Ensuring the overall circumstances such that the overall unfolding takes place means that a desired change to how things unfold can be problematic for Taurus. Conversely, when a desired change is seen as needed by Taurus, but it cannot or will not happen, that is equally problematic.”

I ask King Bnaspol if he has anything else. He says, “No,” this was it. I double-check, since I have garbled the transmission twice this scrying, but he confirms that the answer is “No.” I thank him, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure as noon.

King Bnaspol appears, and is appeared by the Zodiacal King Zinggen, and Governor Zaxanin is here to bless King Zinggen’s presence. They’re saying that the reason King Zinggen (associated with Aquarius zodiacally) is that they want to draw my attention to the servient angels, and they’re saying that there’s going to be a pattern that I will recognize in perhaps a week’s time as I go through these Watchtower calls. Specifically, this pattern will relate to the days in which, rather than a large number in the thousands appearing as part of the call (fairly close to at least one of the number of servient angels that a zodiacal king has within a given Aethyr), instead a smaller number (less than 100) is part of the call, and thus no good near Zodiacal-King-by-Aethyr number is available. (For now, my plan is to simply not call on a zodiacal king for such days). Yet tonight the angels foretell that these days will become important to me.

King Zinggen is here as some moral support, I’m told (with more detail expressed at the end of the call).

Once again I’m shown this [elemental] earthly sphere. King Bnaspol takes the lead and says, “Consider the exchange now,” but I’m distracted by King Zinggen, who mentions, “I will be of interest to you on Saturday: you will see why. But I still want to be here, I still want to observe this.”

King Bnaspol shows me the sphere again. Once again I’m shown that it can be cut in half, or cut deeply, such that you could reach a point deep in this earth that all of this matter is concentrated. He says to consider how the person who who goes from feeling “understuck” to appropriately stuck or anchored. For example, consider someone with their head always in the clouds, or always emotional, generally anyone who needs that cool and dry feeling that comes from having something else to turn to: something for their emotions and ideas and passions to wrap around! With elemental earth, it feels real.

With these points of geometry, they’re saying, it’s important that they take on this sense of reality. This is what King Bnaspol is saying is the great benefit of bringing elemental earth in. It’s a link; it’s not so much that any other action in this world is unreal; it’s that it can feel unreal. There’s this sense of authenticity: a point is a point is a point! “It is this point, here; or consider when someone ‘makes a point’ in conversation. Then that point is made, and from that we hang all of this other stuff. We understand that point in relation to other points. It’s not a murk, or a fog, where nothing is clear, and things spookily appear out of it. No: if there’s a system to how the points are arranged, you can understand what’s going on. And having that density of that point on which other things can be hung and understood in relationship to each other is very important.

“So, somebody who has that density of their points could potentially give that to somebody else who doesn’t. But somebody who gives more of that to someone who already has that, it can A) start being confusing (because more points are introduced which must be accounted for), and B) somebody can start feeling bogged down in terms of responsibilities piling up, or just, ‘Can I just not have so much reality right now?'” Now Zinggen chimes in: “This is the sense of Sorrow [associated with Saturn], especially of that [elemental] earthy sorrow: dealing with that dryness, that ‘These points are here. This is where they are. This is all there is to it. Nothing else to be done about it. That’s it.'”

So I’m now shown the terrestrial sphere, not to be confused with the elemental earth sphere. “For the person giving [elemental earth],” King Bnaspol is saying, “they just can offer that to somebody who may not have that, and it’s like they understand this sense of truth about the points of geometry” (i.e., of geometric consciousness). He continues: “They’re lending something about themselves or their own consciousness, or own awareness, or own perspective, what-have-you, to the person who lacks it. So, getting back to this terrestrial sphere: what happens when people do this? Well, they have a potential to be close to this point–as we saw with Capricorn especially, but also Taurus and Virgo to a lesser degree–they have the potential to excite people about the reality of the situation. ‘Real change!’ But they also have a potential to arrange things in a way that isn’t quite the way that it’s being sold. It can be a long process, because sometimes the details aren’t apparent about exactly how things need to be arranged. Sometimes the other things need to come up, and so on,” King Bnaspol finishes.

“But that’s okay,” the angels tell me. King Bnaspol addresses me, “The point is that, when you get to this point, it may behoove you to consider: does the reality of the situation need to be made apparent?” Here he considers truths about oneself that loved ones may not understand, for example religious differences. “Does that reality need to become apparent? And how would it be, and what would the nature of that be? Perhaps bringing up a little bit less of that matter [is wise], which is why you hold back so much to those loved ones, and you have to. You have to,” he repeats, “because you know that the introduction of the reality of who you are would ultimately lead to conflagration. [It’s] not anybody’s fault, it’s just sort of the way that everything is arranged right now: and it can be disarranged! You know the exact points to think about which would lead the disarrangement which would allow you to bring the change in that you want.” I laugh because he reads me like a book.

King Bnaspol now receives some assistance from King Babalel, and King Zinggen is here to help mediate the two. (Note: Mercury is in a sign-based square with Saturn, which is both in the sign of Aquarius and is in its domicile there; Mars (for Babalel) is in Cancer, which is sextile to Mercury by sign but not closely, but Cancer is ruled by the moon, which is in Sagittarius, whose ruler, Jupiter, is in Aquarius with Saturn). The discussion is about the dynamic between water and earth, and how I have done my best to bring forward my water side when it comes to matters related to these loved ones, to not come at is as a targeted hose, but instead to be a nurturing force via the Cancerian energy that I can muster and to transport what I can via the force of my Piscean energy. “At any rate,” he finishes, “consider this! Consider what you’re bringing!” He adds, finally, that yes, just as with yesterday’s insight that I will be more aware of the amount of water available to someone, I’ll also get that respect to elemental earth. Tomorrow I’ll get fire, and Friday I’ll get air. The angels are still kind of keeping Saturday a coy secret from me.

Regardless, I express my gratitude to all of the angels. I ask one more thing about how all of this relates to compassion. The angels say that this is the how-to of compassion. This is understanding the root of the heart. He says that I will get a sense of when it may be good to pick a fight when it comes to fire, or be good to be soluble in order to bring transportation of nutrients to someone, or to produce a hose to clean something off. I express my gratitude to them, and thus ends the vision.

Gebofal, Day 26: The LIT Aethyr!

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIT and the associated governors and Zodiacal Kings. Call to King Bynepor.

I just pour forth this compassion of the lotus-rose, to all of the angels and everything about me, and in so doing I become this rotation, this torus, again. I’m approaching spherical consciousness, very close to it, almost there, even though I’m on the fifth Aethyr and four more remain. There’s a little bit of a shimmer on the surface of the sphere, a tiny ripple, going about this torus/sphere. As I do so, the angels acknowledge that if I increase my concentration perfectly, I could probably hit perfectly spherical consciousness from here.

The angels are showing me a tree, and the angels note that a torus could be superimposed around the trunk, under the branches, and above the roots, but also a sphere could be circumscribed about the tree as a whole. If you change the parameters of the torus to make a double-sphere, then the dimensions of a tree can roughly be matched. The angels have me consider the twisting motion of a torus (like if you twisted a rubber hose whose ends were connect, so that the inside turned out and the outside turned in), the constant rotation which relates to the varieties of fortune.

I relate this to Adam Qadmon again, unintentionally. The angels say that this is okay. “Your mind can’t help but do that.” That can be considered like unto this force, they say, of Adam Qadmon, which can be considered like unto the force of the black-hole portal (I repeat, I’m aware of the difference between a black hole and a wormhole–this is the realm of metaphor). This is the force of Ain, which has its own dynamic when it becomes realized.

Things may change up, especially below the Abyss, where it might seem more chaotic. Here, above the abyss, it’s just this gentle rotation. They relate this vision back to the aethyr of ICH, and say this is when a certain character from that computer code gets sucked in to the supernals ahead of what might seem to be its schedule. That’s all part of this multidimensional rotation of spherical consciousness due to the multiplex force of Ain. The outer portion of the entire torus can be considered the realm of ICH itself. Likewise, one could extrapolate to some degree the inside of the abyss, which is to say Fortune seeming to shine on an individual, which for some may cause things to seem to “go well”: the Abyss, or Fortune, works good for themselves.

Getting back to the Aethyr of LIT, I consider how this relates to the tree I just saw. The angels note how that inner ring, where things are “going well”–and here King Bynepor comes to the fore to speak–“This regeneration, this generation of the tree, is like Fortune, or the Lot of Fortune, or the Wheel of Fortune, or the Torus of Fortune, hitting that tree and bringing about the growth, and you see outgrowth of that fortune in the general shape of the torus,” twisting upward in one sense [i.e., upper trunk and branches] but downward in another sense [lower trunk and roots].

I try to maintain concentration, and use this lotus-rose from my heart to do so. “Ah,” the angels say, “let’s take a look at this lotus-rose. So here we have this combination of pain within suffering [the thorns], that black sphere, and we have the portion beyond the abyss, the nice layers of the whitish petals, which are the post-abyssal consciousness (supernals).

“Separate two things,” they say. “The rotation of the sphere is caused by this force of the world of Adam Qadmon, which is ‘World without End,’ which has multiple dynamics when they hit this reality.” But what the angels are saying now is, “Look to…” (here I note my difficulty concentrating), “look to…

“The dynamic of Adam Qadmon is that space, right?” I try to remagnetize my heart, and that helps. The angels show that if you remagnetize to this space, you can consider that to be the general forward linear path toward the portal into this realm of Adam Qadmon. I vibrate the angels’ names, and they say to hold for a moment, and to relax.

“This forward path of the infinite line of Adam Qadmon–this forward path, this constant path, this walking of this path, this traversing of the path: this is one who has become magnetized to the line approaching Adam Qadmon. When one is in spherical consciousness, one remains about–revolving about the world of Adam Qadmon, in that consciousness, but it is not the line which enters it. One is caught up in the revolution of this spherical consciousness about Adam Qadmon, but in order to enter it, in order to realize the Enochian phrase which I’d previously translated, “CASASAM MAOFFAS QAA DE MIAM DE TON DAMPLOZ OLPIRT” (the abiding measureless garment [“created form”] of the continuance of all variety of light (i.e., the rainbow body))–in order to realize this, one has to be magnetized to the infinity. The angels clarify: there’s the bounded infinity of a spherical consciousness, and then there’s the unbounded infinity, which is the rainbow body, the boundless unfolding of that. A set of fixed stars can be considered an infinite direction that one goes, but in order to have compassion for all of those fixed stars, and thereby enter into a more infinite arrangement, one needs to take the path of the infinite line, and not merely the orbit of the (bounded) infinite sphere which orbits about the portal to the world of Adam Qadmon. You can have this infinite compassion, and continue upon it, but you won’t know the revolution about this infinite consciousness.

Complicated! But not overly so. The angels have set me straight, and I express my gratitude to them. Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure; I make two calls to King Bynepor and two to the Aethyr, just because I sense my attention wandering.

I concentrate my heart upon this lotus-rose and I try to remain magnetized to the path toward the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels are showing me the same sphere, with the smallest of ripples upon it, and I can see tiny rainbows about the surface (again, this seems like vast distances across Aethyrs are being bridged now; usually such forthright visions of the sphere do not occur until later in the process).

The angels relate the rainbow and ripples to the energy of being near the orbit of the portal to the realm of Adam Qadmon. This is a metaphorical Roche effect. In principle, the angels say, this rainbow lighting is Chokmah energy to a degree, but that tiny ripple is due to the (metaphorical) gravity of the realm of Adam Qadmon. It’s that the sphere is approaching this metaphorical Roche limit, and I feel my heart being pulled towards that portal, because I have been working to remain magnetized to this path.

I ask the angels what else, in their generosity or mercy they or the Almighty may have. They suggest nudging myself a little bit closer towards this portal, so that I can feel and be truly magnetized to this path towards the realm of Adam Qadmon. The angels say to take the next few days to approach and, on Monday, to actually enter the event horizon of this portal.

The following 18 days, I’m told, will be an attuning to the elements in such a way that one doesn’t become imbalanced as one reaches this realm of Adam Qadmon. Note here, again, the importance of balanced elements appears again, as at key phases in the magical journey: Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, Crossing the Abyss, and now full realization of the realm of Adam Qadmon.

I see myself being slowly pulled closer to this portal. The angels say to think about the absolute minimum distance and to hold there. After 18 days, I will be in that event horizon, and on the 19th day I’ll be crossing into this realm, fully balanced and aware of the powers at play, including states that can arise astrologically and elementally (which is to say, changing the relative distance of geometric points vis a vis Chokmah, using the elements–this is a deep metaphor about the heart). I’m also told that to some degree this can be done with time (Saturn).

I express my gratitude. The angels say that there’s nothing for this particular scrying, and thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure. Pain, depression, anxiety, about halfway between the prior scrying session and this one. Took anxiolytic.

The angels point out that I have kept the lotus-rose as a focus to magnetize me to the path to the portal into the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels advise that I stay on this path. “Don’t revert back, don’t deviate in any direction.”

The angels ask me to reflect on the rotation of the near-spherical consciousness which orbits this portal. They say that as long as I retain this spherical consciousness, that the rotation that I’m going won’t matter so much. Although today was a bit trying, they note, it’s an important reminder to continue to stay focused on this path, and on the world of Adam Qadmon. If I’m truly to make this transition, then I really shouldn’t be sidelined by events such as today’s. There will be other days that will be even more difficult, they comment. I take this to heart, and “in heart,” as it were. The angels say that the only way to get around the reality of daily difficulties is to work on the heart, and come from the heart, and to be pulled forward as by the heart.

At this point I realize that I haven’t called the zodiacal kings or the governors; the angels say that this is okay. I see some energy from the rotation of this sphere, coming as a result of proximity to this portal of Adam Qadmon. It’s a whirlwind (looking not unlike the effect of sling rings of Doctor Strange comics). Others are being drawn into this energy. It’s like I can’t help myself, I reply: I continue that motion. “That’s okay,” reply the angels. “That’s the circumference: you are tending to the circumference. Just ensure that your heart is aligned, dead center, to the portal, exactly to the path.”

I decide to vibrate the kings’ and governors’ names now. The angels say that this act was good, and that it heightened their power a bit, and to just always do so to just ensure that every part of the ritual includes calling from this path to the world of Adam Qadmon. Obviously, this is paramount to them now.

Now the angels explain that there’s only so much that they can show me without my getting pulled on this path in even more (i.e., to a later Aethyr before its time). They tell me to have my heart at ease: this is the right path. They bid me continue to stay focused: anything to do with the elements that they have to show me, if given early, will pull me into the event horizon of the portal into the realm of Adam Qadmon. Each part of this process needs to be taken slowly and deliberately. Even though these scrying sessions seem short, there’s a lot of karma being burned off, a lot of realignment, a lot of karma being played out. That allows me to continue directly forward, they advise. The angels tell me not to worry: my karma is being safeguarded right now, and to just not accrue new karma. These steps are causing it to be “burned off” or “played out,” so that I can go dead center into the portal without being imbalanced.

I express my gratitude to the angels, and ask if there’s anything else. “You can always take on the spherical consciousness” gained from my previous scrying sessions, they note, without actually invoking these higher Aethyrs, so if I wish to be more balanced, I may do that. “Just don’t try to leap ahead anymore” during the visions of the actual Aethyr scryings. They will actively block that.

With that, they close the vision, and I give my heartfelt thanks to the angels.

Gebofal, Day 25: Halfway there!

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of MAZ, call to King BNASPOL (twice). It is somewhat more difficult for me to concentrate in the morning, which is to be expected (sunrise today was 15 minutes after I woke up).

I try to greet everything with lovingkindness, the symbolism of which is compressed into this lotus-rose symbol. I’m definitely feeling the energy. I see the symbol of a circle and its center; I’m seeing it rotate in 3D space and blink into a 3D eyeball (a not uncommon symbol in these higher Aethyrs). I’m told to travel into the eyeball, which I do; I’m at the very center of the eyeball, the focus of the light (this is reminiscent of a previous vision of these higher Aethyrs). Once again, I looking around and I’m seeing the infinite light of Adam Qadmon. I’m told, “Yes, indeed, this is it.”

The light is coming straight through my heart. I look all about me and I’m seeing these varieties of possibilities floating upon the retina of the eye, and also the shadows of possibilities which will never be. I see myself merge with the vitreous humor of the eye. I’m becoming like unto it, and quiet. This is like unto Ayin / Ain. I look about me–nay, I swirl all about me within this eye. I hear, “I Am That I Am! I Am That I Am! I Am That I Am, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth!”

I feel myself distributed throughout the entire cosmos, now in the form of a man, of Adam Qadmon. It is beautiful, it is wonderful. “‘Wonderful’ be the word, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” “Be there anything else that one could become?” “Indeed, one could become any one thing,” saith the Lord, “but it is best to become all things, one and multiple.”

I am so grateful for this. I feel God taking my body and swaying it to the left and right, and now I’m swirling about the y/z plane, rotating and rotating, and I’m seeing these droplets come off of me–thousands, millions, even billions of droplets. These are all of the planets of life which exist out in the cosmos. My heart just pours out to all of them. And the lotus-rose appears in a few of these places, and God seems to wish to end the vision. And I cry out before he does so, “O God, what wonders you have wrought!”

“Indeed, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. Behold, PRONOA operates within you, and, yea, within those to come.”

With that, thus ends the vision. Wow.

Noon: Yesterday I had some unexpected scheduling come up, so I was over half an hour late getting this call started. Otherwise, a similar procedure. Also: we’re now at the halfway point: the middle ritual of the middle day!

The angels note that there’s some pressure that my body is under; they’re trying their best to relax me, and I try to also help by consciously relaxing. The angels are twisting my subtle body gently, and at this point I’m tempted to call to MAZ a second time to improve the transmission.

The angels bid me hold. I see two fingers on a hand walking upon a surface. It’s like it’s either the fingers of God or of Adam Qadmon; the angels say that the distinction doesn’t matter right now. I vibrate the angels’ names, but the vision does not change, so this is indeed what I’m supposed to be seeing.

Nonetheless, I make the call to MAZ again. I see fingers walking along a surface, and this surface, I can now see, is a sphere. It’s unclear whether this “walking” motion turns the globe, or whether the fingers are made to walk along the already-spinning globe. I’m told that these fingers are consciousness that must alight upon the Earth, upon the world. The angels note that the fingertips, although sensitive, are not as intelligent as the rest of Adam Qadmon.

I try to lead with the compassion of the lotus-rose again. I’m seeing the bloom of the lotus-rose spreading out of the fingertips upon the surface of the planet. It leaves this grand compassion with each contact of the finger upon the planet. I concentrate in order see better; I note the energy I’m feeling off of Leaf 25a (which, starting from the back of the book and moving forward, is the first half-leaf with all of the letters (2401) and which has them all in regular vertical alignment), which I’ve been feeling much of the day. I also note the energy coming off of the seal of King BNASPOL.

I maintain high concentration. I see the fan unfold again. The angels repeat, “Look at the fan, look at the fan.” I see the fan unfold, and the angels liken each of the folds to an arm of a stellation. The angels note that they are representing a 3D concept in 2D. They point out that the degree to which some things are folded and some are not (which is to say, the evenness of the folding across the folding fan) is a function of the balance of the elements within a being. That’s why it’s so very hard, because even if one oneself is balanced, they interact with some people who have an imbalance in their energetic make-up. One has to work very hard to manage the balance within themselves but also with everything that’s interacting with them in the moment.

I ask how these ideas fit together. The angels show me that what’s required for “flowering” to take place among [the peoples of] humanity is a very real sense that everybody is managing everybody else’s karma, and this is not easy. There needs to be this attempt to balance the elements, which in and of itself is fine, but also recognize that certain things are going to take a while to unfold about the sphere of Binah (i.e., certain aspects must be understood in order to be received there). So people should continue to move in their efforts to do so, but certain unfoldings of arrangements of points in Chokmah can’t be forced within an individual’s time frame. One can’t force space-time to adhere to one’s will. If something is going be Understood, and to unfold in all of its varieties, then that is a process that requires a certain amount of time. There’s just no getting around it. At the same time, that doesn’t mean that beautiful moments at the suboptimal level cannot happen (e.g., some individuals having Wisdom and Understanding, but such being beyond others).

I ask the angels if there’s anything else, and they say, “No.” I comment on the difficulty of this Aethyr, and the angels say, “The timing was off, and though you did persist with it, it’s tough. What are you going to do?” they chuckle, referencing my householder status.

I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I see a cylinder about me again. It bends back into a torus. The dimensions change such that it turns into a double-sphere. This sphere, they’re saying, could stellate, further, as I’ve seen in previous visions, but for now they are keeping it simple with the torus just turning into a sphere. I express my gratitude. The angels show that if this were a highly stellated image, there would be thousands of points upon it.

They show what it would look like for this nearly spherical stellation to orbiting very closely to a black hole. There are little lights of energy about the tips of these arms of the stellation, points of fire or possibly the arms breaking away. The angels advise that this will not happen in this case. Instead, it will create a dynamic such that the stellation near-sphere will become more spherical as it goes along. Nonetheless, there’s this energy to this close orbit. What I’m experiencing right now, the angels explain, is this energy, this dynamic: a little bit of pain, a little bit of unease, this concern that I may be reverting. This is normal: I’m taking the right route that, if I find myself imbalanced, requesting forgiveness and moving along with the symbolism of this lotus-rose.

The angels are saying now, “If you are looking closely, you are feeling more multiple, but really, you are becoming more one” (the parallel to increasing number of arms of a stellation looking more and more like a sphere should be obvious to the reader). “You feel like you’re becoming more multiple, with all of these aspects of your personality coming to the fore, now, but really what is happening is there’s becoming a great balance across all of these different aspects of your personality, and you’re being forced to confront all of them more or less at once. The suggestion here is to just continue, allow, but give yourself a lot of grace, and continue forward as this massively multiplex stellation becomes, eventually, a sphere.”

That’s it. There’s not much here that they wanted to go over. They understand the circumstances, and that this is difficult, they’re just showing me, once again, me closing in on the realm of Adam Qadmon. “Only five Aethyrs after this,” they’re telling me, “and then after this, it will just be a matter of learning how to balance or, if necessary, be imbalanced across the elements, in order to achieve ultimate balance. You yourself will become more variable and adaptable, like unto the Tao.”

I’m very grateful to the angels for this. I ask if they or the Most High, in their great mercy and generosity, have anything further. They say no: “Be kind, be gentle unto yourself, even if it means not necessarily typing this up tonight” [spoiler: I did not].

I thank the angels for their time and generosity. Thus ends the vision.

Gebofal, Day 21 (The “Super-Spooky” ZAX / Abyss Day)

Note: I’m clearly being a bit facetious with the title, but it serves the purpose of informing people that, yes, the abyss can be crossed even if there’s bizarreness or even a little horror associated with it.

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ZAX. Call to Governors LEXARPH, COMANAN, & TABITOM, to King Bnapsen, and to Zodiacal Kings Zinggen (Aquarius), Alpudus (Libra), and Zarzilg (Sagittarius).

I had been identifying with the lotus-rose, but the angels say not to: instead, to hold it by the sepals, which now wrap around to grasp each of my fingers gently. I get some distracting images and pause to vibrate the angels’ names and to breathe. I feel this welling up of compassion, and it pours forth in all directions about me, even towards the distractions and I follow the chain of their causation, and I get to the fundamental structure of the law. A snotgreen being tries to close a snotgreen curtain, and finally the governors force him back.

The angels open the veil, and create a triangle about me, and note that the four of us could also be a tetrahedron viewed from above. The zodiacal kings then form another triangle, and I’m at the center of a Merkaba symbol now. Finally, the angels are telling me that there’s another layer: I could be the eighth point of a cube, at the center of a 6-simplex, or a vertex of a 7-simplex. The angels are driving at what it takes to get into this higher-dimensional thinking.

I continue to hold compassion for everything about me, and I see an arm emerge, and it belongs to one of the Takers in season 5 of The Magicians, or the Pale Man in Pan’s Labyrinth. I note the constant attempt to fight the dispersion, and the angels tell me to hold fast in my position, so I do. There emerges a white cube, and he’s within it, and not liking being within it. He sort of reintegrates back into the environment.

I note the pattern but also note that if the dispersion-disruption cycle is accelerated, then it’s like if you ignore the hand which waves rapidly back and forth in front of your face: you still see and get the general idea of what’s happening. So the angels instruct me to speed up the process, and I begin circulating the compassion and concentration quickly. The angels and I are in our 6-simplex formation. I see a middle-aged guy in a really cheap-looking outfit superhero outfit with terrible wings.

I vibrate the angels’ names, and finally(!) the entire scene shatters into thousands of square mirrors which are all about me and whirling about me in a vortex. I try to crank up the compassion. This is like unto a realm of Binah, yet note the squares which show that this is still Abyssal. I concentrate, and the angels encourage me, “because all of these squares (signifying cubical consciousness) can be circled!” I concentrate really hard, and the energy shifts from the book, and I have compassion even for the concentration.

The angels indicate that all of these cubes will now curl into spheres, but I will still be able to see the cubes engraved upon them. (Note: My first encounter with Babalon in ZIP was of Her in a dress of crystal spheres). The grand concentration of the mind needs to be met equally with the compassion of the heart and I’m holding onto this lotus-rose to help me, and it holds me back. Each of the square mirrors was a thorn upon the rose, I’m told. I comment about the immense difficulty of this concentration, which is far higher than I recall the first time I scried this Aethyr!

Now the compassion and concentration are balanced as I try to magnify the former. Again, it’s a whirlwind of these mirrors. Figures try to step out, and now they don’t look like themselves, and I vibrate the angels’ names again, and the outer forms of the figures look like unto gray aliens now. (My cat comes in to interrupt). Having compassion helps them to looks somewhat more human, and I tell the angels that this is getting very fractal, and I ask if they have anything else, and what the endpoint and what understanding may be gleaned from this.

The angels say that what’s to be gleaned by this is that the vastness of knowledge that is to be had can go in any of these multitudinous directions. Yet if you inquire with an open mind and an open heart, they will begin to reflect like mirrors, and eventually you will begin to reach a point where they can all be concentrated into these spheres of awareness, but it takes a lot, and if you do it at this cosmic scale, such it will be. But the point is that the divine is there to be had. It takes work over a lifetime(s), and you can get some shortcuts, but this is the nature of that.

The aliens, I’m told, represent a conglomeration of knowledge that loses its awareness of its own divinity. This clicks everything into place and I just have so much compassion now for everything in this place, because that’s a bad state to be in. The angels say that this is enough for now, and that more will be revealed later, though I have the flavor of what this place is like now.

Noon: Similar procedure. I made three calls to King Bnapsen.

Once again I scry by holding the lotus-rose by the sepals. I see squid-like entities jump at me, but it’s like they hit this glass pane and slide down, ineffective. I generate compassion and lovingkindness and circulate it. I try to speed this up, and accelerate the process, and the general theme changes into square mirror, which transform into “sphered cubes,” which in this case is to say a transparent cube with a square etched on the inside. It’s difficult to see at this stage, though, because of the generated compassion.

Now I see a central column appear, it looks like a giant pleather cowgirl boot. I pause, regenerate compassion, and, seeing the dust that it generates from stomping the bottom of the chamber, I phase-shift through it. I grab hold of the boot like Jack in the Beanstalk, or a kitten, and the boot rises like someone looking at what’s gotten on their boot. It appears to be Babalon, in a cowgirl outfit (her fringe, & frilly skirt is particularly “80s cowgirl”!).

I’m hesitant, but She says to me, “No, you have the flavor of the lack of [this aethyr’s] lack of awareness of its own Divinity, but you are generating your own divinity here. You are aware of your own Divinity, which is why you’re seeing it. The fact that there can be a transition, even with an Abyssal aethyr like ZAX, that shows you the Power of Understanding and not letting go of It.”

She says she’s wearing this in honor of the fact that I’m a Taurus, so I’m very honored. She sets me down (after all, She’s hundreds of feet tall), and She begins dancing. It’s like she’s in a bullfighting arena, a (nonviolent) toreadora (or “matadora” or “mater tor”: “mother for”). The bulls are all black, and She allows them, and She invites me to join Her, and I do, and a bull charges me, and everything goes black, but I reappear, and She says that I need to dance, so my astral form does so, but it becomes more like country-style partner dancing. It’s like everything that comes to take away the Divinity in Us are not working.

I ask her specifically about the blood which She accumulates, and She says people the Sorrow because that’s what’s in their hearts. She says that I have “less Sorrow” and laughs. She holds up a black sphere, looking like crystal ball in her hands. She says that I am more aware of the transparency within the crystal ball than the blackness. For me, it’s a beautiful thing to gaze upon, but not what defines me.

I express my gratitude, and continue to hold onto the compassion and concentration. I ask the governors and kings if there’s anything else to be seen in this vision. I see a black dot approach me and come about me as a prison. “Remember I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings,” a line from the poem “Sympathy” by Paul Laurence Dunbar (later used as the title of the autobiography by Maya Angelou; she herself later wrote a poem called “Caged Bird” with similar imagery to Dunbar’s). I concentrate into this phrase: the angels say that this is what I bring to this aethyr, which many others do not Understand.

I’m not sure what it means, but I note that I’m on Leaf 29a, and thus page 28b is open. Regardless, I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure. I made the call to ZAX twice.

I see the lotus-rose. I see this beautiful heavenly light shining down upon the blossom, and I can feel the light entering my physical hands from it. There’s a sense of peace and I try to circulate it in and through me. Everything’s quite balanced across the sub-abyssal and supernal worlds. This is what ZAX is, I’m told: a beautiful balance between these worlds.

It’s like my heart is starting to sing, and the lotus-rose is starting to sing, and it blossoms even more, and Babalon is appearing as a ballroom dancer in a sleek, shimmery, black outfit, the skirt cut up the outside of her thighs, with a tophat and is dancing with aid of a pole.

Now She flies and rotates about the x/z plane and lands upon the nape of my neck and I walk around, giving Her a ride about–the symbolism couldn’t be more obvious. Now She interlaces Her extended fingers into a roof, and rotates Her hands forwards and backwards about my skull: She seems to be doing quite subtle work to my sahasrara chakra and its relationship to the ajna chakra, which I cannot feel physically but know is there. This will improve the overall flow between them and also among them and the anahata chakra. There’s also extraordinarily subtle work She’s doing to my vishuddha chakra, which nevertheless (being a Taurus and all) I can feel. All of this is changing the dynamic among these four chakras.

“That’s it,” She says. She bows and takes her top hat off and gives me a wink. She briefly takes the form of Nuit and dissolves into the night sky, and I ask the angels whether there’s anything else. They say no, and I’m looking forward to tomorrow as the vision ends.

Gebofal, Day 7

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of NIA. I call BNAPSEN via the prayer as listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy, but not using the Enochian calls.

The angels show me seven points, and of course today, being the last day of the first week, their meaning is described: the points are placed along the outermost ring of a spiral. The remaining 42 days work their way through to the center of the spiral. On Day 49, the last portion of that spiral can be connected via three points of a line segment (for you can further subdivide the spiral to account for the same call three times on each of the days of the ritual, which is to say 147 points in all). This line segment connecting the final stretch of the spiral can be thought to start at the reading of Leaf 1b, ending at the reading of Leaf 1a, and the finally, on the evening of the final day, reading of the leaf in its entirety, at which point the center is made manifest. Note: this reduces the role of error which one would surely have by attempting to find the center by starting at the outside of such a spiral.

King BNAPSEN mentions that blogging about this is how a particular method of gebofal can be handed down, thus fulfilling his Binah/Saturn role. A cooperative effort to publish copies of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh with this method is suggested to me.

I point the wand at Leaf 43b; King BNAPSEN and Governors Orcanir, Chialps, and Soageel are unfolding the structure of what is going on as I scry during the gebofal ritual, which is helpful and appeals to my luminary-trined Saturn. I’m given more information and meaning now that I’ve hit Day 7, the end of the first seven days. I ask explicitly about the symbol; now that I’ve been reconciled with all of the planets, the symbol can now come forth. They show a spiral beginning at the outside of the four-pointed star, and to have the point at which the square (which is suggested by the diamond) would be circled (i.e., a circle overlapping the square have the same area), have that be at the 3.5 mark of a seven-“circle” spiral; to help visualize it, I’ve shown it below:

The same symbol from yesterday, this time with a spiral of seven revolutions; the point of revolution 3.5 is shown in red, indicating the circumference of a circle which would have the same area as the square suggested by the four points of the diamond. Decorative lotus leaves could be added along spiral.

I see rays coming down about me, and they relate to the rainbow body. They say that my mind and heart is relating better to the subtle body and therefore the rainbow body can be emerge and be more realized over time.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I comment on noticing the Leaf 43a is the first of these early leaves with its own corner and row that doesn’t have every other letter missing. I’ve filled in a few of these based on my intuition (but don’t claim them to be the be-all, end-all). I call on the angelic king BNAPSEN & governors Orcanir, Chialps, and Soageel, and they mention that there’s a parallel to ZAX and the Abyss, as well as to Ain (of the world of Adam Qadmon), which is the reverse of the spelling of this Aethyr. This, they mention, is the preview of Leaf 1 on day 49. There’s more depth to these Aethyrs than one would otherwise give credit for, so what I’m doing now is following the septenary spiral inward to its logical conclusion.

The angels instruct me to place the face of the PELE ring on the front of Leaf 43, which the book is opened to. To do so, I put the PELE ring on a finger on my left hand so that it can continue to touch the book. However, I naturally place the back of the hand upon the leaf rather than turning the ring around so that my palm remains on it. They joke about the trope of sci-fi shows to somehow “reverse the polarities” to get the reverse effect of a problem they’re trying to solve via the normal polarization. Still, there’s something to be said about this (and typing this up, I’m thinking the message that things can’t be “unchanged,” but rather changed again in an attempt to honor the previous arrangement). They are “reversing the polarities” (i.e., King BNAPSEN is reversing some of what King BYNEPOR Thursday–note that astrologically, Saturn is the great malefic while Jupiter is the great Benefic; Saturn is only half of Jupiter’s mass and so can’t undo all of it). The angels tell me to get used to this push-pull, and that this will happen several times, and why these two planets are spaced a day apart on the days of the week. I’m told that this is the nature of what happens when one is placed at the center, and why the meaning of visions can seem to reverse or change meaning. A little vibration or wave can be completely disorienting, and things can suddenly seem upside down or reversed with only a little movement.

I can see a 3D funnel-like spiral come up from the palm of my hand. They begin by showing me a 2D version of the spiral (such as that above). Then they have me look at the funnel as instead a spherical version, which reminds me of a a tennis ball which a dog has chewed, causing it to come undone at the seams, which can be looped around itself. If the inner part of the seam were smaller, then it can be looped around itself in a spiral-like manner. Then the angels tell me to contemplate this in 4D space; they hint that the geometry I will see may be too much to interpret directly.

King BNAPSEN mention that the allergy drugs I’m on have helped to make the restructuring of my subtle body easier. I see a lot of waves; this is like when an ultrasound loosens up knots in a physical body. “Behold his wonders.”

The vision ends.

Inter-scrying commentary: So, believe it or not, I’ve not read the entirety of Dee’s Monas Hieroglyphica until just now, though I’ve seen the commentary offered by Dr. Justin Sledge and Jason Louv. I also already knew that symbol by heart. A few points of contrast between his symbol and mine:

First, the spiral: his spiral naturally closes, mine remains open.

Second, is the symbol of the Tao is central, while the cross is separated from the symbol of the elements (as indicated by the divided diamond). The cross carries with it the meaning of the unfolded cube, which is the unfolding of the heart.

Third, the elements are placed along the outside rather than central to the symbol. This is important to need to balance oneself among the four elements.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

Once again, I’m shown the seven dots. The angels show me a more basic binary version of his Theorem:

The angels are saying that this is a more basic and binary form of the Monas Hieroglyphica: 20, 21, and 22, in which can be seen the force and power of Ain, as well as the natural progression leading to a 2 and a 3 (20 + 21 = 1 + 2 = 3). They show me this binary and ask me rhetorically to merge this concept with getting to a total of seven (by adding all the dots); the angels note that one gets from 7 to 15 to 31 to 63, each of which is its own form of sacredness (7 being the number of the classical astrological planets, fifteen being the sum of any Saturn square, 31 being the name of El in Gematria, and 63 being 7*9, with 9 having its special importance to Enochian as I’ve gone over in previous posts). 127 is prime and (credit to Wikipedia; float them some money, will you?) is the smallest prime that can be written as the sum of multiple consecutive odd-numbered primes: 127 is the smallest prime that can be written as the sum of the first two or more odd primes: 127 = 3 + 5 + 7 + 11 + 13 + 17 + 19 + 23 + 29, and is the sum of the sums of the divisors of the first 12 positive integers (78 is the sum of those numbers, so 11 (for the 1’s for the first 12 numbers, except 1 itself, which is already included for the number 1) then add 2, 2, 3, 2, 4, 3, 2, 5, 2, 3, 4, 6). The angels kind of want me to stop here. The angels want me to stop here as we’ve reached 27 – 1.

Taking this splitting to its normal extension, they say consider when 7 & 15 meet up opposite each other: 4 four match each other, the other four of the final row of 8 do not. If 7 and 31 meet, 4 would match each other, 12 would not. If 7 and 63 met, then 4 would meet and 28 would not. They say it has something to do with what is left over, and something about exponents. However, I’m not following a lot of the logic. I call on King BNAPSEN and Governors Orcanir, Chialps, and Soageel again. They have me pause to center and say they’re going to show me. 128 + 7 sums to 135, which is 9*15; I’m still confused because they’re switching what gets added up. They say “hold on,” and they comment that this is 27 + 7. Then they have me add 7 + 28 = 263, which is Resh, the solar letter, plus 63, which is the number already have from 26 – 1. They mention 519 but then they stop. They say to add one less than the power of 2 to a different power of 2 which is larger. They say that 519 will be telling to me. They call this my homework.

The angels have me wait. King BNAPSEN shows me the letter V which can be oriented as a 7 in Arabic numerals but in Roman numerals is 5, so together this is 12. He shows me the sun being exalted astrologically being a symbol of an exalted heart. The angels tell me to set my wand on the Holy Table and to put both hands together in prayer on both sides of the leaf, which creates an interesting energy.

I do a quick prayer asking for mercy. The angels show me a lotus flower, and show me a moon within it (note that this combination is also symbolic of the Buddhist bodhisattva deity Tara). The angels ask me to change the foot on which the BNAPSEN seal is located, so I do, crossing my legs to do so, such that my posture is reminiscent of the posture of certain martyrs and, I note, to The Hanged Man in the Tarot. I concentrate on these two images together, The Hanged Man and the lotus flower with the moon inside of it. He’s now inverted, so upright and his hair floats upward. The angels tell me to accustom myself to inversion.

The Hanged Man rising up up out of the lotus reminds me of the mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum, the lotus-jewel. The Hanged Man being number XII of the major arcana adds significance, and of course this is actually the 13th trump (since the numbering of the major arcana starts with 0, The Fool). This gives significance to the Watchtowers, which are 12×13 in dimension, thus coming to 156 letters per watchtower. I’m looking into the heart of this inverted hanged man, and the angels tell me that if I take his foot to instead be standing upon the moon as it goes through simple harmonic motion. This motion could also be seen as him going through a circular motion, front-to-back and up-and-down, creating a circle around his heart about the y- and z-axes.

They make additional analogies; if the hanged man bows before something greater than himself, that’s a certain kind of eclipse, but stretching back in ecstasy is a different kind of eclipse. There’s something about aligning with the Saturn cycle.

Now I’m atop a cross which is in outer space, and which is flying like a spaceship. At times it seems like a TOPY cross, but there seem to be fractal extensions of 2/3 size which emerge from the cross, forming a pattern. I see myself lying on the cross, with my heart at the center, causing it to fan out in a fractal pattern. I’m told that networks such as these need to meet other people so that they can grow again and not peter out at the natural upper limit of the fractal pattern. It’s like I’m traveling through space, and the cross becomes many of the same size, forming a simple bridge down to a planet. I touch the planet which is like unto Mars, but touching it causes a bit of blue to appear, terraforming it. I don’t know what this is, but on reflection, it’s a symbol of following the perpendicular in order to meet the center, or heart (note the six-rayed star in the LRP is made up of red and blue triangles); at the time, one side of the leaf I’m holding was saying “this is obvious,” the other side of the leaf was saying, “it’s not obvious at all.

They’re showing me the sun and the moon crossing each other, which of course follows this symbolism. I note that there’s an upcoming lunar eclipse, which I mistakenly think is in June (it’s in May), but they’re really trying to point me towards it. I don’t know what this is, but it’s important to them, and I’m grateful for the message.

Several times now it’s felt like the vision will stop, but it resumes. Now I see a diamond shape, a rhombus, which has a size of a diagonal that is three times the size of the other. There’s an additional correction to the symbol, which now has three-dimensionality; the main one is shown atop and rotating above a self-similar square pyramid:

Now I recall a symbol on the astral appearing like this appearing after I scried the Aethyr of ZIP about a year and a half ago. It was made of gold and I was able to use it to help me decipher tables I received about this time. It was three-dimensional and octahedral; the angels show me another one today, this time even thinner:

“You have a square (from the original symbol), but held at this angle [in three dimensions], it has to look like a rhombus.” Ultimately they say that the fusion of the old symbol with this new one is a means to perfect it. There’s a flexibility with the height of the octahedron, which I’d already had from the ZIP symbol. The angels emphasize the self-similarity.

The symbol floating above the mountain is similar to it floating above itself in the pyramid form, and there’s significance about it but I’m not to know about it. “Think of it like Re atop mounting, but because it’s merely reflecting Re, it’s like unto the moon.” The symbol is reflecting light onto the ground below, and I’m thinking of Egypt. It’s lighting up the ground below, and they’re saying that it could reflect any place on Earth. “The light will hit a central point,” and the energy will be like a thermal solar tower. I’m unclear, but the angels say that this is okay: this is laying the structure for what will happen at the end of this ritual.

There’s something about a dog, but the vision ends.