One of the things I like to do is learn from and experiment with others’ experiences & techniques. One I recently found was Dean Hildebrandt’s description of the throne in the New Jerusalem in Revelations 21. Recall that “Jerusalem” was the location of the part of the Earth known as HUTMOCS.
I decided to explore this; and received guidance from the angels as to how. First, I was told to use my accounting for the eight letters of the name of the zodiacal king Lavavoth. The first letter, L, is omitted (referring to L/El, which in Enochian means “The First” and the unity of the Divinity); it winds up being used later. This shifts the first of the letters such that the throne is then named: VRVINVNEOCARNOGHCG, which I was later told was then to be followed by L as the name of the Divine, and they were to be used as the substitution for the Aethyr name in the call.
Preceding the call to the throne-as-Aethyr, I was to make the call to LIL, and before each call I was to make a short prayer, O remiges varpax, which may have the meaning of “Lord have mercy,” followed by Kyrie eleison (the Latin translation of same), three times. Finally, I was told to request a question and its answer, and then an empowerment.
I went ahead and did as told, and saw a throne, and the first thing I saw was a figure with a very tall crown, almost as if it were a pope’s hat, but instead was a crown made of intricate gold. “Resplendent” was the word that came to mind, and I became emotional. I was led partway to the throne by the 12 zodiacal king angels, and after a certain point I was to walk, so I did so, but prostrated fully every three steps (seven times/21 steps) along the way. I remained prostrated at the end.
The Divine appeared in feminine form, and reminded me that I was to request both a question and its answer from Her. “Yes,” I replied, and humbly asked Her for these. She smiled, bidding me to be still at first, then allowing me to approach. As I do, I see her seven angels around the throne, briefly appearing armed and as a warning at first with what looked like pikes with vajras at the end. Yet this was merely to show “This is what we can do,” and with the Divine having given Her leave, they now appear to be very soft and no longer appear as guards.
The Divine Herself appeared perhaps to ten to twelve feet tall, and I sat in Her lap, and She held me to her bosom. She thanked me for coming, telling me that it’s been a long journey and that there will continue to be journeys. What’s needed most for me, She continues, is health.
The question she has for me is “close to my heart”: “How does one continue to move with their heart aligned with the Cosmic [i.e., Divine] Heart?” The answer, she says, is in two parts. First, the heart is always aligned with the Cosmic heart: it’s a matter of maintaining awareness of that. Maintaining awareness of that is simply all that one needs to do, but in order to do that, one must be healed.
Next She reminds me that I was to ask for an empowerment, which I humbly do. I feel an energy about my heart, like a golden snake or coil, illuminating brightly a bright golden-white light. My solar plexus is feeling lit up by this, but the Divine instructs me to maintain awareness of my heart. She shows me an intricate, infinite metal tower, like a fleur-de-lis going out/up to infinity, and it is lit up by a brightly lit background, almost blindingly so. It is my heart, and She reminds me to maintain awareness on it, and how vast and how eternal that is, and to allow myself to merge with that. There are many red jewels, (rubies correspond to Mars but Star Rubies to Chokmah in 777) occasionally green also, but mainly red—I am to own the dominance of red jewels on the gold metalwork. She shows me some blue jewels as well (sapphires correspond to Jupiter but Star Sapphires to Binah), and finally to black diamonds (corresponding to the World of Adam Qadmon and Ain/Ain Sof/Ain Sof Aur).
“Now let the healing be complete,” She says. She’s working Her Will that my background awareness always be on my heart being aligned to the Divine Heart. She shows it overcoming areas of tension (such as in my body), and that this will improve in time. She concludes with a kiss, and we end in Union.
I have completed the Book of Silvered Leaves. Let me start by discussing the book’s general structure as it was transmitted to me:
The first 19 leaves had images on both sides, and at least one of the sides of each leaf incorporated one of the 21 letters of the Enochian alphabet into the image (for two leaves, Enochian letters were incorporated into each side’s image; the letter pairs for these were Pa/Gisg (the first and last letters of the Enochian alphabet) and Ger/Pal (the least-used Enochian letters). It should be noted that one of the images that arose was what I was told was the seal of the angel Mapsama, the angel who directed Dee & Kelley to create the book.
Nine leaves with moon phases: The next two leaves consisted of 49-word Enochian-language messages, while the following seven leaves included 49-word Enochian-language messages, as well as moon phase symbols (2 leaves with full moons, 1.5 leaves waxing crescent, 3.5 waning crescent). This suggested to me that the previous two leaves represented new moons.
The next 12 leaves each had one of the glyphs for the signs of the zodiac on both sides, and also had 49-word Enochian-language messages. At times these included the name of some of the zodiacal kings, and all 12 of the watchtower’s names of God were used, often with an IA- (“God”) prefix.
The next seven leaves each had an astrological symbol for the seven classical astrological planets (in order) on each side, each with shorter, seven-word Enochian-language messages (which were to be on a single line).
The final, 48th leaf was the astrological glyph for Earth. As with the 49th leaf of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (commonly, but not quite properly, known as Liber Loagaeth), this leaf was to have three 3×7 tables on the front, and two of the same on the back, each cell with one letter.
As far as how I wrote it, sometimes I would see the outline of a shape or letter in the silver borne by the page, sometimes I would hear what I was to write (in Enochian, or in English to be looked up in Enochian).
So we have some parallels between the Book of Silvered Leaves and Amzes Naghezes Hardeh/Liber Loagaeth. While the former has a distinctly lunar quality (indeed, it happens that the cover I bought to bind the book was very dark and reminiscent of the night sky), the latter is quite solar (to be bound in blue silk, with letters of gold, with Bornogo, the prince of the sun, appearing prominently in Leaf 9–the only leaf with numbers in addition to letters).
Now on to the effects. My friend Cody P. mentioned that his view of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth) that it created, so to speak, the rainbow body on the astral, from which a true rainbow body could ultimately be realized (this is a recollected conversation, not verbatim). There was certainly a lot of symbolism and coming to terms with a lot of my being during my reconstructed gebofal ritual. Although he didn’t say so, it’s like the world of Briah, and probably also Atziluth (and even Adam Qadmon), manifesting into Yetzirah. Note that my making a perfected copy of this book was probably heavily assisted by having previously scried the Aethyrs in this interpretation.
As I was told towards the end of constructing the Book of Silvered Leaves, I scried the word “PRONOA,” a word (meaning roughly alchemical love) which I had received during my initial trip through the Aethyrs. When I did so, I had an extremely powerful vision, almost as if all components of reality had their own Aethyric-style vision, and all of them were overlaid with each other simultaneously (like the many sound tracks at the end of the Beatles’ Revolution Number 9–except visual). This was the most intense vision I’d had, and I was guided to relax into the love. Doing so, I saw myself on a still, spherical ocean. I was told that I was to scry this word once more after the book had been completed, and afterward would receive the title of the book as well as realize the rainbow body–Yetzirah manifesting into Assiah.
The title of the book was PRONOA PIBLIAR CAOSGO, or roughly “Alchemical Love’s Places of Comfort of the Earth.” I wrote this on the silver which I had already affixed to the front (an extra silver leaf from the package I bought). More importantly, a nascent rainbow body has appeared, right now only appearing to me astrally, but something I can work with at will.
Now for ultimate reflections on this book. I do not believe that everyone will receive the same book if they go through this process (especially given that many of the messages seem quite personalized). However, I believe that making this book, as creating a perfected copy of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), is important to the magician. It is certainly the easier of the two books to make! The level of trance I would say I had–with the exception of the final ritual of scrying the word PRONOA–was not as heavy as, for example, almost all of the reconstructed gebofal ritual. So in the sense of a doable ritual, I would almost encourage people to make this book first, since it was to be created just as much as Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), but is far less effort. It may even be wiser for those born at night to make the Book of Silvered Leaves first, for in Hellenistic astrology, the main luminary for such people is the moon, not the sun. Regardless, the moon, being the closest astrological planet to the earth, is considered most “earth-like,” and can sort of be considered a gateway to the higher realms.
I did a brief review of the chart for the absolute end of the ritual, and found the following septile aspects (something I noticed at the end of the gebofal ritual; 3-degree orb (except for quincunx/triseptile)):
Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 2, (as the first spoken call (the true first call “not to be spoken”), most practitioners refer to this as call 1). Vibrated the Enochian names of God “L,” “IAD,” and “NA.” I neglected to vibrate the title of Leaf 2b (or, as was temporarily my case, not to be), which I rectified mid-vision. Oh well: come to grips with your humanity really early on if you do Enochian, people.
I feel this gathering about my crown chakra. I’m feeling some energy coming up from the leaf, and the Holy Table of Practice, and eventually coming up from the three Tablets of Union, mainly the four-lettered version (“EHNB”).
I’m bidden to relax. I’m getting the sense that this is the Holy Spirit. More and more energy slowly accumulates within me, and I’m feeling raised up, and with a slight twist. My entire subtle body seems to conform to the change in my crown chakra, though the heart chakra was already okay. Now I’m sensing greater communication and resonance with the heart and crown chakras. Lots of gentle subtle body work occurs.
Now I sense a projection from me, or perhaps I’m becoming aware of one which already existed, but now it’s very active, and the act of observing it is also changing it. I see it encompass, in many subtle ways, the entire world, and also reaching out in subtle ways across the cosmos to other planets. I’m filled with compassion as I do this, trying to generate it as best I can.
The sense I’m now getting is that this is a proper attunement with reality. At first it was the heart, and now it seems as if it is my entire subtle body, via the crown. I’m unsure whether the Holy Spirit wishes to speak or not. Now there’s there’s an unfolding within the vision, as if a paper had a cross cut into it, and now the four corners are rotated away via some kind of mechanism atop them, the upper-left corner rotated clockwise, and the remaining corners alternating between clockwise and counterclockwise, symmetrical about each axis.
There’s a focus about this cross, as if two hyperbolae (i.e., all four quadrants of the xy plane system were represented) were projected forward along the z-axis, approaching it but never quite touching it. This is, I’m told, like approaching a fixed star, a set point of, for example, the True Will. This represents the four elements set about the approach toward the fixed star: “They are unleashed and balanced within you. They may approach the fixed stars,” but also, I’m told, I’m always at the Center [of the Divine Sphere], I’m always this action of reaching towards the fixed stars [along this path from the center to a star along the surface of this sphere], and I’m also of the surface of the sphere itself.
This, I’m told, is of nature of the Holy Spirit: that flow, that constant flow, that allows this transition from Center to Sphere, that Radius that is seen by the four elements as they also project toward the surface of the sphere (along these hyperbolae). Yet at any given point, one is not actually at that surface of the Sphere. Thus the Holy Spirit is this awareness of that constant transitional state, while one remains at that Temporal Center (i.e., re-emerges into a new Center at each moment in Time). This is beautiful.
I’m feeling more energy coming about my face and throat, and I relax, and then I feel a sensation in my right eye. Nothing happens for a bit, and I try to concentrate. I am about to close the session, when I realize that I have forgotten to vibrate the title of the leaf. I pause to do so and I ask forgiveness for my error.
This helps me feel more energy coming off the leaf. Now there seems to be a cone originating from the midpoint of the crown chakra (recall that it be a sphere, the bottommost point of which touches the actual crown of the head), which encompasses my body. The sense I get is that this will be a mark about me of protection and guidance.
Now I feel like I’m being lifted up again. It’s like the Holy Spirit is on the cusp of speaking, but then seems to not wish to. Yet then: “Such Love hath the Lord God toward thee, hath He unto All. Rejoice now in this Love. Rejoice now in this Path and this Purpose set before you, this constantly unfolding Path, whereby thou know and give the Compassion of the Almighty unto All. A grand Unfolding hath He set about thee, and about All. Such Mercy hath He unto you. Rejoice in this Mercy and rejoice in this Blessing. Seek ye to rectify thy state so that you may live up to the phrase, ‘Made in His image.’ Feel now the Blessings of the Holy Spirit about thee, and rest easy in the knowledge that the Lord God loveth thee and hath grand plans for thee.”
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Similar procedure.
Once again, I see the cross in front of me, and my eye is drawn to the center thereof, that point. It’s shown to me as this line of infinitude. I’m told, “You are a Ray. You are this Ray, starting at this point” (and I’m shown the date of my conception). I hear what sounds like a voice, and pause the vision to check on my wife. She’s fine.
I’m told to consider all of the forces which act upon an individual; “Everything travels in a straight line, with the exception of the curved spacetime caused by all of the forces acting upon it,” which is a deceptively simple statement. Trying to visualize it is quite difficult, yet I make the effort. It’s a constant wobble, wiggle, and turning in 3D space, yet it’s actually a straight line, if all of the forces across time were removed. The magnitude and multiplicity of all of the forces is far too much for us to comprehend, unless we go through a process to make ourselves aware of them.
I pause to concentrate again; generating lovingkindness and compassion here helps a great deal. Returning to the topic: I’m shown myself as being at the center of this cross, and I’m being reminded of the four corners of the sheet where a cross has been cut into it, and thus it is peeled away. This peeling away of the delusion of everyday reality, I’m shown and told: that’s what this process of today and tomorrow is about. I’m told that what I will have to do is find out how to be equally within all three worlds. “Your heart is sympathetic to the realm of Adam Qadmon, and now your crown is a mediator between the heart and the realm of Adam Qadmon. Your crown is being attuned to it,” but I’m told that I will come into these higher realms and forces, into this infinitude of Adam Qadmon, the Ain infinitude: the Ain Sof, but also the Ain itself. I’m told that the previous delusion of existence is being peeled away, as from these corners, and that I only have this cross to orient me, so it’s important to stay at the center of it, the origin point of what would be the xy-axis system, but also to remain in balance between the four elements. I’m also told to continue the lovingkindness, and that is what will continue to propel me forward.
I try to generate this lovingkindness in order to concentrate past some distracting images: this helps. I’m told to relax (with some wryness: “You’ve been told to relax almost every single time!”), and I do. So this will be the projective nature, but of what? That will be revealed to me tomorrow, I’m told.
Again, I believe this is all coming from the Holy Spirit, which is mediating between the entire realm of Adam Qadmon and where I am now. I ask whether God in His Mercy has anything else to show me. I don’t get the sense that there is, so I express my gratitude to the Most High, and the vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I’m told to relax, which I do. I’m told that so much more will be revealed unto me, and that there is nothing to fear.
I generate lovingkindness and wait. I see a cube in a brightly lit space, gold in color, suspended in midair, but its bottom half falls apart into letters and numbers. It strikes me as a bit abyssal, but I make note of the four elements, represented by the four top sides of the cube, as they enter into reality. The Holy Spirit says that this is a good metaphor for what goes on; it’s like the elements need to enter in, but they also need to disperse. Yet with intelligence and initiation into the supernals, and observing the elements as they enter the four lower worlds, one can (with intelligence, keen insight, wisdom, and understanding) balance these out so that they enter in to the lower Three Realms at the appropriate moments, thus avoiding a lot of the negative effects (of unplanned addition or distribution of elements). (Writing this up, I’m also told that one can determine how much elements come in to the Tree of Life from Adam Qadmon at all). It’s sort of like having a good sense of when to act at the most opportune moment, I’m told.
I concentrate into this vision a bit more. I’m told to look into the numbers of spoken calls 1 & 2. As far as the matter of Leaf 1, I’m once again told, “Yes, complete the task that you have set before you. The Lord gives His blessing.” As far as trying to time it: it’s happening on God’s Time. I ask regarding my planned procedure regarding the final leaf, which is to read the second half in the morning, the first half at noon, and finally the leaf in its entirety at sunset. I’m told that the way I have it is good: it will be as good as can be expected.
I get the sense that this is it, but I vibrate the names of God again. Once again, I’m feeling the realignment of my crown chakra is about. It is aligning myself to easily traverse the realm of Adam Qadmon and back to the Tree of Life and the four lower worlds. I’m being attuned to be able to do that. I’m reminded once more that forward motion will continue with compassion and lovingkindness, so I sense that this will be my main focus of meditation for some time. I express my gratitude.
I become distracted by the external environment. This is how it will be, I’m told; I’ll need to attend to whatever is going on in the Tree of Life, and then return to whatever vision I have going on. I express my gratitude once more.
There is more to the vision, which I am choosing not to release except potentially upon request.
Sunrise: Call/Key 9, (because the true first key “was not to be spoken,” most practitioners refer to this as call 8). Call to King Baligon. Call to Godnames “MOR,” “DIAL,” “HCTGA.”
King Baligon appears in an earthen form, but now appears as a forest or field king within nature. He notes the obvious: Venus is now in Taurus, which is in alignment with today as Venus’ of the week, as well as with the Earth tablet under my feet (of course, King Baligon’s seal rests upon that, and he is associated with Venus). He says he will speak briefly, but I reply that he of course may speak at whatever length he chooses.
King Baligon indicates via placing an thin earthen sphere about me, that I have some of these powers already within me. He is going to magnify it and bring it into its fullness, he says. He shows me the obvious act of digging into earth. Yesterday, he says, I was given the image of water washing off the dirt. This time he points downward that humans have come to learn that precious stones come from the power of Earth, whether that be compression (in the case of diamonds) or magma cooling. He also points to gold and says that it’s a rarity, left here by stars many years ago. Everything that was said yesterday about that golden diamond reflecting something inward, to the human mind, is true. There’s beauty therein.
Now he points to gnomes, and we think of them as related to elemental earth, and he bids me watch what they do. Now I see an image of a proper mine, and I see one, among many, who is swinging a pickaxe into a wall of a mine. The idea here is that eventually if you go through with the pickaxe and make your way through all of this dirt, eventually you will reach what you’re looking for.
Then King Baligon points to several things about a proper mine. First, care is taken such that the earth above does not crush the miners: supports and such. This is a power associated with mining and gold and precious stones. Then, the ability to recognize a glint of ore, or to feel it by indirect contact, or even to have a sixth sense as to where it is: this would also be a power associated with gold and precious stones.
Obviously, we want the thing to be beautiful, so the hammering of the gold into shape, the planning of the shape, the measuring of a finger for, say, a gold diamond ring to fit about it: all of these things are related to the actual shape of the final object itself, and belong to the powers of Gold and Precious Stones as they relate to elemental earth. As an aside, he adds that the knowledge of metals, which come from Prince Bornogo, can be combined in this manner. Continuing, he says that having a beautiful shape of the golden jewelry in mind, this also belongs to this earth aspect of the power of Gold and Precious Stones. Any time that there needs to be a certain arrangement that the stones would need to be fixed upon, that is pleasing to the eye: that sense of pleasantness and elegance, of things looking right. To some degree a conceptual degree of elegance could come with Venus in Gemini or Venus in Aries (for the latter has a good sense of conceptual elegance: what would make a perfectly beautiful extent of where one element ends and where another begins–which is why they make very good fighters!). He says that in particular, the pleasant arrangement that earthiness brings here is like a beautiful arrangement for a feast, which looks good before anyone sits down (whereas if considering where and how people sat mattered, such would belong more to Venus in Libra).
As far as transportation is concerned, earth brings consideration of weight and lading: understanding just how much can be gotten away with in terms of weight when it comes to travel, or what a reasonable or practical amount that one could or should be laden with in order to travel from one point to another. Understanding this very well in terms of precision would be related to Virgo: what ought to be shed and kept and the meticulous planning thereby. Having a general sense of whether the trip would even be worth it: such would be Taurus–but he says that we’ll get into each sign at the noon scrying: “It seems to work very well for you.”
I ask whether King Baligon has anything further in his generosity and mercy; “No,” he replies, “this is it. Thanks be unto God.”
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Similar procedure. This is the famous “Pagesgem” half-leaf, 9a:
The vision starts with a subtle flash of light appearing in the upper-right of my field of vision. Nothing further happens, so I relax, and King Baligon bids me do so further. I note aloud that I would seem to indirectly be calling upon Prince Bornogo by having my left hand upon this leaf. “Here be Michael,” says King Baligon, a clear reference to Michael as the archangel of the sun, “but if you had the entire one, of course, Raphael.” This confirms Raphael as the archangel of Tiphareth, and Michael as the archangel of its planetary ruler. Yet as to what “the entire one” refers, I do not know.
I continue to relax into the vision. King Baligon says that we will just briefly touch on the powers that we haven’t touched on already. Getting back to the vision of the mine: the structure of what it takes to have a mining operation in place, or to discover gold or precious stones (time, safety, discipline, things like that)–the proper structure of building of that up: such, I’m told, belongs to Capricorn.
“We’ve already gone over Taurus a little bit, mainly [in the power] to distinguish what is beauty, and what actually has value, sometimes both of those together, sometimes one and not the other,” King Baligon says, “such is Taurus.” Being able to make a plan as to how to arrange the points and shapes–the overall sense of beauty is Taurus, but the overall plan to make the shapes and to distinguish one part from another, and to purify generally the gold and precious stones–melting points in the case of gold, for example–these are Virgo.
Now I’m getting the sense that Prince Bornogo wishes to arrive and assist with King Baligon, and I’m happy with that. King Baligon says this is possible only by the natural correspondence between Venus (during the hour of which he is to be called), as well as the sympathy between King Baligon and King Carmara (and their similar seals), the latter of whom with his prince, Hagonel, can switch the rules of Heptarchical manifestation around slightly.
I’m getting this sense of the sense of self, which is reflected in gold; Prince Bornogo says that the particular power of gold to reflect the individual is quite important. There is something about that inner empty mind that is seen, and that being able to distinguish one (possibly meaning true empty mind) from the next (a false sense of empty mind)–here we’re speaking metaphorically, in the sense of gold being able to reflect something that silver and other metals, in some ways, seems to corrupt slightly. The property that gold has is that it is such a rare element (relative to, say, iron), which comes from supernovae of eons past, (though perhaps not as rare as other metals), and which doesn’t tend toward radioactive decay. There’s something about how it reflects the heart of the sun, which is to be taken into account (when considering the Powers of Gold), and so the seeking of pure gold from alchemical (metaphorical) point of view, vs. the physical point of view, is not something to be discounted, because there is something very true and unique to an individual. There is the True Will, which one can begin to get a sense of by entering into Tiphareth, which one could potentially get at by a true sense of self, but it’s a very delicate process, Prince Bornogo says: that’s why it’s at the very heart of the sun.
“As far as precious stones,” King Baligon asks, “why are diamonds the best? It is the most valuable of all of the precious stones on account of the density and fixity of the points in relation to each other, the sheer packing of carbon atoms so closely and strongly together. There’s something poetic about that substance [carbon] which makes life possible, when it is given to itself, creates something that life itself seems attracted to.” Combined that with the heart of oneself, and the true focus of oneself (i.e., metaphorical gold), this is all very important. I ask if there’s anything additional as far as the astrological assignments go. I’m told quickly that Taurus understand the value, Capricorn the importance of focusing oneself over the long haul, so gold retains its value, and Capricorn is very much aware of that. Virgo energy, Prince Bornogo tells me, is especially good at distinguishing one thing from another, one stone from another: it has that power, and will seek the means to do so. Virgo also seems to have within it, especially if Mercury be there, this capacity to get at the heart of the sun, especially now that Regulus is there, he hastens to add. It has within it this means, merely by reflecting on the self, to begin to draw up the true sense of oneself.
Now I get some energy coming up off of the leaf. The royal angels say that this leaf is special, and represents the beginning of the final nine days, “in which the forty and the nine will be made clear unto you, much of which you have already expressed and discovered, but much more awaits.” I get the sense, and perhaps this is coming early–perhaps Prince Bornogo will have more to say in the evening, but I feel like all of the remaining (elemental earth) powers of gold and precious stones are being granted unto me early. Prince Bornogo nods, and once again I feel–a bit weighty, but not too bad–as all of these powers are being embedded within my subtle body system. Both Prince Bornogo and King Baligon are saying yes, this is a building process: “You have indeed lain out an excellent model, and the clarity of the trinity will be made clear unto you. Suffice it to say, it’s a bit of ‘the thing, its opposite, and the mediator. Much as God the Father, and Jesus Christ (who is of the earthly realm, and yet still Divine), so, too, is the Holy Spirit a mediator between the Two, and is mediator between the Father and anyone who has attained Christ Consciousness.”
I feel this elaborate and ornate Christian cross, but now it seems to be equal-armed cross, made of gold. At the ends I’m seeing all of these discs upon discs, making their way out from the ends of the cross. It’s gorgeous. They show it wrap about me, now, becoming two rings of a sphere or orb along the xy– and yz– planes, and now a third comes about me along the xz– plane. It is like unto a monarch’s orb, and it is rotating with jewels encrusted within it. It is like unto the Ophanim, except that the jewels are as unto eyes, or the eyes are as unto jewels, or somewhere in between. With all of this, much can be seen, and much can also be reflected back. It’s beautiful, whirling around now, taking on this energy. It is flaming a bit, but it is embedding itself within the throne of the Most High, which I see rolling around (note the power of transportation implicit in this image!). At first I see a figure on the throne who looks like me, but now it is empty, save for a point hovering in the very center. It is is a large throne, at first seeming 20 feet high, but now more like 200 feet high. The dimensionality is changing rapidly.
I ask, “What is there for me to hear, if you all, in your mercies, have something further to say, or to show?” At this, the throne splits vertically in two, and it’s like I come into the split, but then it unites into one again, and I become embedded within the throne. “This is the process now,” I’m told. “Tomorrow you will have the fullness of the powers of gold and precious stones, but the true meaning of them will be revealed unto you, and it is a meaning which shall stand this test of time: the reconciliation of Tiphareth, of Binah, and, yea, of Kether, in its fullness, and of Chokmah, naturally.” (Note: this could be a pulling in or reconciliation of Adam Qadmon with the Tree of Life, or it could be additional work done on the Tree of Life before I can proceed further into the realm of Adam Qadmon.)
I feel my subtle body system being tuned up again: it’s like I’m being lifted up. My crown chakra is sort of opening up, and I see it opening up like unto a leaf, or a blossom, but it’s like the angels are telling me, “Reach the tip of the leaf, reach the tip of the leaf!”
Thus ends the vision: thanks be to God.
Sunset: Similar procedure, but neglected to call on the god names of “MOR,” “DIAL,” and “HCTGA” until after the vision, during the vision, a great deal of distracting noise.
I feel a great deal of energy coming up off the leaf. King Baligon appears, and there is a great deal of energy coming up off of the leaf. Prince Bornogo is present, but does not come to the fore. King Baligon bids me relax, and speaks to the Excel solver which I have running, and suggests adding the duplicate numbers of servient angels back in (for so far, no solution has emerged).
He bids me relax again, and a third time. I try to do so. Now I see lightning come down about me, and there’s this earthen sphere about me (or several rings about a common polarity), which is also part lightning. It’s like this energized earth, or Uranian earth. It is all about me, and it is taking me throughout time, and I’m getting the sense from Prince Bornogo that this sphere is metals which are of an earthen nature, “For, yea, they tend to be found in the earth, are they not?”
“Yes,” I agree. It’s like I’m seeing the heavens themselves rip open once again, and I see an eye look through the tear at me (for the sky itself is its eyelid), and the pupil of this eye is the source of this lightning descending all about me in a nearly straight line. It’s like I’m hovering within some kind of electrical spherical cage, and the energy about me now seems to close in, and it’s permeating about my entire system, and, yes! It feels like my entire subtle body system is changing, and my hands are being magnetized. It feels like this is merely the first step, and the angels say, “Yes, for such energy shall come down upon thee in the full might of the Lord, or nearest so much as you can handle.”
I’m totally confused (“and that’s okay,” I remark). So I’m looking about me for any sort of clue right now, but it’s just this energetic, energetic, energetic, energetic…and I’m trying my best to maintain this lovingkindness all about me, and this causes the cage of rings about the pole to open before me, and I am allowed to rest in a bed. Yet this bed seems to have a life of its own! It seems to be taking me to and fro, and it seems like there’s no end to where I’m going, and there is a lot of light about me. Eventually I hear the word “Stop.”
The angels say, “Examine your heart, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: continue to examine it, day in and day out. Allow the lovingkindness within you to pour out, a hundredfold, a thousandfold, ten-thousandfold from where you have it now, and, yea, even more, so it will be pleasing unto the Most High.”
Sunrise: Call/Key 17, (because it’s the 16th spoken call, and the first call is “not to be spoken” practitioners usually refer to this as Call 16). Call to King Bynepor (Chesed/Jupiter). Call to zodiacal King Zinggen & Governor Lexarph of the Aethyr of ZAX because the call in the previous sentence refers to 8763, and the closest number of servient angels is 8880 from this zodical-king/Governor/Aethyr row. Because I feel energy coming off of the fire tablet, I dispense with the other three and place both feet upon that tablet. I also vibrate the God Names “ORO,” “IBAH,” and “AOZPI.”
King Bynepor comes to me, looking very massive. I begin by apologizing for not maintaining my level of compassion over the last few days, and that I’ll try to keep it up over the next few days. He says that that is fine and tells me to go with him. We are whisked away and taken to the sun. He rhetorically asks why we are at the sun: surely not because he is the king of the sun, but because, he says, this is where we will discuss heat, heat and fire. “Fire in particular,” he says: “consider what happens with fire. Fire is this grand separating action. It is ultimately [a conversion of] energy. The thing about energy is that it can either cause a transformation or a transmutation, and this is why he (King Bynepor) is exalted so much above the other kings.
He notes that even within the planet Jupiter (and he takes me there briefly), how some degree of fusion occurs (note: here is the first link and here is the second link which suggest some small degree of deuterium fusion may be occurring, but of course brown dwarfs are where larger fusion takes place). He takes me back to the sun, however, for this is where the energy is highest, and he notes some of the effects: there is light, there is heat, there is a fundamental transformation that can be made to atoms.
Now King Bynepor takes me to a chemical reaction, and he says, “Note how these chemicals,” and here he takes me to an endothermic reaction, “note how the energy in here causes these chemicals to be rearranged, and to have completely different properties to the observer.” He also notes that for an exothermic reaction, the same thing happens: you still need to meet a threshold of energy, it’s just that more energy is given off. He says that for endothermic reactions, one generally tends to trade energy for information or greater complexity.
This is the boon of Jupiter, for information tends to be more valuable, because it is highly transformative. People who are going about their day, putting in information, trying to get information out: the reason why this can be matter of political ascendancy, wealth, or sudden boons, is that the energy put in by somebody can suddenly lead to a change in state or arrangement that is suddenly discovered to be highly valuable. “This is why fire and the energy derived therefrom,” he continues by way of analogy, “can be so valuable to people.”
King Bynepor pauses for questions. I ask, “So this is a lot: how about how this relates to light?” “Very good: light is a pure form of this energy. Note that, with light, there is much less mass involved, and to call light a single point,” he hesitates knowingly and gestures to physics and the double-slit experiment. He says, “It’s kind of problematic, but let’s talk about this experiment for a moment.” We look at a vision of the experiment and he says, “Note that what is happening here is that energy is behaving in an unexpected way. Energy is behaving in relation to all other energy.”
Here King Bynepor underscores his next comment: “Consider the points from your previous lesson” (from yesterday). He says, “What has happened here is that the arrangement of points such that,” and here he pauses to turn my attention quite closely to the physics, for my knowledge of this experiment is probably at least a decade old. “In a double-slit experiment, points are arranged about a certain geometry, and they’re done with the expectation of a certain geometry to unfold. Looping this in with this spherical consciousness, whereby all things[, including concepts,] are balanced, what is happening is that there is a certain hidden balance occurring. The unfolding of that is still not well understood by scientists. I’m not going to tell you what that is (that’s part of the scientific process!).” I groan slightly in disappointment.
However, King Bynepor continues, “Note the energy involved: first of all, it’s interesting because it’s the smallest amount of energy, and yet there’s all this focus on it, because there’s all of this information being derived [from this experiment on it].” He notes, “Sometimes even a the small amount of energy can make all the difference.” He gestures to Schrödinger’s cat.
King Bynepor changes gears and says, “Let’s take a look at this at the cosmic scale. Take a look at all of the energy going on in the universe. There is a massive amount of information that is being unfolded with this energy in this universe. It is too much for one human. As cosmically oriented as you are, there is just too much for any one person to grasp it all. But the spirit of it can be grasped,” he consoles me, “and this is the advantage of fire. Yes: all of the elements in their place can do this, but fire, in some ways, is closest to spirit.”
Yet King Bynepor cautions me: “Spirit is the source of all of the elements.” He pauses to note some theories of the elements having the elements proceed stepwise, one from a preceding element, with fire being the first to proceed from an element, then air from fire, etc. “Ultimately, they all proceed from spirit. It makes no difference.” He notes how he himself proceeded from the most high, and he says that there is so much information, and thus so much compassion to be had.
The problem is that we, as human beings, tend to be hyperfocused on each other or on yourselves, which is ultimately the same thing. The energy it takes, we’re discovering, to understand enough, to get enough information, is too much! (Note: presumably here, King Bynepor is talking about the information necessary to satisfy all of our curiosities.) “It’s too much energy! So you continue to consume more and more energy, and you’re discovering that this energy is coming at the expense of the information that you could’ve received from nature and from its unfolding.
“This is,” he says, “in one sense, sad, but it’s also an opportunity, because were you to be able to directly transmit energy from outer space, to the Earth, such that you did not need to extract all of [these fossil fuels], it would be much easier to continue to obtain the information needed to understand the value of each other as people and of animals [and plants and so on]. There’s so much that’s being lost, and it’s really a tragedy, and it’s like you say: it’s an unintelligent use of our time and resources.”
I ask briefly about compassion, and King Bynepor says, “I will stoke the fires and light of compassion within you,” and I feel it, and it’s such a boon right now, and I express my gratitude. “But it’s not easy to maintain that, so whenever gebofal is finished,” he says, “first of all: you will find yourself transformed. But second of all, returning to a meditation practice will be of great value to you, and metta compassion in particular.
“Were more people to meditate,” King Bynepor comments, “then suddenly the quality of information suddenly become much higher.” My mind, suddenly distractible, quickly bids him to please continue. He says, “All right: so we have energy and we have information, and we have the conversion between the two. And so, what is fire?” King Bynepor asks rhetorically. “Fire is this process: it can add heat, as needed. It can add light, as needed. Light, is how things may be understood.
“This is why the lion, the [zodiacal] sign of Leo, associated with the heart, is ruled by the sun. [The heart] needs this light to see about it, to understand the exterior,”–the surface of the sphere–“but also thereby the [center of spherical consciousness] may be known. That’s why the heart and the spine[, the latter being most difficult part of a person’s body to reach,] are both [associated with Leo, the domicile of] the sun.
“Now, that’s not to say,” King Bynepor cautions, such as “with the black sphere, that sometimes it takes more. It’s more difficult. “Hence why with Saturn,” (which is the dimmest of planets and associated with darkness and the need to draw distinction), he points out, “must also be known. That’s when we take what we know from the light, and apply it to something very dark, and therefore, ultimately, we figure out how to contextualize it.” He points to meditation again, which is “a time in which you are forced to confront that which does not readily light up with light [even the brightest of lights, the sun], and you allow it. You don’t allow the light of your chattering thoughts to begin to warp it, because they have energy themselves. The information content of one’s thoughts can be warping to the nature of reality,” including to the nature of reality of the shape of the black sphere, making it nearly impossible to know and accommodate. Our thoughts contain their own information, and when something is difficult to see, and dark, that warps so much of the nature of that which the heart does not like to confront, of suffering and the general shortcomings of dukkha (which is what the black sphere represents).
I express my gratitude, and I can feel so much energy coming up off of the fire tablet. King Bynepor advises that tomorrow will be air, and that it will be clear to me what the elemental pattern is after Saturday, and that I will find in roughly 5 or 6 days’ time the aforementioned reason why some days do not seem to have a servient angel host associate with them. I express my gratitude again to King Bynepor. I ask briefly why it’s so difficult to link up these elemental calls with the Aethyrs?
He says, “The square root of something does not always look like its square. What is happening now is that I can liken it to an inscribed square of a circle trying to make sense of the circle as a whole, or for example trying to understand the length of 19 with respect to 360 degrees: it doesn’t quite make sense, does it? It’s a difficult process, but if you contemplate this, you will pierce some of the veil.” (See Sidebar below.)
I ask King Bynepor if he has anything else. “No: work to continue your compassion. Make it a walking meditation, and consider as best you can how this relates to it, and more will be revealed to you.”
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Read call 17/16 three times, just to ensure that I vibrated it more or less fluidly at least one time.
King Bynepor bids me take his hand, which I do, and he notes the lovely names of God: “ORO, IBAH, AOZPI.” Here takes me along and he’s noting all of the energy of the universe, over and over and over again: combining, transferring: the fire is everywhere,” he says. “Fire in the sense of energy. So we have the opposites of this continuum,” he notes: “transfer of energy, which can bring about information to those interested in it,” and then the points, which interact with energy.
Now King Bynepor notes a couple of things: generally speaking, when energy is unleashed, or is made available, or when stored energy begins interacting with matter, that we see a separation between points. It’s why water and fire are complements: both of them can separate. Yet whereas water tends to dissolve and loosen the relationship between two points, fire tends to undo said relationship. Water tends to be more of a process; though when it rushes, it is different! Yet a person who has been drowned can, at the end of the day, usually be identified, but a person who has been burned thoroughly cannot.
“Okay!” I exclaim, kind of weirded out.
“Enough energy can do that,” he continues. That’s why water infused with fire and heat is so dangerous, because that combination of undoing–for example, waterlogging someone or, say, and earthen dam–is so much more dangerous when the water is heated up, [not only due to boiling water acting on even a hard surface, but also] because it just can allow for a lot more growth: toxic growth, mold growth, stuff like that, vs. when water is at least frozen, the odds of someone picking up a parasite are reduced because it’s harder for it to grow.”
I want to clarify , and King Bynepor says, “Yes, let’s get to it. Water can dissolve, can cause something”–(i.e., a point of matter)–“to be taken into it, and thereby become a part of that watery relationship. It can become a point within water, which is then going to flow and transport, and all of that, rather than being a point of whatever [other system] it had [been connected to] before. Whereas fire: the energy in and of itself will cause a rearrangement of some sort, whether that be a somewhat temporary pulling away, or a complete burning away: a complete chemical transformation.
“Now,” King Bynepor points out, “pay attention to this. As we move to the different astrological signs, let’s start with Aries. In one sense, it isn’t as happy as it is in water, but when Mars is in Aries, it heats up, and it cuts, and it separates, and it also generally does the sort of damage that you have when energy is involved with that. A very similar example as with Mars in Scorpio! except that’s much more intense. The heating energy in the sense of the latter is heated energy directed at a target, so it could be more of a kinetic energy that can ultimately unleash power and information.
“But, sticking with Aries: what do we think of with Aries?” King Bynepor rhetorically posits the question. “We think of conflict, we think of very strong fighters, for example. We think of getting to know the limits of distance between one person and another by direct contact, and that direct contact immediately changes the entire dynamic, because that point is suddenly forced to be in another place, no matter what. [This is] unlike water, which could be like that, but it’s not in that in that same vein.” He’s trying to steer me clear of this notion, likely to emphasize the system of points of a person rather than fewer or even a single point which is the target of Scorpionic energy.
I say, “King Bynepor, I thank you for this. I ask you for more information.” He replies, “We think of the god Ares. The force behind Aries is that He is kind of a berserker. He goes into war, He loves war, He lusts for war, and He just loves going in, getting in, and ‘Fight-fight-fight-fight-fight-fight!'” He likens this back to Austin Coppock’s calling [Mars in Aries] like a machine gun. “And that’s what it is. It’s just that constant kind of raging fight that causes separation between different points. Why does it cause separation?” he asks rhetorically. “Not because of dissolution, as with water, but because of impact, because of a transfer of energy.”
King Bynepor continues: “Consider also the advances in weaponry that humans have had.” We started with sticks and stones, (which break bones). Then we moved from that to spears: suddenly there’s more energy, and it’s a more efficient transfer of energy, that causes more splitting and of the separation and cutting that Mars is famous for. Then we begin creating shields, and to bows and arrows, so there’s an attempt to transform the energy transfer so that it doesn’t hurt the person being attacked.
“Then we add into that horses and cavalry: massive amounts of energy, which are terrifying, because they just continue to transfer that energy.” So you have not only the horse who is being ridden, and the horses just got bigger and bigger, the angels note. Not only that, they were capable of carrying larger and larger amounts of mass, and all of that mass wasn’t designed to just be a big massive creature that you moved around, like with a workhorse. Instead cavalry was intended to be something that transferred a massive amount of energy, often simultaneously, into an energy line.
Then this is increased with creatures like war elephants, but also, if you think about it, we move to the use of gunpowder, which increase the distances between the origin of the attack and the target, and the creation of castles used to disperse energy directed at them. There was a lot of advancement with respect to energy as a result of martial desires! Catapults, crossbows, and of course the principles of torture operated the same way, a targeted transfer of energy upon someone in order to glean information.
With modern warfare, we get artillery, and with the including the introduction of airplanes gravity helps to increase the energy of the explosives while being above the directed attacks: generally, “bigger things that go boom-boom” and transfer more energy. Then there are tanks and bunkers designed to blunt energy transfer from the target, until finally we get to the big one: “We got the bombs!”, the nukes.
We also get technology which allows for more and more targeted attacks, so the interplay between energy and information continues, and also using our energy-using information to try to degrade that of the enemy. (Note: How constructive!) It’s all part of the piece, King Bynepor concludes. So (and here I chuckle), that is Aries! The constant upgrading of energy attacks and, towards the end, you get information being included in that, all as a constant push to separate energetically. (Note: in the words of Philip II of Macedon: “divide et impera,” (“Divide and rule,” or as it’s usually now know, “Divide and conquer).
“Let’s go to Leo,” King Bynepor says: “It’s much simpler. Leo, as mentioned in a previous vision, desires the sun. The sun, as mentioned in a previous vision, is the most massive source of energy in our solar system, and of course, in the mid-summertime months of Leo, the sun is hottest and strong (in the northern hemisphere), and crops are growing.
“Generally speaking, this is a time of royalty.” At this, King Bynepor is quick to explain: “The energy of the sun comes down and provides bounty to the land, hence we get to [better conditions of] this kingdom [during times of growth], but as far as the king himself,” (note that King Bynepor is using gendered language but this was merely faster for me to process–gender-neutral language such as “the monarch” is, of course, preferred), “going from TEX (the kingdom) up to LIL (the king), the king himself is supposed to inhabit this form of energy. This solar energy represents divinity, it represents light: light that can be seen. It’s a more rarefied kind of energy transfer: light that allows for sight. Hence these two words rhyme in German and in English.
“So, when you have this light,” King Bynepor expands, “suddenly, many more things can be discovered, and we have much more. We start with symbolism; the symbolism of the king. The symbolism of the spotlight and the pageantry, and everything designed to keep the eye on the king, and to the beneficence of the king be reflected in the beneficence of the land, and vice versa. This is where this energy is going to, and when it comes to sight, there’s definitely a lot more about the signifier and the signified when it comes to this Leonine energy. So the peasants know to worship and to do what they’re supposed to do because of God’s emissary on Earth. Of course we’ve seen between and exclusive divinity for emperors before.
“But the main points are that you can see; that plants and animals that take in the elements are happier (plants because light helps them grow, and animals because they can see food that they wish to eat), and generally speaking, people prefer summertime weather in mild climates, all things being equal.
Now we turn to Sagittarius, for King Bynepor notes that our time has run long. “So, with Sagittarius, we have this concept of myth and of story, and we suddenly have this energy being transformed. We started with separating symbolism via light, and the transfer of the essence of one thing to another via sight that we got in Leo. [In Sagittarius, we] move to a closer energy transfer, and that is the energy transfer of meaning, from one thing to the next, and a story from one thing to the next. In order to that, we consider oftentimes [the archetype of] the monk” (here I want to credit Gordon White or perhaps Austin Coppock for having said this metaphor earlier, which King Bynepor draws from), “who gets people going, gets their symbolic energy going, tells a story that people begin to follow, and so on. The symbol of Sagittarius incorporates multiple things together in the form of a centaur: a combination of person with a horse (this point has definitely been made by Austin).
“When you have this, the multiple things that seem somewhat contradictory are nonetheless, in this dream logic or mythological logic, they’re okay combined together. So we can shed light on things that seem contradictory and thereby allow a greater understanding of what there is to be known. So that is the psychic transfer of energy, that is different from what you get from Pisces. Pisces,” King Bynepor is telling me specifically now, “is this Jupiterian expanding and trying to get in everywhere, and trying to see things everywhere, and really understanding all sides. Being the transported (the fish) and the also the transport: the water that flows in a certain direction or and that can flow more or less everywhere, or wherever it needs to go. With Sagittarius, this is a transfer of meaning via direct symbolism that goes in the mind, and this is a more meaningful psychic transfer of energy, and trying to get an optimistic ending to all of this separation that’s occurred with the previous two signs.
King Bynepor asks me if I have any questions. I remark that that was a lot, and he agrees. He thanks me for my time, and I insist on instead thanking him for his time, and I bow and am very grateful. He says that the next vision will just be the person and the person giving fire, and how that relates to everyday activities and what that’s like for the people involved. I thank King Bynepor again and the vision ends.
Sidebar: One of the things that occurred to me as I was typing up the notes for today was what occurred to me yesterday: the idea of 19 as the square root of 360. The 30/19 split of the 49 calls seemed obvious: 30 calls to the Aethyrs representing 30 degrees of signs of a zodiac (and, more mathematically, 360 divided by 3 and 4, the two closest integer addends of 7 (the square root of 49), equals 30). 19 represented a square root of its own: the rounded integer square root of 360 degrees of a circle, or more perfectly of 360 degrees of the circumference, plus one point at the center.
This then led me to wonder about applying this number 19 (associated by Crowley with “Manifestation,” but I could not find evidence for this in a thorough treatment by, say, Bill Heidrick) to geometry. I wondered what 19 would be like as, say, a diameter of a circle, and sure enough, the circumference of such a circle rounds to 60, the number of the degrees of an equilateral triangle. Here we see a mathematical “Mystery of the Trinity” spoken by the angel Galvah.
But what of the square? A square has as many degrees as a circle, because it is composed of two triangles, and a square & circle of equal area look pretty cool when they share a common center (see links later in this paragraph). Unfortunately, not much fun comes up this way, but it did make me wonder about the phenomenon of squaring a circle. For a circle of radius 1, the side length of the square needed of equal area to such a circle is √π. The demonstration of this is relatively simple and is saved for the reader as an exercise. The meaning of I’m unsure of, but note that in order to square a circle, the square root of the defining characteristic of a circle, the number π, is needed, just as the angels are now pointing me towards the number 19 as the square root of the degrees (or degrees plus one for the center) of a circle
All of this made me realize something about these latter 19 calls. During the Aethyrs, the angels were taking me through, slowly but surely, information about the idea of points and concepts of spherical (3D circular) consciousness, as well as cubical (3D square) consciousness. Once the general points about these have been made, now I’m being walked through points and the four elements, and the quaternary nature of this itself is done in a squaring manner, for a total of 16 calls. What three things could there be to get to 19? Perhaps the center, the perimeter/circumference, and then finally the entirety? It’s not clear. However, it certainly parallels some the alchemical symbol for the Philosopher’s Stone.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I’m trying to have a lot of compassion, circulating it as best I can. Once again there’s King Bynepor, but as with yesterday, we have him joined by Kings Bnaspol and Babalel. “Yes, of course, tomorrow will be the day of air, ruled by Venus.” The angels also note that the four signs that they’re ruling–Virgo-Libra, Scorpio, and Sagittarius–are in order.
King Bynepor notes that because I have so much more to write up, that he will keep this brief, out of respect for that, but he says, that the fire that I already have within me will be magnified and magnetized to this realm of Adam Qadmon. “Again,” he comments, “this is the teaching part, but the realization part will be the last three days. It will come together in a way that is unique to you. It will not be whatever projected notion of perfection that you have, but it will be a magnification of you, and it is important to try your best to maintain the same practices that brought you here. ‘The same lady you brought to the dance is the one you should stick with.'” He adds that this is important.
He shows me this light, and I’m feeling much energy coming up off of leaf 17 (of Amzes Naghezes Hardeh), and he’s saying to just take note of this, so I do, trying to remain humble and respectful. “So you have points that are transformed as a result of the introduction of energy. In its basest form, it will cause them to split apart, but in other forms, it will simply raise the energy level of the system. This is how life ultimately unfolded, because that energy level was raised. It needs to all be done in a careful, controlled manner, because otherwise it’s just energy going everywhere, and there’s information to be had with that, but it needs to be done intelligently.”
I’m being taken again, and I’m seeing someone with fire about the head, and King Bynepor is saying that this is how I will perceive people and animals. This is the sense of the aura that I will get. The angels are stating outright that this is the boon of these angels, led here by the Heptarchical kings, and of course the Governors and Zodiacal kings also. The angels are suggesting that I add up the discrepancy between the angels of each day’s call and the closest number of servient angels in the Aethyrs to that (of the zodiacal king of that Aethyr, which which I call upon). They suggest that I’ll find something interesting there: Saturday or Sunday may be a good time for that.
I ask if there’s anything else, and they say, “No, this is it,” so I express my gratitude to King Zinggen, to Governor Lexarph, and to Kings Bynepor, Bnaspol, and Babalel, and of course to God, known today as ORO, IBAH, and AOZPI.
Sunrise: Call/Key 18 (most practitioners refer to this as Call 17, since it is the 17th spoken call). Call to King Bnaspol. Call to Zodiacal King Zingen & Governor Zaxanin of the Aethyr of TOR, since the former, in that Aethyr, is associated with 7333 servient angels, which is close to the “7336” referenced in this call.
Note: For this scrying, I placed the seal of King Bnaspol on the water/air tablets. Although I certainly felt energy from his seal, as far as the tablets go, I definitely felt the energy come up from the heel of my left foot, the Earth tablet. So, it seems as though either the strength of the king overrides the tablet (King Bnaspol/Mercury being strong in earth, i.e., Virgo, an earth sign, is where Mercury is both in domicile and exaltation), or, more likely, the order is shifted from the Tabula Recensa. Here is my proposal for the order of energy based on gebofal (recalling that I started on a Sunday and have followed the days of the week throughout, such that today’s Leaf, 18, falls on a Wednesday), based on my perceived activation of the energy of the tablets (recall that yesterday, I perceived that not only King Babalel, but also the water tablet were activated), as follows:
Original Table order of the Watchtower tablets: Fire/East-Earth/South-Air/West-Water/North
Tabula Recensa order: Fire/East-Air/South-Water/West-Earth/North
“Last shall be first” Tabula Recensa order (sunset is first, midday is last): Water/West-Earth/North-Fire/East-Air/South
This will need to confirmed based on the following four tablets, but is my working hypothesis for now.
To the vision: I see a sphere; it is Earth, but I’m only seeing land; it is elemental earth. King Bnaspol approaches and has me just put my feet on dry land. He tells me that this will be a slower vision because it is earth. I’m seeing gnomes, and I note the energy as described above. I begin talking during the vision about the scheme of the planets, and King Bnaspol says wryly and playfully, “We’ll see.”
He asks me to consider earth for a moment. Earth is solid, and is an anchor. It can be considered to be the points of geometry themselves. Yet at the same time, as Earth alone, they’re in an arrangement that can slowly move over time. King Bnaspol really wants me to get my hands into this astral dirt that I’m in, so I do. “Feel it,” he bids me, “think about what worms do. They slowly push their way around and through, and get whatever they can. Think about the sign of Capricorn, the goat.” That goat just goes through the land, he says. The sea-goat, he says, is just the goat at its “goatiest” (here I pause to reflect on a sea-goat ruler of time, Pricus), trying to have a somewhat better means of traveling through, but once it finds itself on land, it’s a little bit tougher (in the myth of Pricus, his children come to land and over time lose their tails and must make do with the slower land life of having to get by on four legs).
“If you think of the bull, the goat, or even the maiden in the field,” he says, “there’s this recognition that earth should be changed, and then there’s this change, and then it’s like, ‘OK: let’s stop. Let’s keep things how they are here.'” It’s dried out, if need be: there’s this acknowledgment of this need for moisture, but there’s this big tension between the two. On the one hand, in the case of a ceramic pot, it needs to be able to contain water, so it needs to be dried (one of the qualities of earth is dryness) so much so that it can be a seal against the dissolution of water.
King Bnaspol shows me the [elemental] earth sphere again. He says to consider the next layer down, the molten core. All of these points together are so close, so packed together (as an aside, he notes the density of the sun, which, though largely made of hydrogen, is nonetheless a thousandfold more dense than the Earth’s atmosphere; and upon typing this up I looked up the density of the earth’s core, which is more than twice as dense as the Earth as a whole). The heat is a result of the compactness creates tension among the points themselves; the structure is unsustainable and (here I get a note from King Bnaspol as I type this up that the energy is partly from multiple point unable to “become a single point” or for one point to “impose itself on another” without tension and energy being generated in the system as they approach such a state).
Now King Bnaspol turns to the topic of density. “That’s the big thing about [elemental] earth, there’s much more compactness.” He takes me to a neutron star. He says, “Let’s review what happens to a neutron star: the density is high, things collapse in, there’s no more fuel (any remaining fuel that could have been is gassed out by the supernova stage). Everything else is so heavy and so dense, that everything else is essentially compact neutrons, which are arranged in the tightest possible formation. There’s plenty of energy to be had for a neutron star–and here he has me concentrate deeply (he know it’s tough: “It’s tough to think about dirt,” he kids)–“If you consider how compact that is: analogies have been made to a diamond.” He’s trying now to show me the spirit of a neutron star. He’s saying the density is as tightly packed as points can be, and it’s kind of a drag on account of that, but nonetheless, it does have this beautiful formation to it. It represents something of an absolute limit–perhaps not perfectly so: there are exceptions to every rule, he adds–but the points are very tightly packed. He has me concentrate on this geometry, and the tightness of the points together.
Now King Bnaspol is saying to consider “the bummer around that,” someone who is too earthy, too stuck. “Such a person will not be able to change, will not be able to alter their formation. If a person is like this, obviously the biological systems will do what they’re going to do” (i.e., age and die), “but they themselves will be stuck. Their patterns will be stuck about them. They will see no need to change. They will see the structure that they have as being the ideal structure. Note how your heart leaped,” he continues to me, “when you thought about a sphere of points all dense together: it has this beautiful geometry to it, “but it’s not a true geometry. It’s not a true spherical consciousness in the sense of a center and a surface of a sphere, or a center by which the circumference is known, and vice versa, because everything is filled in.” (Note: here I consider points in the sense of not being conscious of themselves to be part of a sphere, and with no sense of relationship to other points). Ultimately, it’s just a very round hunk of gunk: very dense gunk!
He says that someone like this can, on the one hand, be very good at imposing a structure. “This is your forte,” he tells me: “imposing structure, imposing order if you sense it, or have an indescribable desire to do so, but on the other hand, there’s not as much call for development. In your case, you needed fire”–(my chart is heavy in fire)–to ultimately bring that about. Yet you nonetheless have still surrounded yourself with a highly structured environment in which to do so,” he points out, clearly referring to the entirety of both Enochian and the full-time job and householder responsibilities that I hold in order to make it possible.
“That’s okay!” he adds. “If you think about children: children need structure. Children need routine, because they need some of that in order to grow, but on the other hand,” (note, reader, the Mercurial expressions King Bnaspol uses: I’m here for it!), “that can also be a double-edged sword, where they think that all they need to be is structure, and that was the problem that you had as you transitioned into adulthood, is learning, ‘OK, where does this structure end, and where do who I am, as an identity, begin?’
“And that’s the problem: the real problem is this lack of freedom that this order brings to the mind, to the routines, to the path of the individual.” So he points out particularly that a couple of months from now, “Some stuff is going to happen to you that will offer you such freedom as you have not known. It will, on the one hand, be somewhat scary, but on the other hand: ‘Hey! A chance to do something different! A breath of fresh air!’ That’s another element that’s not included in this,” he says. “But I rule it,” he grins slyly and playfully.
He says he’s going to, once again, leave the lessons about the individual earth signs, but they will be relatively straightforward for me. He continues: “We’ve talked about someone who has this”–the earth element–“so let’s get down to, much as we”–the angels–“had with water, let’s get down to the purpose of earth. The purpose is structure. The purpose is that arrangement which does not change for a given period of time, so that other things about it can change according to an elegant unfolding. So it is this structure about which other things may unfold or enfold. It is a state of continuing to have been unfolded or enfolded.
“It is the present state which does not change in the future state for a given length of time.” He repeats: “It is a present state which does not change in the future state over a given length of time, which is not to say that it will never change, but it is that state-to-state consistency of the period of time which is of interest to the individual. Hence,” he continues, “you think about things associated with earth signs: stability, structure, order.”
I ask if he or any of the other angels upon whom I have called have anything else to say. “No,” he says. He says other things which he says are not relevant to the write-up, and then the vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure. This time, having confirmed to my satisfaction the active Watchtower tablet of this call, I also vibrate seven times the northern godnames of “OIP,” “TEAA,” and “PDOCE” (Update: although I vibrated these godnames on this day, I will be using the Tabula Recensa names going forward, and Earth is associated with “MOR,” “DIAL,” “HCTGA”). As with yesterday, I dispense with the remaining tablets and rest both of my feet on the seal of King Bnaspol, and on the Earth tablet underneath it.
King Bnaspol appears and is leading me. Upon my mentioning it, the angels confirm, “Yes, we are the first [part of the Enochian system], so we are here to lead.
“Let’s resume where we left off, which is to say, the actual signs [of the zodiac].” I see an earthen sphere [elemental earth]. He says very simply, “Virgo: let’s talk about it in terms of giving Virgo, and receiving Virgo.” He alludes to my natal chart, and continues, “Giving Virgo is giving the [geometric] points [of consciousness], the emphasis of the points, in terms of: the earth is given, so as to give the desired arrangement. So, this could mean changing things around; it’s as if the points are fine, but there needs to be just a tweak so that they are properly laid out. The energy of Virgo is to be clear, to clearly see the points, to identify with the points such that the desired arrangement of the points is achieved.
“Next, let us go to Capricorn, since that is what you are least familiar with. Capricorn–” and here he bids me be quiet so that I can clearly hear the transmission. I do a 7-7-14 breath. He shows me a point, and he shows me another point. “The issue with Capricorn is that they can see the arrangement of points over time. So this is partly why they are so desirous of ancient things of value, things which have kept their value over time, not so much that there’s this by-gone feeling: the value of the thing over time is that it’s this way that the past can speak to the present, or possibly even the future.
Here, I’m substituting “terrestrial” for where King Bnaspol references “Earthly” in order to reduce confusion between Planet Earth and elemental earth. “Consider the [terrestrial] sphere,” (here King Bnaspol is is referencing the vision from Day 30), “as it meets the Heavenly sphere. What Capricorn wishes to do is take from the elemental energy of Adam Qadmon, and it wishes to combine that with the present [terrestrial] sphere as a way to meet up with that heavenly sphere. If the heavenly sphere is the future state” (as I’ve previously suggested a way to consider heaven: a goal or future state), “and the [terrestrial] sphere is the present state, Capricorn is seeking to take those points of value from this present terrestrial state, and to take those points, those earthy points–remember that the points are identified with earth and with matter–what Capricorn is seeking to do is to take those points and arrange them in such a manner such as they will be perpetuated into the future.
“In order to do that, it needs to understand cycles of history. It needs to understand time. So it is creating something,” (Capricorn is a cardinal sign), “but it has this vast time scale at hand. It’s almost as if it understands this radius or circumference of both earth and heaven, in that sense.
“And finally, Taurus, which is notorious for liking things as they are, but also enthusiastic about a given change when the arrangement obviously is not there. Why? Because the desire here is for the arrangement of points that–”
Here, he cautions me: “Your impulse is to say, ‘Reduce suffering’: that is not it. The arrangement of points…” And here I pause to listen carefully. “Your heart is speaking very loudly, and I’m trying to have you listen to what I have to say.”
I pause for another 7-7-14 breath. This seems to clear the transmission enough for him to continue. He shows me a bunch of seeds, and a farmer working in a field. What he’s saying is that the goal of Taurus is to arrange the seeds, and to arrange the circumstances about them, to try to ensure that a certain seed grows. Extrapolating, Taurus seeks to arrange the circumstances that the [desired] unfolding [or enfolding] takes place. So, in that sense, it is the fixed earth, the earthiest of earths. But he cautions me: “Ensuring the overall circumstances such that the overall unfolding takes place means that a desired change to how things unfold can be problematic for Taurus. Conversely, when a desired change is seen as needed by Taurus, but it cannot or will not happen, that is equally problematic.”
I ask King Bnaspol if he has anything else. He says, “No,” this was it. I double-check, since I have garbled the transmission twice this scrying, but he confirms that the answer is “No.” I thank him, and the vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure as noon.
King Bnaspol appears, and is appeared by the Zodiacal King Zinggen, and Governor Zaxanin is here to bless King Zinggen’s presence. They’re saying that the reason King Zinggen (associated with Aquarius zodiacally) is that they want to draw my attention to the servient angels, and they’re saying that there’s going to be a pattern that I will recognize in perhaps a week’s time as I go through these Watchtower calls. Specifically, this pattern will relate to the days in which, rather than a large number in the thousands appearing as part of the call (fairly close to at least one of the number of servient angels that a zodiacal king has within a given Aethyr), instead a smaller number (less than 100) is part of the call, and thus no good near Zodiacal-King-by-Aethyr number is available. (For now, my plan is to simply not call on a zodiacal king for such days). Yet tonight the angels foretell that these days will become important to me.
King Zinggen is here as some moral support, I’m told (with more detail expressed at the end of the call).
Once again I’m shown this [elemental] earthly sphere. King Bnaspol takes the lead and says, “Consider the exchange now,” but I’m distracted by King Zinggen, who mentions, “I will be of interest to you on Saturday: you will see why. But I still want to be here, I still want to observe this.”
King Bnaspol shows me the sphere again. Once again I’m shown that it can be cut in half, or cut deeply, such that you could reach a point deep in this earth that all of this matter is concentrated. He says to consider how the person who who goes from feeling “understuck” to appropriately stuck or anchored. For example, consider someone with their head always in the clouds, or always emotional, generally anyone who needs that cool and dry feeling that comes from having something else to turn to: something for their emotions and ideas and passions to wrap around! With elemental earth, it feels real.
With these points of geometry, they’re saying, it’s important that they take on this sense of reality. This is what King Bnaspol is saying is the great benefit of bringing elemental earth in. It’s a link; it’s not so much that any other action in this world is unreal; it’s that it can feel unreal. There’s this sense of authenticity: a point is a point is a point! “It is this point, here; or consider when someone ‘makes a point’ in conversation. Then that point is made, and from that we hang all of this other stuff. We understand that point in relation to other points. It’s not a murk, or a fog, where nothing is clear, and things spookily appear out of it. No: if there’s a system to how the points are arranged, you can understand what’s going on. And having that density of that point on which other things can be hung and understood in relationship to each other is very important.
“So, somebody who has that density of their points could potentially give that to somebody else who doesn’t. But somebody who gives more of that to someone who already has that, it can A) start being confusing (because more points are introduced which must be accounted for), and B) somebody can start feeling bogged down in terms of responsibilities piling up, or just, ‘Can I just not have so much reality right now?'” Now Zinggen chimes in: “This is the sense of Sorrow [associated with Saturn], especially of that [elemental] earthy sorrow: dealing with that dryness, that ‘These points are here. This is where they are. This is all there is to it. Nothing else to be done about it. That’s it.'”
So I’m now shown the terrestrial sphere, not to be confused with the elemental earth sphere. “For the person giving [elemental earth],” King Bnaspol is saying, “they just can offer that to somebody who may not have that, and it’s like they understand this sense of truth about the points of geometry” (i.e., of geometric consciousness). He continues: “They’re lending something about themselves or their own consciousness, or own awareness, or own perspective, what-have-you, to the person who lacks it. So, getting back to this terrestrial sphere: what happens when people do this? Well, they have a potential to be close to this point–as we saw with Capricorn especially, but also Taurus and Virgo to a lesser degree–they have the potential to excite people about the reality of the situation. ‘Real change!’ But they also have a potential to arrange things in a way that isn’t quite the way that it’s being sold. It can be a long process, because sometimes the details aren’t apparent about exactly how things need to be arranged. Sometimes the other things need to come up, and so on,” King Bnaspol finishes.
“But that’s okay,” the angels tell me. King Bnaspol addresses me, “The point is that, when you get to this point, it may behoove you to consider: does the reality of the situation need to be made apparent?” Here he considers truths about oneself that loved ones may not understand, for example religious differences. “Does that reality need to become apparent? And how would it be, and what would the nature of that be? Perhaps bringing up a little bit less of that matter [is wise], which is why you hold back so much to those loved ones, and you have to. You have to,” he repeats, “because you know that the introduction of the reality of who you are would ultimately lead to conflagration. [It’s] not anybody’s fault, it’s just sort of the way that everything is arranged right now: and it can be disarranged! You know the exact points to think about which would lead the disarrangement which would allow you to bring the change in that you want.” I laugh because he reads me like a book.
King Bnaspol now receives some assistance from King Babalel, and King Zinggen is here to help mediate the two. (Note: Mercury is in a sign-based square with Saturn, which is both in the sign of Aquarius and is in its domicile there; Mars (for Babalel) is in Cancer, which is sextile to Mercury by sign but not closely, but Cancer is ruled by the moon, which is in Sagittarius, whose ruler, Jupiter, is in Aquarius with Saturn). The discussion is about the dynamic between water and earth, and how I have done my best to bring forward my water side when it comes to matters related to these loved ones, to not come at is as a targeted hose, but instead to be a nurturing force via the Cancerian energy that I can muster and to transport what I can via the force of my Piscean energy. “At any rate,” he finishes, “consider this! Consider what you’re bringing!” He adds, finally, that yes, just as with yesterday’s insight that I will be more aware of the amount of water available to someone, I’ll also get that respect to elemental earth. Tomorrow I’ll get fire, and Friday I’ll get air. The angels are still kind of keeping Saturday a coy secret from me.
Regardless, I express my gratitude to all of the angels. I ask one more thing about how all of this relates to compassion. The angels say that this is the how-to of compassion. This is understanding the root of the heart. He says that I will get a sense of when it may be good to pick a fight when it comes to fire, or be good to be soluble in order to bring transportation of nutrients to someone, or to produce a hose to clean something off. I express my gratitude to them, and thus ends the vision.
Sunrise: Call/Key (spoken) 19 (typically associated with the Earth Watchtower Tablet; note that most practitioners refer to this as Call 18): because I rarely make this call, I made it three times. Call to King Babalel (once again using the call in Scott Stenwick’s Mastering the Mystical Heptarchy). I prepared for angels of secret discovery and angels of living creatures, and, given the content of the scryings, I was, in a sense, given this. Because the former call references the number 6332, I recalled that other large numbers were associated with the zodiacal kings with respect to the Aethyrs. So, I vibrated the name of Zodiacal King Ziracah (associated with Taurus), who, in the Aethyr of UTI, is associated with 6333 servient angels (it’s only one away, so I presumed some correspondence, and even were I wrong, it doesn’t hurt to have another angel helping). I also vibrated (for good measure) the name of Governor Obvaors, who appears in the same row as the Ziracah/UTI row in Aaron Leitch’s The Essential Enochian Grimoire. I was a little annoyed at myself for being underprepared, but to be fair to me, I feel like I’m in a little bit of uncharted territory.
As I mentioned on Day 29, I was unsure about the association between the days and the leaves; today I placed my hand on Leaf 19b, but it was Leaf 18 in which Kelley was attacked by gnomes for accidentally invoking them. So Leaf 18 should be the one associated with with Earth, rather than today’s. Yet this call is typically associated with Earth. To split the difference, I placed my right foot on the seal of King Babalel (recall that this king is of a Martial/Mars nature, and thus strong in waters (Scorpio)). I placed the four Tabula Recensa watchtower tablets with their usual configuration on the floor in front of me, with Fire tablet roughly to the East and facing that way, Air to the South and facing that direction, similarly Water to the West, and Earth to the North. I placed my feet on all four of them, so I could clearly tell which element was associated with which by energetic feel (a certain tingling is obvious to me when I work with the tablets like this).
The angels indicated that calling on the correct angels associated with this tablet wasn’t really the concern, but nonetheless I prepared a list of the earth-related angel names: those of Secret Discovery, and those of Living Creatures. Unfortunately, as I prepared, I noticed a discrepancy between the Enochian Watchtower angels listed in Stenwick’s Mastering the Great Table and Leitch’s Essential Enochian Grimoire. This was a little unsettling and, well, I didn’t have time to settle it this morning, nor will I this afternoon or evening! So I decided to forego calling on the Watchtower angels. At any rate, on to the vision:
I feel energy at the Water tablet, from the heel of my right foot. I’m told to be silent for a moment. I feel myself drawn into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and it is definitely watery.
Note: the original Great Table had water as the last element in order (Fire-Earth-Air-Water); nonetheless, I’m not sure as to whether this feeling reflects the influence of King Babalel, or rather a reversal of the original Great Table order (Water-Air-Earth-Fire). Tomorrow, Wednesday, has King Bnaspol, who is specifically indicated to be strong in Earth (Virgo) from his call. So, if I notice that the Earth tablet is activated, I could use this as evidence that the Heptarchical kings override the tablet order, but if the Air tablet is activated I could assume that the order of these leaves reflects the original Great Table order (though Mercury/King Bnaspol should be relatively strong in air, the main power indicated is over earth due to both exaltation and domicile, and most importantly the call to King Bnaspol). Things would be even stranger if Fire were activated, and I would probably throw up my hands if water were activated tomorrow as well!
Returning to the vision: this wateriness isn’t what I was expecting, and that’s okay! King Babalel is trying to guide me right now, and he says to make the call to governor Ziracah (note that this King is associated with Taurus, an Earth sign, which opposes the water sign of Scorpio, where Mars is strongest, and from which King Babalel presumably has his power over waters), which I do. I feel energy come up off the leaf and the water tablet. There’s a bit of shifting around of the energy now. The angels say that it’s not like one element is existing completely separately from another. Nonetheless, water is dominant; part of this, I’m told by King Babalel, is his own influence, but, yes, this leaf–and this call (presumably when used for gebofal)–is of a watery nature.
I ask, in all humility, the angels that if I indeed be in the realm of Adam Qadmon, to please show me what is to be shown. I’m told to make the call to the God of the West. Thus, the God of the West/Water is MPH ARSL GAIOL (OIP TEAA PDOKE), which is what I vibrated. [Despite my the godname from the original tablet,] I feel this water come up from the tablet and up my right leg, whooshing up and all about me from the water tablet. The angels note that yesterday, the full moon was in Scorpio (and, I would just add, aided by mutual reception from Mars in Cancer).
It’s a subtle point, but the angels are saying, “Water flows, and water dissolves. Water can move about in a rush, and if it hits you thus is most solid-like, like earth. For that reason it can behave like a solid when it is moving quickly or, of course, when it is frozen. Or, it can, just by a soluble being in contact with it, it can dissolve that soluble, and flow and transport the solution. So, its nature,” the angels tell me, “is to break down, and to transport, whether that be temperature, whether that be through dissolution, through flowing, or through the force of its pushing, like unto a solid. It breaks down, and it transports.”
So when I ask how this relates to the geometry in the Aethyrs, the angels are saying, “What this can do is break down the current association between points, and it can, as a result, move two points together or further apart. It can also act as an intermediary between the two.” I express my gratitude to the angels and to God for this, and I ask if there be anything else. They say, “No. Continue to treat this a bit as an experiment,” because this is kind of new to me, so I take it to heart, in heart. They’re adding, “More will be revealed to you: this was going to be a bit clunky, anyway, but now you know the best way to approach this.” I thank them and they give me as homework to flesh out the remaining days, so I thank them and I will.
Noon: Call 19 (18 as labeled by most practitioners). Call to King Babalel. As usual (I haven’t included it because I mentioned it earlier), I vibrate the title of Leaf 19a. Taking the lessons from this morning’s Aethyr, I vibrate the name of God MPH ARSL GAIOL. I vibrate the names of King Ziracah and Governor Obvaors. Feet are placed as mentioned earlier.
The angels have me relax. Once again, I feel energy arise from the Water Quadrant/Tablet; I even moved the seal of King Babalel to under my left foot, and though I felt energy come up from that seal when making the call to him, I instead found the energy coming up from my right heel again when making this call.
Now they move on to reviewing the morning’s lesson & vision with me: water transports, water dissolves, thus it can dissolve the relationship between two times, and can also transport between them. Now they ask me to review this with respect to geometry; once again, this is a reviewing of the lessons of the higher Aethyrs, as I was promised, yet the angels note that this relates to the lower Aethyrs as well: all of reality. The effect of water is its rearranging of conditions. These elements can rearrange the conditions in which Heaven and Earth meet (see yesterday’s scrying) so that the flow that one is in is being met properly and appropriately. The angels assure me that a lot of these lessons will be learned by my unconscious mind more than anything else.
They move on to asking me to consider two points, or even a system of points of geometric consciousness of an individual. It’s natural that, in interacting with someone else, there would be a certain amount of elemental water involved in the realm of consciousness. If one increases the amount of water in the individual, then there’s a bit of dissolution of the structures that one has in place, which could cause two points to separate, or perhaps come closer together, but regardless it changes the arrangement of no less than two points to each other. Also, the angels have me consider the transportation of certain new solutes into the system by dint of the introduction of water.
Now the angels turn to the knock-on effects. Introducing more water forces that system to react by bringing in more earth in order to remain in its current arrangement, or perhaps to decide how it wishes to flow or rearrange itself given this introduction of water. Also, the transportation of a flow between two different and currently set points–assuming no dissolution is involved–the individual would need to decide whether they want a flow between these points. For example, would the individual want their set point of “compassion” to flow to and/or from an individual who has done heinous crimes? Do they want that compassion to be linked up to someone whom they, to that point, have viewed as “evil”? So the individual may need to rearrange the way that certain ideas flow, so this is a bit of a secondary dissolution (i.e., a rearrangement of a relationship between established points of consciousness), rather than a primary one.
Now the angels take me back and have me consider the person who is giving or introducing the water. Someone with a more Scorpionic take may want to introduce water in order to investigate or understand something better; this is not unheard of for people with planets in Scorpio, with an intensity, which sort of shoots water out like a pipe or a hose, such as to hose down a dirty car or to aim directly at a fire. A Scorpionic sense of this, the angels tell me, is much more–and this, again, is opposed to the sign of Taurus, ruled by King Ziracah, yet in line with King Babalel (whose link to Scorpio I’ve already mentioned), so there’s this interesting dynamic between these two angels. At any rate, the angels are saying that someone who is introducing water could be coming at it with this Scorpionic intensity and focused kind of water, that fixed water which is aimed precisely at a fixed point.
Now the angels turn to the introduction of water from someone with planets in Cancer. Here, the transporting quality of water is paramount, as with nutrients. Or, in the cardinal sense of the sign, water may be used to change the dynamic about someone. For example, in a protective manner, someone with, say, a Mars in Cancer (as we have now), the water is used to dissolve points about someone in a dangerous situation so that they can leave the old dynamic and move into a newer, safer one. How water would act from Cancer is thus very dependent on the needs of the situation (recall that Cancer is ruled by the moon, the fastest-moving of the planets and associated largely with the final formation of circumstances just before they emerge into this world, i.e., Yesod), and those things or circumstances that it senses or intuits should be begun.
Finally, we have mutable water: Pisces. So here we have the sign of fish, whose entire reality is water. Here, the person themselves is being transported along with the water that they reside in. Whereas a crab may or may not reside in water–a fish must live in water. Fish must therefore be highly adaptable to water in all of its measureless (“infinite”) variety: “TON MAOFFAS DAMPLOZ,” the angels use the Enochian phrase. The consciousness is thus in this water, and this sign chooses to live with somewhat fewer “fixed points.” Granted, a fish still has somewhat fixed points relative to its own body, but it sees the world with much more fluid points about it. Nonetheless, if water is going certain direction, the fish must account for the flow of the water, the changes of points caused by the water, what’s transported in the water: that whole concept is very much to be considered (clearly, I have no planets in Pisces or Cancer, so the angels take their time explaining these!).
“This is a lot,” the angels acknowledge. I ask whether they have anything in their generosity, if they be so inclined, to offer, and they say, “No,” but bid me to write this up. They acknowledge that these are complicated lessons, but important to consider, because now we’re going to get at some of the “roots” of the 360 degree circle/ecliptic (note the play on root and “square root”–19 being the rounded square root of 360), and all of that which is within it. The 30 degrees of the Aethyrs is the repeated cycle within any given sign, but these are the root principles of the entire Zodiac: “What is at the root of the Zodiac,” they clarify.
Thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Similar procedure: Vibrating the titles of Leaf 19a&b. Call to King Babalel. Vibrated the God names “MPH, ARSL, GAIOL.” (Note: I have decided to revert to the Tabula Recensa, so such vibrations will be associated with their usual locations. In the case of Water/West, the association is OIP, TEAA, PDOKE). Because I’m confident in this being a thoroughly watery vision, I place both feet upon the water Watchtower tablet, which has the seal of King Babalel above it.
I see this wave part in front of me, and it’s like a vision of Moses parting the Red Sea, and the angels are just pointing out the staff–associated with fire symbolically–which parts water, and how the action of water is undone. I’m approached by King Babalel, speaks to me for the rest of the vision. He walks with me and has me take note of all of the different geometric points in the two sides of the walls of water held in stasis. He notes the fish therein, and he notes the crabs (some in the water, some on the land on which we walk), and the scorpions. He notes the pinpoint accuracy of the stinger of a scorpion, and the crab’s circular crabwalk (like unto the moon!), and he notes how the fish seem to be everywhere in the water and seem to defy a lot of logic in their way.
“But each of them has their strong points,” he remarks. Now I’m feeling more energy come up off of the leaf. “Just to get very specific about how this relates to the realm of Adam Qadmon,” King Babalel transitions, and how I need to consider this as I do this: he notes that today was a somewhat difficult day for me to maintain the compassionate heart, but I did sort of rally at the end of the day. “This is a good thing,” he continues, “and now have compassion for all of this. Have compassion for the fact that water dissolves! and have compassion for the different ways in which it acts! and begins things anew! and can be concentrated, and focused!” Basically, he finishes the point: “have compassion for these various areas of your own chart, relatively empty though they may be!”
I agree, and as I do so, I see a watery sphere about me (here’s an alternative reference), and King Babalel says to take a good look around, and to really note this. When I’m encountering others in the future, he says, “You will get a sense of what’s going on with them, and what seems to be lacking based on a sense of their aura. ‘This is not watery enough,’ or, ‘This is too watery.’ This can be combined with the general sense of chakras,” which, he adds, do not completely overlay with planetary influences, yet it’s its own septenary nature which tends to combine at times. Mars, Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter (whose rulership in the zodiac opposes each other) are more or less like unto the elements. Yet the three remaining have been of interest to me in their higher forms: the sun overlays with the heart, the moon with the third eye (as broad intuition), and Saturn with the crown chakra (as Binah). The king advises me to be aware that I will have a greater sense of other people. This will be a transformation of me and my perception, because I’ve been given such a vast and wonderful teaching (and, as I write this up, I wonder whether a deeper, more fundamental teaching has been given to my energetic system), which I heartily agree with.
King Babalel kindly says that the angels are grateful for the work that I’m doing to teach this stuff and giving as much as I can in return, and says many other kind things, and gives me a subtle bow. I make sure to give a deep bow in return and give my thanks to him and all of the angels. He notes the holiness of this day, the 31st day of the ritual (31 is associated in Gematria with the name El or ‘God’), and that I will only see him two more times in this ritual.
I ask if there’s anything I need to concern myself with as far as calling the kerubs or so-called “lesser” angels of the Watchtowers, and King Babalel tells me that they are not appearing the same way here in this ritual. This is but the first lesson about water, he says, and I will rev up into the next lesson–except it won’t be him next time. I extrapolate that perhaps the next time will be Saturday, but I’m fine discovering this as the days unfold.
I express my gratitude again, and ask whether he has other things to show to me. “No,” he says, but notes that he is very pleased and to continue especially with the compassion. This will make everything make much more sense, and that ultimately we’re getting into some root forces of the heart here.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of LIL. Call to King Blumaza. Note: If you’ve never done Enochian, this Aethyr is quite powerful. After scrying this Aethyr the first time in 2019, I took steps to try to initiate myself into Chokmah and, for this Aethyr, Kether. After meeting with some success thereby, I was able to deepen the vision of this.
I see this pure, white sphere. It’s like it’s trying to shine out all of these different colors, and I feel my crown chakra lifting and raising up. There’s a lot of lightning coming off of this sphere now, and now it is so bright because it is reflecting all of the light which ever has come to reflect off of it. It is blindingly light now, and I am being wrapped up in a beam from it. It is holding me and taking me into a cocoon and it is taking me inside of itself.
This is the Diving Heart of Hearts. I approach the Center, and I’m slowly decelerated as I approach It. When I look about me, I see all of these thousands of millions of possibilities of beings, and I’m having compassion towards all of them, all of these lives lived, moments of Joy, Sorrow, Horror, and Peace. I’m seeing them through millions and billions of species’ eyes. I’m just trying to maintain this level of compassion for all of them.
I feel all of these moments come through me now, rotating from the outside to the Center, where I am, as through a torus, and I continue to have this rotation, and as I speed it up…it’s like they’re both at this Center and about the Surface of the Sphere simultaneously. No longer is this a rotation, this is a humming, a sympathetic vibration.
Now I feel the energy coming up off the leaf, the table, and the seal of King Blumaza under my foot. I hold this compassion, and await any message from the Divine. There’s such a beautiful feeling of peace right now; it’s like I’m lying in a bed of Compassion and the feeling that comes over me from lying there is Peace.
“Oh, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: this which you have sought for so long, it be only 19 days hence. I have put it in your Heart to read this first leaf, for it was to be read. Know this, that such Love is neither earned nor unearned, it is neither conditional nor unconditional, for this is PRONOA: it merely is. It is always available to you and to your fellow human beings, and to the animals and to the plants and to all of this life upon this planet Terra, or in English known as Earth: CAOSG.
“It is always available unto you, if you look for it, if you seek it, if you steep yourself in it, and all of its infinite varieties. The Love of solving a complex problem, the Love of merely holding one who is mourning, the Love of joining in to the rejoicing of grand moments of Beauty. It is always available unto you.
“And now, feel you this change about your subtle body as you prepare to enter into this realm of Adam Qadmon. Feel it in its fullness, for I am the One True God, and show Myself in Many Different Aspects, many different divinities, for all gods are One God, and what there is to be known and what is to be grokked, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: it is far beyond your understanding, and I will merely do what can be done to bring it out in you, to unfold it in you, to make it more visible to you, to give you Perspective, yea: Coelispex, so that you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, may help unfold it in others, and be able to unfold it in all of its infinite variety: TON DAMPLOZ.
“Such Love have I to you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, and to All. For All may come unto me. All may know this Love. Fear not the words which arise out of your mouth, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for the Spirit of the Lord is with you and speaketh through you. Yea, even when thou knowest it not.”
My voice is caught in my throat: “O God, is there anything else?”
“No, Son of God, Son of Man, Son of Earth: you have two more times to call upon this today. You will know it in its fullness this evening: yea, when you repeat the word ‘LIL’ seven times. Such sevenfold depth you will know, and then, 19 days hence, you will enter into this realm of Adam Qadmon, and you will realize this rainbow body. Much love unto thee. Commence now.”
Union, and then: “Such Beauty there is in this, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth. I have nothing else for you today, until you call me again at noon, and again at sunset. Much love to you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: remember always: God hath such love, hath such PRONOA, for thee.”
The vision ends.
Commentary: I see the phrase “One True God” as the Divine identifying the truth of unity, and “show Myself in Many Different Aspects, many different divinities, for all gods are One God,” as the Divine unifying across all panthea (e.g., possibly panentheism) “and what there is to be known and what is to be grokked, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: it is far beyond your understanding” as an obvious reference to my limits. So, please, be forgiving if this doesn’t match up with your worldview. Peace and love, peace and love!
Noon: Similar procedure.
The angels have me make some physical adjustments. Again I see a white sphere, this time with a vertical ring about it; I note that it reminds me of the rings of Uranus, and doing so causes it to appear a bit more bluish, but it returns to white shortly. The ring comes undone at the point farthest from me and once again approaches and enfolds me like a cocoon, and again takes me to the center.
Again, I see the interior of the sphere, and I slowly come to a pause. I see again all of the experiences of all of the beings, and God is once again showing me all of the possibilities which could not be (i.e., foreclosed based on actualizing certain previous possibilities). God shrinks down the pictures of actual experiences of beings and now I see this vast space between all of them, and it’s this massive light, and I see how very close I am to this portal to the realm of Adam Qadmon. I see the vast spaces of unbounded possibility, and both Binah and Chokmah, in this vast emptiness of potentiality which cannot be, are ineffective in that Binah cannot receive, and Chokmah cannot project.
I’m told to try my best to have as much compassion as I can for all of it, equally, and I do, and I do, and I do: it just magnifies, and once again I try to speed the flow to the point where there’s this hum reached, and there is. I feel my entire body just lifted or raised up, and it’s this beautiful hum to my subtle body, and I feel energy coming up once again now off of the book (Amzes Naghezes Hardeh, Leaf 20a), more off of the table, and finally off the seal again.
God is saying, “Behold, Blumaza [king of the lunar sephira of Yesod], and with Mars in Cancer [in its fall], and the moon in its fall [in Scorpio]: it is opposing where it is normally in its exaltation, and thus they are receiving each other. So, though they are themselves in a weakened condition, they themselves are nonetheless raising each other up. So this lunar and sublunarsphere can be in a better condition to receive the light, to receive the light of this lunation, and thereby work it into the grand unfolding of All That Is. Thus now you are able to receive the light, such as you are able to receive it.
“Yea, have compassion for those that are in your path! Have compassion for those who are in pain, and have compassion for those who are confused, and have compassion for all that Could Have Been, for the reality in which you are taught by the one whom you must now teach! Have compassion across space and time, and across all of the possibilities that were foreclosed as a result. Just continue to have this Grand Compassion, o Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for this is your destiny! This is the unleashing of the Venusian nature within you, much as your sun was released and rectified yesterday in its fullness, so you must know now that today marks the beginning of the unleashing of this PRONOA, of this compassion, for yea, although your capacity to love has been very confused, it has been very difficult: it has [nonetheless] received help along the way, and now receives the Highest of all Help, the Help of the Almighty God Himself, Herself: the Almighty Divine as you have come to know It.”
I just try really hard to focus on this, and to do as I have been bidden, and it’s like I’m now encased in this spherical rainbow jewel, and it’s beautiful, this vibration and hum. The angels are saying, “Yea, it is difficult to unfold completely, this completely spherical consciousness in which all the light is there [as a bright white light], and yet, you have only known What You Have Been Alive to Know, and What You Have Been Around to Experience. Yet the Divine Has Known all of these things In Equal Measure, and so continue to hold this in equal measure, and at times your rainbow will seem like unto a beautiful white sphere. At other times, it will seem like unto the process of putting the black sphere in its proper measure. But at all times, hold, as bet you can, when meeting another, this transparent sphere, knowing them as they are to be known, and allowing them to be as they are, and allowing, to some degree, the suffering which they are choosing for themselves. For in so doing, they can come to know the fullness of God on their own terms, and thus the Law of the Parts will be upheld as well as the Law of the Whole.”
I feel God now within me, and He is reaching into my torso, into my anahata chakra, yes, even the heart of my heart, and He gives it the subtlest of touches and caresses, and it opens so much up in me, and I feel so much, and I’m so grateful unto the Most High for this. He is saying, “Your heart is being prepared. Look you to the elements and approach them with this same transparent heart.”
I say, “O God, please give me the strength and the fortitude and the sensitivity and all that which is needed to do so,” and He says, “This I will give you, and more, and I will give you, indeed, confidence to do so.”
And I ask, “O God, my God, is there anything else?” And he says, “No, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth: go now in peace. Know now that this journey is already a fait accompli.”
Thus ends the vision.
Sunset: Call to LIL. Call to King Blumaza. Due to delays and feeling upset, I neglected the call to the governors, and to the Zodiacal Kings.
The angels bid me to lean back and relax. They acknowledge the emotional content of a day like this. They praise my work at compassion, and say that it is multidimensional work. I grieve into my heart of hearts, and recall how the Divine blessed me by touching this heart. I remain so grateful. I allow myself to feel the emotional pain, and it’s okay.
I see a hand come towards me, and it takes me by the hand and leads me to the center of the white sphere. It’s the hand of Christ, and we sit on rugs and drink tea at the center of this sphere. He shows me His hands and feet, He shows me the scarring about His scalp, and the wound in His side. He notes that my hands are together (in the prayer position, holding Leaf 20 between them), and my feet apart (so as to be touching the sides of the table). In a sense, He notes, that a cylinder could go through my hands at this point. He notes that, in general, my placement of my hands with each other, and my feet apart, is an inversion of the placement of Christ’s own placement. Peter was crucified this way.
He says that I have doubted, and have returned. I have denied, and I have returned, because I have come to accept the pain. He reverts my astral body back into the usual crucifixion pose as a symbol of accepting me. He says that at the center of this cross is the heart: the heart of the heart of the heart of the heart of the heart. He then bids me to repeat the call, this time repeating LIL seven times as had previously been advised of me, “And we will resume.”
I repeat the call to the Aethyr and this time remember to call the Zodical Kings and Governors of the Aethyrs, except I substitute “LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL DE LIL” (“LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL of LIL”) for just “LIL.” Note: this would seem to presuppose that each Aethyr can be thought of as able to be subdivided into Aethyrs within Aethyrs. I have used this technique before and found that you can get into quite rarefied Aire (heh) by doing so.
I’m directly within the sphere again, this time seeing all of these screens of possibilities again, but this time all of these possibilities are whirling about me, as is the space in between, a massive rotation. I’m having compassion even for the forces which are causing this rotation, and this seems to click something into place! And behold, I see again, and I see again, and I see again: I see this massive rotation, and we are approaching this realm of Adam Qadmon, and I’m told that tonight, I will be right at the event horizon, and I will cross right into it tomorrow.
There’s this massive energy, this beautiful light, and it seems to completely encompass this sphere, which now seems more like an egg of a shuttle-pod, surrounded by intense energy and light, and all of the possibilities on the screen, actualized and foreclosed, are increased in intensity, and I continue to hold this compassion for all of them, as I can. I try to turn my compassion up to Infinite: and this is the key word, “infinite”: MAOFFAS MONONS (measureless heart): MAOFFAS MONONS! MAOFFAS MONONS! MAOFFAS MONONS! Measureless heart! Measureless heart! Measureless heart! And this heart is just encompassing all of this, and I see now about me all of this grand beauty, all of this grand heart which is just trying to pour out to all possibility, and to all of this Infinitude.
It is unlike anything that I would have possibly conceived, and I’m trying to stay at both the Center and About Everything, and it is almost too much for my heart to take! And I know that God knows my limits, so I continue (and I nearly weep now) and continue with this Measureless Heart for all of these Possibilities, and just this Potential Itself, that I’m trying to have this Measureless Heart for, this Infinite Heart, as best I can!!
And I’m trying, trying to reflect the Whole [of existence] within me, as best I can, because I know that this is the best as I can be purified as to try to maintain this emotional state, this Vastness of Compassion! “Let it be Infinite! Please, o God, let it be Infinite!” And He says, “Aye, indeed, but you yourself are human and have limits, but indeed, it is the spark of Me within you that chooses to cry out in such ways, and so I will give you as measureless a heart as your system is capable of.” My emotions still run quite high and I continue with this vast feeling of compassion towards all I see, and it is this tragedy that I, as a human being, and yea, even the Divine, have our Limits.
But even working within these Limits, there is so much to be done. There is so much good to be had, and so much Compassion to be had, and so much Peace to be modeled and distributed, offered in pure generosity and compassion for All. I’m feeling this beautiful energy now, coming up off of the leaf, up through my hands and arms and into my torso: and it is God in His Mercy Who is changing me and my entire subtle body now, all the way down through my feet. I especially feel energy coming up from the seal of King Blumaza, and I’m feeling it all about me now, all about this table. And I see the same elongated octahedron arising out of the Sigillum Dei Aemeth. I see the top half encompassed by a sphere, and now the bottom half also, with a filled circle at the middle, as follows:
The spheres represent heaven (future state, and the upper part of the lotus-rose bloom) and terra/earth (present state and the lower thorny stem of the lotus-rose). It is all new to me. All of it in its beauty must be accepted for what it is. These two spheres thus look like unto the symbol for infinity, and a twisted ouroboros, but about many dimensions. I know them to be of many dimensions, but they are represented in 3D here.
The middle ring on the plane perpendicular to the meeting point of these spheres is the Ain Sof Aur of the realm of Adam Qadmon, shooting into the link between heaven and earth. It is Wonderful. I’m told that it is this filled circle in this plane, where these two spheres meet, is what I will circumambulate over the next 19 days.
I ask whether God, in His Mercy, has more to show me, and he says “No.” I thank Him, and the vision ends.
Note: Only now, after all of this time, do I realize the final piece I did not realize before. Gebofal is 49 days long, and there are 49 leaves of Loagaeth. It is not only 7*7, the squaring of the septenary nature of Enochian as a whole, but it is also the sum of the 30 (degrees per astrological sign) and 19. Nineteen relates to manifestation, but also 12 (signs of the zodiac) + 7 (planets), and is also the rounded square root of 360, which is why it is the degree of exaltation of the sun. Once again, the exaltation scheme of Enochian is borne out.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ARN (twice). Call to King Bobogel (twice). Each call made twice due to suboptimal concentration and attention the first go-round.
I see a sphere approach and it is soooo close to the Aethyr of LIL. There’s this rainbow light within it, hitting the surface of the sphere. I see a horizontal ring, like the equator, about it, and it holds my hands as a dance partner, each of us rotating about the other.
It’s like God is saying, “Here you see the sphere of LIL, but you see it as one at the equator: you see the maximally defining ring of the Aethyr of LIL” (i.e., of all the rings of the sphere of LIL, this is the most like unto it, or from which more of that sphere can be correctly extrapolated than any other ring). “You see that here now,” the voice finishes.
The angels note how in previous visions, I saw this as a highly stellated geometric figure. Now, instead, they are saying, because my heart is properly aligned, and functioning properly according to the desires of God, then instead I’m seeing the sphere in its fullness, but I’m seeing it as one who is orbiting about this equator. I thank the angels for this, and they’re saying that, every so often today, to feel that gravity of the realm of Adam Qadmon. The angels show that to me now, and it very much feels like a pull.
I interject briefly about the discrepancy between the order of the Watchtower tablets as they relate to Amzes Naghezes Hardeh; recall that when Edward Kelley accidentally said some of the words of Leaf 18 aloud, he was attacked by gnome-spirits of that leaf! This would suggest that the leaf itself is of the nature of Earth. Yet earth is the last of the elements in the Enochian system (clockwise from east, the order is Fire/East (upper-left in the Great Table), Air/South (upper-right), Water/West (lower-right), Earth/North (lower-left)). This would mean that the reverse order of the leaves should be:
Leaf 21 (today’s leaf): Aethyr of ARN
Leaf 20 (tomorrow’s leaf): Aethyr of LIL (highest and final Aethyr)
Leaf 19 (Tuesday’s leaf): Earth
Leaf 18: Water
Leaf 17: Air
Leaf 16: Fire
And the order of these leaves would repeat, with leaves 15, 11, & 7 being related to Earth; Leaves 14, 10, & 6 being related to Water; Leaves 13, 9, & 5 being related to Air; and Leaves 12, 8, & 4 being related to Fire. Leaf 3 would be related to invocation, and Leaf 2 to evocation; for these, I intend to use the usual Tablet of Union, an abbreviated version thereof (with only the letters EHNB on it), and finally a fused version with just the Enochian letter L written in white with a black background, and red and green for the two left tails). Finally, Leaf 1, which has been associated with silence (the true first silent call), I will instead read aloud as the (currently I associate this with “the center” but I’m sure my awareness will be thoroughly calibrated whenever I read Leaf 1 aloud!).
But the problem, as you can see, is that Leaf 18, associated as it was with gnomes and thus Earth, is associated with Water in this scheme.
The angels advise me that placing my feet on all four of the Watchtower tablets will be sufficient. They say that Leaf 18 was indeed associated with gnomes/Earth for Kelley and when I myself transcribed this leaf. “Don’t be surprised,” they wink, “if the order shifts around on you.” They tell me to look up the original Great Table, so I do. Stefan Neil Klemenc has one of the best websites summarizing the Enochian system at kondor.de (I’ve found it highly valuable): linked is his summary of the Great Table and the revision known as the Tabula Recensa.
The change here is key: the tablet order was, at first, Fire-Earth–Air–Water. This would mean that, at least as far as creating Amzes Naghezes Hardeh (Liber Loagaeth), the order seemed to be a reversal of the order of the original table: Water (Leaf 16), Air (Leaf 17), Earth (Leaf 18: welcome to gnomes!), and Fire (Leaf 19). Fire, the element associated with the highest (because it is least dense) thus would abut the Aethyr of LIL, the highest Aethyr. All of this is speculation, and cannot be confirmed without additional analysis. However, at least I have a hypothesis which I can test experientially by placing my feet on all four of the Watchtower tablets and noting which which tablet appears to be activated on each of the four days.
Returning to the vision: I’m shown a tree again. “Lo, the entirety of the tree now: all of these sephiroth within you are as one tree, and all the seeds of the tree are within you. And now it is time to become the fullness of this tree, the extent of this tree and the center of the tree, to become all of these at once, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, and to know them in their fullness. For this is given unto you that others may know His blessings: and indeed, such compassion thou hast sought to have: feel it now, in its Fullness, that others may take of you these seeds, and recognize them to be the seeds that they [those who take the seeds] always were. Indeed, when they take such a seed, it is merely that they are taking the reflection that they have of themselves already, of who they truly are, but could not see it, except in a reflection as from the mirror image of a sphere.”
I’m feeling a lot of energy coming up off of the seal of King Bobogel, and a lot more energy is coming off now, and this is not unlike the energy of LIL, and I’m sort of being lifted up, and I can feel an entire change to my energy, and as I focus on the compassion and jewel, it becomes multiplied several times over. And the Divine is saying unto me: “More shall be shown to you: indeed, this be a stepwise process, but more and more shall be shown unto you, so Infinite are His mercies.”
I note a change to my sinuses. I see a vast Light from a vast Source, but it is partly shadowed. It is as if an angelic figure, or perhaps the Divine Himself, is blocking out the Fullness of it, lest it blind me. I’m told, “Yea, you are being attuned. The eye which you have to see such is growing in health and robustness, and so we shall prepare this vessel, and this subtle body, to be able to handle both.”
I await to see if God hath more for me. “Much love hath God unto you, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! Lo, look upon this seal.” I see two concentric rings such as one would see about a globe (the upper half visible), which has two half-rings above which quarter the half-globe. And I see several trees come up out of it: one of these is me, and there’s this very strong connection, like a strong welding of a strong metallic link to another. I see no less than three other places on the globe, representing other people, whom I am being indelibly linked with karmically, and the Lord says, “This will be a sign unto you, that your heart may know no doubt. Rest easy, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth, for PRONOA is arising in you!”
Thus ends the vision.
Noon: Similar procedure.
The angels show me the sphere/planet with the equator as in the previous vision. This time, the angels are saying, this is the ring of the one who orbits the sphere of LIL, which is who I am right now.
The scene changes and there’s unfolding from this sphere: the “crust” of the planet splits along half of the “equator,” which opens like an eye, but it opens fully and there is only the white sphere which I see now. The angels set the crust aside. The sphere looks like an eye and for a moment seems to miss the iris and pupil, but now I see a pupil–without an iris–with a slight indentation about it. It’s like the light, non-shadow side of the Death Star. It’s looking at me and it bids me to come closer and closer, so I do.
It’s like it wants me to gaze into it, and I do. It’s a purely white sphere with something of a hole in the middle. As I stare into it, it returns its gaze directly into my third eye, with its beam from its aperture. I continue to look directly at it, and continue to generate compassion, which changes all of my subtle body. I continue to generate compassion, and this increases the intensity as I’m able to increase the intensity of my compassion. We continue to gaze into each other.
There’s a bit of an angelomorphic process. My subtle body seems to grow wings which look like folding fans which open up. I continue to stare, and these wings seems to multiply in number out from the tips of the previous wing: more fan-wings appear in a doubling manner, in different colors, so that eventually they wrap around the entire eye-planet in a beautiful variegation. This seems to be a fusion of the two of us now: the space between my manifold-wing-sphere and the white sphere that I’m about decreases. It’s like shrink-wrap as I close upon this beautiful sphere.
We now nudge slightly closer to this portal to the realm of Adam Qadmon in our orbit. As we do so, it’s like each of the various colors of my wings seem to light up, and they take on a shimmer, but it’s like we’re also rotating, so the entire surface of this planetary sphere seems to light up in this gorgeous shimmering of colors. It’s like a rainbow disco-ball. It’s like we’re peeling off and molting, and it’s like these little topmost layers of these wings come away and become a bridge of myself into this realm. It’s all a beautiful morphing of myself, and this beautiful vision into this other aspect of God, that He has made available unto me in His mercies and transforming action.
“Lo, We are One! All is One!” I am told. There’s one last burst of light the God wants to give unto me to completely re-energize and transform me. “Rest now, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth,” He says. I hesitate, but ask whether He, in His Mercy, has anything else, and I see something like the following:
The sense I get is that I’m in this long cylinder or tunnel. Lest I become blown out, the Divine decides to close the vision.
Sunset: Similar procedure. Note: My speech was very rapid in this vision, and I’m sure that not everything got copied down.
Already, just reading off the angelic names, I could already feel the change in my subtle body. I’m trying to maintain the magnetism which comes from the compassionate rainbow spherical jewel, which keeps me on this path to the portal to realm of Adam Qadmon.
The angels confirm that, yes, if I go by the numbers in the actual calls (on the 19 days following LIL), I will have clues as to which zodiacal king to call upon that day.
Now the angels twist me into a tube, then twist me into something like fusilli, and then they twist that around again: twisting upon twisting upon twisting! At the same time, they say that this twisting is like about a Möbius strip, and they constantly select another place along it for the twisting to occur. It’s happening along all of these different dimensions, they say, and don’t tell me how many–but it is many. This is the final preparation for the spherical consciousness about many dimensions. “It is manifold.” It’s looking like an ouroboros, a highly twisting snake eating its tail.
I return to concentrating on this rainbow body jewel, and I see it open up and flower, and another shoot up from the bloom to itself grow and open and flower, but I increase the pace so that it creates something of a vibration to this self-recursion that returns me to the image of the rainbow body jewel.
I am in awe of everything that is happening. I see this light coming at me and it is somewhat obscured, mainly because I’m not quite at LIL, but I recall the illusion of motion that occurs in filmmaking in which the blank screen of every other frame is ignored by the mind in favor of the sequence of images which appear seamless to the individual. Or, alternatively, a prior vision in which someone waves their hand in front of your eyes and you can still see the general motion of what’s happening in front of you. I’m told that if I maintain concentration on this compassionate heart, symbolized in this rainbow body jewel, everything will become clearer and clearer as in these analogies. There’s this play in this obscured light now: where there was shadow, there is now light, and vice versa, and the light and shadow continue to alternate their places.
I try to speed up their alternation to get a better sense of what I’m seeing, and it’s this beautiful plasma globe. The angels say that because I’ve already wrapped myself about the sphere with my manifold wings-upon-wings, the light or energy is already happening to my entire subtle body. Now it’s a matter of trying to even everything out and prepare my for my next step.
My mind glimpses ahead to the bridge into the realm of Adam Qadmon from yesterday’s vision. I continue to see myself preparing to be poured into this the day after tomorrow. “Just the tiniest of glimpses,” the angels caution: they can only show me so much. I’m feeling this massive light pouring through me now, in all its varieties, and I’m trying to accept and show compassion, and accept and show compassion, for this entire process. It’s like I’m melting, I’m this metal which is melting in the furnace. I’m to be re-forged and be perfected in the light of His Holiness and His Mercies. And I’m so grateful for all of this.
The angels say, “There is much more to be said unto you, and much more for you to say. You will go through life like this: it is as if you are dead but so alive at the same time! It is like you are shown to be like this beacon, like this unending energy of fusion. It’s like you will be a sun unto the world, but at the same time, but ‘If the salt loses its saltiness,’ what good is it?” The angels say a similar thing can happen: if the sun loses the planets which orbit it, what good is it? And if it brings not Life unto the Earth, and if it brings not joy upon the people who live thereon, then what good is it?
The angels tell me to go forward! And I see this massive geometry of a palace, and so much is happening right now: it’s very difficult to keep up, and I continue to try to do so, and the angels say, “Lo! This and more tomorrow, this and more on the following nineteen days, and lo! You shall be transformed, Son of Man, Son of God, Son of Earth! Look forward to this with Joy, with Humility, and with Exultation!” And I say, “I do, and I do, and I do!” and thus ends the vision.
Sunrise: Call to Aethyr of ZOM. I call King Bnapsen twice.
The angels tell me to focus on the jewel, and to see tall of the colors within it (i.e., those of the rainbow). These colors, they’re saying, represent the astrological forces, but their degree and measure represent, to some degree, the elemental forces. The angels show me all of these colors, and they’re all light up about this gem, and now, rather than seeming like a cut gem, it’s looking more and more like a spherical.
So this sphere of the heart and this sphere of consciousness are becoming one. The angels ask me to note the very center: “This Center is where you will abide, when the rainbow body is realized. You will abide right in that center.” “Praise unto God,” I reply, and ask, “How may I be unshakeable there?”
“You will ‘go for a visit,'” they’re saying, “a ‘small trip,’ and then you will return. It is like any other form of consciousness, but just make every effort to return to the center of this gem, of this spherical, robust rainbow gem, and All, All, All will be open unto you, and you will maintain along this path, and you will also always be a mere heartbeat,” they add, “from the realm of Adam Qadmon.
“Just try your very best to visualize this [aethyr] as a sphere: that’s good.” That’s as far as they can take me: they say that they cannot take me beyond the with LIL. They can’t initiate me yet, although it’s only a few days away before I begin the initiation into the actual realm of Adam Qadmon. They angels say to stay here, and to note within it all of the beauty of all of the rainbow as I see it cast about the center of the sphere, and that as I circulate the surface back into the center, I need to rotate in red, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet, orange: I need to rotate all of these colors in and to give each of them their due.
They note how this relates to the light-bridge: I will always be equipoised between heaven and earth, they say, and I must always honor both at all times, and I must see both as one thing, one grand unfolding, one grand process. I am grateful to the angels for this. I hesitate to ask the angels if they have anything else: “No,” they cut me off, “there’s nothing more. Stay equipoised here in this heart of the rainbow jewel, and stay there, and enjoy it! Enjoy the fullness of you! Enjoy your humanity, but this time, your humanity in proper proportion: not the humanity in the sense of ‘Oh, all the ways you can screw up,’ but instead the humanity of the fullness of Feeling, of the fullness of Being, of the fullness of Thought, of the fullness of Wonder! And indeed, that Wonder is the key, because human beings can indeed wonder quite well, and thereby know their God quite well.”
I thank the angels again, and ask the angels again whether they, in their generosity and mercy, have anything else. They say “No. Rest in peace. Do everything as unto the servant of the Lord.”
The vision ends.
Noon: Similar procedure. I call on King Bnapsen twice. I try to pour out compassion as much as I can, across spacetime. I try to generate the circulation so fast that this lotus-rose becomes a jewel.
The angels are showing me a rotating circle within another circle, like a gyroscope, and a third one, but now there’s a fourth one being represented by a growing and shrinking circle (like a 3D sphere’s size representing a hypersphere) about the fourth dimension, until there are about seven or eight dimensions represented in all. It’s difficult to describe, but I think they’re trying to describe the appearance of this sphere about this hypersphere within a third dimension, or a 5D sphere within the third dimension, and so on.
The angels use this shifting in and out about 3D space to show these higher dimensions. They show me a little bit of a tube, which is tangent to a firework wheel and is the exit for the sparks, causing it to spin. This, they say, is like what is happening right now with my energy. More and more energy is being kicked up as I my orbit shifts closer to this realm of Adam Qadmon. There’s a little bit of an unease and a wobble, because I’m rotating as I’m revolving about this portal. The angels say to try very hard to retain this spherical consciousness, this sphericity about the heart, and to be very accepting.
The angels note some minor troubles and say that it is not unexpected: “Just do your best.” Now I see this sign of Aries appear, and its horns are sort of curling into a four-chambered heart, or a four-leaf clover. The angels say that this is sort of attitude I can best bring right now: just keep trying, keep at it.
This is like unto the chambers of the heart, I’m told, and a bit of a preview of four elements. “By this, luck can be had, and fortune can rise and fall.”
I try hard to retain this sphericity and to allow the circulation of compassion to continue. I’m seeing something of an elephant’s trunk. “If you can cause that to straighten out,” I’m told, “then it would be like a straight shot into the portal of the realm of Adam Qadmon. Just try to stay balanced, and try to see to it that this happens.”
I ask about the multicolored jewel. The angels are saying to just try my best and to allow it to unfold, in all of my fullness. I see a bit of an alien, and the angels say, “Look, if you seen an alien, just treat it as Divine, and suddenly its divinity will shine forth into your eyes and into your heart.
The angels just note the feeling that is pulling at my heart. “It’s normal, it’s natural, just allow it.” I ask whether they have anything else. They show me a little bit of roots going into the ground, like a seedling. The angels say they’re just going to have that symbol be with me, and to just hold it there. “That’s it.”
I express my thanks to the angels and God; the vision ends.
Sunset: Similar procedure.
I just try very hard to stay at the center of the rainbow jewel and to stay magnetized to the path. The angels encourage this, “Yes, this is good.” They say to not worry about what may have happened today, this was all part of being on the right track and learning to identify when one is not on the right track. The angels say, just in advance, to review: yes, I’m going to go in reverse order: Earth, then Water, then Air, the Fire, when I reach Leaves 19 through 2. (Note: Reviewing the leaves, it appears that Leaf 18 was the one associated with gnomes in both Edward Kelley’s experience and my vision. So, just to be safe, I will place my feet on all four of the watchtower tablets).
Now I feel a pulsating. I try to circulate this pulsating, and it becomes more like a constant vibration, but it’s from this circle, or perhaps from the batter head of a drum, which is vibrating. The angels instruct me to put my astral hand on it (both of my physical hands holding opposite sides of Leaf 22 of Liber Loagaeth), and I do so, and it’s like I’m feeling the energy from it come off of the leaf. Now the angels are going to shake a bunch of stuff off of me, but also shake some things out of me, or cause them to emerge as a result. So they do so, and it’s like plaster is coming off of me, and my astral form is being reduced down to just this rainbow jewel.
That’s what I’m coming down to, and this entire being is being simplified. The plaster isn’t leaving, the angels note: it will have its own orbit about me, but it won’t encase me as it did before. I notice a change to my crown chakra, with a little bit of a lifting, and a little bit of setting it as a magnetizing force, so that it is always, always, always pointing toward the realm of Adam Qadmon.
The angels exhort me to feel this fully, so I do so, feeling all of these emotions that I’m capable of, anger, joy, sadness, envy, but I see these as all rooted in my Understanding of Pain and realize that the substantial basis for all of these emotions is Compassion, and the angels agree: “Yes, Compassion is how it is Measured, and Understanding how it is Measured: that is the task of the mind, ultimately.”
“It’s not so much that any given emotion is wrong,” I note, “it’s that it needs to be measured properly against Compassion.” “That’s exactly right,” they concur.
My whole energy body is feeling very good, and I’m getting a nice high off of this. The angels say not to dwell on any person or interaction, but to try to capture this spirit as best I can throughout my life. I say I will try my best. The angels assuage me: “Just remember, the only thing that will happen is that you will take short trips [from this center].”
I’m getting the sense that the angels wish to close this, and I ask if there’s anything else. “No,” they say: this is as close as they can take me this time, but tomorrow they will start to unfold even more of a hint of LIL (within ARN). Then I will move on to the elemental calls. I thank the angels and the Most High; they bow, and thus ends the vision.