Note: None of what follows constitutes medical advice. Consult your physician before making any changes to your health-related habits.
Sunrise: Call/Key 5, (most practitioners refer to this as call 4, for it is the 4th spoken call). Call to King Babalel. Call to Governors Nocamal (LIT), Tahamdo and Nociabi (OXO), and Ozidaia and Calzirg (LIN) and their respective Zodiacal Kings Alpudus, Zarzilg, Lavavoth, Arfaolg and Arfaolg.
King Babelel arises, and shows himself to be a mixture of water and fire, but now also earth. He shows himself digging through the earth, plottingly and ploddingly. He shows me the many different qualities of earth, and the admixtures that can come thereby. He specifically asks me to consider that the power of Natural Substances to be related to matter itself. So, whereas we had with the four fundamental forces relating to the elements (earth to gravity, water to strong force, air to weak force, and fire to electromagnetism), here he says we can also liken them to the four usual states of matter (not made in a lab): solid to earth, liquid to water, gas to air, and plasma to fire.
“Let’s consider what it would mean to have a Martially separating action among earth,” King Babalel continues. Naturally there are earthquakes, but relating this to Natural Substances, he says, his power is strongest in the sense of the natural foods that one could eat and what they are composed of. He also bids me consider the soil in which such foods are grown, and ensuring that it is proper for growth and the taking in of these natural substances.
Turning to Medicine, King Babalel mentions the powder that stops bleeding, which is also of the power of Natural Substances. I concentrate on lovingkindness and the connection with him. He notes the long cycles of Natural Substances, the long preparation that it takes to discover the power and structure of a natural substance. There needs to be a great deal of planning and will (Mars); the heat of Mars is excellent for something as cold and aloof as understanding Natural Substances, he wryly says.
“It took a very long time for chemistry to come about in its fullness,” King Babalel notes, and it was just gaining that term in Dee’s day. In this case, chemistry can be understood as the individual structure of atoms and molecules, King Babalel comments (i.e., of points fixed relative to one another). The actual chemical structure of a molecule would fall under this; a chemist can immediately recognize at a glance the name of a chemical based on its diagrammed structure. Knowing this and how the geometry of two different molecules come together and form a larger structure in three dimensions: this is the real power of Natural Substances, he says.
Applying this to Medicine, there’s an even larger structure that needs to be accounted for, King Babalel continues: how to get through a cell wall or membrane that has its own physico-chemical structure via some kind of chemical lock-and-key mechanism. All of this, he says, is the power of Natural Substances and of Medicine. Of course, he continues there’s also energetic grounding with respect to Medicine, such as meditation, gardening, or running. Those sorts of things are indeed of his power of Medicine with respect to elemental earth.
He says he thinks that these are enough examples. He says that if I continue to meditate on density, structure, and finally how that relates to medicine and natural substances, that I should continue to understand more. He notes that sometimes one simply needs more of a mineral, amino acid, or vitamin in order to feel better: with respect to diet, these belong to Mars in Capricorn, he says. There’s the emotional and nurturing component to Cancer, yet the reality of what is in what is eaten: such is Mars in Capricorn.
“That’s it,” King Babalel concludes. I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure.
Once again, I see King Babalel emerging, and now I see myself in an black, elementally earthen sphere, with the four colors again coming from the inside of the sphere. At first I’m within the Terran plane, but I’m taken up into heaven soon after. And now I see four tunnels open in front of me, and again, the same whitish admixture of elemental earth, water, air, and fire comes from all of them, suffusing me. I’m feeling almost a sense of a third coronation, or perhaps a preview thereof. King Babalel says that it’s time, so I accept the crowning with humility. I thank him and all of the angels present.
I ask why this is happening earlier compared to the visions of the previous two days? King Babalel replies, “The Lord wisheth to speak more with thee about a specific topic related to you this evening. Let your heart be glad. Once again, meditate on these powers, and they will be revealed unto you.”
He says he has nothing further. Thus ends the vision(!).
Note: As I type this up, it occurs to me how the symbolism here matches exactly the structure of Enochian. For a third time (and in all likelihood, a fourth tomorrow) I have been taken into a sphere, and this sphere has four colors within it, yet one without. This parallels the circle and square motif I’ve noticed.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I feel a lot of energy coming up off of Leaf 5. I see three connecting spokes from from a handwheel to a hatch. They are turning along with the handwheel in a counter-clockwise rotation, and the hatch opens. King Babalel is behind it, and silently bids me enter into this blindingly bright light in the space behind the hatch.
Everything in my subtle body is gearing up in my subtle body now, and I’m in this light, in this light, the light of the Divine, the light of the Divine. I’m told to “Relax, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: Yea, my Very Son. Relax completely now.
“My Very Son, you look at the Trinity with amazement and befuddlement. Spirit, Body, Soul: and yet have you not already seen this in the Trinity of the religion in which you were raised?” (Christianity). “‘Mediator’ be the word that you are looking for. Mediation: that Unique Thing which brings into reconciliation the other Two.”
“I don’t know what to say, o my Lord,” I whisper.
“Triple-crowned king though you may be, there be indeed one more crown that may be offered unto thee, and note: the triple-crowned King Carmara would thus be crowned about you as the four kings of the Watchtower tablets. And so he be able to mediate, and two given kings, but by any two, he can thus mediate all of them. And you, in thy mediation, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, will have his crown as well. For you will be able to slip in between all of the different rules: between fire and earth, between water and fire, between earth and air, and between air and water.
“Thus will you be able to mediate among them as you see fit, and you will see fit on account of the perception that I will lay before you, that will be fused with your very being, much as you have come to know how fused you are with the universe in which you operate. Therefore, rejoice, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for clarity will be given to you, much as clarity hath been given to you at many times throughout this process. So shall this be a permanent clarity, and it will be as if you can step behind any given situation and, to use the phrase that Jessa Reed constantly refers to, you will be able to manipulate the ‘wiring underneath the board.’
“Your heart has so many places it wishes to go, but the main thing be: how to allow others the means to transcend suffering, in all of the various ways that it may be transcended. Let this be your lode star. Let the Work upon thy Heart continue: in Its Joy, in Its Sorrow, in Its Pain, in Its Pleasure, in Its Pettiness, and in Its Grandeur: let It endure. Let It continue. Let it go through all of the levels of the Heart. Blessings be upon you now, my Very Son.”
Sunrise: Call/Key 12, (because it’s the 11th spoken call–the true first call being unspoken–most practitioners refer to this as call 11). Call to King Babalel.
Even just calling on King Babalel, I see him arise like a fiery phoenix up out of the waters. It’s almost as if, though Aries is an earlier sign than Scorpio, the rulership assignments came after the zodiac, and in reverse order of the signs, so Mars-in-Scorpio preceded Mars-in-Aries. He says that to some degree, this is true. Regardless, I’ll note that Mars is definitely strongest in Scorpio for a variety of reasons.
King Babalel bids me relax, and I feel energy come up off of Leaf 12b, “Signeh Gax.” He shows me a road, and the road is sort of being put together as I walk it. With respect to the Mechanical Arts of Fire: “Obviously flamethrowers, which are totally badass and cool [belong to this].” He says also to think of the Mechanical Arts related to rage, so anything warfare related, or any Mechanical Arts to either depict rage or to actually implement it. So, tommy guns, machine guns, and how to make them, would obviously qualify, as would a lot of things having to do with action movies. If you could think of the entire mechanical apparatus of an action movie, it’s very much designed to get that [elemental fire] going: cars blowing up or a wartime movie, let’s say.
All explosion and ordnance and anything to do with that would qualify. As far as transformation, some of this overlaps with explosives, but he also adds to this the power of fire to transform and to enter into the chemical reaction to cause a change in state. Kilns would be a good example, as would all forms of cooking. All forms of chemistry which involve the appropriate application of heat to chemicals in order to have the appropriate reaction. In some ways the removal of heat belongs to the elemental earth such as the sign of Capricorn, but really, in general, because so much heat is needed to generate such cold, he says, “Ha-ha: I am powerful over that.”
He says that’s it: he doesn’t have much else to say about this. Once again, he says that he’ll break it down by astrological sign this noontime, and once again, to be prepared for a transformative vision at sunset.
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Similar procedure. Neglected (as I did this morning) to call god names ORO, IBAH, AOZPI. Two minutes into the vision I rectified this. Generally, I was not feeling well, experiencing an allergy headache.
Once again I see him emerge from the water. He says that we will briefly review the powers of Mechanical Arts and Transformation associated with each sign.
Aries: These are “most particularly, related to war, which we’ve already gone over,” he begins, “as well as any sort of competitive event” which requires it. He says it “takes on an extra, added [Aries] intensity.” In other words, the Aries energy suddenly becomes important to the Mechanical Arts if two beings are pitted against each other for whatever reason.
With respect to Transformation, there’s definitely the destruction vibe, “Although that’s a bit more Scorpio,” King Babalel says. “One of the things that Transformation can do is, via the breaking down of something, [leave behind] the pure essence of something”–which is to say, whatever remains after the destruction. “There is a bit of a purification energy involved,” (note: as with pujas). “This is most clearly [seen in] the Igne Natura Renovatur Integra phrase,” (attributed to Rosicrucianism or Freemasonry). He says that this is the “trial by fire energy.”
“Once again,” King Babalel finishes, “when it comes to Aries, it can be this damaging or this wounding or killing coup de grace, and the ability to do so, especially via cutting, but perhaps in a less target way [than Scorpio]. So,” he says, “think of not a lion so much but perhaps any kind of large animal that is just as capable of a large amount of destruction.” I see an elephant, but find that I have gotten distracted from the powers, and am unsure why. I concentrate on them again and once again I see combustion: “any kind of fuel-based, [specifically] explosion-based method: that’s Aries.” When it comes to Transformation: “Once again, the power to destroy, the power to end what once was in order for something new to begin.” Here he mentions fire-activated seeds, and the transformation that comes to the landscape thereafter.
Leo: King Babalel includes “anything that puts on display or on high: movie projectors; the art of a stage and moving things about it; anything related to film in terms of that. All of such are Mechanical Arts related to” Leo. To the power Transformation, he notes: “Any sort of solar electricity production; any kind of nuclear fusion or fission is part of this–anything where there’s a massive amount of heat which must be concentrated in a very small volume, and then the heat generated therefrom can be used” to generate energy.
“Such is Leo.” To this, King Babalel adds, “Any sort of Mechanical Art required to have one project oneself, so microphones, anything that musicians use to broadcast and send themselves forth, to send an image of themselves forth. In many ways, the camera is a perfect example of this, and of course all of this also relates to transformation” as well, including “becoming an actor. The entire film industry, in many ways, is Leonine and combines both: this sort of puffing oneself up and projecting oneself out and the mechanical arts and transformation related that, including even makeup.”
Sagittarius: The Mechanical Arts (naturally) include “all of the combustive, long-distance travel related technologies: planes, trains, and automobiles. Anything related to the building up of religion, yet also missiles in particular, as opposed to regular ordnance. Any technology like unto a bow and arrow, so we have the part of the technology of a gun and the explosive fire therein (rather than the compressed air portion, which is of Aquarius): the covering of a relatively long distance with a gun is reminiscent of a bow and arrow, following a trajectory and to reach its intended target thereby.
With respect to transformation, anything related to long-distance communication, I’m told, belongs to Sagittarius, and anything related to narrative. Here I apologize to King Babalel, and he says not to worry: “This is starting to break down on account of your getting closer to the realm of Adam Qadmon. Just continue to rest.”
He has nothing further, and thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Similar procedure, remembering to call on the god names of the fire tablet. Note: this vision strongly relates to this post.
King Babalel appears, much brighter now, and explains that this is on account of me getting the procedure correct this time. He bids me sit back and relax.
He encircles me in a sphere of fire, and in it he raises me upward. Meantime I sense he is transforming me and imprinting on me the powers of the Mechanical Arts associated with this tablet (similar to prior tablets).
Humbly yet somewhat boldly, I ask for his assistance, if it pleases him, to understand further the relationship between the seniors and also to all of the questions put to me by King Carmara. King Babalel replies, “Behold, partly this will be revealed to you in time, but I can say this,” (and here I concentrate very hard to hear the transmission clearly). He shows me two circles, like the 0, 90W, 90E, and 180 lines of longitude on a globe, and shows myself as a rabbit, running in place, spinning each of these in turn. He continues: “What would happen, were you to either spin them so fast that you would find the center therein? Which is to say, that if you were to hop off, you fly off in a single direction, but if you were to…” and it’s difficult to hear/understand clearly, but it’s something about how they would magnetized (which I take to mean if I spun them quickly enough, like the current of an electromagnet). He says, “Figure out how to magnetize these angelic powers within your heart, and they will lead you, ultimately, to the Center.”
I say that I have another question, in my boldness. “Go ahead, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth,” he replies. I ask about the final three days (for I am now within the Watchtower calls): “What hath the triad, the final part to do with–“
“Such a deep mystery!” he interrupts. “This is not even known unto ourselves. Behold, the final three days, in which the king of us all–which is to say, King Carmara–is called, and then finally, on the final day, only the Leaf itself is to be read” (which I take to mean, replacing any of the calls given by the angels themselves). “So consider yourself blessed, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, that such will be opened unto you! We know this triad, and we know it to be of vital importance, and your intuition seems good…” but now he says nothing further to this.
Now I feel myself aflame, and King Babalel says, “Good!” I try my best to bring out the side of light (associated with the fire), and he advises, “This is all well and good, but, at times, all aspects of fire will need to be used, but most of the time, bringing warmth and light is the correct thing to do.” He stokes the fire within me now: he wants it to be a roaring fire, a bonfire, a forest fire, a globally-encircling fire (with me as the globe)! He does this not such that it burns up the earth or the lovely life about my spherical consciousness, but rather that all of the life within me takes this fire within it to the ultimate growth and glory of the Most High.
I ask quickly about the Collective Center of human consciousness. He says that enough of us need to approach this Center: “Approach your individual Centers from your individual skew about you.”
Now I see the diagram from yesterday, revised earlier today. It seems as if the four dual cube-octahedra (credit to Tilman Piesk), representing each of the powers of the Watchtower angels. I see them almost as if they ought to fit together. They’re in this pattern, as if there ought to be eight of them, in a cubic formation, though truly only four exist, with symmetrical gaps in the formation, like this:
Four dual cube-octahedra; at the top, there is a cube octahedron is at upper-right and another at lower left, and at the bottom there is one at upper-left and another at lower-right. Thick black outlines are shown in this 2D, top-view simplification to indicate an absence at of the top quarters of the grand cube, but smaller versions are show within indicating placements of cube octahedra at the bottom of the grand cube. Remix of same image linked above, created by Tilman Piesk, under a CC 4.0 license.
Together, I see now how they make up Cartesian xyz-axis system; I feel like I see all of space and time as a result of this.
Now I’m seeing the same seven-rayed (symbolic of seven dimensions) compass from previous visions superimposed upon this same Cartesian xyz-axis system. What is suggested to me (not by King Babalel, but perhaps by King Carmara or even the Divine Itself), that this is the powers of seven (perhaps referring to the powers of the Heptarchical angelic kings), or the seven-dimensionality, of whatever is coming out of this center. The suggestion to me is that there are ten dimensions, always to be had.
Regardless, I’m seeing a seven about a three. Now I’m trying to relate this back to Leaf 49, which had five 3×7 tables upon it…and I try so hard to concentrate, but it’s as if I’m being blinded to the rest of the vision! Like I’m seeing a bright light that I cannot see past.
What can I say? The first of the final 12 days is complete. Thus ends the vision.
I’ve noted experientially in other posts from Days 29-34 the apparent order of the watchtower tablets, which seem to match neither the order of the Tabula Recensa nor or the original table. Rather, and what I’ve been able to gather from experiencing the energy of the tablets under my feet (feel free to confirm, if you yourself undertake gebofal), the tablets themselves seem to follow the pattern of Water-Earth-Fire-Air. This follows a shifted pattern of the Tabula Recensa, where instead of starting at Fire/East, one would begin in the West and proceed clockwise until Air/South is reached. In the northern hemisphere (where Dee and Kelley received the tablets), this would indicate the elemental revelations beginning at sunset, or a night chart with the sun angular in the 7H. Thus, the magician is relating and interacting with another, (i.e., with God and the angels).
Because I started on a Sunday, the final Aethyr came on a Monday, meaning that Tuesday through Friday (today), I’ve had the kings of these days–Babalel (Mars), Bnaspol (Mercury), Bynepor (Jupiter), and Baligon (Venus). The first elemental calling (usually called “call 18” but, if you shift these Watchtower calls by one to account for the unspoken call 1, then it’s technically call 19) was therefore to Water on Tuesday, the day of Mars, with King Babalel, who is “Mighty and Wonderful in Waters.” Of the water signs, Mars’ greatest essential dignity is in Scorpio, which is the Night house of that planet. The following Heptarchical kings, and their planets, signs, elements (as I have received them this week), and house of the planet (i.e., day or night) are listed below:
Bnaspol (“To whom the Earth with her bowels, and secrets what so ever are delivered”)-Mercury-Virgo (in which Mercury is both exalted and in Domicile), Earth sign (and tablet), night house.
Bynepor-Jupiter-Sagittarius-Fire sign (and tablet), Day house
Baligon-Venus-Libra-Air sign (and tablet), Day house
Note that all four of these signs cover a continuous order. Additionally, the signs have triplicity of each planet exactly once, and the two projective (sometimes called “masculine,” a term I don’t like) signs’ planets are all those signs which appear flipped via a sect-based contra-antiscia to their degrees of exaltation in the Ensign layout.
Note that because this order is for gebofal, there’s something of the “last shall be first, and the first, last” reversibility that the angels like to do. But the West-first order is also suggestive of a night chart, just as the contra-antiscia exaltation format.
Sunrise: Call/Key 17, (because it’s the 16th spoken call, and the first call is “not to be spoken” practitioners usually refer to this as Call 16). Call to King Bynepor (Chesed/Jupiter). Call to zodiacal King Zinggen & Governor Lexarph of the Aethyr of ZAX because the call in the previous sentence refers to 8763, and the closest number of servient angels is 8880 from this zodical-king/Governor/Aethyr row. Because I feel energy coming off of the fire tablet, I dispense with the other three and place both feet upon that tablet. I also vibrate the God Names “ORO,” “IBAH,” and “AOZPI.”
King Bynepor comes to me, looking very massive. I begin by apologizing for not maintaining my level of compassion over the last few days, and that I’ll try to keep it up over the next few days. He says that that is fine and tells me to go with him. We are whisked away and taken to the sun. He rhetorically asks why we are at the sun: surely not because he is the king of the sun, but because, he says, this is where we will discuss heat, heat and fire. “Fire in particular,” he says: “consider what happens with fire. Fire is this grand separating action. It is ultimately [a conversion of] energy. The thing about energy is that it can either cause a transformation or a transmutation, and this is why he (King Bynepor) is exalted so much above the other kings.
He notes that even within the planet Jupiter (and he takes me there briefly), how some degree of fusion occurs (note: here is the first link and here is the second link which suggest some small degree of deuterium fusion may be occurring, but of course brown dwarfs are where larger fusion takes place). He takes me back to the sun, however, for this is where the energy is highest, and he notes some of the effects: there is light, there is heat, there is a fundamental transformation that can be made to atoms.
Now King Bynepor takes me to a chemical reaction, and he says, “Note how these chemicals,” and here he takes me to an endothermic reaction, “note how the energy in here causes these chemicals to be rearranged, and to have completely different properties to the observer.” He also notes that for an exothermic reaction, the same thing happens: you still need to meet a threshold of energy, it’s just that more energy is given off. He says that for endothermic reactions, one generally tends to trade energy for information or greater complexity.
This is the boon of Jupiter, for information tends to be more valuable, because it is highly transformative. People who are going about their day, putting in information, trying to get information out: the reason why this can be matter of political ascendancy, wealth, or sudden boons, is that the energy put in by somebody can suddenly lead to a change in state or arrangement that is suddenly discovered to be highly valuable. “This is why fire and the energy derived therefrom,” he continues by way of analogy, “can be so valuable to people.”
King Bynepor pauses for questions. I ask, “So this is a lot: how about how this relates to light?” “Very good: light is a pure form of this energy. Note that, with light, there is much less mass involved, and to call light a single point,” he hesitates knowingly and gestures to physics and the double-slit experiment. He says, “It’s kind of problematic, but let’s talk about this experiment for a moment.” We look at a vision of the experiment and he says, “Note that what is happening here is that energy is behaving in an unexpected way. Energy is behaving in relation to all other energy.”
Here King Bynepor underscores his next comment: “Consider the points from your previous lesson” (from yesterday). He says, “What has happened here is that the arrangement of points such that,” and here he pauses to turn my attention quite closely to the physics, for my knowledge of this experiment is probably at least a decade old. “In a double-slit experiment, points are arranged about a certain geometry, and they’re done with the expectation of a certain geometry to unfold. Looping this in with this spherical consciousness, whereby all things[, including concepts,] are balanced, what is happening is that there is a certain hidden balance occurring. The unfolding of that is still not well understood by scientists. I’m not going to tell you what that is (that’s part of the scientific process!).” I groan slightly in disappointment.
However, King Bynepor continues, “Note the energy involved: first of all, it’s interesting because it’s the smallest amount of energy, and yet there’s all this focus on it, because there’s all of this information being derived [from this experiment on it].” He notes, “Sometimes even a the small amount of energy can make all the difference.” He gestures to Schrödinger’s cat.
King Bynepor changes gears and says, “Let’s take a look at this at the cosmic scale. Take a look at all of the energy going on in the universe. There is a massive amount of information that is being unfolded with this energy in this universe. It is too much for one human. As cosmically oriented as you are, there is just too much for any one person to grasp it all. But the spirit of it can be grasped,” he consoles me, “and this is the advantage of fire. Yes: all of the elements in their place can do this, but fire, in some ways, is closest to spirit.”
Yet King Bynepor cautions me: “Spirit is the source of all of the elements.” He pauses to note some theories of the elements having the elements proceed stepwise, one from a preceding element, with fire being the first to proceed from an element, then air from fire, etc. “Ultimately, they all proceed from spirit. It makes no difference.” He notes how he himself proceeded from the most high, and he says that there is so much information, and thus so much compassion to be had.
The problem is that we, as human beings, tend to be hyperfocused on each other or on yourselves, which is ultimately the same thing. The energy it takes, we’re discovering, to understand enough, to get enough information, is too much! (Note: presumably here, King Bynepor is talking about the information necessary to satisfy all of our curiosities.) “It’s too much energy! So you continue to consume more and more energy, and you’re discovering that this energy is coming at the expense of the information that you could’ve received from nature and from its unfolding.
“This is,” he says, “in one sense, sad, but it’s also an opportunity, because were you to be able to directly transmit energy from outer space, to the Earth, such that you did not need to extract all of [these fossil fuels], it would be much easier to continue to obtain the information needed to understand the value of each other as people and of animals [and plants and so on]. There’s so much that’s being lost, and it’s really a tragedy, and it’s like you say: it’s an unintelligent use of our time and resources.”
I ask briefly about compassion, and King Bynepor says, “I will stoke the fires and light of compassion within you,” and I feel it, and it’s such a boon right now, and I express my gratitude. “But it’s not easy to maintain that, so whenever gebofal is finished,” he says, “first of all: you will find yourself transformed. But second of all, returning to a meditation practice will be of great value to you, and metta compassion in particular.
“Were more people to meditate,” King Bynepor comments, “then suddenly the quality of information suddenly become much higher.” My mind, suddenly distractible, quickly bids him to please continue. He says, “All right: so we have energy and we have information, and we have the conversion between the two. And so, what is fire?” King Bynepor asks rhetorically. “Fire is this process: it can add heat, as needed. It can add light, as needed. Light, is how things may be understood.
“This is why the lion, the [zodiacal] sign of Leo, associated with the heart, is ruled by the sun. [The heart] needs this light to see about it, to understand the exterior,”–the surface of the sphere–“but also thereby the [center of spherical consciousness] may be known. That’s why the heart and the spine[, the latter being most difficult part of a person’s body to reach,] are both [associated with Leo, the domicile of] the sun.
“Now, that’s not to say,” King Bynepor cautions, such as “with the black sphere, that sometimes it takes more. It’s more difficult. “Hence why with Saturn,” (which is the dimmest of planets and associated with darkness and the need to draw distinction), he points out, “must also be known. That’s when we take what we know from the light, and apply it to something very dark, and therefore, ultimately, we figure out how to contextualize it.” He points to meditation again, which is “a time in which you are forced to confront that which does not readily light up with light [even the brightest of lights, the sun], and you allow it. You don’t allow the light of your chattering thoughts to begin to warp it, because they have energy themselves. The information content of one’s thoughts can be warping to the nature of reality,” including to the nature of reality of the shape of the black sphere, making it nearly impossible to know and accommodate. Our thoughts contain their own information, and when something is difficult to see, and dark, that warps so much of the nature of that which the heart does not like to confront, of suffering and the general shortcomings of dukkha (which is what the black sphere represents).
I express my gratitude, and I can feel so much energy coming up off of the fire tablet. King Bynepor advises that tomorrow will be air, and that it will be clear to me what the elemental pattern is after Saturday, and that I will find in roughly 5 or 6 days’ time the aforementioned reason why some days do not seem to have a servient angel host associate with them. I express my gratitude again to King Bynepor. I ask briefly why it’s so difficult to link up these elemental calls with the Aethyrs?
He says, “The square root of something does not always look like its square. What is happening now is that I can liken it to an inscribed square of a circle trying to make sense of the circle as a whole, or for example trying to understand the length of 19 with respect to 360 degrees: it doesn’t quite make sense, does it? It’s a difficult process, but if you contemplate this, you will pierce some of the veil.” (See Sidebar below.)
I ask King Bynepor if he has anything else. “No: work to continue your compassion. Make it a walking meditation, and consider as best you can how this relates to it, and more will be revealed to you.”
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Read call 17/16 three times, just to ensure that I vibrated it more or less fluidly at least one time.
King Bynepor bids me take his hand, which I do, and he notes the lovely names of God: “ORO, IBAH, AOZPI.” Here takes me along and he’s noting all of the energy of the universe, over and over and over again: combining, transferring: the fire is everywhere,” he says. “Fire in the sense of energy. So we have the opposites of this continuum,” he notes: “transfer of energy, which can bring about information to those interested in it,” and then the points, which interact with energy.
Now King Bynepor notes a couple of things: generally speaking, when energy is unleashed, or is made available, or when stored energy begins interacting with matter, that we see a separation between points. It’s why water and fire are complements: both of them can separate. Yet whereas water tends to dissolve and loosen the relationship between two points, fire tends to undo said relationship. Water tends to be more of a process; though when it rushes, it is different! Yet a person who has been drowned can, at the end of the day, usually be identified, but a person who has been burned thoroughly cannot.
“Okay!” I exclaim, kind of weirded out.
“Enough energy can do that,” he continues. That’s why water infused with fire and heat is so dangerous, because that combination of undoing–for example, waterlogging someone or, say, and earthen dam–is so much more dangerous when the water is heated up, [not only due to boiling water acting on even a hard surface, but also] because it just can allow for a lot more growth: toxic growth, mold growth, stuff like that, vs. when water is at least frozen, the odds of someone picking up a parasite are reduced because it’s harder for it to grow.”
I want to clarify , and King Bynepor says, “Yes, let’s get to it. Water can dissolve, can cause something”–(i.e., a point of matter)–“to be taken into it, and thereby become a part of that watery relationship. It can become a point within water, which is then going to flow and transport, and all of that, rather than being a point of whatever [other system] it had [been connected to] before. Whereas fire: the energy in and of itself will cause a rearrangement of some sort, whether that be a somewhat temporary pulling away, or a complete burning away: a complete chemical transformation.
“Now,” King Bynepor points out, “pay attention to this. As we move to the different astrological signs, let’s start with Aries. In one sense, it isn’t as happy as it is in water, but when Mars is in Aries, it heats up, and it cuts, and it separates, and it also generally does the sort of damage that you have when energy is involved with that. A very similar example as with Mars in Scorpio! except that’s much more intense. The heating energy in the sense of the latter is heated energy directed at a target, so it could be more of a kinetic energy that can ultimately unleash power and information.
“But, sticking with Aries: what do we think of with Aries?” King Bynepor rhetorically posits the question. “We think of conflict, we think of very strong fighters, for example. We think of getting to know the limits of distance between one person and another by direct contact, and that direct contact immediately changes the entire dynamic, because that point is suddenly forced to be in another place, no matter what. [This is] unlike water, which could be like that, but it’s not in that in that same vein.” He’s trying to steer me clear of this notion, likely to emphasize the system of points of a person rather than fewer or even a single point which is the target of Scorpionic energy.
I say, “King Bynepor, I thank you for this. I ask you for more information.” He replies, “We think of the god Ares. The force behind Aries is that He is kind of a berserker. He goes into war, He loves war, He lusts for war, and He just loves going in, getting in, and ‘Fight-fight-fight-fight-fight-fight!'” He likens this back to Austin Coppock’s calling [Mars in Aries] like a machine gun. “And that’s what it is. It’s just that constant kind of raging fight that causes separation between different points. Why does it cause separation?” he asks rhetorically. “Not because of dissolution, as with water, but because of impact, because of a transfer of energy.”
King Bynepor continues: “Consider also the advances in weaponry that humans have had.” We started with sticks and stones, (which break bones). Then we moved from that to spears: suddenly there’s more energy, and it’s a more efficient transfer of energy, that causes more splitting and of the separation and cutting that Mars is famous for. Then we begin creating shields, and to bows and arrows, so there’s an attempt to transform the energy transfer so that it doesn’t hurt the person being attacked.
“Then we add into that horses and cavalry: massive amounts of energy, which are terrifying, because they just continue to transfer that energy.” So you have not only the horse who is being ridden, and the horses just got bigger and bigger, the angels note. Not only that, they were capable of carrying larger and larger amounts of mass, and all of that mass wasn’t designed to just be a big massive creature that you moved around, like with a workhorse. Instead cavalry was intended to be something that transferred a massive amount of energy, often simultaneously, into an energy line.
Then this is increased with creatures like war elephants, but also, if you think about it, we move to the use of gunpowder, which increase the distances between the origin of the attack and the target, and the creation of castles used to disperse energy directed at them. There was a lot of advancement with respect to energy as a result of martial desires! Catapults, crossbows, and of course the principles of torture operated the same way, a targeted transfer of energy upon someone in order to glean information.
With modern warfare, we get artillery, and with the including the introduction of airplanes gravity helps to increase the energy of the explosives while being above the directed attacks: generally, “bigger things that go boom-boom” and transfer more energy. Then there are tanks and bunkers designed to blunt energy transfer from the target, until finally we get to the big one: “We got the bombs!”, the nukes.
We also get technology which allows for more and more targeted attacks, so the interplay between energy and information continues, and also using our energy-using information to try to degrade that of the enemy. (Note: How constructive!) It’s all part of the piece, King Bynepor concludes. So (and here I chuckle), that is Aries! The constant upgrading of energy attacks and, towards the end, you get information being included in that, all as a constant push to separate energetically. (Note: in the words of Philip II of Macedon: “divide et impera,” (“Divide and rule,” or as it’s usually now know, “Divide and conquer).
“Let’s go to Leo,” King Bynepor says: “It’s much simpler. Leo, as mentioned in a previous vision, desires the sun. The sun, as mentioned in a previous vision, is the most massive source of energy in our solar system, and of course, in the mid-summertime months of Leo, the sun is hottest and strong (in the northern hemisphere), and crops are growing.
“Generally speaking, this is a time of royalty.” At this, King Bynepor is quick to explain: “The energy of the sun comes down and provides bounty to the land, hence we get to [better conditions of] this kingdom [during times of growth], but as far as the king himself,” (note that King Bynepor is using gendered language but this was merely faster for me to process–gender-neutral language such as “the monarch” is, of course, preferred), “going from TEX (the kingdom) up to LIL (the king), the king himself is supposed to inhabit this form of energy. This solar energy represents divinity, it represents light: light that can be seen. It’s a more rarefied kind of energy transfer: light that allows for sight. Hence these two words rhyme in German and in English.
“So, when you have this light,” King Bynepor expands, “suddenly, many more things can be discovered, and we have much more. We start with symbolism; the symbolism of the king. The symbolism of the spotlight and the pageantry, and everything designed to keep the eye on the king, and to the beneficence of the king be reflected in the beneficence of the land, and vice versa. This is where this energy is going to, and when it comes to sight, there’s definitely a lot more about the signifier and the signified when it comes to this Leonine energy. So the peasants know to worship and to do what they’re supposed to do because of God’s emissary on Earth. Of course we’ve seen between and exclusive divinity for emperors before.
“But the main points are that you can see; that plants and animals that take in the elements are happier (plants because light helps them grow, and animals because they can see food that they wish to eat), and generally speaking, people prefer summertime weather in mild climates, all things being equal.
Now we turn to Sagittarius, for King Bynepor notes that our time has run long. “So, with Sagittarius, we have this concept of myth and of story, and we suddenly have this energy being transformed. We started with separating symbolism via light, and the transfer of the essence of one thing to another via sight that we got in Leo. [In Sagittarius, we] move to a closer energy transfer, and that is the energy transfer of meaning, from one thing to the next, and a story from one thing to the next. In order to that, we consider oftentimes [the archetype of] the monk” (here I want to credit Gordon White or perhaps Austin Coppock for having said this metaphor earlier, which King Bynepor draws from), “who gets people going, gets their symbolic energy going, tells a story that people begin to follow, and so on. The symbol of Sagittarius incorporates multiple things together in the form of a centaur: a combination of person with a horse (this point has definitely been made by Austin).
“When you have this, the multiple things that seem somewhat contradictory are nonetheless, in this dream logic or mythological logic, they’re okay combined together. So we can shed light on things that seem contradictory and thereby allow a greater understanding of what there is to be known. So that is the psychic transfer of energy, that is different from what you get from Pisces. Pisces,” King Bynepor is telling me specifically now, “is this Jupiterian expanding and trying to get in everywhere, and trying to see things everywhere, and really understanding all sides. Being the transported (the fish) and the also the transport: the water that flows in a certain direction or and that can flow more or less everywhere, or wherever it needs to go. With Sagittarius, this is a transfer of meaning via direct symbolism that goes in the mind, and this is a more meaningful psychic transfer of energy, and trying to get an optimistic ending to all of this separation that’s occurred with the previous two signs.
King Bynepor asks me if I have any questions. I remark that that was a lot, and he agrees. He thanks me for my time, and I insist on instead thanking him for his time, and I bow and am very grateful. He says that the next vision will just be the person and the person giving fire, and how that relates to everyday activities and what that’s like for the people involved. I thank King Bynepor again and the vision ends.
Sidebar: One of the things that occurred to me as I was typing up the notes for today was what occurred to me yesterday: the idea of 19 as the square root of 360. The 30/19 split of the 49 calls seemed obvious: 30 calls to the Aethyrs representing 30 degrees of signs of a zodiac (and, more mathematically, 360 divided by 3 and 4, the two closest integer addends of 7 (the square root of 49), equals 30). 19 represented a square root of its own: the rounded integer square root of 360 degrees of a circle, or more perfectly of 360 degrees of the circumference, plus one point at the center.
This then led me to wonder about applying this number 19 (associated by Crowley with “Manifestation,” but I could not find evidence for this in a thorough treatment by, say, Bill Heidrick) to geometry. I wondered what 19 would be like as, say, a diameter of a circle, and sure enough, the circumference of such a circle rounds to 60, the number of the degrees of an equilateral triangle. Here we see a mathematical “Mystery of the Trinity” spoken by the angel Galvah.
But what of the square? A square has as many degrees as a circle, because it is composed of two triangles, and a square & circle of equal area look pretty cool when they share a common center (see links later in this paragraph). Unfortunately, not much fun comes up this way, but it did make me wonder about the phenomenon of squaring a circle. For a circle of radius 1, the side length of the square needed of equal area to such a circle is √π. The demonstration of this is relatively simple and is saved for the reader as an exercise. The meaning of I’m unsure of, but note that in order to square a circle, the square root of the defining characteristic of a circle, the number Ï€, is needed, just as the angels are now pointing me towards the number 19 as the square root of the degrees (or degrees plus one for the center) of a circle
All of this made me realize something about these latter 19 calls. During the Aethyrs, the angels were taking me through, slowly but surely, information about the idea of points and concepts of spherical (3D circular) consciousness, as well as cubical (3D square) consciousness. Once the general points about these have been made, now I’m being walked through points and the four elements, and the quaternary nature of this itself is done in a squaring manner, for a total of 16 calls. What three things could there be to get to 19? Perhaps the center, the perimeter/circumference, and then finally the entirety? It’s not clear. However, it certainly parallels some the alchemical symbol for the Philosopher’s Stone.
Visual representation of a few things that I wrote above: a circle shown to have 360 degrees, a square with 360 degrees total, and an equilateral triangle with 60 degree angles.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I’m trying to have a lot of compassion, circulating it as best I can. Once again there’s King Bynepor, but as with yesterday, we have him joined by Kings Bnaspol and Babalel. “Yes, of course, tomorrow will be the day of air, ruled by Venus.” The angels also note that the four signs that they’re ruling–Virgo-Libra, Scorpio, and Sagittarius–are in order.
King Bynepor notes that because I have so much more to write up, that he will keep this brief, out of respect for that, but he says, that the fire that I already have within me will be magnified and magnetized to this realm of Adam Qadmon. “Again,” he comments, “this is the teaching part, but the realization part will be the last three days. It will come together in a way that is unique to you. It will not be whatever projected notion of perfection that you have, but it will be a magnification of you, and it is important to try your best to maintain the same practices that brought you here. ‘The same lady you brought to the dance is the one you should stick with.'” He adds that this is important.
He shows me this light, and I’m feeling much energy coming up off of leaf 17 (of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh), and he’s saying to just take note of this, so I do, trying to remain humble and respectful. “So you have points that are transformed as a result of the introduction of energy. In its basest form, it will cause them to split apart, but in other forms, it will simply raise the energy level of the system. This is how life ultimately unfolded, because that energy level was raised. It needs to all be done in a careful, controlled manner, because otherwise it’s just energy going everywhere, and there’s information to be had with that, but it needs to be done intelligently.”
I’m being taken again, and I’m seeing someone with fire about the head, and King Bynepor is saying that this is how I will perceive people and animals. This is the sense of the aura that I will get. The angels are stating outright that this is the boon of these angels, led here by the Heptarchical kings, and of course the Governors and Zodiacal kings also. The angels are suggesting that I add up the discrepancy between the angels of each day’s call and the closest number of servient angels in the Aethyrs to that (of the zodiacal king of that Aethyr, which which I call upon). They suggest that I’ll find something interesting there: Saturday or Sunday may be a good time for that.
I ask if there’s anything else, and they say, “No, this is it,” so I express my gratitude to King Zinggen, to Governor Lexarph, and to Kings Bynepor, Bnaspol, and Babalel, and of course to God, known today as ORO, IBAH, and AOZPI.
Sunrise: Call/Key 18 (most practitioners refer to this as Call 17, since it is the 17th spoken call). Call to King Bnaspol. Call to Zodiacal King Zingen & Governor Zaxanin of the Aethyr of TOR, since the former, in that Aethyr, is associated with 7333 servient angels, which is close to the “7336” referenced in this call.
Note: For this scrying, I placed the seal of King Bnaspol on the water/air tablets. Although I certainly felt energy from his seal, as far as the tablets go, I definitely felt the energy come up from the heel of my left foot, the Earth tablet. So, it seems as though either the strength of the king overrides the tablet (King Bnaspol/Mercury being strong in earth, i.e., Virgo, an earth sign, is where Mercury is both in domicile and exaltation), or, more likely, the order is shifted from the Tabula Recensa. Here is my proposal for the order of energy based on gebofal (recalling that I started on a Sunday and have followed the days of the week throughout, such that today’s Leaf, 18, falls on a Wednesday), based on my perceived activation of the energy of the tablets (recall that yesterday, I perceived that not only King Babalel, but also the water tablet were activated), as follows:
Original Table order of the Watchtower tablets: Fire/East-Earth/South-Air/West-Water/North
Tabula Recensa order: Fire/East-Air/South-Water/West-Earth/North
“Last shall be first” Tabula Recensa order (sunset is first, midday is last): Water/West-Earth/North-Fire/East-Air/South
This will need to confirmed based on the following four tablets, but is my working hypothesis for now.
To the vision: I see a sphere; it is Earth, but I’m only seeing land; it is elemental earth. King Bnaspol approaches and has me just put my feet on dry land. He tells me that this will be a slower vision because it is earth. I’m seeing gnomes, and I note the energy as described above. I begin talking during the vision about the scheme of the planets, and King Bnaspol says wryly and playfully, “We’ll see.”
He asks me to consider earth for a moment. Earth is solid, and is an anchor. It can be considered to be the points of geometry themselves. Yet at the same time, as Earth alone, they’re in an arrangement that can slowly move over time. King Bnaspol really wants me to get my hands into this astral dirt that I’m in, so I do. “Feel it,” he bids me, “think about what worms do. They slowly push their way around and through, and get whatever they can. Think about the sign of Capricorn, the goat.” That goat just goes through the land, he says. The sea-goat, he says, is just the goat at its “goatiest” (here I pause to reflect on a sea-goat ruler of time, Pricus), trying to have a somewhat better means of traveling through, but once it finds itself on land, it’s a little bit tougher (in the myth of Pricus, his children come to land and over time lose their tails and must make do with the slower land life of having to get by on four legs).
“If you think of the bull, the goat, or even the maiden in the field,” he says, “there’s this recognition that earth should be changed, and then there’s this change, and then it’s like, ‘OK: let’s stop. Let’s keep things how they are here.'” It’s dried out, if need be: there’s this acknowledgment of this need for moisture, but there’s this big tension between the two. On the one hand, in the case of a ceramic pot, it needs to be able to contain water, so it needs to be dried (one of the qualities of earth is dryness) so much so that it can be a seal against the dissolution of water.
King Bnaspol shows me the [elemental] earth sphere again. He says to consider the next layer down, the molten core. All of these points together are so close, so packed together (as an aside, he notes the density of the sun, which, though largely made of hydrogen, is nonetheless a thousandfold more dense than the Earth’s atmosphere; and upon typing this up I looked up the density of the earth’s core, which is more than twice as dense as the Earth as a whole). The heat is a result of the compactness creates tension among the points themselves; the structure is unsustainable and (here I get a note from King Bnaspol as I type this up that the energy is partly from multiple point unable to “become a single point” or for one point to “impose itself on another” without tension and energy being generated in the system as they approach such a state).
Now King Bnaspol turns to the topic of density. “That’s the big thing about [elemental] earth, there’s much more compactness.” He takes me to a neutron star. He says, “Let’s review what happens to a neutron star: the density is high, things collapse in, there’s no more fuel (any remaining fuel that could have been is gassed out by the supernova stage). Everything else is so heavy and so dense, that everything else is essentially compact neutrons, which are arranged in the tightest possible formation. There’s plenty of energy to be had for a neutron star–and here he has me concentrate deeply (he know it’s tough: “It’s tough to think about dirt,” he kids)–“If you consider how compact that is: analogies have been made to a diamond.” He’s trying now to show me the spirit of a neutron star. He’s saying the density is as tightly packed as points can be, and it’s kind of a drag on account of that, but nonetheless, it does have this beautiful formation to it. It represents something of an absolute limit–perhaps not perfectly so: there are exceptions to every rule, he adds–but the points are very tightly packed. He has me concentrate on this geometry, and the tightness of the points together.
Now King Bnaspol is saying to consider “the bummer around that,” someone who is too earthy, too stuck. “Such a person will not be able to change, will not be able to alter their formation. If a person is like this, obviously the biological systems will do what they’re going to do” (i.e., age and die), “but they themselves will be stuck. Their patterns will be stuck about them. They will see no need to change. They will see the structure that they have as being the ideal structure. Note how your heart leaped,” he continues to me, “when you thought about a sphere of points all dense together: it has this beautiful geometry to it, “but it’s not a true geometry. It’s not a true spherical consciousness in the sense of a center and a surface of a sphere, or a center by which the circumference is known, and vice versa, because everything is filled in.” (Note: here I consider points in the sense of not being conscious of themselves to be part of a sphere, and with no sense of relationship to other points). Ultimately, it’s just a very round hunk of gunk: very dense gunk!
He says that someone like this can, on the one hand, be very good at imposing a structure. “This is your forte,” he tells me: “imposing structure, imposing order if you sense it, or have an indescribable desire to do so, but on the other hand, there’s not as much call for development. In your case, you needed fire”–(my chart is heavy in fire)–to ultimately bring that about. Yet you nonetheless have still surrounded yourself with a highly structured environment in which to do so,” he points out, clearly referring to the entirety of both Enochian and the full-time job and householder responsibilities that I hold in order to make it possible.
“That’s okay!” he adds. “If you think about children: children need structure. Children need routine, because they need some of that in order to grow, but on the other hand,” (note, reader, the Mercurial expressions King Bnaspol uses: I’m here for it!), “that can also be a double-edged sword, where they think that all they need to be is structure, and that was the problem that you had as you transitioned into adulthood, is learning, ‘OK, where does this structure end, and where do who I am, as an identity, begin?’
“And that’s the problem: the real problem is this lack of freedom that this order brings to the mind, to the routines, to the path of the individual.” So he points out particularly that a couple of months from now, “Some stuff is going to happen to you that will offer you such freedom as you have not known. It will, on the one hand, be somewhat scary, but on the other hand: ‘Hey! A chance to do something different! A breath of fresh air!’ That’s another element that’s not included in this,” he says. “But I rule it,” he grins slyly and playfully.
He says he’s going to, once again, leave the lessons about the individual earth signs, but they will be relatively straightforward for me. He continues: “We’ve talked about someone who has this”–the earth element–“so let’s get down to, much as we”–the angels–“had with water, let’s get down to the purpose of earth. The purpose is structure. The purpose is that arrangement which does not change for a given period of time, so that other things about it can change according to an elegant unfolding. So it is this structure about which other things may unfold or enfold. It is a state of continuing to have been unfolded or enfolded.
“It is the present state which does not change in the future state for a given length of time.” He repeats: “It is a present state which does not change in the future state over a given length of time, which is not to say that it will never change, but it is that state-to-state consistency of the period of time which is of interest to the individual. Hence,” he continues, “you think about things associated with earth signs: stability, structure, order.”
I ask if he or any of the other angels upon whom I have called have anything else to say. “No,” he says. He says other things which he says are not relevant to the write-up, and then the vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure. This time, having confirmed to my satisfaction the active Watchtower tablet of this call, I also vibrate seven times the northern godnames of “OIP,” “TEAA,” and “PDOCE” (Update: although I vibrated these godnames on this day, I will be using the Tabula Recensa names going forward, and Earth is associated with “MOR,” “DIAL,” “HCTGA”). As with yesterday, I dispense with the remaining tablets and rest both of my feet on the seal of King Bnaspol, and on the Earth tablet underneath it.
King Bnaspol appears and is leading me. Upon my mentioning it, the angels confirm, “Yes, we are the first [part of the Enochian system], so we are here to lead.
“Let’s resume where we left off, which is to say, the actual signs [of the zodiac].” I see an earthen sphere [elemental earth]. He says very simply, “Virgo: let’s talk about it in terms of giving Virgo, and receiving Virgo.” He alludes to my natal chart, and continues, “Giving Virgo is giving the [geometric] points [of consciousness], the emphasis of the points, in terms of: the earth is given, so as to give the desired arrangement. So, this could mean changing things around; it’s as if the points are fine, but there needs to be just a tweak so that they are properly laid out. The energy of Virgo is to be clear, to clearly see the points, to identify with the points such that the desired arrangement of the points is achieved.
“Next, let us go to Capricorn, since that is what you are least familiar with. Capricorn–” and here he bids me be quiet so that I can clearly hear the transmission. I do a 7-7-14 breath. He shows me a point, and he shows me another point. “The issue with Capricorn is that they can see the arrangement of points over time. So this is partly why they are so desirous of ancient things of value, things which have kept their value over time, not so much that there’s this by-gone feeling: the value of the thing over time is that it’s this way that the past can speak to the present, or possibly even the future.
Here, I’m substituting “terrestrial” for where King Bnaspol references “Earthly” in order to reduce confusion between Planet Earth and elemental earth. “Consider the [terrestrial] sphere,” (here King Bnaspol is is referencing the vision from Day 30), “as it meets the Heavenly sphere. What Capricorn wishes to do is take from the elemental energy of Adam Qadmon, and it wishes to combine that with the present [terrestrial] sphere as a way to meet up with that heavenly sphere. If the heavenly sphere is the future state” (as I’ve previously suggested a way to consider heaven: a goal or future state), “and the [terrestrial] sphere is the present state, Capricorn is seeking to take those points of value from this present terrestrial state, and to take those points, those earthy points–remember that the points are identified with earth and with matter–what Capricorn is seeking to do is to take those points and arrange them in such a manner such as they will be perpetuated into the future.
“In order to do that, it needs to understand cycles of history. It needs to understand time. So it is creating something,” (Capricorn is a cardinal sign), “but it has this vast time scale at hand. It’s almost as if it understands this radius or circumference of both earth and heaven, in that sense.
“And finally, Taurus, which is notorious for liking things as they are, but also enthusiastic about a given change when the arrangement obviously is not there. Why? Because the desire here is for the arrangement of points that–”
Here, he cautions me: “Your impulse is to say, ‘Reduce suffering’: that is not it. The arrangement of points…” And here I pause to listen carefully. “Your heart is speaking very loudly, and I’m trying to have you listen to what I have to say.”
I pause for another 7-7-14 breath. This seems to clear the transmission enough for him to continue. He shows me a bunch of seeds, and a farmer working in a field. What he’s saying is that the goal of Taurus is to arrange the seeds, and to arrange the circumstances about them, to try to ensure that a certain seed grows. Extrapolating, Taurus seeks to arrange the circumstances that the [desired] unfolding [or enfolding] takes place. So, in that sense, it is the fixed earth, the earthiest of earths. But he cautions me: “Ensuring the overall circumstances such that the overall unfolding takes place means that a desired change to how things unfold can be problematic for Taurus. Conversely, when a desired change is seen as needed by Taurus, but it cannot or will not happen, that is equally problematic.”
I ask King Bnaspol if he has anything else. He says, “No,” this was it. I double-check, since I have garbled the transmission twice this scrying, but he confirms that the answer is “No.” I thank him, and the vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure as noon.
King Bnaspol appears, and is appeared by the Zodiacal King Zinggen, and Governor Zaxanin is here to bless King Zinggen’s presence. They’re saying that the reason King Zinggen (associated with Aquarius zodiacally) is that they want to draw my attention to the servient angels, and they’re saying that there’s going to be a pattern that I will recognize in perhaps a week’s time as I go through these Watchtower calls. Specifically, this pattern will relate to the days in which, rather than a large number in the thousands appearing as part of the call (fairly close to at least one of the number of servient angels that a zodiacal king has within a given Aethyr), instead a smaller number (less than 100) is part of the call, and thus no good near Zodiacal-King-by-Aethyr number is available. (For now, my plan is to simply not call on a zodiacal king for such days). Yet tonight the angels foretell that these days will become important to me.
King Zinggen is here as some moral support, I’m told (with more detail expressed at the end of the call).
Once again I’m shown this [elemental] earthly sphere. King Bnaspol takes the lead and says, “Consider the exchange now,” but I’m distracted by King Zinggen, who mentions, “I will be of interest to you on Saturday: you will see why. But I still want to be here, I still want to observe this.”
King Bnaspol shows me the sphere again. Once again I’m shown that it can be cut in half, or cut deeply, such that you could reach a point deep in this earth that all of this matter is concentrated. He says to consider how the person who who goes from feeling “understuck” to appropriately stuck or anchored. For example, consider someone with their head always in the clouds, or always emotional, generally anyone who needs that cool and dry feeling that comes from having something else to turn to: something for their emotions and ideas and passions to wrap around! With elemental earth, it feels real.
With these points of geometry, they’re saying, it’s important that they take on this sense of reality. This is what King Bnaspol is saying is the great benefit of bringing elemental earth in. It’s a link; it’s not so much that any other action in this world is unreal; it’s that it can feel unreal. There’s this sense of authenticity: a point is a point is a point! “It is this point, here; or consider when someone ‘makes a point’ in conversation. Then that point is made, and from that we hang all of this other stuff. We understand that point in relation to other points. It’s not a murk, or a fog, where nothing is clear, and things spookily appear out of it. No: if there’s a system to how the points are arranged, you can understand what’s going on. And having that density of that point on which other things can be hung and understood in relationship to each other is very important.
“So, somebody who has that density of their points could potentially give that to somebody else who doesn’t. But somebody who gives more of that to someone who already has that, it can A) start being confusing (because more points are introduced which must be accounted for), and B) somebody can start feeling bogged down in terms of responsibilities piling up, or just, ‘Can I just not have so much reality right now?'” Now Zinggen chimes in: “This is the sense of Sorrow [associated with Saturn], especially of that [elemental] earthy sorrow: dealing with that dryness, that ‘These points are here. This is where they are. This is all there is to it. Nothing else to be done about it. That’s it.'”
So I’m now shown the terrestrial sphere, not to be confused with the elemental earth sphere. “For the person giving [elemental earth],” King Bnaspol is saying, “they just can offer that to somebody who may not have that, and it’s like they understand this sense of truth about the points of geometry” (i.e., of geometric consciousness). He continues: “They’re lending something about themselves or their own consciousness, or own awareness, or own perspective, what-have-you, to the person who lacks it. So, getting back to this terrestrial sphere: what happens when people do this? Well, they have a potential to be close to this point–as we saw with Capricorn especially, but also Taurus and Virgo to a lesser degree–they have the potential to excite people about the reality of the situation. ‘Real change!’ But they also have a potential to arrange things in a way that isn’t quite the way that it’s being sold. It can be a long process, because sometimes the details aren’t apparent about exactly how things need to be arranged. Sometimes the other things need to come up, and so on,” King Bnaspol finishes.
“But that’s okay,” the angels tell me. King Bnaspol addresses me, “The point is that, when you get to this point, it may behoove you to consider: does the reality of the situation need to be made apparent?” Here he considers truths about oneself that loved ones may not understand, for example religious differences. “Does that reality need to become apparent? And how would it be, and what would the nature of that be? Perhaps bringing up a little bit less of that matter [is wise], which is why you hold back so much to those loved ones, and you have to. You have to,” he repeats, “because you know that the introduction of the reality of who you are would ultimately lead to conflagration. [It’s] not anybody’s fault, it’s just sort of the way that everything is arranged right now: and it can be disarranged! You know the exact points to think about which would lead the disarrangement which would allow you to bring the change in that you want.” I laugh because he reads me like a book.
King Bnaspol now receives some assistance from King Babalel, and King Zinggen is here to help mediate the two. (Note: Mercury is in a sign-based square with Saturn, which is both in the sign of Aquarius and is in its domicile there; Mars (for Babalel) is in Cancer, which is sextile to Mercury by sign but not closely, but Cancer is ruled by the moon, which is in Sagittarius, whose ruler, Jupiter, is in Aquarius with Saturn). The discussion is about the dynamic between water and earth, and how I have done my best to bring forward my water side when it comes to matters related to these loved ones, to not come at is as a targeted hose, but instead to be a nurturing force via the Cancerian energy that I can muster and to transport what I can via the force of my Piscean energy. “At any rate,” he finishes, “consider this! Consider what you’re bringing!” He adds, finally, that yes, just as with yesterday’s insight that I will be more aware of the amount of water available to someone, I’ll also get that respect to elemental earth. Tomorrow I’ll get fire, and Friday I’ll get air. The angels are still kind of keeping Saturday a coy secret from me.
Regardless, I express my gratitude to all of the angels. I ask one more thing about how all of this relates to compassion. The angels say that this is the how-to of compassion. This is understanding the root of the heart. He says that I will get a sense of when it may be good to pick a fight when it comes to fire, or be good to be soluble in order to bring transportation of nutrients to someone, or to produce a hose to clean something off. I express my gratitude to them, and thus ends the vision.
Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 19 (typically associated with the Earth Watchtower Tablet; note that most practitioners refer to this as Call 18): because I rarely make this call, I made it three times. Call to King Babalel (once again using the call in Scott Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy). I prepared for angels of secret discovery and angels of living creatures, and, given the content of the scryings, I was, in a sense, given this. Because the former call references the number 6332, I recalled that other large numbers were associated with the zodiacal kings with respect to the Aethyrs. So, I vibrated the name of Zodiacal King Ziracah (associated with Taurus), who, in the Aethyr of UTI, is associated with 6333 servient angels (it’s only one away, so I presumed some correspondence, and even were I wrong, it doesn’t hurt to have another angel helping). I also vibrated (for good measure) the name of Governor Obvaors, who appears in the same row as the Ziracah/UTI row in Aaron Leitch’s The Essential Enochian Grimoire. I was a little annoyed at myself for being underprepared, but to be fair to me, I feel like I’m in a little bit of uncharted territory.
As I mentioned on Day 29, I was unsure about the association between the days and the leaves; today I placed my hand on Leaf 19b, but it was Leaf 18 in which Kelley was attacked by gnomes for accidentally invoking them. So Leaf 18 should be the one associated with with Earth, rather than today’s. Yet this call is typically associated with Earth. To split the difference, I placed my right foot on the seal of King Babalel (recall that this king is of a Martial/Mars nature, and thus strong in waters (Scorpio)). I placed the four Tabula Recensa watchtower tablets with their usual configuration on the floor in front of me, with Fire tablet roughly to the East and facing that way, Air to the South and facing that direction, similarly Water to the West, and Earth to the North. I placed my feet on all four of them, so I could clearly tell which element was associated with which by energetic feel (a certain tingling is obvious to me when I work with the tablets like this).
The angels indicated that calling on the correct angels associated with this tablet wasn’t really the concern, but nonetheless I prepared a list of the earth-related angel names: those of Secret Discovery, and those of Living Creatures. Unfortunately, as I prepared, I noticed a discrepancy between the Enochian Watchtower angels listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Great Table and Leitch’s Essential Enochian Grimoire. This was a little unsettling and, well, I didn’t have time to settle it this morning, nor will I this afternoon or evening! So I decided to forego calling on the Watchtower angels. At any rate, on to the vision:
I feel energy at the Water tablet, from the heel of my right foot. I’m told to be silent for a moment. I feel myself drawn into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and it is definitely watery.
Note: the original Great Table had water as the last element in order (Fire-Earth-Air-Water); nonetheless, I’m not sure as to whether this feeling reflects the influence of King Babalel, or rather a reversal of the original Great Table order (Water-Air-Earth-Fire). Tomorrow, Wednesday, has King Bnaspol, who is specifically indicated to be strong in Earth (Virgo) from his call. So, if I notice that the Earth tablet is activated, I could use this as evidence that the Heptarchical kings override the tablet order, but if the Air tablet is activated I could assume that the order of these leaves reflects the original Great Table order (though Mercury/King Bnaspol should be relatively strong in air, the main power indicated is over earth due to both exaltation and domicile, and most importantly the call to King Bnaspol). Things would be even stranger if Fire were activated, and I would probably throw up my hands if water were activated tomorrow as well!
Returning to the vision: this wateriness isn’t what I was expecting, and that’s okay! King Babalel is trying to guide me right now, and he says to make the call to governor Ziracah (note that this King is associated with Taurus, an Earth sign, which opposes the water sign of Scorpio, where Mars is strongest, and from which King Babalel presumably has his power over waters), which I do. I feel energy come up off the leaf and the water tablet. There’s a bit of shifting around of the energy now. The angels say that it’s not like one element is existing completely separately from another. Nonetheless, water is dominant; part of this, I’m told by King Babalel, is his own influence, but, yes, this leaf–and this call (presumably when used for gebofal)–is of a watery nature.
I ask, in all humility, the angels that if I indeed be in the realm of Adam Qadmon, to please show me what is to be shown. I’m told to make the call to the God of the West. Thus, the God of the West/Water is MPH ARSL GAIOL (OIP TEAA PDOKE), which is what I vibrated. [Despite my the godname from the original tablet,] I feel this water come up from the tablet and up my right leg, whooshing up and all about me from the water tablet. The angels note that yesterday, the full moon was in Scorpio (and, I would just add, aided by mutual reception from Mars in Cancer).
It’s a subtle point, but the angels are saying, “Water flows, and water dissolves. Water can move about in a rush, and if it hits you thus is most solid-like, like earth. For that reason it can behave like a solid when it is moving quickly or, of course, when it is frozen. Or, it can, just by a soluble being in contact with it, it can dissolve that soluble, and flow and transport the solution. So, its nature,” the angels tell me, “is to break down, and to transport, whether that be temperature, whether that be through dissolution, through flowing, or through the force of its pushing, like unto a solid. It breaks down, and it transports.”
So when I ask how this relates to the geometry in the Aethyrs, the angels are saying, “What this can do is break down the current association between points, and it can, as a result, move two points together or further apart. It can also act as an intermediary between the two.” I express my gratitude to the angels and to God for this, and I ask if there be anything else. They say, “No. Continue to treat this a bit as an experiment,” because this is kind of new to me, so I take it to heart, in heart. They’re adding, “More will be revealed to you: this was going to be a bit clunky, anyway, but now you know the best way to approach this.” I thank them and they give me as homework to flesh out the remaining days, so I thank them and I will.
Noon: Call 19 (18 as labeled by most practitioners). Call to King Babalel. As usual (I haven’t included it because I mentioned it earlier), I vibrate the title of Leaf 19a. Taking the lessons from this morning’s Aethyr, I vibrate the name of God MPH ARSL GAIOL. I vibrate the names of King Ziracah and Governor Obvaors. Feet are placed as mentioned earlier.
The angels have me relax. Once again, I feel energy arise from the Water Quadrant/Tablet; I even moved the seal of King Babalel to under my left foot, and though I felt energy come up from that seal when making the call to him, I instead found the energy coming up from my right heel again when making this call.
Now they move on to reviewing the morning’s lesson & vision with me: water transports, water dissolves, thus it can dissolve the relationship between two times, and can also transport between them. Now they ask me to review this with respect to geometry; once again, this is a reviewing of the lessons of the higher Aethyrs, as I was promised, yet the angels note that this relates to the lower Aethyrs as well: all of reality. The effect of water is its rearranging of conditions. These elements can rearrange the conditions in which Heaven and Earth meet (see yesterday’s scrying) so that the flow that one is in is being met properly and appropriately. The angels assure me that a lot of these lessons will be learned by my unconscious mind more than anything else.
They move on to asking me to consider two points, or even a system of points of geometric consciousness of an individual. It’s natural that, in interacting with someone else, there would be a certain amount of elemental water involved in the realm of consciousness. If one increases the amount of water in the individual, then there’s a bit of dissolution of the structures that one has in place, which could cause two points to separate, or perhaps come closer together, but regardless it changes the arrangement of no less than two points to each other. Also, the angels have me consider the transportation of certain new solutes into the system by dint of the introduction of water.
Now the angels turn to the knock-on effects. Introducing more water forces that system to react by bringing in more earth in order to remain in its current arrangement, or perhaps to decide how it wishes to flow or rearrange itself given this introduction of water. Also, the transportation of a flow between two different and currently set points–assuming no dissolution is involved–the individual would need to decide whether they want a flow between these points. For example, would the individual want their set point of “compassion” to flow to and/or from an individual who has done heinous crimes? Do they want that compassion to be linked up to someone whom they, to that point, have viewed as “evil”? So the individual may need to rearrange the way that certain ideas flow, so this is a bit of a secondary dissolution (i.e., a rearrangement of a relationship between established points of consciousness), rather than a primary one.
Now the angels take me back and have me consider the person who is giving or introducing the water. Someone with a more Scorpionic take may want to introduce water in order to investigate or understand something better; this is not unheard of for people with planets in Scorpio, with an intensity, which sort of shoots water out like a pipe or a hose, such as to hose down a dirty car or to aim directly at a fire. A Scorpionic sense of this, the angels tell me, is much more–and this, again, is opposed to the sign of Taurus, ruled by King Ziracah, yet in line with King Babalel (whose link to Scorpio I’ve already mentioned), so there’s this interesting dynamic between these two angels. At any rate, the angels are saying that someone who is introducing water could be coming at it with this Scorpionic intensity and focused kind of water, that fixed water which is aimed precisely at a fixed point.
Now the angels turn to the introduction of water from someone with planets in Cancer. Here, the transporting quality of water is paramount, as with nutrients. Or, in the cardinal sense of the sign, water may be used to change the dynamic about someone. For example, in a protective manner, someone with, say, a Mars in Cancer (as we have now), the water is used to dissolve points about someone in a dangerous situation so that they can leave the old dynamic and move into a newer, safer one. How water would act from Cancer is thus very dependent on the needs of the situation (recall that Cancer is ruled by the moon, the fastest-moving of the planets and associated largely with the final formation of circumstances just before they emerge into this world, i.e., Yesod), and those things or circumstances that it senses or intuits should be begun.
Finally, we have mutable water: Pisces. So here we have the sign of fish, whose entire reality is water. Here, the person themselves is being transported along with the water that they reside in. Whereas a crab may or may not reside in water–a fish must live in water. Fish must therefore be highly adaptable to water in all of its measureless (“infinite”) variety: “TON MAOFFAS DAMPLOZ,” the angels use the Enochian phrase. The consciousness is thus in this water, and this sign chooses to live with somewhat fewer “fixed points.” Granted, a fish still has somewhat fixed points relative to its own body, but it sees the world with much more fluid points about it. Nonetheless, if water is going certain direction, the fish must account for the flow of the water, the changes of points caused by the water, what’s transported in the water: that whole concept is very much to be considered (clearly, I have no planets in Pisces or Cancer, so the angels take their time explaining these!).
“This is a lot,” the angels acknowledge. I ask whether they have anything in their generosity, if they be so inclined, to offer, and they say, “No,” but bid me to write this up. They acknowledge that these are complicated lessons, but important to consider, because now we’re going to get at some of the “roots” of the 360 degree circle/ecliptic (note the play on root and “square root”–19 being the rounded square root of 360), and all of that which is within it. The 30 degrees of the Aethyrs is the repeated cycle within any given sign, but these are the root principles of the entire Zodiac: “What is at the root of the Zodiac,” they clarify.
Thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Similar procedure: Vibrating the titles of Leaf 19a&b. Call to King Babalel. Vibrated the God names “MPH, ARSL, GAIOL.” (Note: I have decided to revert to the Tabula Recensa, so such vibrations will be associated with their usual locations. In the case of Water/West, the association is OIP, TEAA, PDOKE). Because I’m confident in this being a thoroughly watery vision, I place both feet upon the water Watchtower tablet, which has the seal of King Babalel above it.
I see this wave part in front of me, and it’s like a vision of Moses parting the Red Sea, and the angels are just pointing out the staff–associated with fire symbolically–which parts water, and how the action of water is undone. I’m approached by King Babalel, speaks to me for the rest of the vision. He walks with me and has me take note of all of the different geometric points in the two sides of the walls of water held in stasis. He notes the fish therein, and he notes the crabs (some in the water, some on the land on which we walk), and the scorpions. He notes the pinpoint accuracy of the stinger of a scorpion, and the crab’s circular crabwalk (like unto the moon!), and he notes how the fish seem to be everywhere in the water and seem to defy a lot of logic in their way.
“But each of them has their strong points,” he remarks. Now I’m feeling more energy come up off of the leaf. “Just to get very specific about how this relates to the realm of Adam Qadmon,” King Babalel transitions, and how I need to consider this as I do this: he notes that today was a somewhat difficult day for me to maintain the compassionate heart, but I did sort of rally at the end of the day. “This is a good thing,” he continues, “and now have compassion for all of this. Have compassion for the fact that water dissolves! and have compassion for the different ways in which it acts! and begins things anew! and can be concentrated, and focused!” Basically, he finishes the point: “have compassion for these various areas of your own chart, relatively empty though they may be!”
I agree, and as I do so, I see a watery sphere about me (here’s an alternative reference), and King Babalel says to take a good look around, and to really note this. When I’m encountering others in the future, he says, “You will get a sense of what’s going on with them, and what seems to be lacking based on a sense of their aura. ‘This is not watery enough,’ or, ‘This is too watery.’ This can be combined with the general sense of chakras,” which, he adds, do not completely overlay with planetary influences, yet it’s its own septenary nature which tends to combine at times. Mars, Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter (whose rulership in the zodiac opposes each other) are more or less like unto the elements. Yet the three remaining have been of interest to me in their higher forms: the sun overlays with the heart, the moon with the third eye (as broad intuition), and Saturn with the crown chakra (as Binah). The king advises me to be aware that I will have a greater sense of other people. This will be a transformation of me and my perception, because I’ve been given such a vast and wonderful teaching (and, as I write this up, I wonder whether a deeper, more fundamental teaching has been given to my energetic system), which I heartily agree with.
King Babalel kindly says that the angels are grateful for the work that I’m doing to teach this stuff and giving as much as I can in return, and says many other kind things, and gives me a subtle bow. I make sure to give a deep bow in return and give my thanks to him and all of the angels. He notes the holiness of this day, the 31st day of the ritual (31 is associated in Gematria with the name El or ‘God’), and that I will only see him two more times in this ritual.
I ask if there’s anything I need to concern myself with as far as calling the kerubs or so-called “lesser” angels of the Watchtowers, and King Babalel tells me that they are not appearing the same way here in this ritual. This is but the first lesson about water, he says, and I will rev up into the next lesson–except it won’t be him next time. I extrapolate that perhaps the next time will be Saturday, but I’m fine discovering this as the days unfold.
I express my gratitude again, and ask whether he has other things to show to me. “No,” he says, but notes that he is very pleased and to continue especially with the compassion. This will make everything make much more sense, and that ultimately we’re getting into some root forces of the heart here.
I’ve been thinking about the letters of this ring and how they relate to the kings of the Heptarchy. (Note: Here, a member correctly reiterated something I’d already read in DuQuette’s Enochian Vision Magick, which is that this name derives from the name Peh-Lamed-Aleph of Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa’s Three Books of Occult Philosophy).
Nonetheless, this was intended to supplement what was already known or observed about the ring. I suggested a correspondence to the names of the kings and their relative location on the ring astrologically; I’ve uncapitalized the first letters of the kings’ names and capitalized the letters of interest to make it easier to follow:
blVmaza (top center V on the ring)-moon
bObogel (central O)-sun
bnaspoL (bottom center L)-Mercury…note that we have the central three figures of the Monas Hieroglyphica.
bynePor (P in PELE)-Jupiter
bnapsEn (first E in PELE)-Saturn
baLigon (L)-Venus
babalEl (E)-Mars
The only issue with this is that it leaves the pairs of Jupiter and Saturn inverted with respect to the Monas Hieroglyphica (they were at bottom, not at top). Still, they are the slowest planets Dee would’ve known about, and are the greater benefic and malefic, respectively, so it makes sense that they’d be afforded some dignity by being placed at top. And it doesn’t much matter anyway, since the ring’s design in its entirety doesn’t quite lend itself to being perfectly ordered combination of the planets as in the MH.
At present, this is a proposal; note that several letters of the ring appear in multiple points of the kings’ names, and that multiple assignments could be made. Still, having tried multiple possibilities, this one seems to match the overall sun-moon-Mercury portion of the MH very well, and Saturn and Jupiter are well-paired, as are Mars and Venus.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of DEO (dee-oh). Call to King Babalel via Stenwick’s method.
The angels have me relax. I see a swirling. The angels have me recall the spiral within the pyramid which ultimately compressed into the symbol of the lotus-rose. The lotus-rose, they say, has its own type of magnetization, and to hold this very dear to the heart. I do so, and this creates the perception of the line to the “black hole” portal of the world of Adam Qadmon. The portal seems even bigger to me now.
I ask the governors and kings about this portal. “Look, you are making this leap,” they chuckle, “it’s not like you can help it.” I can feel the realm of Adam Qadmon pulling at my heart now, like it’s literally magnetized toward it. I feel this force pulling me towards it. “It’s not to be done right now,” the angels advise, “so continue to feel the force and honor it.”
The angels wish to show me this stellation which I recall from the previous Aethyr, and as it relates to Binah and to Chokmah. The angels explicitly lay it out for me: the stellation can be considered like unto the force of Chokmah. This force, in my case or view: I’ve always been fairly literal about Chokmah. The angels say, “Look, if you’re looking for Kaos, the deity, in it, the truth of the matter is that you are highly ordered. Kaos is not, at least in the way that you consider it. In terms of it trying to be this expression of this projective [formerly “masculine”] principle, note that this is different from the willful principle of Mars,” which the angels themselves separate out from Geburah. All of these things need to be distinguished from each other.
“But this projective principle, this cosmic principle,” they’re saying, as they redirect me to focus on this principle in spite of my heart being pulled toward the world of Adam Qadmon. The angels show me a point, which, by definition means that its existence is in distinction to all other points. It still demands its “day in court,” its “due,” as it were. That’s it, and all of it. That point demands its distinction among all other things, and all points in space does this, hence there’s this force of Kaos.
The angels now say, “Let’s look at how this relates to stellation. The force of a collection of points, or a system (such as an individual) itself: it orders itself and demands its ‘day in court,’ therefore a central point is somewhat able to organize all other points about it.” It’s able to create an organization about itself, the angels clarify, so that we don’t spend too much time about dominance and subservience, though there is a bit of that in this schema by necessity. But the entire system is agreeing to it, so it’s not horrific to consider.
Of course, Binah, throughout time, is very accepting of this situation, but is Sorrowful for the suffering which can occur which is a natural outgrowth of the loss of realization of one’s own Divinity. My heart feels pulled again towards the world of AQ, and the angels chuckle, and say, “OK, so consider this now, as one approaches that world: by definition, any individual point at the very least requires or causes all of these other points to become equidistant from itself [as the point reacquires spherical consciousness]. Instead of a monarch with the dukes, duchesses, and lower classes such as counts, the monarch in this case develops sphericity these classes (and indeed the center and area of the sphere become interchangeable), and equally so, because of the infinite light, because all light is infinite.
I ask how this relates to colors. The angels reply, “Various colors, various formations of the heart, that particular point of the heart. Consider the colors and the emotions of the heart. All of these are natural outgrowths, because the point or the system of points, though it requires its ‘day in court,’ nonetheless, if it is approaching this Kether point [sphericity of consciousness]–approaching itself, even (this is why the sun and Tiphareth are in the Middle Pillar)–as the heart approaches another being or situation, the heart itself in the fullness of its situation attempts to grok another being or situation or point. As it does so, it naturally has this reaction to this other being, for it sees flashes of this other being’s infinity. The same emotions that it sees, it begins to reflect in itself, and vice versa. It emits its own feeling and it becomes reflected back.
The angels say that I can remain magnetized to the world of Adam Qadmon, this is natural, especially as I approach the halfway point of his ritual. The angels say that the energy raised will be like unto Zeno’s paradoxes, but in my case the energy produced will double for every half (and half of the half, and half of the half of the half) of the ritual to remain(!!).
I express my gratitude, and the vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure. Mild panic attack in the morning, clonazepam to treat.
I relax. I see different elements of geometry. As I do so, I hold onto the symbol of the lotus-rose, hold on to the geometry of the square pyramid/octahedron; I see the image of it extend backward fractally, and forward fractally, covering all of the different bases along a line, which is the line to approach the world of Adam Qadmon. I try very hard to stay in the moment, and again open up to the angels. They are holding this lotus-rose and bend it.
I decide to read the call to the Aethyr again, just to ensure a clear and unambiguous transmission. The angels say that this was necessary, because they had something bigger to show me, and energetically I wasn’t quite in the right spot (note: sometimes even an experienced practitioner will need to make the same call twice). I see and feel a twisting motion, as if you rotated your shoulders clockwise and then counterclockwise. I sense that this is doing something to my subtle body system.
I hold on to the lotus rose and see the angels again–it’s like they’re stroking the tops of the petals of the bloom, and this indicates that this vision is approaching towards the inner part of LIL, the inner sanctum of of the lotus-rose bloom. The angels show me that this twisting rose motion (and here I see a roller coaster ride): this is all of the points, they say, seeking their day in court, their day of reckoning and appropriate judgment, which in this metaphor means deciding what something is, and being judged in the sense that there’s understanding of what a point is and the uniqueness of that thing. Babalon can accept all over time, but the Wisdom is the inner Knowing of something that allows one to project out into their (unique) ways on account of knowing their own very nature, and knowing it fully. Also, this extends in a very extraordinary sense, to knowing it in relation to all other things.
It’s by this that we get principles which for the most part work, but there are always exceptions because, although whole knows any unique point perfectly, other points in the system do not. Hence, individual Chokmah laws break down. I see each of these individual points about the line, which due to other entities are really curves like on a rollercoaster track (i.e., about the many consciousnesses, spherical and cubical, which these lines navigate). There’s a sense of needing to twist, which allows a new configuration of all of the points of the path that one is in, but also a new configuration of the points of consciousness that individuals move to spherically integrate into one’s system.
Just looking at this unfold along this track, it’s like I wait for the vision to pop open; I see a featherlike object cross another one, and it’s like someone who has been holding these swiftly makes extending motions with their arms all is part of a Y formation. The configuration of all of the points which contain these two different feathers becomes reconfigured, and thereby allows for a better and more intelligent and heart-focused unfolding across all of the points involved. (Typing this up, I think this is about individuals contextualizing different laws from different spiritual systems and how well they feel they apply to their own lives).
In order for Space and Time to operate appropriately together, there thus needs to be this appropriate meeting.
I try to see what else may be here. I’m not seeing it right now. I feel a bit of a shift to my muladhara chakra (likely healing to my root chakra). Other than that, it’s like this is being integrated a little bit. I ask the angels whether they in their mercy may have anything else for me. They say, “Let’s leave this here for now; there is time enough to go through the remainder of this Aethyr and the remaining Aethyrs. Go ahead and rest up, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: we will speak with you more shortly.”
The vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I hold on to the lotus-rose and now it seems that I’m riding a dragon; much like holding on to a large lotus-rose would, its scales cut me. I am bleeding.
I get off the dragon and alight upon a square, which is the base of the square pyramid, which I’m also seeing as part of the sphere as in previous visions. They’re showing me this pyramid rising up more steeply, and it’s part of the stellation. The angels are trying to relate the two things together: the pain of interacting with another being (geometrically, multiple systems of points causing degradation of these systems), but also the pain of being true to oneself: these two ideas are combined in this vision.
The blood relates to Spirit elementally; the angels are saying that this is a preview of looking ahead to Days 31-48, after the Aethyr of LIL, to the Watchtowers, as I get into elemental work. The first and second spoken Enochian calls or keys (the 2nd & 3rd, technically), which I prayed for guidance on: for the second spoken key relates to calling in of entities into this form of Spirit.
The angels explicitly say that it’s important to relate how Spirit and the elements relate to Chokmah and Binah. This is a little difficult for me to see on account of the geometry of the Aethyrs being quite enticing on their own. Nonetheless, the angels note that in making the distinction between two points, and all of which goes into causing two points to be distinguished in a variety of manners, the four elements map on to the Standard Model of Physics as follows:
Gravity maps on to elemental earth (“I fall down, for I am of the earth,” said Enoch in the prayer related by the angel Ave).
Blood as a metaphor for spirit combines these things to a degree. It most closely resembles water, yet takes broken down fruits of the earth and distributes them via fiery like pumping action of the heart and also redistributes air. As water causes the parts of the nucleus to settle down into itself, it causes the points of the nucleus to be difficult to distinguish, weak force causes the points of the atom to be more readily distinguished, the force of electromagnetism causes the flourishing of manifest light in all its varieties, but also the grosser movements, and affects the paths of the points, and the unfolding thereof, and finally gravity causes all points to remain on this curved, yet otherwise even, playing field (note: I think this relates specifically to the surface of a planet).
I feel some energy come up from the seal of King Babalel: he’s trying to say that the planetary difference here is a distinction between Will as a chemical separation of Mars. The angels add that the astrological movement of the planets, fixed though they may be and nearly impossible to change, they themselves are arising out of this elemental mix. So although an emanative model of Kabbalah tends to have a one-way direction from the world to Atziluth to Briah to Yetzirah (which, as I took away from Modern Magick, can be thought of where the elements form before reaching the world of Assiah), there’s a co-arising of the planets out of the action of the elements, going up and down each of the worlds.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ZIM. Call to King BNASPOL, ZIM governors Gecaond, Laparin, & Docepax, and zodiacal kings Lavavoth, Olpaged, and Alpudus.
I note that I continue my approach toward the Abyssal point; I ignore such parts of the vision, except to project compassion towards them. I place myself in the astral throne, with understanding that to project compassion and lovingkindness towards some, there must be understanding.
The angels align my chakras as into a unit of seven concentric spheres. This moves along the gold-shimmering path towards the Center of the Heart of the Divine; it occurs to me to have my heart express compassion towards every part of this vision, and this seems to quickly move me quite a way down this path. The angels say that this is very good; the idea here is that I am interacting with the rules of my own journey in a direct way, which is to say this expression or heart-projection of compassion towards them and towards the path.
I maintain this evenness. I note that I understand why the angels have instructed me to remain in this throne; it’s very easy to get lost and ungrounded in this kind of work. But if you maintain this poise, it’s very key to this process. One of the governors, Gecaond, is showing me a rock, and says to me, “Grok the rock.” I mention that it’s likely made up of a mix of elements and molecules; I hesitate and say that I’m not an expert. He says, “Yes, but what is the rock?” I mention that it has several uses, and it has a long history from the beginning of time. I begin speaking about it in the rules and context in which I find it, and he says, “That’s the key. None of that other stuff really matters, unless you see how it came to be here, what purpose it’s having by its very presence. Remember this,” he says, as I continue my scrying and spiritual path. Take things as they are and in their current context, and what the context may have meant across various moments. He removes the scene with the rock.
Now the angels want to twist me inside out and to refold my energy body. So they pull at my heart chakra and eventually fold me into a pyramid, with the tip replaced by a sphere, which is the heart chakra itself, floating just above it. The angels say that that this is what it will be like (presumably the rainbow body). The angels also mention the cube of the bottom of the throne on which I sit, and to consider what happens if one combines the dual polyhedra of the cube and octohedron. Suppose someone believed held that material reality in the form of the cube was against oneself, as in the Black Iron Prison, then combining it with its natural counterpart, the octahedron, may allow someone to rise out of the trap of this sort of thinking by offering additional points of perspective.
I express my gratitude. The vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure.
The angels note that I am in the throne astrally and that I continue to generate compassion towards anything which comes across my attention, including my attention of my throned astral body on itself. This causes it to return to itself. Note: this is a very high level of simultaneous attention. Having had a meditation practice and a good working memory is very helpful to me at this stage.
I’m seeing a cube, but it’s difficult; I wonder for a moment whether this is dispersion of the Abyss. Concentrating upon it, I realize that, no, such is not the case. It’s not a cube per se, but rather the bottom and back parts of a cube (see diagram below for an approximation).
Back and bottom faces of a cube (or, the front and bottom faces of a cube, if rotated upward–but that’s not how I saw it)
It’s like the angels are trying to close these three sides into a single 3D figure, but they cannot (note that four sides is the minimum number of sides for a 3D solid). I am confused, and generate compassion towards this confusion. I am about to move on but the vision changes, and I see this as a Hexagon now. The hexagon contains within itself the shape of the cube, they advise (in the sense of a 2D projection). This has to do with Metatron’s cube, they say.
When I concentrate on this figure, it’s as though it should come straight to the center, but it does not. The angels comment that trying to get to the exact center does not work and that one needs to approximate the center of this hexagon by fractals by (note: typing this up and giving it thought, the assumption here is a slight misalignment with the center and an irregular hexagon–drawing a diagonal across the cube in all three dimensions would not work in such a case; with Metatron’s cube, there would be no need for what follows). The angels then show a series of successive approximations towards such a center with smaller and smaller hexagons which are centered about the previous hexagon’s center in the first step, and then the upper or lower tip of that smaller hexagon in the next step. All in all, the point is that one could use this if one knew the circumference of the circumscribed circle of such. Saturn (the seventh planet), I’m told, represents the principle of going from a larger hexagon toward a smaller in order to reach the center. The angels add that this principle could be expanded out into a larger view as well, towards a large circumference, and they note the septenary nature of such a process.
My heart opens a bit now. There’s a bit of a distraction again, but I simply concentrate past it again, with compassion and lovingkindness. I’m forced to put in some additional effort, but I note that we’re approaching ZAX on Saturday, so tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday are the three remaining days before we arrive at ZIP and thereby cross the Abyss. Now I take matters a step further and collectively place all of the distractions together in front of me as a group, which I regard as “contextualized” or “understood” suffering (i.e., dukkha), and focus on them with compassion. This seems to help.
Now I ask the angelic governors and kings for assistance; the angels note that four kings are called on any given day, and they give me homework to match up the zodiacal kings who are called on any given day, and to match that up with the Heptarchical king of any given day of the week. This is clearly an indication of the strength of the individual planets as suggested by their respective strengths: King Baligon is explicitly associated with Venus and the Air (“whatsoever can be wrought in aerial actions”; one of the signs which Venus rules is Libra, an air sign, a projective (I prefer this term to the older term of “masculine”) of the diurnal sect). King Babalel is associated with Mars and Water (“Mighty and Wonderful in Waters, Whose power is in the bowels of the Waters”; Scorpio, a water sign, is ruled by Mars; this sign is of the nocturnal sect and is receptive (a term I prefer to “feminine”). King Bnaspol is associated with Mercury and Earth (“To whom the Earth with her bowels, and secrets what so ever are delivered”; Mercury both rules and is exalted in Virgo, which is a receptive sign and of the nocturnal sect).
The only missing element here is fire; both the sun (Leo) and Jupiter (Sagittarius) rule fire signs, which by definition are projective. Still, Leo is more fiery (with its only sign of domicile being a fire sign, and its sign of exaltation also being this), it is difficult. Still, this isn’t unambiguous. While the Bobogel gives “Wisdom and Science, True Philosophy, and True Understanding of all Learning, grounded upon Wisdom,” etc., this strikes me as so close to the Divine (and the sun being the “king” of the planets), that reducing it to an element of fire may be a mistake. I suspect that doing this research that the angels have assigned (which, they advise, may be best delayed until after gebofal), will make clear which planetary/sephirothic king would be the one whose power most relates to the classical element of fire.
I see six rays emerging from a central point, as well as a dotted line of a seventh. I generate compassion towards this ray, and it becomes an unbroken ray. When I concentrate on this, it’s as though a folding fan emerges and in a circular manner unfolds into the psychedelic space from a previous vision. The angels mention that this image of a fan is important; the angels say that I specifically request the crowned rainbow body. The angels say that this is “wise, insofar as you know what you’re asking for.” They then note that the level of compassion required for this may be too much to constantly have, so it’s okay to “zip up” this awareness and instead move according to my usual mundane manners. In other words, there’s not this burden to constantly be aware all of the time, like unto The Fool in the Tarot (which I had a vision of, not when I was scrying, I think, but last night during hypnagogia).
Now I’m told by the angels how to discuss my experience with the Aethyrs with a friend–I plan to do so!
Finally, the angels note that there’s this progress that can always be made by returning to the folding fan: “For what is a fan if not something to be seen, admired for the beauty upon it and as it is displayed in performance art, for the relief one feels when it gives relieving air to the skin?”
I get a bit of energy off the leaf 32a. The angels seem to be holding me in a vibratory sense: their subtle body surgery is now a lot more, well, subtle.
The vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure. I take three 7-7-14 breaths to steady my mind.
The angels show me a cylinder as a nice conceptual combination of aspects of a sphere and a cube. I am curious for a moment about combining a sphere and an octahedron. It’s a bit like methane (note: this has been observed to not be perfectly tetrahedral). I pour my heart into the vision into the lack of clarity, turn the ring around so that it touches the leaf, and vibrate the governors’ names.
The angels say that the zodiacal king assignment which I completed was good, and I ask whether there was anything I missed, or whether there was one of the Enochian Heptarchical kings who is indeed associated with fire. Fire, they say, is like when you’re leveling up, so King Bynepor is the one I should probably be looking at. King Bnapsen (suggested by Saturn, often seen with a scythe to suggest reaping) completes the old cycle and allows for the new one to happen, but King Bynepor is regeneration and renewal, and they remind me of the alchemical backronym “Igne Natura Renovatur Integra” (“by fire, nature renews itself”). It also makes sense that water would be the other attribution of Jupiter, because water is also needed to begin the regeneration process.
Returning to the cylinder, the angels note that the ring is itself a symbol of the circle and square (and has upon it a symbol of a straight line and circle). They note that the finger upon the hand that wears the ring is generally cylindrical, and the arms of the hand, and indeed the body typically has all four cylindrical limbs and a cylindrical head-and-neck upon a roughly cylindrical torso: fractal cylinders. I pour myself into this idea: going from the door (with its lines and right angles) into the expanse of outer space (generally a 360 degree experience) also combines these ideas, as does the fan.
The angels bring this idea back to the symbol. “Now it’s time to think about how to do this with the symbol in its current formation and how to put it all together. Instead of a pyramid with this symbol at top, instead consider a way to put this spiral in three dimensions (as a hyperbola rotated about an axis), encased within this pyramid. After the spiral reaches the base of the pyramid here on Earth, it begins a rotation about the earth, creating a falling teardrop effect (note: this is roughly a metaphorical inversion of the drippings of the Abyss, and during the vision I note the difficulty in maintaining concentration to see this).
Symbol from previous visions; note that the spiral continues at bottom to create a sphere which follows the shape of the Earth, which, with the pyramid, creates a teardrop-like shape.
I see a moderately sized wasp’s nest now, which is reminds me of the shape of a pine cone. Several wasp-like insects fly to it, and there seems to honey exuding from it. There’s honey emerging from it, and the honey seems like a teardrop upon a teardrop, and it is so sweet to humanity, it’s like exactly what humanity needs right now. I see this, and (amidst several distractions–which hold back by increasing my compassion) there’s a beautiful big light (Ain Sof Aur), seeming to originate from where the nest/cone is attached. The light encompasses me, and I seem to elevate. This whole process seems to crack me open so as to show me the benefits of these higher pre-Abyssal Aethyrs. As you approach the Abyss, there’s still much to be had, it just requires a lot of concentration.
I see letters; they arrange to form “Bobogel,” … “Bobogel Omnia Tucare Est.” I don’t know what that means, but now looking up the (questionable?) Latin on Google Translate: “Bobogel omnia tu care est”: “Bobogel, all is dear to you.” (If you know Latin and know a better translation, please reach out). I see letters again. This time they are in English: “A…All shall be revealed to you in time. Go in peace and serve the Lord.” Behind this, and lit up in bright light, is a future version of myself, very much at peace and compassionate towards where I am right now. Apparently, this is where I needed it!
I’m very happy about all of this. I make plans to complete the symbol. The angels close the vision.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ASP. Call to King BABALEL via the Stenwick method, but not using Enochian Keys. I vibrate the title of Leaf 40b. Once again, allergies are pretty bad.
I feel King BABALEL’s energy come up through the seal and into my foot, and up through my right hand, which is on Leaf 40b. I reflect on having watered the front and back yards, and it feels as if this energy is bubbling up into my subtle, like a spring, and this energy is mainly that of King BABALEL, whose power is in the waters. Even though this ritual is being done with a lot of Aries energy (with five planets in this sign now), this is nonetheless a watery energy today, just with more spread, as one would expect with Aries.
I try to focus and relax. This energy is now coming up through my neck and head and is alleviating my allergies. It’s this energy is the equivalent of heavy water pressure through a flexible tube, opening it up and clearing it out. I’m encouraged to focus on the white sphere of compassion, and I’m told to always focus on the heart of compassion when I call the Aethyrs from here on out. As I focus on it, a lot of things seem to open up; it’s like parting the Red Sea; the excellence of this point will be made to clear to me as I go along, they tell me.
I see all sorts of things about me as I do this. The angels tell me this is like automatically magnetizing myself back to the center. This allows for the unfolding of yourself; yesterday, with the vision of myself like a spring stretched out and ultimately flooded out to the circumference. This sort of “magnetizing-the-heart-via-compassion” back to this psychic center. It’s like one starts out in the Red Sea, sort of drowning in the vicissitudes of dukkha and random, jumbled thoughts and such, but charging the heart is like using the staff (or, referred to earlier, the torch) will part the seas and allow one to measure the diameter of the sphere. King BABALEL agrees, noting his white and black sleeves, both ways that the sea can appear. The whiteness is the white sphere of compassion which can penetrate out through the mind, and can take oneself to the extent of the sea along the surface of the sphere, always using that light as the guide to traverse the waters.
King BABALEL is showing me a large fish, perhaps four feet in length, that he’s pulling from the Red Sea and gutting, and he reminds me of Raphael from the Book of Tobit, who used the innards of a fish to rout a demon into Egypt, and bind it there. King BABALEL tells me that Egypt is the circumference of the black sphere itself (for those who are imbalanced, this may appear instead as a black cube). King BABALEL says, “This is you; it is the tendency of people to become caught up in the waters” of the mind/emotions. It’s wonderful to be able to banish this to the circumference, he says, but if one identifies with the circumstances that one finds oneself in, or stories, then one will continue to swim around in the darkness, forever lost. But by lighting up the heart of compassion within this darkness, one can at least get one’s bearings, and one knows that this light will help one to do that. The killing of the fish is important to in order “paint the outside” (i.e., the surface of the sphere, the extent of oneself), using the measure of the heart of compassion to do so (i.e., to find the opposing side of the recently painted part of the sphere).
It’s also important to find lines of intersection with the white cube, King BABALEL notes, and one does this by using the small white sphere to light up the extent of the black sphere, and when one finds something lighting up more than one would expect, then one knows one is near the intersection with the ordering white cube. Again, the white cube represents an ideal way to reduce suffering via mundane means. The white cube will rotate and sometimes suddenly, as one finds a more efficient tool to accomplish a task or finds better ways to accomplish the ending of suffering.
Another object appears above me. It’s a single point which is above the four corners of the top square, which allows for the emergence of a square pyramid. The ascent of this pyramid can be thought of as approaching the common/collective center, across other people’s spheres, for the top point of this pyramid is also the top of other pyramids of varying sizes which are rotated in some manner. The correct orientation towards these four-ish points.
How does one distinguish these four points? These will be the points or contaminates which seem to cause the rotation of the sphere. I ask quickly about the fish, and I’m told not to worry as much about the Book of Tobit, but instead to focus on the inability of ancient Egypt to uphold itself over additional millenia than it managed. The collective black sphere wasn’t tended to enough, but despite that, we are now here, at this threshold point among sentient beings, to be able to rectify this.
I express gratitude, and the vision of ASP ends; I know this got pretty symbolic, but, hey: that’s Enochian!
Noon: Call to ASP, call to BABALEL, hand on page 40a.
I extend forward with my heart of compassion and now instead merely seeing the Red Sea part, I now divisions of the sea in three dimensions, as if I were in the middle of the sphere and rings extending from the origin of a 3D grid along the x/y, x/z, and y/z planes, out to the edges of the sphere. I see this extension with the heart causing a circulation of light out to these rings and returning to the heart. I’m told that this is like unto the Middle Pillar Ritual.
I now see a lily which is merged with a monarch butterfly. It’s as if they are one organism. The lily is beautiful; now comes the interpretation. I call on the angels of this scrying session: Governors Chirspa, Toantom, Vixpalg, & King BABALEL. The angels seem awfully coy as to what this is, yet it strikes me as Kether fused with the remaining sephiroth–the living reality creating seeds as it goes, yet fused with that which it creates seeds by. This is sufficient, they tell me. I try to extend this scene by the same principle of the compassionate heart, and this causes a rotation in the vision; first, I see this natural scene rotate, with the field churning about a torus; this yields a wooden crown with several, perhaps 12 or more, stalks. The twisting action then yields into a golden crown, which twists into an etheric crown, which itself rotates into a “crown of all possible rotations.” Finally, I see a collective rotation across that which has manifested within all of the possible rotations. It’s all very beautiful “Doctor Strange, eat your heart out,” I quip.
The angels say that this rotation and twisting is key. All of this is the rotation of the collective heart as it moves through. It’s beautiful to watch, it’s awe-inspiring, a literal circle of life. The angels are saying that we’re getting pretty close to this level of collectivity.
My heart is trying to speed this rotation up to the level that it feels like a vibration out of this, and this creates quantum shift, the light side of a flatline, if you will. Once again, see a white square. I briefly think of the True Will, but decide to set that aside.
I return to the angelic governors and king. They create a tetrahedron about me, and once again remind me that this could be a five-cell instead. The angels show themselves approaching with the same heart (note: typing this up, the importance at this stage is the angels themselves approaching with this same heart, but “the training wheels will come off,” I’m told). This creates a spinning tetrahedron with psychedelic colors. It’s like the law of light-bridges, but a continuous churning of form and light. “Behold His Wonders, behold His Wonders, churning and turning and churning again, in and through all. Nothing need you fear, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth.” It’s like something out of 2001, or what I’ve been told about DMT trips.
It’s beautiful. I can feel my whole energy body taking this in; it’s transcendent and reminiscent of the higher Aethyrs, those beyond the Abyss. I’m coming in with the advantage of having already scried the Aethyrs. The key is to approach with this compassionate heart. “This is part of the process of fusing the heavenly and earthly rainbow bodies at once.” This is the reaching of the next octave. I’m at a loss for words. The angels say that I should try to keep this energy going throughout the day, and it will manifest as an overlay to the reality I’m seeing. They were not kidding around when they said that this would happen. The angels say they aren’t ending the vision but rather closing their active participation in the vision and encouraging me to enjoy the experience.
Sunset: Similar procedures.
I feel a pleasant energy from Leaf 40. Once again, the governors & king extend the compassion towards me, creating the psychedelic visuals. There’s too much to describe. I see a door in outer space, and as I walk through frame, I see different versions of myself following me. It’s like my motion is pulling through the door has a wicking effect on these alternate versions, like xylem in a plant.
I turn my gaze to the left of the door I am looking back on. I see a large star. I’m beckoned to it, and it’s yellow like our sun. I see a chair in the middle of it and am offered it. I sit and I see a dragon, maroon and pink, with light blue tinges at the edges of the wings. It turns into a seahorse. King BABALEL agrees with what I’m thinking: this is my reconciliation with astrological Mars. He bids me hold the seahorse, which I do, and he fits in my palms. It transforms into a newborn.
I’ve never held a newborn.
And now I see that it is me.
All the compassion that I would have for myself at this moment: this is what I need to have for the entire universe. King BABALEL notes that with Mars as my malefic out of sect, above the horizon, and in its domicile–the only thing missing is Mars being angular–but with such a strong and itchy Mars, one could tend to pick fights, or feel like everyone is against oneself. Still, I recall the Robert Anton Wilson phrase, “There is no enemy anywhere.” Instead, I need to direct this Martial energy with the principle of it needing to move in such a way as to reduce suffering.