A Revised Holy Table of Practice

Update 5: Added 19×19 Table.

Update 4: Added Great Table mandala.

Update 3: Added Watchtower tablets (Tabula Recensa).

Update 2: Someone mentioned that they needed the Enochian Flip font. A user named Marco sent me a flipped file of the font, which will need to be installed. Please send him a tip for his work! You may need both versions: Version 1. Version 2.

Update 1: I have removed the zodiacal table as it originally appeared below and replaced it in the same location with the new table.

An excellent discussion on Frater RC’s podcast, Magick without Fears, led to a nugget that I had not known: the original Holy Table of Practice was to be replaced with a second table (in personal communication, RC credits Frater Yechidah). This was new to me, but it wasn’t completely surprising. After all, the Great Table of the four Watchtowers was itself replaced with the Tabula Recensa (this change merely affected the relative locations of three of the four tablets), and Jason Louv mentions that the switching of the original table is a pattern.

Nonetheless, I’m not aware of any record of what the second table was to have looked like. But inspiration struck as a way to create one: the structure of the original Holy Table is a remix of the seven Heptarchical kings and their seven princes. These fourteen angels each have a name starting with the letter B, and these fourteen B‘s are consolidated into four (one for each corner of the table), and the remaining 84 letters are arranged in a particular manner along the four sides of the table (in Enochian Vision Magick, Lon Milo DuQuette does a good job explaining the exact manner in which these sides are arranged in the table).

The number 84 stuck out to me: 84 is seven times twelve, a perfect mirror of the number of classical astrological planets times the number of signs of the zodiac. You see this emphasized in the inner part of the original Holy Table as well: not only are there seven ensigns of creation placed on it, but there is a central square of twelve letters.

This suggested to me another seven times twelve: twelve zodiacal kings, eleven of whom have a seven-letter name. The twelfth, Lavavoth, the king of Capricorn, has eight letters, and is also the only king starting with the letter L (Enochian Ur). Furthermore, this letter is translated as “One,” “The First,” or “God,” and is a direct analog to the Semitic word El, which also name for God.

It struck me that this letter should be excluded from the 85 letters, allowing for the remaining letters to be placed on a revised Holy Table with the exact same dimensionality as the original, at least along the outside. The nice thing about the Zodiacal Kings is that, representing the zodiac, they also refer to the four elements. This part in particular helps relate the Zodiacal Kings with the four Watchtower tablets, so I have used the Enochian colors of the Watchtower tablets on the four sides of this second Holy Table. Rather than having a central square of 12 letters, I simply put the the Enochian letter L/Ur. Rather than the first revealed Enochian letter B at the corners, I chose to use the Enochian letter T/Gisg, which was the last one to be revealed, and for it, I used the color blue rather than red for the background of these, partly to not be confused with the red of the fire side of the table, and partly because blue is the color of Liber Loagaeth, and was used in the original Holy Table.

Regarding the rest of the design, it again occurred to me to think of the original Holy Table and to the Watchtower tablets. The dimensions of the latter are 12 by 13, while the former has the aforementioned seven ensigns of creation along with a hexagram in the middle, which of course has six sides. Six and seven matches the numeracy of the Heptarchy. Each king has both a prince and six ministers, for seven angels underneath them in all.

To complement the original Holy Table, this new version has a single letter in the center, leading to a total of 13 letters between the two of them. To parallel the original Holy Table, a hexagram is included, but this time stretched slightly to be inscribed within a heptagram. The heptagram thus parallels the seven ensigns of creation. The table still felt imbalanced, so I included four squares in the corners of the table to parallel the four miniature SDAs in the original configuration. Furthermore, the 16 sides that these squares is a rough parallel to the 16 corners of the four Watchtower tablets.

Then comes the question of what order to put the Zodiacal Kings. Here, I take a cue from the planets in the original ensigns of creation: Venus, the sun, Mars, Jupiter, Mercury, Saturn, and the moon. All of the planets rule have domicile in two signs, with the exception of the sun and moon, which only have a single sign of domicile. For two signs ruled by the same planet, I put the nocturnal sign first, mainly because the Aethyrs are associated with initiation into Binah, but also because the placement of the ensigns appeared to prioritize the nocturnal sect. This order creates an interesting balance of the zodiacal kings as they appear in the Aethyrs: the first six kings (Taurus, Libra, Leo, Scorpio, Aries, and Pisces) appear in the Aethyrs 46 times, while the latter six (Sagittarius, Virgo, Gemini, Capricorn, Aquarius, and Cancer) appear 45 times, though Capricorn’s king, Lavavoth may deserve extra “weight” due to its extra letter.

The original Holy Table, of course had a lamen made in order to “conciliate” the wearer with it. This lamen was made from the same table of letters that the Holy Table used. To parallel this, I followed the same order of the original lamen.

“Pressure Testing” the New Table and Lamen

I never like releasing magick without trying it myself, so I tried these out by activating the original table and lamen in addition to the Zodiacal-King versions, in the spirit of conciliation.

Recommended Configuration

I wanted to finish with a suggestion as to how to configure the table. This table top could be combined with the original table and the four Watchtower tablets to form a cube, and the four legs of the table could be painted with the names of God on the Black Cross of the original Great Table. The SDA’s would then be placed inside, or one could follow the original design and have thick boxes underneath the cube for the miniature SDA’s.

Pressure-Testing the Revised Table

I put on the ring and then the original lamen along with a paper version of the revision. I then activated the original table, and then the paper version of the revised table. Then I activated the central square of the original table, and then the letter Ur (L) in the center of the revised table. There was a lot of energy raised, which I compounded by doing an extended Middle Pillar ritual in all five Kabbalistic worlds.

I then made Calls 1 and 2; not getting anything, I made these calls again. The angels show me that this table is a broader type of ritual–“Chokmah! Chokmah! Chokmah!” they repeat. This is like Chokmah spilling into Binah, much as the original table is Binah spilling into Chokmah. “When you can, use both tables together,” they advise, and are on board with the cubical configuration. The angles have an urgency to this message which I haven’t heard before.

The angels advise me to activate the zodiacal table first (“last shall be first”) and then the planetary (original) table. If one wants to, for example, activate Jupiter in Pisces (coming up in a month), then one should activate the zodiacal table and then the planetary table, and then the effect of calling on Bynepor and Butmono will be amplified.

A female angel comes forward: it’s Galvah! “Behold God’s mercies,” I’m told. The angels show me a golden sphere coming towards me, and she flicks it with her finger, and it creates a beautiful ringing tone. She says it’s a tone that humanity has not seen (heard?) before. “People will be drawn to it; those who know will be enamored with it. Behold His mercies! Behold his mercies!” she repeats.”

This symbolism is reminiscent of LIL. She replies, “This is like a higher octave of LIL.” She tells me to scry this Aethyr with this table now activated. “Make haste: do not delay any more.”

I make the call to LIL. I see the golden sphere again. It’s starting to vibrate wildly, violently even, and there’s a massive amount of electricity coming off of it. It’s creating a torus of energy, which comes towards me and coalesces at my center, and which then comes out and back to it; it’s like two united tori. There’s a Uranian feel to it. The angels tell me to scry this once a week until the new ring (with Enochian letters) arrives, when the fullness of the vision will come.

The golden sphere is now spinning, and now colors are coming off of it (in my initial scrying of LIL, colors instead appeared in the vision), and the angels tell me that there are 24 of them. These colors represent the twenty-four elders (from the Watchtower vision). Note: 7 times 24 is 168, which is one less than 13 times 13. Thirteen is the height of each of the Watchtower tablets.

The golden sphere is now spinning in two different directions, violently shaking around. It is how I imagine an atom in a high-energy state to move. I’m told to allow every atom of my body to vibrate like this, and I’m feeling this same violent vibration go through my subtle body. The sphere approaches me and it’s brightening like the sun, and it’s like the sun as the prime mover for all of the other planets. Now I’m feeling a Venusian love emanate off of it.

Now it wishes to speak–I have to try very hard to concentrate, which again suggests a higher-octave energy for me to have to spend such energy to receive: “Behold, the Mercy of the Lord upon you, and upon your species. Yea, I will have for you a Great Awakening and Opening of the Heavens. You shall see all of these things, and more, at the Heart of your Hearts, come to fruition, and His Divine Mercies shall be multiplied exponentially, and yea, ye shall rejoice, for the Lord has seen the Heart of Man, beneath the layers of armor with which it hath clad itself, and yea, this Heart be Divine. Therefore shall the Divine know Itself. Go now, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, in this rich golden fervor with which He hath called thee, and with which thou hast answered, and with which He hath banished thy ignorance from thee. Know thou that PRONOA of the Most High abideth and redoundeth unto even the smallest atom–yea, every atom which appeareth before the Lord. For each atom, yea, all atoms and all energy pleaseth Him.

“In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; the Mother, the Daughter, and the Holy Spirit; the daka, the dakini, and the Holy Spirit; and the Buddha, the Sangha, and the Dharma. Amen! Amen! Amen! Adgmach! Adgmach! Adgmach! [Much glory! Much glory! Much glory!”

I look to Liber Loagaeth and get the sense that another will be transmitted.

Here are the Zodiacal-King version of the Holy Table and lamen:

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Zodiacal lamen

I will update the DIY Enochian post to include these.

Gebofal, Day 30: Highest Aethyr, LIL

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIL. Call to King Blumaza. Note: If you’ve never done Enochian, this Aethyr is quite powerful. After scrying this Aethyr the first time in 2019, I took steps to try to initiate myself into Chokmah and, for this Aethyr, Kether. After meeting with some success thereby, I was able to deepen the vision of this.

I see this pure, white sphere. It’s like it’s trying to shine out all of these different colors, and I feel my crown chakra lifting and raising up. There’s a lot of lightning coming off of this sphere now, and now it is so bright because it is reflecting all of the light which ever has come to reflect off of it. It is blindingly light now, and I am being wrapped up in a beam from it. It is holding me and taking me into a cocoon and it is taking me inside of itself.

This is the Diving Heart of Hearts. I approach the Center, and I’m slowly decelerated as I approach It. When I look about me, I see all of these thousands of millions of possibilities of beings, and I’m having compassion towards all of them, all of these lives lived, moments of Joy, Sorrow, Horror, and Peace. I’m seeing them through millions and billions of species’ eyes. I’m just trying to maintain this level of compassion for all of them.

I feel all of these moments come through me now, rotating from the outside to the Center, where I am, as through a torus, and I continue to have this rotation, and as I speed it up…it’s like they’re both at this Center and about the Surface of the Sphere simultaneously. No longer is this a rotation, this is a humming, a sympathetic vibration.

Now I feel the energy coming up off the leaf, the table, and the seal of King Blumaza under my foot. I hold this compassion, and await any message from the Divine. There’s such a beautiful feeling of peace right now; it’s like I’m lying in a bed of Compassion and the feeling that comes over me from lying there is Peace.

“Oh, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: this which you have sought for so long, it be only 19 days hence. I have put it in your Heart to read this first leaf, for it was to be read. Know this, that such Love is neither earned nor unearned, it is neither conditional nor unconditional, for this is PRONOA: it merely is. It is always available to you and to your fellow human beings, and to the animals and to the plants and to all of this life upon this planet Terra, or in English known as Earth: CAOSG.

“It is always available unto you, if you look for it, if you seek it, if you steep yourself in it, and all of its infinite varieties. The Love of solving a complex problem, the Love of merely holding one who is mourning, the Love of joining in to the rejoicing of grand moments of Beauty. It is always available unto you.

“And now, feel you this change about your subtle body as you prepare to enter into this realm of Adam Qadmon. Feel it in its fullness, for I am the One True God, and show Myself in Many Different Aspects, many different divinities, for all gods are One God, and what there is to be known and what is to be grokked, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: it is far beyond your understanding, and I will merely do what can be done to bring it out in you, to unfold it in you, to make it more visible to you, to give you Perspective, yea: Coelispex, so that you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, may help unfold it in others, and be able to unfold it in all of its infinite variety: TON DAMPLOZ.

“Such Love have I to you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, and to All. For All may come unto me. All may know this Love. Fear not the words which arise out of your mouth, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for the Spirit of the Lord is with you and speaketh through you. Yea, even when thou knowest it not.”

My voice is caught in my throat: “O God, is there anything else?”

“No, Son of God, Son of Man, Son of Earth: you have two more times to call upon this today. You will know it in its fullness this evening: yea, when you repeat the word ‘LIL’ seven times. Such sevenfold depth you will know, and then, 19 days hence, you will enter into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and you will realize this rainbow body. Much love unto thee. Commence now.”

Union, and then: “Such Beauty there is in this, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. I have nothing else for you today, until you call me again at noon, and again at sunset. Much love to you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: remember always: God hath such love, hath such PRONOA, for thee.”

The vision ends.

Commentary: I see the phrase “One True God” as the Divine identifying the truth of unity, and “show Myself in Many Different Aspects, many different divinities, for all gods are One God,” as the Divine unifying across all panthea (e.g., possibly panentheism) “and what there is to be known and what is to be grokked, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: it is far beyond your understanding” as an obvious reference to my limits. So, please, be forgiving if this doesn’t match up with your worldview. Peace and love, peace and love!

Noon: Similar procedure.

The angels have me make some physical adjustments. Again I see a white sphere, this time with a vertical ring about it; I note that it reminds me of the rings of Uranus, and doing so causes it to appear a bit more bluish, but it returns to white shortly. The ring comes undone at the point farthest from me and once again approaches and enfolds me like a cocoon, and again takes me to the center.

Again, I see the interior of the sphere, and I slowly come to a pause. I see again all of the experiences of all of the beings, and God is once again showing me all of the possibilities which could not be (i.e., foreclosed based on actualizing certain previous possibilities). God shrinks down the pictures of actual experiences of beings and now I see this vast space between all of them, and it’s this massive light, and I see how very close I am to this portal to the realm of Adam Qadmon. I see the vast spaces of unbounded possibility, and both Binah and Chokmah, in this vast emptiness of potentiality which cannot be, are ineffective in that Binah cannot receive, and Chokmah cannot project.

I’m told to try my best to have as much compassion as I can for all of it, equally, and I do, and I do, and I do: it just magnifies, and once again I try to speed the flow to the point where there’s this hum reached, and there is. I feel my entire body just lifted or raised up, and it’s this beautiful hum to my subtle body, and I feel energy coming up once again now off of the book (Amzes Naghezes Hardeh, Leaf 20a), more off of the table, and finally off the seal again.

God is saying, “Behold, Blumaza [king of the lunar sephira of Yesod], and with Mars in Cancer [in its fall], and the moon in its fall [in Scorpio]: it is opposing where it is normally in its exaltation, and thus they are receiving each other. So, though they are themselves in a weakened condition, they themselves are nonetheless raising each other up. So this lunar and sublunar sphere can be in a better condition to receive the light, to receive the light of this lunation, and thereby work it into the grand unfolding of All That Is. Thus now you are able to receive the light, such as you are able to receive it.

“Yea, have compassion for those that are in your path! Have compassion for those who are in pain, and have compassion for those who are confused, and have compassion for all that Could Have Been, for the reality in which you are taught by the one whom you must now teach! Have compassion across space and time, and across all of the possibilities that were foreclosed as a result. Just continue to have this Grand Compassion, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for this is your destiny! This is the unleashing of the Venusian nature within you, much as your sun was released and rectified yesterday in its fullness, so you must know now that today marks the beginning of the unleashing of this PRONOA, of this compassion, for yea, although your capacity to love has been very confused, it has been very difficult: it has [nonetheless] received help along the way, and now receives the Highest of all Help, the Help of the Almighty God Himself, Herself: the Almighty Divine as you have come to know It.”

I just try really hard to focus on this, and to do as I have been bidden, and it’s like I’m now encased in this spherical rainbow jewel, and it’s beautiful, this vibration and hum. The angels are saying, “Yea, it is difficult to unfold completely, this completely spherical consciousness in which all the light is there [as a bright white light], and yet, you have only known What You Have Been Alive to Know, and What You Have Been Around to Experience. Yet the Divine Has Known all of these things In Equal Measure, and so continue to hold this in equal measure, and at times your rainbow will seem like unto a beautiful white sphere. At other times, it will seem like unto the process of putting the black sphere in its proper measure. But at all times, hold, as bet you can, when meeting another, this transparent sphere, knowing them as they are to be known, and allowing them to be as they are, and allowing, to some degree, the suffering which they are choosing for themselves. For in so doing, they can come to know the fullness of God on their own terms, and thus the Law of the Parts will be upheld as well as the Law of the Whole.”

I feel God now within me, and He is reaching into my torso, into my anahata chakra, yes, even the heart of my heart, and He gives it the subtlest of touches and caresses, and it opens so much up in me, and I feel so much, and I’m so grateful unto the Most High for this. He is saying, “Your heart is being prepared. Look you to the elements and approach them with this same transparent heart.”

I say, “O God, please give me the strength and the fortitude and the sensitivity and all that which is needed to do so,” and He says, “This I will give you, and more, and I will give you, indeed, confidence to do so.”

And I ask, “O God, my God, is there anything else?” And he says, “No, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: go now in peace. Know now that this journey is already a fait accompli.”

Thus ends the vision.

Sunset: Call to LIL. Call to King Blumaza. Due to delays and feeling upset, I neglected the call to the governors, and to the Zodiacal Kings.

The angels bid me to lean back and relax. They acknowledge the emotional content of a day like this. They praise my work at compassion, and say that it is multidimensional work. I grieve into my heart of hearts, and recall how the Divine blessed me by touching this heart. I remain so grateful. I allow myself to feel the emotional pain, and it’s okay.

I see a hand come towards me, and it takes me by the hand and leads me to the center of the white sphere. It’s the hand of Christ, and we sit on rugs and drink tea at the center of this sphere. He shows me His hands and feet, He shows me the scarring about His scalp, and the wound in His side. He notes that my hands are together (in the prayer position, holding Leaf 20 between them), and my feet apart (so as to be touching the sides of the table). In a sense, He notes, that a cylinder could go through my hands at this point. He notes that, in general, my placement of my hands with each other, and my feet apart, is an inversion of the placement of Christ’s own placement. Peter was crucified this way.

He says that I have doubted, and have returned. I have denied, and I have returned, because I have come to accept the pain. He reverts my astral body back into the usual crucifixion pose as a symbol of accepting me. He says that at the center of this cross is the heart: the heart of the heart of the heart of the heart of the heart. He then bids me to repeat the call, this time repeating LIL seven times as had previously been advised of me, “And we will resume.”

I repeat the call to the Aethyr and this time remember to call the Zodical Kings and Governors of the Aethyrs, except I substitute “LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL” (“LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL”) for just “LIL.” Note: this would seem to presuppose that each Aethyr can be thought of as able to be subdivided into Aethyrs within Aethyrs. I have used this technique before and found that you can get into quite rarefied Aire (heh) by doing so.

I’m directly within the sphere again, this time seeing all of these screens of possibilities again, but this time all of these possibilities are whirling about me, as is the space in between, a massive rotation. I’m having compassion even for the forces which are causing this rotation, and this seems to click something into place! And behold, I see again, and I see again, and I see again: I see this massive rotation, and we are approaching this realm of Adam Qadmon, and I’m told that tonight, I will be right at the event horizon, and I will cross right into it tomorrow.

There’s this massive energy, this beautiful light, and it seems to completely encompass this sphere, which now seems more like an egg of a shuttle-pod, surrounded by intense energy and light, and all of the possibilities on the screen, actualized and foreclosed, are increased in intensity, and I continue to hold this compassion for all of them, as I can. I try to turn my compassion up to Infinite: and this is the key word, “infinite”: MAOFFAS MONONS (measureless heart): MAOFFAS MONONS! MAOFFAS MONONS! MAOFFAS MONONS! Measureless heart! Measureless heart! Measureless heart! And this heart is just encompassing all of this, and I see now about me all of this grand beauty, all of this grand heart which is just trying to pour out to all possibility, and to all of this Infinitude.

It is unlike anything that I would have possibly conceived, and I’m trying to stay at both the Center and About Everything, and it is almost too much for my heart to take! And I know that God knows my limits, so I continue (and I nearly weep now) and continue with this Measureless Heart for all of these Possibilities, and just this Potential Itself, that I’m trying to have this Measureless Heart for, this Infinite Heart, as best I can!!

And I’m trying, trying to reflect the Whole [of existence] within me, as best I can, because I know that this is the best as I can be purified as to try to maintain this emotional state, this Vastness of Compassion! “Let it be Infinite! Please, o God, let it be Infinite!” And He says, “Aye, indeed, but you yourself are human and have limits, but indeed, it is the spark of Me within you that chooses to cry out in such ways, and so I will give you as measureless a heart as your system is capable of.” My emotions still run quite high and I continue with this vast feeling of compassion towards all I see, and it is this tragedy that I, as a human being, and yea, even the Divine, have our Limits.

But even working within these Limits, there is so much to be done. There is so much good to be had, and so much Compassion to be had, and so much Peace to be modeled and distributed, offered in pure generosity and compassion for All. I’m feeling this beautiful energy now, coming up off of the leaf, up through my hands and arms and into my torso: and it is God in His Mercy Who is changing me and my entire subtle body now, all the way down through my feet. I especially feel energy coming up from the seal of King Blumaza, and I’m feeling it all about me now, all about this table. And I see the same elongated octahedron arising out of the Sigillum Dei Aemeth. I see the top half encompassed by a sphere, and now the bottom half also, with a filled circle at the middle, as follows:

Representation of the white circle of the light of the Realm of Adam Qadmon, interfacing with the spheres of Heaven and Terra and of the elongated octahedron from previous visions.

The spheres represent heaven (future state, and the upper part of the lotus-rose bloom) and terra/earth (present state and the lower thorny stem of the lotus-rose). It is all new to me. All of it in its beauty must be accepted for what it is. These two spheres thus look like unto the symbol for infinity, and a twisted ouroboros, but about many dimensions. I know them to be of many dimensions, but they are represented in 3D here.

The middle ring on the plane perpendicular to the meeting point of these spheres is the Ain Sof Aur of the realm of Adam Qadmon, shooting into the link between heaven and earth. It is Wonderful. I’m told that it is this filled circle in this plane, where these two spheres meet, is what I will circumambulate over the next 19 days.

I ask whether God, in His Mercy, has more to show me, and he says “No.” I thank Him, and the vision ends.

Note: Only now, after all of this time, do I realize the final piece I did not realize before. Gebofal is 49 days long, and there are 49 leaves of Loagaeth. It is not only 7*7, the squaring of the septenary nature of Enochian as a whole, but it is also the sum of the 30 (degrees per astrological sign) and 19. Nineteen relates to manifestation, but also 12 (signs of the zodiac) + 7 (planets), and is also the rounded square root of 360, which is why it is the degree of exaltation of the sun. Once again, the exaltation scheme of Enochian is borne out.

Gebofal, Day 27

Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of PAZ. Call to King Baligon.

I relax and concentrate on the lotus-rose. The angels note that this is an incremental step as I approach the event horizon of the portal to the world of Adam Qadmon, which appears to me as a black hole.

Continuing to concentrate on the lotus-rose, the angels show it becoming circular, like an ouroboros, spinning around. “This is how the the flower emerged from your heart, is it not?” the angels ask. I agree, in the sense that the stem of flower emerged from the blossom of the preceding flower, repeatedly. The angels say that there will be this circulation within the lotus-rose itself. There will be suffering leading to transcendence, which will lead to suffering and then further transcendence.

Yet the suffering itself, they’re saying, is something that can be relatively avoided in the mundane realm just by continuously giving yourself “oomph” to follow rules and behave appropriately such that suffering can be transcended (such as seen in the symbolism of the white cube). I note difficulty concentrating, but the angels remind me to simply focus on this lotus-rose of my heart, and the distraction will go away.

I see this lotus-rose now being like unto a torus, simplifying now into a jewel about the lotus-rose (note the parallel to the famous Buddhist mantra, Om Mani Padme Hum). The angels say that once you get this, that it’s all sort of “one thing…you’ve been making this distinction between the thorny stem and the blossom. But it is One Thing: it is a Beautiful, sometimes Wonderful, sometimes Heart-Aching sort of thing, and the Heart Aching indicates the Heart, and that It is Alive.” So the Heart Aching as such is–and here I recall the death of my late mother-in-law–the Heart Aching is…and I’m trying to come to terms with something really big here.

“The Heart Aching,” the angels are saying, “is the Condition of the Heart. Though the armor about it is Empty, this pain is normal, this pain is okay. And the condition of Reality leading up to the heart being like This, is okay. And all of this can be concentrated into this Divine Bloom of the flower itself, the Okayness of It All, the Divinity of It All, and the Transcendent Nature that allows it to happen such as This. All of it is okay, all of it can be concentrated.”

So even though it seems as if “the Jewel is in the Heart of the Lotus,” truly, the jewel itself is the lotus, is what the angels are saying, and it’s part of Understanding the depth of Adam Qadmon, which is a journey you shall take and fulfill and complete. That is the Beauty of the Journey. So that’s it: the angels note that I’m a little bit closer in my orbit to the portal; this Realm is a little big closer. All of this is the sphere [spherical consciousness], the angels are just keeping me a little bit off, keeping me at bay. They really want everything to attune, so this is something that I need to reflect on. I thank the angels, and they have nothing further.

Thus ends the vision.

Noon: Similar procedure. I called on King Baligon twice.

I concentrate on the lotus-rose as an Ouroboros, as well as a jewel, as described in the previous Aethyr. I steady myself.

I see two square pyramids, connected by a tube, and all of them appear to be be made out of dough; the tube is already tied into a knot. “Consider the force which ties this knot. This is the force of Ain, and the duality, you’ve seen this already, when you scried your own rainbow body using the call of the Aethyrs.” This knot, they say, can be considered like unto sphericity (of LIL), or the double-sphere arising out of the torus.

“Yet, there’s something nice and squishy about this, isn’t there? So that only if you were rather skilled could you even see that this was caused by a single force which created the illusion of duality, then united it, and then unfolded it throughout separate sephiroth.” So I’m wondering about the nature of these two pyramid-like, or tetrahedron-like (and here they tell me that they are tetrahedra). Here we have, once again, an ogdoad (two tetrahedra times four faces per tetrahedron), becoming an ennead (via the connecting tube), which perhaps could be considered a decad (due to the new shape created by the knot). So you have this reflection of the ten sephiroth, even in the world of Adam Qadmon.

I’m curious as to what this means. If everything is squishy, there’s an infinity with this. I try hard to understand this deeply. I let my heart work on this problem. The angels say, “Note that what you’re seeing as an ouroboros: this is the same kind of thing. It’s a symbol of continuity, much like a Möbius strip, or a Klein bottle (which may be a better explanation). It’s this twisting about itself. The reason you’re seeing it as seemingly separate forces is because you’ve already seen it as such (when I scried my rainbow body previously, I saw two jewels which mirrored each other), but also,” and here they bid me pause for a moment, “Think about this. This is three dimensions about three dimensions, coming upon itself. This is like unto the present state/earth on the left, the goal state/heaven on the right, and the transformation in the middle, so time is locked in as well. But it’s all one thing.

“It’s all one thing, and it’s a multiplicity of things.” And I feel like I’m very close to grokking this and they chuckle, “not just yet, but this is very important. This is a very potent symbol for you, because you’re very excited by this, and you want to know what it is, and that’s okay. That’s good.”

I take a look at the symbol, and I see it extending down, and now it seems like a bunch of pencils tied together with a rubber band in the middle, the other end of which is dangling from the ceiling. This point at which the rubber band meets the ceiling is the portal into the world of Adam Qadmon. “If you just take this heart of compassion and aim it directly at this symbol, you’ll see that this is the same thing. On the one hand if you twist it together, it’s the jewel, on the other hand if you were to take it apart, you could see one end being like unto the thorny end of the lotus-rose, and the other end like unto the bloom thereof. It’s all the same thing: all is one, all is one, all is one.”

The angels leave me with all of this to contemplate. I ask whether there’s anything else, and the angels bid me pause and to consider this dough-symbol floating in water–not dissolving, just floating.

The vision ends.

Sunset: Similar procedure.

I’m feeling fairly high right now. The angels tell me to relax and to speed up the entire process going from the previous symbolism to the lotus-rose to the jewel. I feel the gem now in its fullness; at first it seems to have an amber or reddish-orange tinge, but now I see green flashing in it, and the angels suggest that I add indigo and blues, and I see now: the jewel is a rainbow jewel. The angels remind me that the lights can come from the realm of Adam Qadmon in their fullness, but that they can be seen in Chokmah, and indeed, this is the final Aethyr of this sephirah. At its most developed they shine through to me now, they say. One need not have completely entered the realm of Adam Qadmon to see them this way, but having an opening into it is important in order to shine in your fullness (suggestive of a complete opening into Chokmah and a necessary step to develop the rainbow body).

Now I’m feeling a lot of energy coming off of the leaf, and it’s trying to tell me something, so I listen. I feel my crown chakra being pulled upward, an uncharacteristically strong energetic feeling for this Aethyr. It’s like this is the initiation, the re-initiation into Kether (the angels remind me that a prior sigil of mine with the intent of “I reinitiate into Kether” was, in fact, still active). The angels say, “Be prepared, be ready, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! This be the final vision of Chokmah unto you. Know this: that the different elements and the different spacings [of (space-time) points], that one may find as one abideth in the realm of Adam Qadmon: these can always shift and change! It is important to be fully immersed in the Understanding in order to be fully immersed in the Wisdom.

“Behold, this vision (from noon, of the dough shape), which you have seen in its tetrahedral format: this steeping of it in the water can be considered like unto the fullness of Ain and Ain Soph. For within the Ain is the Ain Soph, and that fullness containeth within it the Infinite Light, which you see before you, twisted into this shape, twisted into this Present-Future state, which is always, always, always bound both by time, but, indeed, by the supernals as a whole. And so, know this, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: the richness of this symbol will continue to unfold itself to you. For now, it seemeth like dough: tomorrow it shall not seem quite so. It shall take on a greater significance and a new symbolic meaning. Rest now easy, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! No more can be said unto you directly, but all of these things shall be open unto you in the very few weeks left remaining.

“Much love upon thee: go now in peace. Serve the Lord.”

With this, the vision ends.