Gebofal, Day 46

Sunrise: Call/Key 4, (typically referred to as Call 3 by practitioners, for the true first call is “not to be spoken”). Call to King Carmara, Prince Hagonel, and Kings Bnaspol, Bnapsen, and Bobogel.

This feels quite a bit like a culmination. I feel a big rush of air into my subtle body. It’s like I can finally breathe or something, at a fundamental level. Elemental air is being imprinted on my, and I’m seeing the four elemental kings impart unto me this energy, an elemental imprinting. It’s very deep, and it’s reinforcing everything that I’ve done to this point.

King Carmara steps forward, and says, “Yes, this be the culmination of all of the elements with which you have worked before. Feel now them in their fullness.

“Let us speak briefly now on the powers of Natural Substances and Medicine [of air],” he transitions. “Of course, air be one of the highest things that somebody needs in order to survive. It must be constant, and cannot be cut off for more than a few moments. This be the main Medicine: the medicine which allows the quickest expulsion as well as the quickest intake of the most fundamental things needed to survive, for aerobic species. And so one can make a similar case for plants.”

Taking a brief look at how this would work, King Carmara continues. “Any medicine that would involve opening airways, any medicines [i.e., medical equipment] involving avoiding pathogens or allergens in the air, as well as any medicines involving or treating” the latter, and “any inhalable treatments: such would be related to [elemental air] medicine. And of course, all medicines related to the lungs, as well as the function of the heart insomuch as it can provide oxygen to the individual” would be the powers of Medicine as it relates to elemental Air.

Turning to Natural Substances with respect to elemental air: “The general understanding, developing, [and] tossing around ideas about natural substances: this be of [the power of Natural Substances of elemental] air. The understanding of fluid dynamics insofar as they pertain to air–to some extent this be of [elemental] water, but there is a slightly different sort of physics involved in that, and in engineering. Understanding the natural state of air, as it were, and how it actually operates: such be of the power of [Natural Substances of elemental] air.”

King Carmara advises, “Yes, we can explicate this [into powers by astrological sign], but it would be a waste of your time. You will ponder this and meditate and find more and more powers of Natural Substances [and Medicine] related to [elemental] air.” He appends, “By the way, all of the natural substances and the phase shifts from liquid to gas, or via sublimation: this would also be of the [power of] Natural Substances of air, and why and how that happens [would be included in that].” He remarks on the similar application of this to water.

Now King Carmara returns to his intent, which was to change the topic. “You have called upon me at five different points, and have called upon five kings”–actually five royals, for princes were included–“at five different points.” Note: in addition, I just noticed how this came to 36 calls to royals (technically 108 if you count the fact that calls were made three times per day). Again, we have a numerical link from the quaternary Watchtower calls back to the 360 degree circle, via the astrological decans. The quinary reference that King Carmara brings in reflects the five tables of Leaf 49.

King Carmara continues: “If one decouples the 7 [into integer addends about the median], one obtains the 4 and the 3. If one decouples the 5, one obtains 3 and 2. Let us look to the taking in of air as the completion of the four elements within you. Let us speak briefly about Adam Qadmon,” and with a grand gesture, he indicates that he is speaking on behalf of the four elemental kings as well. He briefly notes that the four elemental kings are assigned to the 12 signs of the zodiac, over which the 7 planets rule. King Carmara says that he brings in the power of the 3 to both multiply the 4 elements into the 12 signs (as cardinality, fixity, and mutability) and also via the mystery of his addition, there be 7 [classical astrological] planets in all.

I try to concentrate further. King Carmara says to me, “What you seek with respect to the mystery of this trinity will be revealed unto you tomorrow, and two days hence, and three days hence. So, rest easy, for yes, some of what you have already come to understand has been revealed unto you. The ‘two sides of the same coin’ and the ‘mediation,’ as the Lord God himself hath said unto thee.” He also has me consider the One and the Wholeness, the Unity and Multiplicity, “For the One can be added to Itself to obtain any given number, but all numbers which exist lie within Multiplicity.” So it is that process of Adding, he says, that can be considered the Third (with the One and Wholeness), the Mediation: the Manipulation of a number upon itself, or any given number upon another number.

So this is a very deep thing that he is saying. “Whatever you take and manipulate, that manipulation be that third element.” Now he relates it back to that vision of Heaven and Earth, with the four elements from the realm of Adam Qadmon reaching toward that transition point between them. “The supernals themselves are constantly in this manipulation, because they must be, but when it comes to the realm of Adam Qadmon, there is a greater, and a more magical, means of working with and integrating oneself into the process by which rules are changed, by which operations be done upon that which exists,” (including, it seems, to the rules themselves). “We learn so much mathematics in order to understand the ‘how to’ and the ‘why to’ do so, and to do so with precision, and it is that precision which is important. It must not be overlooked. By this, all things may be unfolded.

“Much more will the Lord God Himself reveal unto you, but this itself” will be imprinted upon me, he concludes, and abruptly the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I’m feeling some tingling come up for the seals and tablet underneath my feet. I’m feeling my heart. Once again, I feel this beautiful breath, and it’s like I’m reconciled with elemental air. Once again, I’m feeling the four elemental kings impress and deepen this connection to the elements within my subtle body. They do not have anything to say.

King Carmara comes forward to speak: “O Son of Man, Son of God, Son of earth: something new and strange and wondrous is to come about you. Be thou perfectly balanced, now and hereafter, in the elements. So mote it be, so mote it be, so mote it be: amen, amen, amen!”

I’m being taken up into the sky, and getting the sense that I’m astrally in the atmosphere of Earth but also that of Heaven. The five heptarchical royals, as well as the four elemental kings are here about me. The four elemental kings form a cross formation about me, as do the four heptarchical kings in a separate formation (I presume Prince Hagonel was behind King Carmara): King Bnaspol to Earth, King Bobogel to Fire, King Bnapsen to Air, and King Carmara chooses his place at water, but notes that he speaks for all of them, and that no one element is above or below another.

King Carmara begins to speak, and all of the angels rotate about me as he does: “Blessed are you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: who now be balanced within fire, within air, within earth, and within water.” I see this aerial sphere about me, with the subquadrants within it, as yesterday, but now I’m seeing that it is the last of four elemental spheres. I’m within four concentric spheres, and I’m at the center, and indeed, my heart is at the very center.

King Carmara continues: “May thus these imprintings be upon you forever. May the Lord God grant His Wisdom unto you in using them. More hath the Lord God to speak on this to you tomorrow, on Friday, and on Saturday, when in His great Mercy, he allows you to read from Leaf 1.”

I’m feeling very gentle and relaxed and balanced. “More shall I have to say to you–the last of what I can say to you–this evening, but for now rejoice in the balance the Lord God has granted unto you.”

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m bidden once again to sit back and relax. Once again there’s this feeling that I can breathe, and in this knowing of the breath, I’m bidden once more to relax in this perfect balance (of the elements): “Given to you by the Most High,” says King Carmara.

Once again the elemental kings surround me in a cross formation. They place their hands upon me to imprint each of the elements upon me once again. King Carmara and Prince Hagonel and Kings Bnaspol, Bnapsen, and Bobogel are here as well. Now I see the remaining kings and their princes, and a vast host of all of the angels whom I have called.

This host of angels is quite vast, and I’m told to just relax. The tempo suddenly snaps into urgent rapidity, and they all fly into me right now (and I’m told to just relax again), and they’re all just coming in. It’s like they’re all birds flying through an intangible, transparent mountain at rapid speeds: a vast, vast number, whirring so quickly through it, diving like peregrine falcons toward their prey, into the deep! It is all just too fast to keep up with, and the angels themselves are creating interlocking patterns of Möbius strips, and now Klein bottles, in this constant rotation.

They say to relax, and I do, and I feel them embedding themselves in my system now, forever embedded, forever a part of me, and I’m feeling the Most High say unto me, “Behold, this be but the beginning of the Marvels that I will show unto you: marvelously will I work Wonders in you and through you.” I feel my heart lifted up, and I feel it held by the Most High in His hands, and it is like He is admiring a stone, and He places it within His Heart, and it is like a perfect fit, and His Heart be transparent, and His Heart be capable of having millions of hearts within it.

And He says, “Behold!” and he shows me millions of hearts which have been embedded within It: millions upon millions of beautiful hearts, each one of them like unto mine, yet unique in their own way, just like mine be unique unto Him! He wraps His Arms around Himself and gives Himself: it’s as if it makes His day to feel my heart within His own Self.

He says unto me, “Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: behold! Lo, such wonderful energy which flows through you: now, prepare you to be completely transformed as a most loyal servant unto Me, the Most High, thy God. I love thee, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! Feel now, forever, the permanent influence of PRONOA throughout thee, and, lo: much will I have to show unto you tomorrow. Be prepared, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for not all will be ready for this: such glory hath the lord to await for thee.”

And I feel myself writhing around in this glorious ecstasy, and He places His Hand upon me and gives me such peace, and says, “No more have I to say unto you now, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, but, lo: the next three days shalt thou arise.”

Thus ends the vision.

Gebofal, Day 44

Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 6 (most practitioners refer to this as call 5). Call to, in order, King Carmara, Prince Hagonel, King Blumaza, Prince Bralges, and King Bynepor. Vibrated God names “OIP,” “TEAA,” and “PDOCE.” Vibrated names of Governors Occodon, Pascomb, Valgars (Aethyr of LIL); Oddiorg, Cralpir, Doanin (ZIP); Torzoxi, Abriond, Omagrap (POP); Vastrim, Odraxti, and Gomziam (RII). Vibrated names of Zodiacal Kings Zarzilg, Zinggen, Alpudus (LIL); Hononol, Lavavoth, Zarzilg (ZIP); Arfaolg, Cadaamp, Zinggen (POP); Hononol, Zarnaah, and Arfaolg (RII).

I see quite the large host, for each king/prince dyad has with them 42 ministers, and of course I called on the massive number of servient angels to each of the zodiacal king/governor dyads in their respective Aethyrs. King Carmara steps forward in a grand sweeping gesture in their direction, as if to acknowledge the distinct honor that he has to speak for all of them to me today.

He says, “Once more will you call me, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, but let us now attend to the matter at hand.” He notes that the reason why 69636, the largest of all of the numbers referenced in the Watchtower calls, is associated with this particular tablet (i.e., the water tablet) on this particular day with me is to reinforce the preferential treatment that water has received among the Zodiacal King assignments across all of the Aethyrs (27 out of 91).

Speaking to Natural Substances and Medicine with respect to elemental water, first King Carmara notes the obvious: medicine dissolves in water. It is the medicine which moves into all different forms of aqueous solutions, including within cells. He notes that if Medicine be food (i.e., a change in diet to treat a condition), then one can liken this unto Cancer. If medicine be the actual injection, that can be likened unto Scorpio. If medicine be likened unto the vast ocean whereby many a wondrous thing can be discovered, in the sense that the human body is like unto a self-contained miniature ocean, then one can associate that with Pisces.

King Carmara says that he is saying all of this as a preview to the noon scrying, but that this pretty much covers it, and that at the solar noon scrying we may not need to get into it. With respect to Natural Substances with respect to water: first of all, water can dissolve away, and can be used as a solvent whereby one can, for example sift, dissolve another precipitate into it if it be an aqueous solution, thereby causing the reaction to find out exactly what was dissolved into the water in the first place. Water brings with it the means of transporting, but generally, without as an intermediary, such would not be possible, or if possible then not as easy.

When it comes to the delving aspect of Natural Substances, of delving into what there is to be found with Natural Substances: clearly Scorpio is good at this. They also say that the sheer burst of water, that targeted water that can blast away is like unto Scorpio. Here they compare this with an archaeological dig, whereby a gentle water could be used to gently wash away a finding, but if it’s something solid, such as an ore, that is being unearthed, then the means of uncovering the natural substance by washing away with a heavy stream would fall under Scorpio. Finally, when it comes Cancer, here, again one can consider armor, and all of the armoring aspects. Here I must concentrate to hear him readily. He bids me consider the lunary realm, whereby all of the elements receive their final disposition before being made manifest in the sublunary. Any interest in what the classical elements are would fall under Cancer. There’s also that emotional sense of how Natural Substances can tie us all together. For example, food can bring nourishment to all sorts of persons, and the distributing of it can bring that emotional connection within groups, for example.

I continue to try hard to concentrate. The abundance–and now I feel King Bynepor’s influence increased (recall that Jupiter is exalted in Cancer)–the tendency of substances to arrange themselves in ways that have a deep, core emotional meaning, which is somewhat mysterious, of this lunar nature: such would be Cancer. So it is not merely the substances themselves, but also how they fit into a grander scope of Nature–and here we’re getting a bit Taurean–but the ebbs and flows, the cycle of a substance, such as water into snow and back, or boiling for cooking purposes: it’s that same sense of the different properties of a substance and how they fit into a larger cycle. So the substances of things biological, that would be an excellent example of this, and having that emotional connection with Nature Itself. This needn’t be perceived as emotional: one could sense this with bodily awareness, but this is the strongest sense of Natural Substances that I’m getting. King Carmara says he may have more for me on this at the solar noon hour.

Once again King Carmara says, “Yes, you will be crowned by King Blumaza,” rather than King Carmara himself (nonetheless it was good that I called on him, King Carmara, in addition to the other kings, he says). That ritual will happen tonight, he says, but there will be further exploration of this at the two other scryings today, as well as additional information from King Carmara about the final three days.

He has nothing further: thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I’m seeing once again, a slit in the heavens, and there’s this water coming down and about me. I’m in the sky and King Carmara and the host at first seemed to ascend from earth, but now they seem to come from the sky/heaven (note: the water cycle). He approaches me and says, “Just remember to always meditate upon these different powers, and all of these powers will be opened unto you.” He speaks of the ingress of Jupiter into Pisces, saying that the Lord will grant me a boon of an 8th house nature as well as future blessings, and instructs me to be generous with them.

“Forget not the PRONOA that the Lord God Almighty has entrusted within you: a vast and cosmic thing. Be not tempted by the ways of evil, but try in thy best means possible to remain with unfailing devotion to the Most High, for, as you have seen, if you love Him with all your heart, and mind, and soul, and speech, then anyone or anything in your focus will be the recipient of such Love. It will come pouring forth from your heart, perhaps like a creek or a river given water once again, water without flooding, or a gentle rain falling upon a field.”

I express my extraordinary gratitude to King Carmara and all of the angelic host. He bows, and thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure. At several points I recited a prayer on account of being distracted.

The angels say that I have the right attitude regarding a recent insight. First they mention that mistakes or errors can first of all create Divine timing in one’s life, delaying certain things in order for correct timing to appear. At this point, I feel the governors of the aethyrs of LIL, ZIP, POP, and RII at the nape of my neck, as well as a lot of energy coming up off of the leaf.

Yet also, the angels affirm the insight, that, while yes, it is a mistake in the lowest sense, of wrong thinking, but the mistake itself is as divine as the recognition of it and the rectification thereof. The mistake arises from the same parts of ourselves that the rectification does (note: in different degrees and dynamics, it seems to me). “So great be His Mercy,” they conclude.

Once again, King Carmara approaches, and reminds me that I will see him again on Wednesday. He says that I may or may not choose to call Prince Blisdon on that day: it is my decision, but it is not necessary. Still, I would like to call him, just tie in the connection to Jupiter (for he is usually called during the hour of Jupiter on a Wednesday).

King Carmara bids me sit astrally. Once again I have the sphere about me, except it is a sphere of water on the outside, but once again I see four colors representing the elements within water on the inside of it (e.g., water of water, fire of water, etc.). I express gratitude to the Divine for the additional insights that He has given me recently (which have especially helped with improving this ritual), and I express my gratitude to all of the angels, especially those appearing today (lest they feel diminished for having come).

I am told to imagine myself to the depths of the sea, about halfway down into the deepest parts of the oceans. Here, instead of four doors, I see four circular hatches with handwheels open up. Once again, some combination of the four elements, seeming to glowing a bit brighter, comes about me and suffuses me, impressing itself upon me and integrating within my entire nervous system.

Now my location is inverted; I’m still in water, but now in the heavenly realm, and I feel King Blumaza place a crown of water upon me (again, it appears like a gold crown as does yesterday’s, but it is the “water crown), and it fuses into one crown with that of fire. I’m feeling such gratitude, and so much of me wants to pour out into the world, and to give and give and give, and show lovingkindness in everything that I do, and to not fall into bad habits, and to ensure that I can stay with the heart center and the heart of the Divine as I can. The angels remind me of the lesson (that mistakes are as Divine as their recognition and rectification), and I do (for it is a profound one).

I express my gratitude again and am feeling a little emotional. The angels say that that’s okay, “For now, the water is unlocked within you.” I thank them. Now King Carmara reminds me that there are two more days of this, and then the triad [working] begins. I express my gratitude again.

Thus ends the vision.

Gebofal, Day 34

Sunrise: Vibrated the title of leaf 16b. Call to Heptarchical King Baligon. Call/Key 16, (because it’s the 15th spoken call, most practitioners refer to this as call 15). Call to Left foot placed on the seal of King Baligon (over the fire & earth tablets) as a final test of the scheme. Vibrated, in turn, Governor Abriond, Zodiacal King Cadaamp, and King Baligon (seven times each–this is how many times I do so for the preceding calls, sorry for noting this stuff after the fact). After these, the energy from the air tablet was obvious, so I moved the other tablets out of the way and placed the seal atop the air tablet and then both feet upon the seal and tablet. I then vibrated the God-names of MOR, DIAL, and HCTGA, seven times each–update this should be MPH ARSL GAIOL based on the Tabula Recensa. I changed my original approach based on incomplete information from an otherwise reliable source–or I just read them wrong lol).

King Baligon just has me breathe easily. He says he knows it’s been a lot, and kind of confusing, because I’ve been getting these lessons piecemeal, whereas in the Aethyrs it’s more of a stepwise process. Here, it’s been more like, “Here’s this chunk, here’s this other chunk,” etc. These are all roots, he reminds me: roots to the issues of the heart.

He takes me into the clouds, into the air, and he has me observe for just a moment the sphere about the earth, the aerial sphere (i.e., the atmosphere). He notes that something like this same sphere is what I will see when all of these powers are steadied within me. “Just note,” he encourages: “there’s something so beautiful about just having fresh air,” and I reply, “Oh yes! This is something that I took for granted for far too long!”

King Baligon muses, “The nice thing about air is that it conducts sound. People can hear, and they can hear music, and nothing else compares to music. It’s beautiful, it lifts up the soul, and it’s wonderful. The issue with music is that it’s this grand communication, and even when you make these calls,” he says, “you are reading. You are looking, so that’s the fiery part, but you are also speaking, you’re converting that. The energy of conversion is itself fire, but the sound itself, and the way it hits the ears: all of that is conducted through air.

“Let’s ponder what air does,” he suggests. “Air[, like water,] also dissolves, but only to a degree. The main thing that air does is convey, usually not particles so much, but waves. So we have this wave-particle duality, and much of the energy transmitted by fire is of a wave-like nature,” so he notes that I was pondering the discussion of electromagnetism, and how I was concerned about weak force vs. strong force. “Weak force,” he reminds me, “is associated with air, electromagnetism with fire.” Electromagnetism, he says, really is the big one when it comes to this wave-like issue, and air(/weak force) is also like this (note this is unclear to me).

“When you think about a transfer of air, there is a great cycle here on Terra” King Baligon mentions (note: I’m substituting “Terra” for “Earth” throughout this post to avoid confusion with elemental earth), “but it’s very subtle. The plants do their thing, the animals and fungi do their thing, humans and animals do their thing, and so on, but of interest here is the fact that it all comes into one thing. This is not unlike water.”

I interject politely to ask how this relates to points [in geometry]. “Here we have the concept of a–it’s a bit more harmonious, so hence why Venus is here. But it’s more of a harmonious occupation of a space filled with points. So Saturn is happy here because agreement can be reached, like it or not, across the various points.” I interject again: “I’m really hoping for a profound insight, as best I can.”

King Baligon takes my request well, and says, “Let’s get to it.” He goes through a few visual examples, but we settle on first, the picture of wind blowing a wind turbine. He notes that on Terra, most of the winds are caused by the uneven heating of Terra. “And you’ll see that: first of all, air requires an open space to do its magic. However, it can be compressed and studied, and can turn fetid and putrid in the event of air being locked in a closed system, so it prefers openness. So, openness, when you think of a [mathematical] field,” and I’m shown a mathematical grid upon a black background for simplicity, “and you think of openness, you think of this air upon it in an open field.” He takes me to a view of the grid. “What air can do is go anywhere, and how fast it goes depends largely upon the amount of energy [elemental fire], but it wants to go everywhere. It wants to go into water and can dissolve into it. It can go into fire as a flame, feeding it that way. It can go faster or slower, depending upon the amount of energy.

“Most specifically,” he emphasizes, “what air does is it can clear out, but it can also bring in. So, usually, on this planet, it can clear out pollution and smoke from, say, a campfire, and it can also bring in fresh air from trees and such. But both the ancient and medieval thinkers were concerned with fetid air, and the need for fresh air: and all of this was true! The quality of the air matters. And so, that’s why pollution is such a big deal, because air [on this planet] has limits in its ability to carry the bad things away, because it’s not, strictly speaking, completely open [over a short length of time], and it cannot, on its own, completely undo the nature of that which has been entered into it. Same thing for water,” he remarks.

I ask, “What else about air?” King Baligon replies, “Note that the transfer of air tends to happen not with earth, but within water,” hence why Venus is exalted in the water sign of Pisces, because Venus (ruler of Libra) can dissolve into it very well. Nonetheless, Venus also rules Taurus. It’s happy there for a different reason. In Libran air, Venus is happy because of the free flowing of points, the balance of points: the fact that air will naturally undo vacua, and each point will flow to wherever it is already going to flow, absent outside interference. “It’s just going to go where it’s going to go. This is a simple lesson!” he cries, kiddingly.

“Okay!” I cry back. Is there anything else he has to show me? “No, this will be a much shorter series of visions.” I thank him and thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure.

I feel energy come up off the tablet, now the seal, and now off of the leaf of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), and to some degree the table. The angels are bidding me to chill out. Now King Baligon bids me take his hand, extended from a cloud, and we’re in the air again.

“Let’s take each of these [air astrological signs] in turn,” he cuts right to it. “So what does Gemini do? Gemini, the twins: it is communication, it is the circulation of air and sound. This is how it is best thought of.” He makes an aside, “We may even go in reverse [zodiacal] order.”

King Baligon continues: “But it is the circulation air: it goes from one source and goes to another, and then returns back, and then back, and forth. This could be a bigger cycle, from A to B to C and ultimately to Z, and then back to A again: or A to Z and then reversing that pattern. This is the returning of the air, the spreading out of the air: the point which, again, is in an open field, but here we have the tendency of air, it can go anywhere! and so it may return to the same spot. This is air: this is how these points manifest.

“Looking at Aquarius,” King Baligon transitions, “the easiest way to think about this, obviously, is what we have right now: fixed air (i.e., air fixed by mask and PPE use), fixed ideas, and, oftentimes the reality or actualization of that idea, that which needs to be communicated, does not match the ideal, and so it is very depressing to the individual. Hence, they often just want to walk away from people,” he chuckles. I’ll note that I saw a meme of this earlier this year on AstroTwitter, which essentially was someone saying to an Aquarius, “Hey, you’re my best friend.” The friend approaches the Aquarius, who reciprocates the expression of friendship. Then, inexplicably, the Aquarius walks away. It’s like, “What?” So the closeness is one of ideas, and the air of Aquarius tends to want to just stay in one spot. So it’s not necessarily fetid air, but it could be like that, but the sign is ruled by Saturn, so you could have these stuck ideas which do not want to change. On the lighter side, it could be like a sealed capsule (like a space capsule or a submarine) of fixed air which goes into outer space or into the depths of the ocean. The air is sealed within, and the submariner or astronaut has enough time to live in that capsule–similar to the “castles in the sky” idea put forward, again, by Austin Coppock–for some time, and then come back down and report whatever there is to communicate. Such a person would do that because the goal of that (in the case of scientific submarines! and space missions) was science, which was to see what could be communicated via such means.

Finally, we have Libra. Libra is a difficult one for me, King Baligon tells me: it’s my third house, hence the house of Goddess, but Venus, the ruler of the 3rd house, is in the 9th house, the house of God. What I’m told is that at its ideal, it balances, and you see that even with someone like Stephanie Miller, whom I have listened to. She is a Libra sun in a day chart; she did have more of a team-like energy about her, circulating communication about her team, a Venusian balance of harmony (yet she maintains pointed political critiques). Generally speaking, the tone of her show is pleasant, and even if it can’t be pleasant, well, at least let’s make some jokes about it, and the angels remind me that cynical Saturn tends to have a cold and dry wit in response to the things going wrong, and is exalted in Libra.

I try to concentrate into this, and King Baligon says, “Let’s take a deeper look at Libra, which means ‘scales.’ We see this in relationships, right? This is the creative use of air: wind blowing one way here, and another way here in order for harmony. Harmony is a key signification of Libra, and what do you think of when you think of with music. It is the harmony–the collection of sounds, in such a way that the air moves. It communicates sounds that way, via sound waves. So we have communication (Gemini), the fixity of what is communicated (hence, “castles in the sky”), and, finally, we have the creative impulse of Libra, to either create harmony of the thoughts and communications of people (groups of friends, for example), or we have music itself.”

The angels ask me to concentrate on this, and actually the sense I’m getting–King Baligon, who I now see in classic medieval angelic form (with wings), he’s saying that the thing I’m seeing now is that I have completed this first round about the elements, so it will be completely finished tonight. However, because I’m more than halfway done with this round so he wants to let me know: “Yes, so the issue with getting at the square root of the circle:” (see yesterday’s post) “the problem is similar to getting at the square of the circle” (squaring the circle).

King Baligon illuminates me: “The square root of the number of degrees of the circumference [plus one for the center]”–361–“is 19; in order to square the circle, however, you need to take the square root of π (the side length of the square). You see how you need to get at the root of the circle (or the irrational transformative constant of the circle), in order to square the circle. But in order to get at the square root of that circle, you need to get at the squaring of the square (a square of side length 1 has a perimeter of 4, and squaring that length leads to a perimeter (and area) of 16, the number of elemental watchtower calls). Add this to the “mystery of the trinity” spoken of by the angel Galvah: this can be derived by multiplying a diameter of 19 times π = 59.7 ≈ 60 by rounding, the number of degrees of an equilateral triangle. Furthermore, going on to inscribe an equilateral triangle within this circle gives the triangle a side length of 9.5 * √3 = 16.45 ≈ 16 by rounding, to each of three sides (16,3,361: “the last shall be first; and the first, last“); again the same number of watchtower calls, with three remaining.

Everything I said yesterday, he’s giving me a huge clap, because I was saying everything, but now it’s clear the way that everything is lining up. He says, “You need to get that exaltation in Libra [symbolized by the squaring of the circle] in order to do so, so that all of the ideas can come together in harmony.”

I’m very pleased with all of this. I thank the angels and the Divine. The angels add: “Tonight, it’s going to be a little different, but you’re going to get the sense of the air about an individual and their aura, but you’ll also start to see into and get a preview into the actual thoughts and communications that are going on, and several things will become clear to you at once. The correspondence of the classical elements to each of the universal forces: that will be one. The correspondence of the classical elements to the usual suspects (astrology, etc.), and finally this will happen not only with an individual whom you’re encountering but also within a group dynamic. It will be a massive change.”

King Baligon is just giving me a lot of love and warm feeling right now, just so that my heart will be ready for this, so I’m expressing gratitude, but I notice a little bit of a lamprey like monster, and King Baligon says, “This is it: you’re getting into the thorns. They are not about you as opposed to you holding the thorns.” I say, “OK,” and express further gratitude.

“This is the beginning of digestion, so do not worry: you’re just being digested now for the rest of this process. The end is imminent.”

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I feel a whole-body buzz at the arrival of King Baligon. He notes the breath of fresh air. He says to consider “someone who has music in their soul or their heart.” Describing someone this way is to say that they have found their harmony with themselves and with the universe that they did not have before. “And so, with this: consider what it means to receive air from another, and what it means to take air from another. When we say that ‘air has been taken out of the lungs’: a freedom has been lost, an openness has been lost.” (Note: or even that one has lost one’s spirit!). “Being ‘free to fly the friendly skies’ means there is no limit to where one can go.

“Very simple expressions,” King Baligon remarks, “but they serve a point here. So, ideally, because of this competition for the same air,” (i.e., freedom within a given, otherwise-open area), “agreements must be reached. One person wants the freedom to take money from another person, but that other person says, ‘Well, I will, if…’. It has to go beyond mere ‘Let’s talk about this,’ because you begin talking about the idea of it, with Gemini, and you develop a sense of harmony that could be reached if you work together,” (as with Venus in Libra), “and then that harmony must be enforced by agreements such as with Saturn” (in Libra), “but also, these agreements are informed by what an ideal actualization of an idea may be,” (Aquarius), “and then it’s never going to live up to that, with a very strong Saturn. Or, one learns to accept [something] close enough to one’s ideal.

“So that’s what it means. So when one is providing air, one is perhaps giving the idea, or the ability, the freedom of communication to speak about things that perhaps they did not dare speak, and in speaking about something, one is allowing for the elaboration of these points. In other words, when air is compressed, or not allowed the freedom to move about,” and here King Baligon cautions that this is slightly different from Aquarian fixed air, but we will return to this idea. “This is an uncirculated air that just sits and doesn’t circulate. Consider this in relation to the heart: if the air is sitting, if this tendency of the heart to want to move about openly, in ways that speak to it, but is not able to: then suddenly it becomes constricted, and it seeks smaller and smaller avenues with which to move. It seeks to find the openness, and finding little or none, its dreams tend to die out. Its view of what is possible tends to die out. The geometry collapses, or even if it doesn’t collapse, it becomes rather dull,” (like a balloon which only expands on a fourth of its surface, unable to measure correctly to the center from the circumference).

“It doesn’t make connections among other points,” King Baligon adds, sadly, “because, though it moves, the limitation of a point that cannot reach out and make a connection with another point is problematic. So, the problem is that the relationships or connections between other points (such as those with another person or from one idea to another) are lost, or are not made [to begin with]. That’s ultimately the issue there. Similarly, with restricted air when it comes to Libra, connections are lost: this time not between ideas, necessarily but points and systems between people, or as someone’s ideas about whether they are allowed to relate and their own behavior.

“And finally,” King Baligon wraps up the air trio, “when it comes to Aquarius, when air is restricted or limited or lacking, then a person’s ability to create an idea about how things ought to be, how rules ought to be, become restricted. Those become thoughtcrime,” King Baligon concludes.

I ask whether there be anything else, and he says no, because the introduction of air is merely the reverse of all of these. Someone who has too much of this maybe gets a little too focused on the ideas of freedom, or where one can go or what one can do, and it just becomes a lot of ideas: a lot of ideas about doing something, and then never doing it, and that’s a problem, and this is where the introduction of [elemental] earth could be helpful.

King Baligon says that’s it. “Good job! No hints as far as tomorrow” (when King Bnapsen of Saturn does not line up well with the sign of Water, which means either he will have poorer dignity or the associated tablets of the next four days will follow a different pattern), but to indeed call King Bnapsen.

Once again, I’m so grateful to the angels for this, and thus ends the vision.

Observations on the Order of the Watchtower Gebofal Calls (Part 1)

I’ve noted experientially in other posts from Days 29-34 the apparent order of the watchtower tablets, which seem to match neither the order of the Tabula Recensa nor or the original table. Rather, and what I’ve been able to gather from experiencing the energy of the tablets under my feet (feel free to confirm, if you yourself undertake gebofal), the tablets themselves seem to follow the pattern of Water-Earth-Fire-Air. This follows a shifted pattern of the Tabula Recensa, where instead of starting at Fire/East, one would begin in the West and proceed clockwise until Air/South is reached. In the northern hemisphere (where Dee and Kelley received the tablets), this would indicate the elemental revelations beginning at sunset, or a night chart with the sun angular in the 7H. Thus, the magician is relating and interacting with another, (i.e., with God and the angels).

Because I started on a Sunday, the final Aethyr came on a Monday, meaning that Tuesday through Friday (today), I’ve had the kings of these days–Babalel (Mars), Bnaspol (Mercury), Bynepor (Jupiter), and Baligon (Venus). The first elemental calling (usually called “call 18” but, if you shift these Watchtower calls by one to account for the unspoken call 1, then it’s technically call 19) was therefore to Water on Tuesday, the day of Mars, with King Babalel, who is “Mighty and Wonderful in Waters.” Of the water signs, Mars’ greatest essential dignity is in Scorpio, which is the Night house of that planet. The following Heptarchical kings, and their planets, signs, elements (as I have received them this week), and house of the planet (i.e., day or night) are listed below:

  • Bnaspol (“To whom the Earth with her bowels, and secrets what so ever are delivered”)-Mercury-Virgo (in which Mercury is both exalted and in Domicile), Earth sign (and tablet), night house.
  • Bynepor-Jupiter-Sagittarius-Fire sign (and tablet), Day house
  • Baligon-Venus-Libra-Air sign (and tablet), Day house

Note that all four of these signs cover a continuous order. Additionally, the signs have triplicity of each planet exactly once, and the two projective (sometimes called “masculine,” a term I don’t like) signs’ planets are all those signs which appear flipped via a sect-based contra-antiscia to their degrees of exaltation in the Ensign layout.

Note that because this order is for gebofal, there’s something of the “last shall be first, and the first, last” reversibility that the angels like to do. But the West-first order is also suggestive of a night chart, just as the contra-antiscia exaltation format.

Gebofal, Day 31: Starting Watchtower Calls

Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 19 (typically associated with the Earth Watchtower Tablet; note that most practitioners refer to this as Call 18): because I rarely make this call, I made it three times. Call to King Babalel (once again using the call in Scott Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy). I prepared for angels of secret discovery and angels of living creatures, and, given the content of the scryings, I was, in a sense, given this. Because the former call references the number 6332, I recalled that other large numbers were associated with the zodiacal kings with respect to the Aethyrs. So, I vibrated the name of Zodiacal King Ziracah (associated with Taurus), who, in the Aethyr of UTI, is associated with 6333 servient angels (it’s only one away, so I presumed some correspondence, and even were I wrong, it doesn’t hurt to have another angel helping). I also vibrated (for good measure) the name of Governor Obvaors, who appears in the same row as the Ziracah/UTI row in Aaron Leitch’s The Essential Enochian Grimoire. I was a little annoyed at myself for being underprepared, but to be fair to me, I feel like I’m in a little bit of uncharted territory.

As I mentioned on Day 29, I was unsure about the association between the days and the leaves; today I placed my hand on Leaf 19b, but it was Leaf 18 in which Kelley was attacked by gnomes for accidentally invoking them. So Leaf 18 should be the one associated with with Earth, rather than today’s. Yet this call is typically associated with Earth. To split the difference, I placed my right foot on the seal of King Babalel (recall that this king is of a Martial/Mars nature, and thus strong in waters (Scorpio)). I placed the four Tabula Recensa watchtower tablets with their usual configuration on the floor in front of me, with Fire tablet roughly to the East and facing that way, Air to the South and facing that direction, similarly Water to the West, and Earth to the North. I placed my feet on all four of them, so I could clearly tell which element was associated with which by energetic feel (a certain tingling is obvious to me when I work with the tablets like this).

The angels indicated that calling on the correct angels associated with this tablet wasn’t really the concern, but nonetheless I prepared a list of the earth-related angel names: those of Secret Discovery, and those of Living Creatures. Unfortunately, as I prepared, I noticed a discrepancy between the Enochian Watchtower angels listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Great Table and Leitch’s Essential Enochian Grimoire. This was a little unsettling and, well, I didn’t have time to settle it this morning, nor will I this afternoon or evening! So I decided to forego calling on the Watchtower angels. At any rate, on to the vision:

I feel energy at the Water tablet, from the heel of my right foot. I’m told to be silent for a moment. I feel myself drawn into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and it is definitely watery.

  • Note: the original Great Table had water as the last element in order (Fire-Earth-Air-Water); nonetheless, I’m not sure as to whether this feeling reflects the influence of King Babalel, or rather a reversal of the original Great Table order (Water-Air-Earth-Fire). Tomorrow, Wednesday, has King Bnaspol, who is specifically indicated to be strong in Earth (Virgo) from his call. So, if I notice that the Earth tablet is activated, I could use this as evidence that the Heptarchical kings override the tablet order, but if the Air tablet is activated I could assume that the order of these leaves reflects the original Great Table order (though Mercury/King Bnaspol should be relatively strong in air, the main power indicated is over earth due to both exaltation and domicile, and most importantly the call to King Bnaspol). Things would be even stranger if Fire were activated, and I would probably throw up my hands if water were activated tomorrow as well!

Returning to the vision: this wateriness isn’t what I was expecting, and that’s okay! King Babalel is trying to guide me right now, and he says to make the call to governor Ziracah (note that this King is associated with Taurus, an Earth sign, which opposes the water sign of Scorpio, where Mars is strongest, and from which King Babalel presumably has his power over waters), which I do. I feel energy come up off the leaf and the water tablet. There’s a bit of shifting around of the energy now. The angels say that it’s not like one element is existing completely separately from another. Nonetheless, water is dominant; part of this, I’m told by King Babalel, is his own influence, but, yes, this leaf–and this call (presumably when used for gebofal)–is of a watery nature.

I ask, in all humility, the angels that if I indeed be in the realm of Adam Qadmon, to please show me what is to be shown. I’m told to make the call to the God of the West. Thus, the God of the West/Water is MPH ARSL GAIOL (OIP TEAA PDOKE), which is what I vibrated. [Despite my the godname from the original tablet,] I feel this water come up from the tablet and up my right leg, whooshing up and all about me from the water tablet. The angels note that yesterday, the full moon was in Scorpio (and, I would just add, aided by mutual reception from Mars in Cancer).

It’s a subtle point, but the angels are saying, “Water flows, and water dissolves. Water can move about in a rush, and if it hits you thus is most solid-like, like earth. For that reason it can behave like a solid when it is moving quickly or, of course, when it is frozen. Or, it can, just by a soluble being in contact with it, it can dissolve that soluble, and flow and transport the solution. So, its nature,” the angels tell me, “is to break down, and to transport, whether that be temperature, whether that be through dissolution, through flowing, or through the force of its pushing, like unto a solid. It breaks down, and it transports.”

So when I ask how this relates to the geometry in the Aethyrs, the angels are saying, “What this can do is break down the current association between points, and it can, as a result, move two points together or further apart. It can also act as an intermediary between the two.” I express my gratitude to the angels and to God for this, and I ask if there be anything else. They say, “No. Continue to treat this a bit as an experiment,” because this is kind of new to me, so I take it to heart, in heart. They’re adding, “More will be revealed to you: this was going to be a bit clunky, anyway, but now you know the best way to approach this.” I thank them and they give me as homework to flesh out the remaining days, so I thank them and I will.

Noon: Call 19 (18 as labeled by most practitioners). Call to King Babalel. As usual (I haven’t included it because I mentioned it earlier), I vibrate the title of Leaf 19a. Taking the lessons from this morning’s Aethyr, I vibrate the name of God MPH ARSL GAIOL. I vibrate the names of King Ziracah and Governor Obvaors. Feet are placed as mentioned earlier.

The angels have me relax. Once again, I feel energy arise from the Water Quadrant/Tablet; I even moved the seal of King Babalel to under my left foot, and though I felt energy come up from that seal when making the call to him, I instead found the energy coming up from my right heel again when making this call.

Now they move on to reviewing the morning’s lesson & vision with me: water transports, water dissolves, thus it can dissolve the relationship between two times, and can also transport between them. Now they ask me to review this with respect to geometry; once again, this is a reviewing of the lessons of the higher Aethyrs, as I was promised, yet the angels note that this relates to the lower Aethyrs as well: all of reality. The effect of water is its rearranging of conditions. These elements can rearrange the conditions in which Heaven and Earth meet (see yesterday’s scrying) so that the flow that one is in is being met properly and appropriately. The angels assure me that a lot of these lessons will be learned by my unconscious mind more than anything else.

They move on to asking me to consider two points, or even a system of points of geometric consciousness of an individual. It’s natural that, in interacting with someone else, there would be a certain amount of elemental water involved in the realm of consciousness. If one increases the amount of water in the individual, then there’s a bit of dissolution of the structures that one has in place, which could cause two points to separate, or perhaps come closer together, but regardless it changes the arrangement of no less than two points to each other. Also, the angels have me consider the transportation of certain new solutes into the system by dint of the introduction of water.

Now the angels turn to the knock-on effects. Introducing more water forces that system to react by bringing in more earth in order to remain in its current arrangement, or perhaps to decide how it wishes to flow or rearrange itself given this introduction of water. Also, the transportation of a flow between two different and currently set points–assuming no dissolution is involved–the individual would need to decide whether they want a flow between these points. For example, would the individual want their set point of “compassion” to flow to and/or from an individual who has done heinous crimes? Do they want that compassion to be linked up to someone whom they, to that point, have viewed as “evil”? So the individual may need to rearrange the way that certain ideas flow, so this is a bit of a secondary dissolution (i.e., a rearrangement of a relationship between established points of consciousness), rather than a primary one.

Now the angels take me back and have me consider the person who is giving or introducing the water. Someone with a more Scorpionic take may want to introduce water in order to investigate or understand something better; this is not unheard of for people with planets in Scorpio, with an intensity, which sort of shoots water out like a pipe or a hose, such as to hose down a dirty car or to aim directly at a fire. A Scorpionic sense of this, the angels tell me, is much more–and this, again, is opposed to the sign of Taurus, ruled by King Ziracah, yet in line with King Babalel (whose link to Scorpio I’ve already mentioned), so there’s this interesting dynamic between these two angels. At any rate, the angels are saying that someone who is introducing water could be coming at it with this Scorpionic intensity and focused kind of water, that fixed water which is aimed precisely at a fixed point.

Now the angels turn to the introduction of water from someone with planets in Cancer. Here, the transporting quality of water is paramount, as with nutrients. Or, in the cardinal sense of the sign, water may be used to change the dynamic about someone. For example, in a protective manner, someone with, say, a Mars in Cancer (as we have now), the water is used to dissolve points about someone in a dangerous situation so that they can leave the old dynamic and move into a newer, safer one. How water would act from Cancer is thus very dependent on the needs of the situation (recall that Cancer is ruled by the moon, the fastest-moving of the planets and associated largely with the final formation of circumstances just before they emerge into this world, i.e., Yesod), and those things or circumstances that it senses or intuits should be begun.

Finally, we have mutable water: Pisces. So here we have the sign of fish, whose entire reality is water. Here, the person themselves is being transported along with the water that they reside in. Whereas a crab may or may not reside in water–a fish must live in water. Fish must therefore be highly adaptable to water in all of its measureless (“infinite”) variety: “TON MAOFFAS DAMPLOZ,” the angels use the Enochian phrase. The consciousness is thus in this water, and this sign chooses to live with somewhat fewer “fixed points.” Granted, a fish still has somewhat fixed points relative to its own body, but it sees the world with much more fluid points about it. Nonetheless, if water is going certain direction, the fish must account for the flow of the water, the changes of points caused by the water, what’s transported in the water: that whole concept is very much to be considered (clearly, I have no planets in Pisces or Cancer, so the angels take their time explaining these!).

“This is a lot,” the angels acknowledge. I ask whether they have anything in their generosity, if they be so inclined, to offer, and they say, “No,” but bid me to write this up. They acknowledge that these are complicated lessons, but important to consider, because now we’re going to get at some of the “roots” of the 360 degree circle/ecliptic (note the play on root and “square root”–19 being the rounded square root of 360), and all of that which is within it. The 30 degrees of the Aethyrs is the repeated cycle within any given sign, but these are the root principles of the entire Zodiac: “What is at the root of the Zodiac,” they clarify.

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Similar procedure: Vibrating the titles of Leaf 19a&b. Call to King Babalel. Vibrated the God names “MPH, ARSL, GAIOL.” (Note: I have decided to revert to the Tabula Recensa, so such vibrations will be associated with their usual locations. In the case of Water/West, the association is OIP, TEAA, PDOKE). Because I’m confident in this being a thoroughly watery vision, I place both feet upon the water Watchtower tablet, which has the seal of King Babalel above it.

I see this wave part in front of me, and it’s like a vision of Moses parting the Red Sea, and the angels are just pointing out the staff–associated with fire symbolically–which parts water, and how the action of water is undone. I’m approached by King Babalel, speaks to me for the rest of the vision. He walks with me and has me take note of all of the different geometric points in the two sides of the walls of water held in stasis. He notes the fish therein, and he notes the crabs (some in the water, some on the land on which we walk), and the scorpions. He notes the pinpoint accuracy of the stinger of a scorpion, and the crab’s circular crabwalk (like unto the moon!), and he notes how the fish seem to be everywhere in the water and seem to defy a lot of logic in their way.

“But each of them has their strong points,” he remarks. Now I’m feeling more energy come up off of the leaf. “Just to get very specific about how this relates to the realm of Adam Qadmon,” King Babalel transitions, and how I need to consider this as I do this: he notes that today was a somewhat difficult day for me to maintain the compassionate heart, but I did sort of rally at the end of the day. “This is a good thing,” he continues, “and now have compassion for all of this. Have compassion for the fact that water dissolves! and have compassion for the different ways in which it acts! and begins things anew! and can be concentrated, and focused!” Basically, he finishes the point: “have compassion for these various areas of your own chart, relatively empty though they may be!”

I agree, and as I do so, I see a watery sphere about me (here’s an alternative reference), and King Babalel says to take a good look around, and to really note this. When I’m encountering others in the future, he says, “You will get a sense of what’s going on with them, and what seems to be lacking based on a sense of their aura. ‘This is not watery enough,’ or, ‘This is too watery.’ This can be combined with the general sense of chakras,” which, he adds, do not completely overlay with planetary influences, yet it’s its own septenary nature which tends to combine at times. Mars, Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter (whose rulership in the zodiac opposes each other) are more or less like unto the elements. Yet the three remaining have been of interest to me in their higher forms: the sun overlays with the heart, the moon with the third eye (as broad intuition), and Saturn with the crown chakra (as Binah). The king advises me to be aware that I will have a greater sense of other people. This will be a transformation of me and my perception, because I’ve been given such a vast and wonderful teaching (and, as I write this up, I wonder whether a deeper, more fundamental teaching has been given to my energetic system), which I heartily agree with.

King Babalel kindly says that the angels are grateful for the work that I’m doing to teach this stuff and giving as much as I can in return, and says many other kind things, and gives me a subtle bow. I make sure to give a deep bow in return and give my thanks to him and all of the angels. He notes the holiness of this day, the 31st day of the ritual (31 is associated in Gematria with the name El or ‘God’), and that I will only see him two more times in this ritual.

I ask if there’s anything I need to concern myself with as far as calling the kerubs or so-called “lesser” angels of the Watchtowers, and King Babalel tells me that they are not appearing the same way here in this ritual. This is but the first lesson about water, he says, and I will rev up into the next lesson–except it won’t be him next time. I extrapolate that perhaps the next time will be Saturday, but I’m fine discovering this as the days unfold.

I express my gratitude again, and ask whether he has other things to show to me. “No,” he says, but notes that he is very pleased and to continue especially with the compassion. This will make everything make much more sense, and that ultimately we’re getting into some root forces of the heart here.

Gebofal, Day 24

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of DEO (dee-oh). Call to King Babalel via Stenwick’s method.

The angels have me relax. I see a swirling. The angels have me recall the spiral within the pyramid which ultimately compressed into the symbol of the lotus-rose. The lotus-rose, they say, has its own type of magnetization, and to hold this very dear to the heart. I do so, and this creates the perception of the line to the “black hole” portal of the world of Adam Qadmon. The portal seems even bigger to me now.

I ask the governors and kings about this portal. “Look, you are making this leap,” they chuckle, “it’s not like you can help it.” I can feel the realm of Adam Qadmon pulling at my heart now, like it’s literally magnetized toward it. I feel this force pulling me towards it. “It’s not to be done right now,” the angels advise, “so continue to feel the force and honor it.”

The angels wish to show me this stellation which I recall from the previous Aethyr, and as it relates to Binah and to Chokmah. The angels explicitly lay it out for me: the stellation can be considered like unto the force of Chokmah. This force, in my case or view: I’ve always been fairly literal about Chokmah. The angels say, “Look, if you’re looking for Kaos, the deity, in it, the truth of the matter is that you are highly ordered. Kaos is not, at least in the way that you consider it. In terms of it trying to be this expression of this projective [formerly “masculine”] principle, note that this is different from the willful principle of Mars,” which the angels themselves separate out from Geburah. All of these things need to be distinguished from each other.

“But this projective principle, this cosmic principle,” they’re saying, as they redirect me to focus on this principle in spite of my heart being pulled toward the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels show me a point, which, by definition means that its existence is in distinction to all other points. It still demands its “day in court,” its “due,” as it were. That’s it, and all of it. That point demands its distinction among all other things, and all points in space does this, hence there’s this force of Kaos.

The angels now say, “Let’s look at how this relates to stellation. The force of a collection of points, or a system (such as an individual) itself: it orders itself and demands its ‘day in court,’ therefore a central point is somewhat able to organize all other points about it.” It’s able to create an organization about itself, the angels clarify, so that we don’t spend too much time about dominance and subservience, though there is a bit of that in this schema by necessity. But the entire system is agreeing to it, so it’s not horrific to consider.

Of course, Binah, throughout time, is very accepting of this situation, but is Sorrowful for the suffering which can occur which is a natural outgrowth of the loss of realization of one’s own Divinity. My heart feels pulled again towards the world of AQ, and the angels chuckle, and say, “OK, so consider this now, as one approaches that world: by definition, any individual point at the very least requires or causes all of these other points to become equidistant from itself [as the point reacquires spherical consciousness]. Instead of a monarch with the dukes, duchesses, and lower classes such as counts, the monarch in this case develops sphericity these classes (and indeed the center and area of the sphere become interchangeable), and equally so, because of the infinite light, because all light is infinite.

I ask how this relates to colors. The angels reply, “Various colors, various formations of the heart, that particular point of the heart. Consider the colors and the emotions of the heart. All of these are natural outgrowths, because the point or the system of points, though it requires its ‘day in court,’ nonetheless, if it is approaching this Kether point [sphericity of consciousness]–approaching itself, even (this is why the sun and Tiphareth are in the Middle Pillar)–as the heart approaches another being or situation, the heart itself in the fullness of its situation attempts to grok another being or situation or point. As it does so, it naturally has this reaction to this other being, for it sees flashes of this other being’s infinity. The same emotions that it sees, it begins to reflect in itself, and vice versa. It emits its own feeling and it becomes reflected back.

The angels say that I can remain magnetized to the world of Adam Qadmon, this is natural, especially as I approach the halfway point of his ritual. The angels say that the energy raised will be like unto Zeno’s paradoxes, but in my case the energy produced will double for every half (and half of the half, and half of the half of the half) of the ritual to remain(!!).

I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.

Noon: Similar procedure. Mild panic attack in the morning, clonazepam to treat.

I relax. I see different elements of geometry. As I do so, I hold onto the symbol of the lotus-rose, hold on to the geometry of the square pyramid/octahedron; I see the image of it extend backward fractally, and forward fractally, covering all of the different bases along a line, which is the line to approach the world of Adam Qadmon. I try very hard to stay in the moment, and again open up to the angels. They are holding this lotus-rose and bend it.

I decide to read the call to the Aethyr again, just to ensure a clear and unambiguous transmission. The angels say that this was necessary, because they had something bigger to show me, and energetically I wasn’t quite in the right spot (note: sometimes even an experienced practitioner will need to make the same call twice). I see and feel a twisting motion, as if you rotated your shoulders clockwise and then counterclockwise. I sense that this is doing something to my subtle body system.

I hold on to the lotus rose and see the angels again–it’s like they’re stroking the tops of the petals of the bloom, and this indicates that this vision is approaching towards the inner part of LIL, the inner sanctum of of the lotus-rose bloom. The angels show me that this twisting rose motion (and here I see a roller coaster ride): this is all of the points, they say, seeking their day in court, their day of reckoning and appropriate judgment, which in this metaphor means deciding what something is, and being judged in the sense that there’s understanding of what a point is and the uniqueness of that thing. Babalon can accept all over time, but the Wisdom is the inner Knowing of something that allows one to project out into their (unique) ways on account of knowing their own very nature, and knowing it fully. Also, this extends in a very extraordinary sense, to knowing it in relation to all other things.

It’s by this that we get principles which for the most part work, but there are always exceptions because, although whole knows any unique point perfectly, other points in the system do not. Hence, individual Chokmah laws break down. I see each of these individual points about the line, which due to other entities are really curves like on a rollercoaster track (i.e., about the many consciousnesses, spherical and cubical, which these lines navigate). There’s a sense of needing to twist, which allows a new configuration of all of the points of the path that one is in, but also a new configuration of the points of consciousness that individuals move to spherically integrate into one’s system.

Just looking at this unfold along this track, it’s like I wait for the vision to pop open; I see a featherlike object cross another one, and it’s like someone who has been holding these swiftly makes extending motions with their arms all is part of a Y formation. The configuration of all of the points which contain these two different feathers becomes reconfigured, and thereby allows for a better and more intelligent and heart-focused unfolding across all of the points involved. (Typing this up, I think this is about individuals contextualizing different laws from different spiritual systems and how well they feel they apply to their own lives).

In order for Space and Time to operate appropriately together, there thus needs to be this appropriate meeting.

I try to see what else may be here. I’m not seeing it right now. I feel a bit of a shift to my muladhara chakra (likely healing to my root chakra). Other than that, it’s like this is being integrated a little bit. I ask the angels whether they in their mercy may have anything else for me. They say, “Let’s leave this here for now; there is time enough to go through the remainder of this Aethyr and the remaining Aethyrs. Go ahead and rest up, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: we will speak with you more shortly.”

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I hold on to the lotus-rose and now it seems that I’m riding a dragon; much like holding on to a large lotus-rose would, its scales cut me. I am bleeding.

I get off the dragon and alight upon a square, which is the base of the square pyramid, which I’m also seeing as part of the sphere as in previous visions. They’re showing me this pyramid rising up more steeply, and it’s part of the stellation. The angels are trying to relate the two things together: the pain of interacting with another being (geometrically, multiple systems of points causing degradation of these systems), but also the pain of being true to oneself: these two ideas are combined in this vision.

The blood relates to Spirit elementally; the angels are saying that this is a preview of looking ahead to Days 31-48, after the Aethyr of LIL, to the Watchtowers, as I get into elemental work. The first and second spoken Enochian calls or keys (the 2nd & 3rd, technically), which I prayed for guidance on: for the second spoken key relates to calling in of entities into this form of Spirit.

The angels explicitly say that it’s important to relate how Spirit and the elements relate to Chokmah and Binah. This is a little difficult for me to see on account of the geometry of the Aethyrs being quite enticing on their own. Nonetheless, the angels note that in making the distinction between two points, and all of which goes into causing two points to be distinguished in a variety of manners, the four elements map on to the Standard Model of Physics as follows:

Blood as a metaphor for spirit combines these things to a degree. It most closely resembles water, yet takes broken down fruits of the earth and distributes them via fiery like pumping action of the heart and also redistributes air. As water causes the parts of the nucleus to settle down into itself, it causes the points of the nucleus to be difficult to distinguish, weak force causes the points of the atom to be more readily distinguished, the force of electromagnetism causes the flourishing of manifest light in all its varieties, but also the grosser movements, and affects the paths of the points, and the unfolding thereof, and finally gravity causes all points to remain on this curved, yet otherwise even, playing field (note: I think this relates specifically to the surface of a planet).

I feel some energy come up from the seal of King Babalel: he’s trying to say that the planetary difference here is a distinction between Will as a chemical separation of Mars. The angels add that the astrological movement of the planets, fixed though they may be and nearly impossible to change, they themselves are arising out of this elemental mix. So although an emanative model of Kabbalah tends to have a one-way direction from the world to Atziluth to Briah to Yetzirah (which, as I took away from Modern Magick, can be thought of where the elements form before reaching the world of Assiah), there’s a co-arising of the planets out of the action of the elements, going up and down each of the worlds.

The vision ends.